Is This Chill ...?


- Dipper's POV -

I stepped out of the classroom, walking over to the wall next to the entrance, and leaned on it. I stared at the floor with a confused and panicked expression. I don't know what's wrong with me today. It's just a typical day like any other day that I have thrived through. It's ... just different this time around. In fact, anything can happen on a day; it's not a copy of the previous ones. Ever since last night became a thing, I have this desire to go back to the mood, back to the settings to have more of what was never finished, to begin with. I cannot rush or stop myself to let it happen, but ... I do know it'll come around again. My cheeks flared red in them, making me jerk my head backward, hitting myself in the back of my head. Ow... well, that's one thing about me. I don't know how to stop this feeling, but at least I can pretend it's gone. I let out a sigh, rubbing the back of my head. Sometimes it's hard, sometimes it's not, just gotta not act weird around anyone.

I lifted up my gaze and over to the classroom's door. At the same time, my sister walked out with Kahlil as usual. They soon halted in their steps, looking over to where I stood. I watched my sister's expression go from calm to disappointing within seconds. ''You're always one step ahead of us. Why not stay and join in our conversation?'' She asked. I began to feel uncomfortable, recalling the last memory of me panicking in that classroom. I turned my gaze away from her, walking away from the wall and stopping to speak. ''I'd rather wait until you guys catch up.'' I answered quietly. I prefer that way ... you don't wanna know, Mabel. I looked back to her, watching her let out a frustrated sigh. ''Let him do what he wants.'' Kahlil said, glaring daggers at her. ... Calm down, please; no need for the glare.

''Fine, I'll let it go.'' She said, turning away and walked ahead of us. I sighed in relief before staring at Kahlil, who narrowed his eyes at me. ''What?'' I said, looking confused.

''Nothing, nothing at all.'' He answered, turning away.

''... Do you want a thank you or something?'' I asked, following him when he walked forward.

''... As polite as you can be-''

''I don't see myself being polite, but...-''

''You were in your thoughts!'' He said, interrupting me. He sounded annoyed when he raised his voice a little. Maybe because I interrupted him the first time.

''... Okay, I can be polite ... as you say.'' I said quietly, walking by his side.

''"As I say?" You know- ... I don't want to explain this.'' He grunted.

''Okay, then thank you for that mess back there.'' I said.

''... You're welcome.'' He muttered. We caught up with Mabel, who waited for us halfway through the destination to the lunchroom. I spotted her sending me a death glare before leading the way once more. I frowned before getting reminded about this morning and last night. I know she's upset about the fact that I never told her what happened on the date. I think I was too tired at the time to tell her. And then I was too grumpy this morning to fill her in any way. So, I believe that doubled her annoyance against me to a higher percentage than before. I don't even know if I want to tell her. Maybe I'm telling myself to avoid speaking it to her. We arrived at the Cafeteria shortly, staring at the usual. ''I can't wait to hear from the others about their night; I hope it's better than yours, Dipper.'' Mabel said, hearing a quiet grunt at the end of her sentence. I ignored it before we headed over to the table where we greeted the 9th graders.

''... You didn't tell her?'' I heard Kahlil whisper.

''I was too tired last night, and I woke up grumpy this morning, so yeah.'' I whispered back.

''Well, seeing this from experience-''

''I know she will beg me for it.'' I grunted, accidentally interrupting him.

''Doesn't she always?'' He asked, whispering.

''Always...'' I answered, grumbling afterward. I then averted my eyes away. I'm not looking forward to this. We arrived at the table, greeting the three on the other side. We took our seats as Mabel spoke up to them. ''Hey, guys! How was your time last night?''

''Awful, I don't even want to talk about it!'' Percy said, pouting in his seat.

''Don't get so beat, Percy, you'll get your chance next time.'' Alex said, perking a smile.

''What if there's never a next time and all of the girls ignore me?!'' Percy asked, anger twisted on his face.

''There will be! The girls don't know what they're missing, alright?'' Alex said, reassuring him. Although, it slightly sounded like she was regretting it.

''My night was great, Mabel.'' Cole answered, smiling afterward.

''That's good to hear, Cole. And that's upsetting to hear, Percy. I guess finding love in this time of stage is hard.'' Mabel said, appearing to feel pity for the 9th grader.

''My night shined all the way after I successfully got into a relationship!'' Alex answered, smiling brightly as if she waited for this to happen, or as if it was her dream coming true. I heard my sister gasp as she stood out of her seat. ''That's great news!'' Mabel chirped.

''Yeah... you're lucky, Alex. Nothing on the radar, Cole?'' Percy asked, appearing to be jealous of Alex.

''Oh, I'm not interested in getting into a relationship.'' Cole answered, shaking his head.

''Lame, how come?'' Percy asked, having a disappointed facial expression.

''I want to do other stuff before entering one.'' Cole answered.

''Still lame.'' Percy commented. I guess Cole ignored him on that one. Mabel sat back down into her seat, shifting in it before opening her mouth to speak.

''My night was gorgeous and fun! I think it was the most pleasant night I ever had in my life!'' Mabel said, smiling with joy.

''Don't shine it on me, I don't want to feel jealous of you guys!'' Percy grumbled.

''Aww, that's sweet of you!'' Mabel said, letting out a giggle.

''It's not! I don't even want to hear about it.'' Percy hissed. I couldn't help but let out a quiet chuckle at his reaction. Too bad, sometimes we're terrible at love in certain stages where we're probably not ready for. You'll get your chance, Percy.

''How about yours, Dipper?'' I heard Alex ask me. I soon dropped my smile in an instant before shrinking into an uncomfortable position. Ah! I wasn't prepared for this!

''I believe he won't tell anyone anything.'' Mabel said. I turned my gaze to her, rising with annoyance.

''Maybe there wasn't time given to me at the moment you spoke.'' I said.

''Oh, so you're actually gonna tell for real? After how many times I ask?'' She said, turning to glare at me. I ease my stare, calming myself down.

''You know I was tired during those times.'' I said, wanting none of this pre-argument.

''Another excuse to tell. Come on! Let me hear it for once!'' She said, perked up as a smile revealed across her face.

''Do not tell me your night was bad as mines.'' I heard Percy say. I turned to him before gazing at the others. Well, let's get this over with.

''It was nice.'' I said quietly, keeping myself from showing any kind of positive emotion on my face. ''I think it was more than that, Dipper~'' I heard Kahlil say, making me lose control of my emotions. In an instant, my face was red. KAHLIL, GOD DAMNIT. I turned to glare at him as he stared back at me with his smug expression. F-ck you.

''Let me upgrade it for you. Our night was fantastic.'' Kahlil said.

''It didn't need one.'' I grunted.

''Apparently, it did since you're bad at telling what happened.'' He said, smirking at me.

''I just said I didn't want to hear about it.'' I heard Percy say. I averted my gaze off of him, trying to get rid of the blush on my face.

''Too bad!'' Alex said. ''You're going to hear and see it everywhere you go.''

''I know...'' Percy said, putting his head down on the table. I flinched when my sister hugged me from behind. ''Aww! I'm glad it worked out between you two!'' I heard her say. ''Yeah, now get off of me!'' I said, quickly turning around to push her away. I got embarrassed in the nick of that moment, making my cheeks hurt more than they're already were.

''See? It wasn't so bad!'' Mabel said, giggling.

''I know.'' I said, giving her a glare.

''Then why did it take you so long?'' She asked.

''If I say, you'll say it as an excuse. It may be easier in your eyes, Mabel... but it wasn't for me at the moment.'' I said.

''Fine, have it your way.'' She said, turning away from me. I sighed before staring down at the table. Soon we began to eat our lunches once we got them from the lunch line. The conversation continued on normal, about school and other stuff. It almost became an argument between Alex and Percy, but I believe they dropped it seconds after. Maybe don't get into one when the person is better at math than you. Hope that teaches you a lesson, Percy. Anyway, I'm not quite sure what I will do with my sister. I know she doesn't believe me all the way with what happened in the past ... and I, for some reason, keep making "Excuses" just to avoid certain situations. It used to not be that way ... I wonder what changed.

The bell rang, and soon it was time to go. We said our goodbyes to the 9th graders before heading out together in a group. Kahlil said he had to go to the bathroom so, I decided to wait outside of the school for him. Along with Mabel, who said; her boyfriend was waiting for her. I don't blame her one bit. At least it gives me some time to think. I halted by the half-wall that was just outside of the school entrance. I stared down at the steps that led into the grassy ground below me. I placed my binder on the half-walls surface before I began to lean on it. I turned my gaze up at the sky, watching the clouds go by.


I really wish I never told what happened during lunch because that desired feeling is back, and I'm not quite sure if I can ignore it. I can, but it gets annoying once in a while. Maybe I just need to distract myself from the idea. ''Distract you from what?'' I flinched at the voice behind me. Soon the familiar aura halted right beside me. I turn my shocked gaze to Kahlil, who was curious to know what I was thinking. I averted my eyes away, ''Nothing.'' I lied.

''I can tell when you're lying, Dipper.'' He said.

''Yeah, that what makes it harder to lie around you now.'' I muttered.

''Did something bad happen?'' He asked, hearing the worry stir in his voice.

''Nothing bad happened...'' I answered quietly, fiddling with my fingers as I watched.

''Then what?'' He asked. I don't want to tell you because if I do. I'll have to deal with your reaction. I turned my gaze back to him, watching him narrow his eyes at me. ''... If it's nothing bad ... which makes it difficult to know what's bothering you lately ...'' He trailed off quietly, looking down at the half-walls surface. I believe he was thinking to himself. Here we go again with the guessing game. If he continues on like this, maybe he'll never know. I don't think he'll guess it anytime soon though. I watched him smirk in an instant before turning his gaze back to me. ''Well, I'm not quite sure if "I'll guess it anytime soon" is an option ... You'll never know when I can guess correctly.'' He said.

''I know, it's a matter of time before you know it.'' I said, shrugging.

''Let me ask you this then. Did you have a continuous feeling since last night?'' He asked. His grin grew wider as my eyes widened a bit. ''I wouldn't really call it reading your mind in this case, I had this feeling ever since last night, and I wanted to know if you had it too.''

''... Uh, well. Of course, you would guess that without even cheating.'' I said quickly, huffing afterward.

''"Cheating?" Reading minds is cheating now?'' He asked, raising a brow.

''Yeah, I consider it to be that.'' I answered, leaning on the half-wall once more.

''So, is my guess correct, dear?'' Kahlil asked, making my cheeks flare red on command. "Dear." Oh great, I'll have fun with this one.

''Yes ... it is. It'll be weird and awkward if I said no.'' I said.

''Well, you can't lie out of this one. You showed signs of the truth beforehand.'' He said, appearing to look proud.

''True.'' I muttered. Aren't you having fun with this. Like a child who is guessing the game correctly and the only award-

''Is a kiss.'' He said quietly, attempting to finish my thought process.

''I was going to say a piece of candy. However... you really want a kiss, don't you?'' I asked, staring at his smug expression.

''If you agree to it.'' He answered quietly.

''Nah, it's only based on what your urging for.'' I said.

''And your desire wants this so badly.'' He smirked.

''... Now, don't turn the tables on me.'' I said, smiling a bit.

''I think I already establish that a long time ago.'' He said, inching slightly closer to me. I stood up straight before turning my head to the students in the school's front yard, talking about the usual. Maybe this is the time to sneak one in. I shouldn't be worried at all. I turn my head back to him, watching him tilt his head with curiosity at my movements. I bit my lip before letting out a sigh. ''Fine.''

''I knew you couldn't hold it in.'' He said, halting once our faces were close.

''Just ... don't-''

''I won't, don't worry.'' He said softly. And then, anxiety started trailing up from the back of my head, trying to reach the central control of my emotions. ''Also, don't mind them either. What matters is what's in the moment.'' Kahlil softly spoke, snapping me out of my thoughts. I stared at him, nodding. The future doesn't matter at this moment; I want to enjoy it while it lasts. So anxiety, f-ck off.

I noticed myself leaning forward slightly, but I didn't bother to stop because once our lips touched, I loved every second of it. Nothing else matters at this moment anymore. Once it happened, I felt like the world froze around us, as if it was giving us the time we yearn for. Even if it felt good the first time, it felt much better the second time around. The kiss was sweeter and warmer, growing more intense as he deepened it. At the same time, my desire turned into pleasure that I never thought I would have. Different sensations unlocked within me, spreading across my body. Soon after that, I sense movements of his arms wrapping around my body, pulling me closer to his. Putting motion into mine, I moved my arms, to the point they were completed around his too. Soon, I melted deeper into the kiss, hearing small noises coming from him. I believe my heart exploded at this moment, racing hard within my chest. I bet his is too. Something in the wind told me the world was turning back on again, but for my pleasure reasons, I didn't want this to stop. I wanted it to continue, but soon enough we parted from each other lips.

I appeared red as a tomato, but I didn't care. The one in front of me was one too, smirking at me with his devilish smile. I grinned, showing him that I quite enjoyed this much more. ''Who's the dirty one now?'' He whispered softly.

''I guess it showed through it.'' I answered quietly.

''You think? Didn't realize you had that much drilling within you.'' He whispered once more.

''I couldn't help myself, alright?'' I said, keeping my voice down.

''It's alright~.'' He said quietly, trailing along with his flirtatious behavior. ''I'm so curious now to how you'll react if we went a little deeper in a bed~.''

''You're moving too fast there.'' I said quietly. ''Not yet.''

''Aww, you're no fun~.'' He pretended to frown, only for it to disappear a second later, bringing back his flirty smirk.

''I guess... but, I do hope you had fun with your little moans.'' As soon his eyes widened, I grinned wider, watching his face turn a lot redder than mine. I never saw his face turn this red before. Soon, we heard a phone go off, interrupting our little moment. We both let go of each other, letting me pull out my phone. I glared at my sister's number as it was mines ringing. ''I-I guess, it's kind of time... we head back, h-home.'' I looked up at him, hearing the stutter in his voice. Kahlil was still blushing madly, as he was trying desperately to hide his face.

''Yeah... I forgot we were at school...'' I said quietly. I turn my gaze back to the phone before pressing ignore. I turned and walked over to my binder, scooping it up in my arms. I turn back to him as he put his backpack on, which was once on the ground floor. ''Ready?'' He asked, still blushing.

''Yes.'' I chirped.


I hugged my pillow, shoving my face in it. I attempt to feel regret at every moment that happened three days after. It was Friday, and I'm trying to feel embarrassed. I think I was trying to teach myself a lesson to not become that way? I don't know. I keep recalling it over and over, trying to feel something other than that dirty feeling. Please, feel anything other than that, Dipper! I told myself. It was a really weird moment for me at that time. I put my pillow down on the bed, soon revealing a smile on my face. But... I did like how Kahlil turned into a tomato. I chuckled to myself before turning to my door that was flung opened. I watched my sister stumble in with a frown. I soon dropped the behavior, turning worried and concerned within seconds. ''Is something wrong?'' I asked.

''.. Y-yes...'' She answered, sobbing in her voice. She soon approached me and flopped onto my bed. I moved my pillow to the side and scooted closer to her. ''... Candy's gone... she never answered... her family doesn't even know where she is...'' I widened my eyes in shock. Seeing that my sister was devastated by this, I pulled her into a hug, embracing her gently. ''...I ... I don't want to believe she ran into the jungle ... I don't want to at all.'' She whimpered, burying her face in my shirt. ''Or... she... got k-kidnapped.''

''... I'm sure the police are onto it.'' I spoke softly.

''The policemen don't care! They said she might have run into the jungle...'' She whispered quietly. Although, I can still hear her sobs. I closed my eyes and hugged her tightly. She soon hugs me back, bursting into a crying fit. The police won't do anything about it? That's bullsh-t. Since I have nothing to invest myself into, why don't I help and cheer my sister up? I bet that'll make her feel better, and maybe then she could help too.

Yeah. Let's go with that.


End of Chapter 37


Hello! This story is finally back on track! It's been a while, yes, and it's been a break since then, but I'm back to finish this story once for all.

There will be a lot going down in this 3rd section, so I hope you're prepared for when it'll come.

I hope you enjoyed this chapter!

See you in the next one!