Today was a day of disaster I lost someone dear to me she was an inspiration and my only relative that was still alive that was around during World War II. My grandmother was a role model that everyone could count on she was a beautiful women who meant so much to me. I lost a lot of people in my life in the last 2 years between my choices I lost my own siblings, and possibly my parents as I don't talk to them that much. It's not that I don't support them it's just that I haven't really been a part of the family, and I regret doing it because I missed the birth of Luke, Leia, Gail, and whatever Bailey named his baby I believe it might have been a girl. I regret not spending Christmas with my family, I even regret saying I wish I wasn't a part of this family anymore.
Since I broke up with my loser boyfriend I have discovered what I had done to my 8 other siblings, and my parents was unfair, and most importantly what I did to myself. Donald Peterson was a jerk and I won't even tell him about his heir because it's my decision and my choice. I haven't even told my own family that I'm pregnant and I'm afraid of what my parents with say well not so much mom but my father he can get quite angry well at least at me for some reason I know I'm special because I shouldn't be alive because I almost died multiple times but I have a lot of my mother in me. I'm not afraid of what Zola, Bailey, or Ellis will say as they are all parents now but I'm only 20 and I'm afraid of being a single parent, raising a baby on a designer's salary, nobody to watch it, or even nobody to support me. I don't want to put the baby up for adoption because I have already grown attached to the child I've known for about 5 months. I didn't want to shine on Ellis' parade with triplets. I have seen pictures of them and they are adorable. I know either Rachel or Jacob are going to be beautiful. I'm hoping for a little girl but I wouldn't mind a boy. I grew up with a whole bunch of sisters so I know what it is like to have so many girls around. But if it's just me and the baby I don't know what we would do. I might move back in with mom and dad because I have nowhere to go and besides Donald's apartment and it is expensive Donald was living there and helping me until I caught him cheating on me with a girl who I don't even remember what her name was.
As I drove up to my parents' house I saw everyone there the house was the same well not really because it was bigger because dad added on to the house because we had so many siblings, and now nieces and nephews. I walked in ready to tell the family the good news but I knew they were grieving because of Nanna but some good news might make them happy. "Hannah Mae Shepherd is that you?" asked my mother. "Yes mommy hi how are you." I asked her in return. "Oh my honey you enjoy your food now huh?" asked my mom. "Or Hannah are you a mommy?" asked Amelia. "Amy that's not nice to say to your sister you haven't seen in months." Betty said. "Betty you have gotten taller" I said to my sister. "Yes I have and I missed you." She replied back to me. "So Hannah explain the stomach weight." Amelia continued. "Okay well here it goes I'm expecting a baby the father is out of the picture I caught him with another women whom I can't even remember her name, and I'm going to raise this child on my own." I told my family. "Wow I had no idea of what was going on sis why didn't you call me or Lexie were close in age we could have helped you." Ellis said to me. "Well you and Roger had just had triplets when I found out I was pregnant and well It was easy to just shut out everyone I was planning on telling you guys when I found out the gender but then I decided I didn't want to find out the gender and then I tried to find ways to talk to you guys but life just got in the way and I'm 35ish weeks along." I said to my sister.
My family didn't care what was going on with me they just wanted to help especially with the baby coming so soon. At dinner we talked about Nanna and how her funeral is in 2 days. The past 2 days have been busy but now it's the official day of when I can say good bye to my grandmother which I can't believe she's gone. But I guess it's better than a friend of mine who lost her father the day before her grandfather died. Maya had a hard time with the deaths of her father and grandfather but her estranged mother helped her through it. While at the funeral the baby was kicking fast but I didn't think it was anything just the normal for the baby. Until the baby decided it was time to come. My family and I were grieving and now this baby wants to come to say hello and goodbye to its great grandmother. I talked to Nanna a few months ago and told about the baby and she was happy she said she wished she could see the baby but probably wouldn't make it to see the baby because she wasn't feeling good and if she would she wouldn't livelong because at 95 anything is possible. I couldn't believe that Nanna was right but on the other hand she was 95 and had a rough 18 years of health scares and other things going on.
After the funeral we went to the hospital where I was admitted into because I was indeed going into labor but the doctors were afraid that the baby was still too early because of how big I was on the outside. When Arizona checked she found out that I was 8 cm and there was no stopping the baby besides my water had already broken, it must have been what it was in the shower this morning. At 5:15 I started to push and after 15 minutes I had a beautiful baby girl I named Rachel Meredith Shepherd. I named my daughter Rachel after a friend of mine that died of cancer, and Meredith after my strong and yet still beautiful at the age of 58.
Goodbye:
Carolyn Shepherd- Widow, Mother, Grandmother, and Great Grandmother.
Welcome:
Rachel Meredith Shepherd.
A/N: I haven't written in awhile but I came up with this idea while being laid up due to having Influenza type a. Also the bit with Hannah's friends father, and grandfather bit was not intentional It wasn't suppose to be like a real event that actually happened but, it just happened that way we will also know more about Hannah's friend as she was Hannah's role model throughout her Pregnancy with Rachel, because Hannah was too scared to go to her family for help and support because of what they might of thought Donald would have done for her. Also I am thinking about a starting a story about the grandkids. I hope you enjoyed this chapter, as it was both fun but yet sad because I was writing about losing Derek's mother, and the birth of Rachel Derek's youngest Granddaughter.
