No Apologies
Chloe and Jon left the correctional center and made their way to the car. Chloe let out a long sigh as she closed the door.
"Are you okay?" Jon asked his wife. He already knew the answer but he was hoping Chloe would let out a little bit of her frustration.
Chloe was not okay. She couldn't help but worry about Camilla. She could tell the pregnancy was already getting the best of her. Jay cheating on her and being arrested certainly didn't help.
"This is just a lot, you know?" Chloe began. Jon started the car and began to drive. "I'm mentally preparing for what's going to happen when Jay and Sean move in. Camilla is going to hate my guts, especially now that she's pregnant, it's definitely going to be hormone central. I saw it this morning when she was getting ready for school."
"We are going to have to tell her babe before they get out," Jon said as he continued driving.
"I know," Chloe answered back. " It's clear we have a lot to talk about. I just don't know what to say. I thought I was doing good with her! I thought I was being a good parent! We've talked about sex before and we tell each other everything! I don't get why she wanted to keep this from me!"
Jon was now frustrated, he couldn't bare to listen to Chloe talk about herself in such a negative way.
"She's scared, babe," He began. "Don't be so hard on yourself. It's okay to be upset, but don't beat yourself up over this and don't make Camilla feel any less of a person. She's not a bad person, and you're not a bad parent. She needs us right now. Things could be a lot worse. Imagine where she would be if she lived with your dad."
Chloe let out a long sigh and remained silent for awhile as Jon continued to drive. Jon was right, getting angry with Camilla and scolding her would make things worse. Camilla would never tell her anything again if she acted that way. The best thing to do is to remain calm and be there for Camilla no matter what.
She began to think about their dad. She hasn't thought about their dad in a long time and she didn't want to. She couldn't even call him a father. He let his rocky relationship with her mother and his music career get in the way of being the father both she and her sister needed. He was never there for any major milestones throughout their lives and lived his rock star bachelor life once his band was discovered. Chloe began to think about the times he would say that he would come see them and told her that he had a trip planned for them. She backed her bags and her little sister's bags with excitement but seconds later, her excitement faded away as he told them that the trip was canceled and that he will be back. Chloe didn't hold onto any hope as weeks went by and he never came back. In fact, she felt numb because he has done this to her before. It was worse watching the disappointed look on Camilla's face when she asked their mom why their daddy didn't come. His carelessness made a turn for the worse when their mother passed away of cancer. He didn't bother to take responsibility for Camilla. Chloe took control and became her legal guardian. He visited Camilla once more but disappointed her once again when he left. It was hard to get Camilla out of her depression but Chloe made sure that she got better. Camilla doesn't mention him at all so it was safe to say she was over it.
Chloe hoped that he would at least come to her wedding but wasn't surprised that he didn't. He did call her a few days after, but she didn't bother to answer. She didn't want to hear any more excuses for not taking responsibility for his children, even if he and their mother were never married.
"Have you heard anything from him?" Jon asked as if he were reading Chloe's mind.
Chloe sighed, "He called a few weeks ago, but I didn't call back."
"Are you going to tell him?" Jon asked as he continued driving.
"Why? What's the point? He's just going to have me take care of everything like I have since mom died."
Chloe answered back as her phone rang. She immediately answered it without looking at the caller I.D.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Chloe! It's Caitlin! Thomas said you were running a little late this morning. Is everything okay?"
"Hey, Caitlin," Chloe said back. "Just had something to do. Everything is okay. I'll be there in about an hour or so."
"Okay, well," Caitlin began to whisper. "I'm not supposed to tell you this but they approved our pitch!"
"What pitch?" Chloe asked in confusion.
"The pitch we made a few weeks ago about teen issues! This series is going to be huge! We're going to cover everything!"
Chloe was a bit excited. It was nice to hear some good news today.
"Wow, that's great! I'll be there as soon as I can. We can get started on some ideas."
"Okay, well I'll see you when you get here. Are you sure everything is fine?" Caitlin asked again.
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'll see you in a little bit." Chloe hung up the phone.
"Things going well at work?" Jon asked changing the subject to lighten the mood.
"Yeah, things are going really well actually, they approved on a pitch that Caitlin and I have been working on for awhile." Chloe began going through her emails on her phone. She figured doing a little bit of work would take her mind off of everything for a short while.
Camilla continued the rest of her Art class drawing in her sketchbook. It was surprisingly calming. She still had her pregnancy on her mind and she was beginning to feel sick. She stopped drawing and placed a hand on her head.
"Oh my God," She groaned.
"Are you okay?" Spinner asked slightly concerned.
"No, I feel like total shit," Camilla answered back as she raised her head. It didn't help that Amy was walking toward them. "What the hell does she want?"
"Hey, Amy? How's your head feeling?" Spinner joked.
"Well, hi to you, Spinner," Amy growled. "Camilla, can I talk to you for a second?"
Camilla let out a long sigh. The last thing she wanted to do was talk to Amy, especially while she's feeling queasy.
"No, you cannot, get away from me!"
"I heard Jay got arrested at the party," Amy began. "I just wanted to know how he's doing."
Camilla let out a long sigh. She was upset that Amy didn't bother to apologize for having sex with Jay while she was with him. Camilla was hoping Amy would show some remorse but she wasn't surprised. Amy had a reputation for hooking up with other girls boyfriends.
"I don't know, why don't you ask him yourself? Matter of fact, go visit him since you're such good friends!"
Amy scoffed and chuckled a little, "Are you still mad? Look, what happened between me and Jay is not my fault! Clearly, he wasn't yours if he could be taken!"
Camilla was getting angry. The visions she had of them being together were quickly fueling her. She would love nothing more than to punch Amy in the face again, but she couldn't.
"Well, it's been said many times that you're the biggest slut in the world! I mean if I were a guy, and some whore threw her vagina in my face I guess I would fuck her too!"
Spinner couldn't help but laugh.
"Well maybe if you were doing what you were supposed to be doing then he maybe he wouldn't have come to me." Amy snarled.
Camilla's sickness began to aggravate her. Her stomach felt as if it were going to fall out. Amy getting in her face wasn't making anything better. She needed to get to the bathroom quick.
"I don't have time for this," She said as she walked past Amy.
She took the hall pass and quickly made her way down the hall and into the bathroom. Camilla quickly ran into one of the stalls, vomited in the toilet and quickly flushed it. She let out a long sigh and wiped tears from her face. She began to realize that her pregnancy is getting harder to hide. As much as she didn't want to do it, she needed to tell Chloe and Jon; more importantly, she needed to go to the doctor.
Camilla felt her phone vibrate in her pocket and immediately pulled it out to see who was texting her. It was Chloe asking to go to dinner later tonight. Camilla didn't answer right away and dialed another number.
"Thank you for calling Dr. Johnson's office? How can I help you today?
"Hi, I would like to make an appointment please, for today," Camilla answered nervously.
"Okay, not a problem," The receptionist said back. "Can I have your name?"
"Camilla Ventura."
The receptionist was silent for a few seconds. "We have openings available at 11:30, 12:45, 1:00 and 2:00."
"Um, 12:45 sounds good," Camilla answered back as she listened to the receptionist type quickly.
"Okay, Ms. Ventura, please arrive 15 minutes before your scheduled time to fill out some paperwork."
"Okay," Camilla answered then quickly hung up the phone.
She was trying her best to hold in tears. As if being pregnant by Jay wasn't enough, she had Art class with the girl he cheated with. She couldn't help but think about what Amy said about doing what she was supposed to do. She began to think that she wasn't attractive enough for Jay and that was why he went to Amy. She looked down at her stomach, she felt like she was getting bigger every second. She knew that being pregnant is going to change her figure, and being a mother is going to change her life. There was no way Jay would want her now.
"Hey, you okay?"
Alex's familiar voice startled Camilla. She almost forgot that she was still angry with her for telling Jay about her pregnancy.
"Go away," She finally answered back.
"Mill, open up!" Alex demanded as she pounded aggressively on the door. "I'm not putting up with your crap today!"
Camilla rolled her eyes and opened the door. She walked past Alex to the sink to wash her hands.
"So you're not gonna talk to me?" Alex asked abruptly.
"Not sure," Camilla began. "Anything I say or do will be put in your weekly reports to Jay!"
"Mill, it's his child too! I was trying to help! He deserves to know!" Alex raised her voice.
"Well, mission unaccomplished Alex! Jay doesn't deserve to know anything! What he deserves is to rot in juvie for the rest of his pathetic little life!" Camilla yelled back. "Why are you taking his side?"
"I'm not taking his side! Both of you are idiots, but it's not fair to him!" Alex continued to yell. "He has a right to know about his child!"
"Not fair to him? Really? You know what's not fair to me? Finding out he cheated on me with that stupid slut! That's not fair to me!" Camilla yelled as she began to cry again.
"He said he was sorry!" Alex darted back.
"I don't care!" Camilla yelled as she slammed her fist on the sink.
Alex let out a long sigh, seeing Camilla cry was disturbing. She began to feel guilty about telling Jay. She hoped the outcome would be different. She hoped that Camilla and Jay would start communicating with each other. The last thing she wants is to see both of her friends hurt.
"Look, I'm sorry for telling him and maybe I shouldn't have. I really was trying to help. He kept begging me to talk to you."
Camilla let out a sigh and wiped her tears. She began to feel bad for yelling at Alex, none of this is her fault. In some way, she was glad Alex told. At least she didn't have to deal with Jay.
"I know," She began. "I just hate all of this right now, especially her."
Alex nodded, she could understand Camilla's hatred for Amy, "She spoke to you?"
Camilla rolled her eyes, "Yeah."
"Just ignore the slut," Alex said as she pushed her hair back. "You have more important things to deal with."
Camilla nodded, Alex is right, worrying about Amy isn't going to make her situation any better.
"I'm going to the doctor at lunch and I'm going to tell Chloe tonight." She took her out her phone and replied to Chloe's text about having dinner tonight.
She took her out her phone and replied to Chloe's text about having dinner tonight. Her heart began to beat faster as she grew nervous about Chloe's reaction.
"I'll come with you to the doctor. I don't have student council today," Alex said as she reached for a hug, Camilla embraced her.
"I'm sorry for yelling at you. I'm just so confused...about everything."
"You're gonna be fine," Alex said as she broke the hug. The two of them grabbed their bags and made their way out of the bathroom. "Don't ignore me the next time I text you either." They both laughed as they made their way to their classes.
