Sixty Seventh One Shot:
Heart Transplant
Jace POV:
I've been on the waiting list for a heart transplant for about 4 years now. I've been in and out of hospitals since I was diagnosed, and it seemed like I was never going to get a match. It made sense, a lot of people never make it off the list, there just aren't enough matches in the world to accommodate everyone on the list. I was no exception. I could see it tearing my mother apart. She lost that spark in her eyes, and my father had become an emotionless robot. I knew it was hard for them, but I was the one dying, I was the one in pain, and I was the one constantly being poked and prodded with needles.
Sometimes I wish that my heart condition took me quickly. I was basically the walking dead. I could collapse at any moment, or I could die in my sleep. I didn't know when the end was coming, or if I was ever going to receive a heart, and sometimes I think the waiting was killing me faster than my heart was, but that was the natural of my illness. It was a waiting game, and I personally didn't know how much longer I could wait for something to potentially not come.
Clary POV:
I hated being alive. I hated it more than anything. I tried to kill myself. Four times actually, in four different ways, but something or someone always got in the way. I didn't understand why they kept me alive. I did it for a reason, I wanted to end my life, but apparently life had a different idea for me, and I didn't like it.
Now, I may want to end my life, but that didn't meant I wanted others to die. I was planning on ending my life, for real this time, but I decided to go to the hospital and ask if I could willingly donate my organs for those who needed them. I certainly wasn't going to need them anymore, and I had so many tricks up my sleeve, that nobody could stop me this time, and I figured letting them know they would have my organs in a couple days, they could start the process of finding people who needed my organs.
"Excuse me, I have a couple questions about being an organ donor, and I'm not really sure who to talk to." I said when I got to the nurses station.
"That's a wonderful thing to do. What would you like to know?" The nurse happily asked.
"Well, if I have taken pills recently, would I still be allowed to give them away?" I asked.
"Depends on the type of pill. If its just regular cold medicine, or headache medicine, of course. But if it's illegal pills, or drugs, than I'm afraid that your organs wouldn't be in good condition to be donated." She explained.
"Okay, and if I were to die not naturally, would I still be allowed to donate?" I asked and that seemed to get her attention.
"Why are you asking me this dear?" She asked, and I couldn't be detained, or anything so it wasn't like they could haul me off.
"Because I plan on killing myself and I want to give my organs away." I admitted and her eyes widened.
"Oh sweetie. You don't need to do that. You have such a long life to live." She said and I shrugged.
"I don't want my life. I've been trying to die for years, but somehow I always survive. I'm ready. I just want to give those who want to live the chance too." I said.
"Why don't I call your parents, and we can talk about options." She said and I laughed.
"I have no parents." I said and her eyes started to fill with tears. "My dad killed my mom when I was 10, and than killed himself when I was 13. I've been on my own since."
"Why aren't you a child of the state?" She asked.
"Nobody wants me." I said.
"Sweetheart." She said but I cut her off.
"Look, I just wanted a few answers, and I got them. Don't be surprised if you see my corpse in here in a couple days." I said and she gasped. I started walking away when she started talking.
"Can I change your mind?" She asked and I turned around. "What if I showed you kids who want to live. Those who would do anything to be in a healthy body, just like yours, would that change your mind?"
"You can try. I don't think you'll get far, but I have a condition." I said as I made my way back to her.
"What is it?" She asked.
"You have to do whatever tests you do to see how many people I'm a match too. I want to see how many people I can save. And at the end, I'll see if you've changed my mind." I said and I saw her thinking it over.
"Deal." She said. "Come back in tomorrow, and I'll take your blood and I'll start the tour." She said. I nodded and left the hospital. It definitely wasn't what I came here for, but there was something calming about seeing the people that I could help. It almost made me want to do it even more.
Time Jump – Tomorrow
Clary POV:
I came back as promised and went right up to the nurse. She was waiting for me in the lobby. I followed her back, and waited for her to take my blood. It wasn't a long process, but I could tell this woman was really nervous for me, and she should be I supposed. She can't save me. Nobody can. When she was finally done, she wrapped my arm and grabbed the vials of blood.
"I'm going to put a rush on this, and when I get the results, I'll start showing you people who would want what you have." She said and I nodded. "Um, could you possibly wait in the observation room? That way I know where to find you." She asked and I nodded. "Great, it's at the end of the hall."
I stood up and walked out of the room. I made my way to the observation room, and it was more like a sunroom, filled with children, and the elderly. I walked over to the windows and took a seat that over looked a pond. It was a pretty view. I could understand why people would come here. Staring at these walls must get really boring.
"You're new." I heard from behind me. I turned around and was greeted with the most beautiful boy I've ever seen. "What are you in for?" He asked as he took a seat with me.
"Nothing. Just visiting a nurse, and she had to do some stuff and I was asked to wait here until she was done." I said.
"Hanging out in a hospital? Your life must suck." He said with a laugh.
"You could say that. You sick?" I asked, sounding a lot more insensitive that I intentionally intended but he laughed which made me feel better.
"Very." He said. "Heart failure. If I don't get matched with a heart soon, I'll be dead in about 2 or 3 years." He said. He was the reason why I wanted to do this. He wanted to live, I didn't. He deserves my healthy heart.
"That sucks. How long as it been failing?" I asked.
"Let's see, I was diagnosed when I was 14. And I'll be 18 in January, so it'll be almost 4 years soon." He said.
"You seem content with your fate." I pointed out and he shrugged.
"Did you know the 22 people a day die waiting for an organ?" He said and I shook my head. "And every 10 minutes someone is added to the list." He said. "I guess I'm content because I know that being on this list doesn't automatically guarantee you an organ."
"So what's the point?" I asked. "If you know your fate, why are you still on the list?"
"Hope." He says. "It gives my parents something to look forward to. Something to hang on to."
"I see. And if you don't get the heart?" I asked.
"I think that once I die, my parents will fall apart, my dad will become even more of a distant alcoholic than he already is, and my mother will probably lose herself in pills." He said and I was kinda shocked by his answer.
"They sound like they're taking it rather hard." I said.
"I'm their only child, and when they were told, it kinda broke them." He said. "You have all these hopes and dreams for your children, and when something goes wrong, and you can't help, it really breaks you." He said. I was about to say something when I heard a throat clear. I looked up and there stood the nurse.
"Well, I hope you get your heart." I said as I stood.
"And I hope you have a good rest of the day in the hospital." He said with a charming smile. "It was nice meeting you…?"
"Clary." I said and he smiled.
"I'm Jace." He said. "Maybe we'll see more of each other, if you plan on visiting often." He said and I laughed.
"Maybe." I said and I made my way over to the nurse.
"I see you met Jace." She said and I nodded. "Great young man he is. I've been his nurse since he was diagnosed." She said and I nodded. "I got your blood work back. I'm going to start with the eldest patient you're matched with. And this isn't legal, so blab, and I'll tell the hospital how mentally unstable you are, and we both will be very unhappy." She said and I laughed.
"My lips are sealed." I said and she nodded.
"First up is George Wallace." She said as we walked past his room. I peaked in. He looked completely out of it, and like he was already on his deathbed. "He has been on the waiting list for about 6 years now, and he needs a new kidney."
"How old is he?" I asked.
"67." She said. "Next stop." She said we continued walking. "Okay, next we have Ginger Reynolds." She said and peaked into her room. "She needs new eyes." She said and I involuntarily cringed. "She lost hers when a stranger attacked her with a fork. She's been on the list for a long time, since being blind isn't fatal, but she wants to see again. Your optic nerve would be used for that. How is your eyesight?"
"Pretty good." I said still a little creeped out.
"20/20? No glasses or contacts?" She asked and I shook my head. "Good. On to the next." She said as she guided me through the hospital. "Next on the list is Bradley Garret." I looked in the room and saw a relatively younger guy. "He needs a pancreas. He has been on the list for 4 years. He was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer at the age of 30, and he's still hanging on." She said and I nodded.
"How many people can I help exactly?" I asked as we continued walking.
"You can help 5 people." She said and I nodded. "Next is Kimberly Climb." She said. I peaked into the room and she looked relatively young as well. "Kimberly is a 25 year old, she needs new kidney's. Both are in full failure." She explained and I nodded.
"Does she have any family?" I asked as we continued.
"Nope. Single woman, family all gone." She explained. "And last but not least, Jace Herondale. 17 year old in heart failure." She said and my eyes nearly popped out of my head.
"I can save him?" I asked and she nodded. "Than of course I want to do it." I said and she let out a dry laugh.
"Do you honestly think these 5 people are going to be thrilled to know their organs came from a healthy girl, who just didn't want to live anymore and decided to take her own life?" She asked and I shrugged. "They are going to regret getting your organs after they find that out."
"You can't possibly tell them." I said.
"They always get the option to know what happened to the donor. And you can bet your ass I'll let them know about you." She said.
"Why? Why would you ruin that for them?" I asked.
"Because you are a young girl sweetie. You have a life to live. A healthy life. Something these people would kill for." She said.
"But they want to live. I don't. I can save them." I said.
"George Wallace, he's going to be gone in a week or two. Your organ won't save him. Ginger, she's blind, not dying. She can survive without vision." She said.
"But what about the other three? They need my organs." I said.
"Bradley is on the waiting list because he doesn't think when the doctors remove his pancreas he'll live. He wants a new one, a functioning one. Kim, she's an alcoholic. You give her your kidney's she'll destroy them just as fast as she did her own."
"And Jace?" I asked.
"I'll admit, you'd save him. But he wouldn't want that heart after learning the truth." She said. "Think about this. Think long and hard, because I want you to be sure that this is what you want." She said and than she left.
I was walking out of the hospital thinking about what the nurse said. I understood what she was saying. The majority of the people that would benefit from my organs weren't going to take care of them, and they would eventually be wasted, but I could help Jace, and for some reason that was the one thing that was sticking out to me. I mean we had one conversation, and I already wanted him to live more than I wanted to live.
"Clary!" I heard ad it pulled me out of my thoughts. I turned around to see Jace walking out of the hospital as well. "You leaving?" He asked and I nodded. "Cool, I'm starving, and was thinking about grabbing lunch before heading home. You wanna join?" He asked.
"You're leaving?" I asked a little surprised.
"Yea. I was only in here for testing. Just a one night stay this time." He said and I nodded. "I know the best diner in New York, you in?" He asked.
"Sure." I said and he nodded.
"My car is over here. You didn't drive here did you?" He asked and I shook my head. "Great." He said as he continued to walk. We got in his car and he started driving. "So, how was your day with Camille?" He asked.
"It was fine. I had to observe her for a project in school." I lied but he didn't need to know that.
"Oh really? What Class?" He asked.
"My health class." I said thinking it was the best answer.
"So are you in college, or high school?" He asked.
"High school." I said.
"Nice. What grade?" He asked, and man did he ask a lot of questions.
"I'm a senior." I said. Technically I was. I graduated early, but my age would mean I'm a senior so I wasn't a complete lie.
"Same. Although I'm home schooled. Kinda sucks, but I frequent the hospital so much that going to an actual school would be a hassle." He said and I just nodded. We pulled up to a diner, and it looked really charming, and welcoming. We got out and made our way inside. We didn't even wait for anyone to seat us, Jace just walked to a booth in the back and I followed.
"I was wondering when I'd see your face again." A woman said as she approached us. "I've missed your endless need for coconut pancakes." She said and Jace laughed.
"I've been a little under the weather lately, but I'm back, and introducing my friend to the best food in New York." He said and she looked at me and smiled.
"So, two orders of coconut pancakes?" She asked and Jace looked at me for confirmation and I just nodded and he smiled.
"Yes. And a pot of coffee." He said and she walked away. "I come here often." He said and I laughed.
"I can tell." I said.
"It's the best after getting out of the hospital. You can only eat that food for so long before you're craving something real." He said and I laughed.
"I believe it." I said.
When our food came out we started eating and Jace was right, these were the best pancakes I ever had, and being here with Jace was something that felt so natural, but I knew it shouldn't. Things like this don't happen to me. I didn't have anyone. I was a loner, I was depressed, I didn't want to live, but being here with Jace was changing that, but I also knew that if I lived, he wouldn't, and I don't think that I would survive that either. I know I've only known him for one day, but he already makes me feel so much more comfortable than anyone else ever has in my life, and that kinda scared me.
Time Jump – Two Months Later
Jace POV:
I was in the hospital yet again getting tested. Although this time I didn't mind it as much because I asked Clary to come visit me and she agreed. Getting to know her these past two months has been absolutely amazing. She's kind, and funny, and sarcastic and beautiful. I don't know how it happened, but I was falling in love with her, fast. It seemed like a dream, but being with her felt right. We were always laughing, and she was never weirded out when I asked her to visit me in the hospital. She always made the stay more enjoyable, but I was so hesitant to tell her knowing that I might not make it. She doesn't deserve to lose someone, and I wasn't going to do that to her. If just being her friend was all I got, than I was happy for that, because being her friend was better than nothing.
"Knock knock." I heard and I turned my attention towards the door. Clary was standing there with a bag of food. "I stopped by and picked up dinner."
"You're an angel." I said and she laughed as she made her way into the room.
"I wouldn't go that far, but I thought it would be dick move if I picked up something for myself and left you hanging with green Jell-O and ice chips." She said and I laughed.
"How kind." I said and she put in on the tray and I scooted over to make room for her on the bed.
"Also, I think it's a crime that you've never seen Dirty Dancing, and it just so happens to be on tonight. So you are finally going to witness the masterpiece of this movie." She said and I smiled. She picked up the remote and started flipping through the channels.
"Whatever you want." I said and she smiled.
"You here for the night or longer?" She asked.
"Just the night." I said and she nodded.
"Found it!" She said and I turned my attention towards the TV. "Prepare to be amazed." She said and I laughed as I grabbed the burger she got for me.
We were half way through the movie when there was a knock on the door. When it opened there stood Camille. She had been my nurse since I was diagnosed but I didn't think she was on duty tonight.
"I thought Emma was my nurse tonight." I asked.
"She got the flu, so I offered to pick up her shift. I need a moment with Jace." She said as she looked at Clary. "Alone."
"Understood. I'll be in the hallway." She said and she got off the bed and exited the room. Something seemed weird between Camille and Clary, but I couldn't figure it out.
Clary POV:
I stood out in the hallway and waited for Camille to be done with Jace. I didn't think she'd be here tonight, and I was normally very good at avoiding here when I came to visit Jace when he was here. The door eventually opened and I tried to run past her but she grabbed my arm.
"What are you doing Clary?" She asked in a hushed tone.
"I don't know what you're talking about." I said.
"You still plan on doing it?" She asked and I nodded. "You are really stupid, you know that?" She asked.
"You don't get to talk to me like that." I said as I yanked my arm out of her grip.
"You're leading that boy on." She said.
"No I'm not. We're friends." I said and she shook her head.
"He wants to be more than friends. It's written all over his face." She said and I'm a little stunned.
"No he doesn't." I said.
"I've known him for 4 years. He looks at you like you're an angel. Trust me, that look isn't common." She said. "And if you go through with this, and he learns that he gets your heart, he is going to be devastated."
"We're friends." I said again because I had nothing else to say.
"It's been months, and you're still here." She pointed out. "So clearly something is stopping you." She said and I avoided eye contact. "It's him isn't it?" She asked but I didn't answer. "Than why the hell would you still think of going through with it?"
"Because I want him to live." I finally said. "He deserves to live. He is too good of a person to be in this situation."
"You deserve to live too sweetie." She said and a tear escaped my eye. One that I didn't even know was there.
"It doesn't matter. I made my mind up." I said and I pushed past her and walked back into the room. Jace was still in bed but he was watching the movie. When he heard movement, he looked over at me and smiled.
"I thought you got lost." He said and I smiled and shook my head. "And you're right, I can't believe I've never seen this movie." He said and I laughed and joined him on the bed again.
"I told you it was a masterpiece." I said and he laughed. We both focused back on the movie, but I couldn't stop thinking about what Camille said. We were getting close, and I didn't realize how horrible that would be in the future.
Time Jump – Two Weeks Later
Jace POV:
I was back yet again in the hospital for a visit. I texted Clary and asked her to come and hang out but she didn't answer me, which I found odd, but she did have a job, and a life apart from me, so I figured that she was just busy and she'd get back to me when she could. I was flipping through the channels on the TV and when nothing popped out to me, I decided to take a walk. I was half way down the hallway when the doors flew opened and in rushed paramedics.
"18 year old girl. Jumped off the Brooklyn Bridge. Was dead when we arrived, but we managed to bring her back her on the scene, but that water was freezing." The man said but all I could focus on was the bright red hair on the gurney. The bright red hair of the girl I've been getting to know for months. The girl I was in love with. I was staring at her. I didn't know what else to do until I felt a hand on my arm.
"Go back to your room." Camille said when I looked at her.
"Clary." I said and she nodded.
"I know. Go back to your room." She said again but I didn't move. "Emma! Take Jace back to his room. Now." She said and Emma grabbed my arm and started guiding me but I could still hear Camille. "I don't care what we do, we are saving this girl. No matter what, we save her." And than I was in my room. Emma led me to my bed and I sat down completely void of emotions. Clary jumped off the Brooklyn Bridge, and for the life of me I couldn't figure out why.
Camille POV:
"Someone start warming her up. Now." I yelled and people started moving. She had a pulse but it was incredibly faint. "You will not die on me Clary. You hear me? You aren't going to die." I said as I stuck the tube down her throat and I had another nurse started her breathing back up. This girl truly didn't know how much she meant to people, and I'll be damned if I let her die without her hearing just how incredibly kind, and encouraging she is.
"Camille, what do you need from us?" Emma asked as she walked back into the room.
"I just need to get her body temp up and than the rest is up to her. But she isn't dying." I said and Emma nodded.
"She was such a special girl." Emma said and I looked at her.
"Is." I corrected her. "She is a special girl. And when she wakes up you can tell her that." I said and Emma nodded before leaving the room. "You hear that Clary? You're special, and you will not die today."
Time Jump – Four Hours Later
Jace POV:
I was still in a daze. Nobody had come to tell me anything, although they weren't inclined too. They would probably call her parents, or something before I got to know anything. I was pulled out of my daze when there was a knock at the door. When I looked over Camille stood on the doorway.
"Is she okay?" I asked and she walked in and closed the door. "Please Cam, is she okay?" I asked again, more desperately this time.
"It was touch and go there for awhile, but we warmed her up, and she has a steady pulse now." She said and I felt like a weight had been lifted off my chest. She was alive, and now I could yell at her for almost leaving me.
"What else Camille?" I asked when I noticed she still looked worried.
"There is something that Clary needs to tell you, something that will shock you, and confuse you, and probably anger you, but you need to hear it." She said as she stood up. "And don't leave until she tell you the truth."
"What does that mean?" I asked before she left.
"You need to ask Clary that." She said. "You can visit her in the morning." She said before she left. I laid back on the bed wondering what Clary could possibly need to tell me. And it bothered me that I couldn't find out until tomorrow.
Time Jump – Tomorrow
Clary POV:
Pain. That was the first thing I felt, and I knew that I was alive. I heard the beeping and I slowly opened my eyes. I can't believe I was saved again. When my eyes were fully opened, I looked around and my eyes landed on a pair of golden ones that were staring at me intensely. I pushed the button on the bed that moved the bed into a sitting position. This was something I never wanted to do. I never wanted to confront Jace again, and now I had nothing to hide behind. He was going to want to know the reason, and I was going to tell him.
"Why the hell would you jump off the Brooklyn Bridge?" Jace finally said and I took a deep breath.
"I figured the cold water would kill me faster." I admitted.
"Are you insane?" He nearly yelled. "You almost died Clary."
"I know. That was the point." I said.
"You wanted to die?" He asked quietly.
"Most people do when they chose to jump off a bridge into cold water." I said like it was the most natural thing in the world.
"I'm so pissed at you Clary." He said and I nodded.
"I knew you would be." I said.
"And you still went through with it?" He asked and I nodded. "Why?"
"I want to save you." I said.
"What? How is jumping off the Brooklyn Bridge saving me?" He asked.
"The first time we met, I was here seeking advice about donating my organs." I explained. "Camille was the nurse I talked to, and I told her that I was going to kill myself in order to save other people." I said and I heard Jace gasp. "I tried to kill myself four times before this time, and I was unsuccessful all four times obviously. She convinced me to get my blood tested, and stuff to see how many people I could end up saving." I said. "She walked me through the hospital and showed me the patients that would be getting my organs." I said. "The last patient was you."
"What?" He asked in a disbelieving tone.
"I can save you Jace. You can have my heart. I don't want it anymore." I said as the tears began to flow.
"I don't want it." He said.
"Yes you do. You want to live. More than I do." I said.
"I don't want it if it means you have to die." He said.
"Jace, you want to experience life. Your parents need you. Nobody needs me." I confessed.
"Your parents need you." He said.
"Don't have any." I said.
"Your friends?" He asked.
"None." I said.
"I need you." He said and I finally looked up at him.
"No you don't. You need my heart." I said.
"I do, but in a different way." He said and I looked at him with a confused expression. "I love you Clary. I'm in love with you."
"No you aren't." I said completely shocked by his confession.
"Yes I am. You are the first person who I've ever felt so incredibly complete around. You make me happy, and you make me laugh, and you make you feel so much." He admitted. "I would be so devastated without you." He said.
"I was trying to save you." I said.
"I am so incredibly thankful you're alive Clary, and I hope you don't take this personally, but I can't be around you right now. I'm so mad at you." He said and I nodded.
"I understand." I said. He stood up and I looked up at him. "Thanks for caring."
"People care about you Clary, and I wouldn't be the only one devastated by your death." He said and than he walked out. I knew he was pissed. I knew that was going to happen, and I couldn't blame him. I took a deep breath and laid back against the pillows. I knew I fucked up, but I wanted to save him, and now I can't, and that completely sucks too.
Time Jump – One Week Later
Jace POV:
It had been a week since I spoke to Clary, but I just couldn't look at her at that moment. She tried to take her own life to donate her heart to me, and I know I want to live, but I wouldn't have be able to handle having her heart and knowing she wasn't around anymore.
I was on my way to the hospital to finally see her, and tell her something pretty amazing. I got a call last night telling me that I had a new heart. The patient had been on life support for about a week, and the family finally decided it was time to let him go, and I was a perfect match. I told Camille that I wanted to tell Clary when I was ready, so today was that day.
I walked into the hospital and over to Clary's room and when I got there it was empty. I was confused so I made my way to the nurse station where Camille was siting. I walked over and leaned against the counter and smiled at her and she smiled back.
"What brings you here Mr. New Heart Transplant?" She said and I laughed.
"I came to see Clary but her room is empty. Did she move?" I asked.
"She was released yesterday." Camille explained. "I would have called, but she didn't want me to tell you." She said and I nodded. "You two are very similar."
"I guess we are." I said.
"She missed you." Camille said after a minute and I looked at her. "She always asked how you were doing, and it killed me not to tell her the exciting news."
"I know. But I just couldn't be around her, but I wanted to be the one to tell her." I said and she nodded. She grabbed a sticky note and started writing something before handing it to me.
"This is her address." Camille said with a wink.
"You always were my favorite nurse." I said and she smiled.
"Thanks doll." She said and I turned and walked away.
I made my way to Clary's house and when I pulled up I was slightly confused. It looked like a nice house, but I had no idea how a girl her age could afford it, but I realized that I didn't know much about her personally. We never really discussed it, and now I knew why. I walked up and took a deep breath before knocking on the door. I waited a couple seconds before it opened and there appeared Clary.
"Jace." She said. "How did you find me?" She asked.
"Our favorite nurse." I said and she nodded.
"You know, it's amazing that she still has a job." Clary said and I laughed.
"Yes, but she is very useful, and good at her job." I said and she nodded.
"That she is." Clary said and we stood there in silence for a moment. "Would you like to come in?" She asked and I nodded. She stepped aside and I walked into her house. After she closed the door she walked in front of me and I followed. We made it to her living room and she took a seat on the couch and I took a seat in a chair. "What are you doing here?"
"I went looking for you at the hospital, but you weren't there." I said and she nodded. "I wanted to tell you something."
"What? That you hate me and never want to see me again?" She said.
"No. Quite the opposite actually." I said and she looked confused.
"Huh?" She asked.
"I got a call last night." I started. "They found me a heart." I said and he jaw dropped.
"Oh my god. Why didn't Camille tell me?" She said and I laughed.
"I asked her not too. I wanted to be the one to tell you." I said.
"That's amazing Jace." She said and I nodded.
"Which means, I no longer need yours physically." I said and she looked down at her hands.
"I was just trying to save you." She said.
"I know that Clary, but you mean everything to me." I said. I made my way over to her and kneeled in front of her and grabbed her hands. "I was devastated when I saw you wheeled into the hospital basically dead." I said. "I meant it Clary. I'm in love with you."
"Why?" She asked in a small voice.
"Because you're amazing. You make me laugh, you complete me, and you make me happier than anyone ever has." I admitted. "Seeing you like that nearly killed me."
"I didn't mean to get so close." She said. "I wasn't supposed to mean anything to anyone. That's how it always was, and how I expected the rest of my life was going to be." She said as she looked up at me. "I wasn't expecting you."
"I wasn't expecting you either, but here we are." I said and she nodded.
"Here we are." She repeated.
"I'm scheduled for open heart surgery in two days." I said. "Will you be there before I'm taken into surgery, and when I come out?" I asked.
"You really want me there?" She asked and I laughed.
"I always want you." I said and she smiled.
"I'd love to." She said and I smiled.
We spent a couple hours talking about everything that we never knew about each other. Her life wasn't very pretty, and I understood why she didn't want to live anymore, I mean, her life was one tragedy after another, but I was glad she was still alive, and that I got this chance with her. My mom called and told me that I had to go home, so I had to leave but we were going to see each other in two days at the hospital, where I got my new heart, and I finally got to live.
Time Jump – Two Days Later
Clary POV:
I was siting in Jace's hospital room just waiting for him to be taken down for surgery. I was surprised when they said it would only take 4 hours, but I knew nothing about surgery, so if that was normal, than I was glad it was short. I was on the bed with Jace while his parents were both sitting in chairs. According to Jace, when they got the news about the new heart, his dad and mom both just snapped out of whatever daze they were in. Jace said it was weird, but he was glad to have them back. When Camille finally came in I got off the bed and smiled at Jace. I leaned forward and pressed my lips to his.
"I love you too." I whispered against his lips and I felt him smiled. When I pulled away he had the biggest smile on his face, and before he could really say anything they wheeled him away.
Sitting in his room with just his parents was a little strange, but his mother was very sweet, and his father was quiet, but didn't seem rude or antisocial. After about an hour I turned the TV on and was searching for something when I stopped on HGTV.
"Oh I love this show." His mother said as Property Brothers played.
"Me too. They're great." I said and she smiled.
"If I had that kind of money, I would love them to redesign my house." She said and I laughed.
Before I knew it, the door to Jace's room was opened and Jace was being wheeled back in. He was still asleep, but he looked peaceful despite the huge scar he had down his chest.
"The surgery was a success." Camille said. "He'll be out for a couple more hours, but he'll be ready to go home in the next couple days."
"Thank you so much." Celine said and Camille nodded before walking out. She leaned over Jace and pressed a kiss to his cheek. This must have been a miracle for them, and I was so glad that they got to keep their son.
Time Jump – A Couple Hours Later
Jace POV:
I was super groggy, but I started to wake up, and I remembered that I got a new heart. I looked around my room and my parents were asleep on the pull out couch in this room, and Clary was awake reading a book.
"Why aren't you asleep?" I asked and he head shot up.
"I couldn't sleep without seeing you first." She said as she closed her book. "How do you feel?"
"I'm a little sore, but I did just get a new heart, so I expected that." I said and she laughed. "What time is it?"
"Almost 4 in the morning." She said.
"Jesus Clary, you should be asleep." I said and she laughed.
"I took a nap like 2 hours ago. Your mom insisted." She said and I laughed.
"Sounds like her." I said.
"She's great. We watched HGTV for like 5 hours today." She said and I smiled.
"She loves that channel." I said and Clary nodded. "Lay with me?" I asked and she smiled.
"I don't want to hurt you." She said and I laughed as I scooted over.
"It's hurting me being this far away from you." I said and she laughed. She got on the bed and I pulled her closer to me. "Thank you for being here with me."
"I wouldn't want to be anywhere else." She said and I kissed her head.
"Not just here in my bed, but here on this earth." I said and she sighed.
"I wouldn't want to be anywhere else." She said again and I smiled. We laid there in silence but we didn't need to talk. Everything was perfect, and I couldn't believe that I got to live the rest of my life with Clary by my side.
Time Jump – Two Year Later
Clary POV:
Well, a lot has happened in the past two years. Jace was stronger than ever with his new heart, but he kinda had to be considering we now had a one year old daughter. When I first told him I was pregnant, I thought I gave him a heart attack. I understood his shocked reaction, hell I was shocked when I took those 5 pregnancy tests, and they were all positive. We weren't expecting it, not by a long shot, but after we got our first sonogram, I knew I already loved her more than anything in this world. Telling his parents was hard, but when Celine saw the sonogram, she got super into decorating the nursery in the apartment that Jace and I were planning on getting. As young as we were, we knew that it was right. Living together, and raising our baby, there wasn't anything more natural to us.
How could I possibly describe our daughter? Well, she had Jace's beautiful blonde hair, but she had my green eyes. I might be biased, but she was the most beautiful little girl you've ever seen, and Camille agrees with me, so it must be true. Since heart failure was a health concern for her we were going to have her checked every year. Call us paranoid, but Jace and I weren't taking any chances. She was completely healthy when she was born, but today was her next check up and I was nervous, but she was my pride and joy, I couldn't help but be nervous.
"Holly, come on baby." I said as she came waddling into my legs. I picked her up and started making my way to the car. I just locked the door when Jace appeared behind me.
"Dada!" She shouted and I laughed. I won't lie, I was a little hurt when her first words were dada, but she was a daddy's girl, so I guess I always knew it would happen.
"Where are you two off too?" Jace asked as he picked Holly up out of my arms and kissed her.
"Her annual check up to make sure everything works." I said and he nodded.
"Can I tag along?" He asked.
"You worked all night babe, don't you want to sleep?" I asked and he laughed as we made our way to the car.
"I can sleep when we get home. I missed you two, plus I get to see my favorite nurse." He said and I laughed.
We got to the hospital, and Jace had to hold Holly because she had so much energy I wouldn't be surprised if she ran into a door trying to get into the hospital. We made our way into the hospital and over to the nurses station where Camille was sitting going over some charts. Jace cleared his throat and she looked up and got the biggest smile on her face.
"Well, if it isn't my favorite family." Camille said and I couldn't help but smile. "What do I owe this pleasure?"
"Just Holly's annual check up to make sure she's healthy." I said and she nodded.
"She gets eve more beautiful every time I see her." Camille said.
"I say the same exact thing." Jace said and I laughed.
"She is a cutie." I said and Camille nodded.
"Come on, I'll set you two up in a room." She said and I shook my head.
"How do you still have a job? You break literally every rule." I said as we followed her into the exam room.
"I'm great at what I do." She said with a smile.
"That you are." I said.
"The doctor will be in soon." She said and she left. Holly was being entertained by a game of peek-a-boo Jace was playing with her, and just seeing him with her was absolutely amazing. A moment later the doctor walked in and smiled.
"Welcome back. How is our little Holly doing?" The doctor said.
"She's the happiest baby I've ever met, that's for sure." I said and he smiled. Jace sat Holly down and the doctor proceeded to check her out. Right now, all he could really do was listen to the heart and make sure that it was beating properly, and that nothing sounded off. After a few moments he backed away with a smiled on his face.
"She sounds perfectly healthy." He said and I let out the breath I was holding. "I'll see you next year." He said and I smiled and nodded. Jace picked up Holly and we made our way out of the room and passed Camille in the hallway.
"Don't be a stranger, bring her around more often!" Camille shouted and Jace and I laughed.
"I have my appointment in two weeks, I'll bring her along!" Jace said and Camille gave us a thumbs up before disappearing around the corner. We made our way home, and when we got inside, we made our way into the living room. Jace didn't work nightshift often, but when he did, he was always so incredibly tired afterwards.
I sat on the couch and I put Holly on the ground to go play with her toys but as soon as her feet touched the ground she lifted her arms up for me to pick her up again. I laughed, but obeyed because I can never say no to her unless it was necessary. I picked her up and she snuggled into my chest. I looked down and her eyes were drooping, which I should have expected since she woke up at 4 this morning and wouldn't go back to bed. I leaned into Jace and he pressed his lips to my head.
"I love you." He said in his super sexy sleepy voice.
"I love you too." I said and I could tell he was smiling.
"Thank you." He said and I looked up at him, his eyes were drooping but he wasn't quite asleep yet.
"For?" I asked.
"Staying, and giving me one of the greatest gifts life has to offer." He said as his free hand rubbed Holly's back.
"Thank you for caring enough." I said and he smiled.
"You are worth it Clare." He said as he yawned. "You always have been." He said and than he was asleep. I looked around the living room and I looked at all the family pictures that were displayed on the walls. I looked at all the toys that Holly had, and than I looked down at my baby girl, and over at my amazing boyfriend, and I realized that being alive wasn't so bad when you had the right people in your life. I certainly didn't before I met Jace, but seeing how amazing life was with Jace, and with Holly, and with Celine and Stephan, I was incredibly thankful that Camille convinced me to think about it, and that I got another chance at life. Not many people get as lucky as Jace and I, and I didn't take that for granted even for one second. Life was good, and even though it didn't start out that way, I was thankful that I got through all the hard parts, so I could enjoy all the amazing parts with my amazing little family.
Authors Note:
Okay, so this one was requested awhile ago by LuckyWitch13, and I have to say, inspiration struck me when I reread your request, and I wrote this in about 4 hours. I hope that it was worth the wait, and everything you hoped it would be when you originally requested it! I'm also sorry that it took me so long to get to it, but I've been having trouble writing one shot unless I feel really inspired, and have a kickass idea as soon as I read the suggestion, so I'm going through the comments and hoping the they just come to my mind easily, just like this one did!
Also, I know nothing about heart failure, or open heart surgery except the basics that I googled, so don't rip me apart about that, and also, I know that someone would have probably detained Clary for admitted that she was going to kill herself, but since this is a work of fiction, that didn't happen! If you have anything negative to say about how this isn't very realistic, please keep it to yourself! This is FICTION! Nothing has to make sense at all! Anyway, rant over! Let me know what you think and leave a review! :)
Also! I have a question for you lovely and devoted readers! I was wondering if you think that I should stop once I reach 100 One Shots but I didn't know how you all felt about that! Let me know what you think! I'm eager to read your opinions and to see how far you want me to take this! :)
