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Chapter 8: I´m alright

-Shizuo´s point of view.-

Shabby. That´s the best description he could give for the house they were standing in front of. Or rather, the apartment. Parts of the outer walls were already crumbling down, and the odd yellowish color didn´t make it seem any better.

Laughing was to be heard and screaming of girls, as though there was being thrown a party in there. The familiar stench of beer was filling the air and Shizuo felt already the need to bust someone´s face up.

This kind of dump seemed just like the usual places he had to pay a visit to with Tom. He wouldn´t be surprised if whoever was in there already had some debts anyway.

... then again considering he was here with the flea they probably were already in deep shit.

"Whose house is this?" he asked, pinching his nose to try and ignore the shit smell.

But the raven next to him just kept being quiet. He had been all the while actually. On their way here, since they talked in front of Shinra´s house, he hadn´t said a single word.

The last thing he had said was "Come." And since then nothing.

Shizuo never thought he would think that way but not hearing the flea rant 24/7 was actually more unsettling than this.

"Hey flea," he started again, only for the raven to ignore him further as he stepped up to that door.

"You don´t need to know."

So he had listened.

Shoving his hands back into his pockets he decided to keep quiet while the raven knocked at the door.

Heavy, uneven footsteps were being heard behind the door indicating that the owner was either injured or wobbling around drunk.

With a creak fitting the entire setting of the scene the door opened, revealing a more than just drunk guy.

"The hell do you want?"he leered, a burp making its way up his throat, not making this situation any better.

Cringing his nose the raven backed away a step.

The burp that escaped the man´s face was already disgusting enough as it was. Yeah, there was a reason he didn't actually meet with guys like these. E-mail contact was more than enough for scum.

"Not him." Still rather astonished by just how gross someone could be the blond tore his stare away from the man who was now shamelessly scratching his junk.

"Wha- Izaya?", he asked, turning just to follow the raven with his eyes as he stepped down the stairs again, just walking away.

"Izaya? Wait Orihara Izaya?!" the man suddenly barked, seemingly having recognized the man after Shizuo called his name and stepped out of the apartment. "You little shit I will-!"

A soft sound of something cracking wallowed through the night as Shizuo had just punched him in the nose.

"Ah-" the man groaned, taking a few steps back inside his apartment, trying to stop the nosebleed that now acted up-

"Sorry-" Shizuo apologized having acted out of simple reflex. The guy had seemed like he wanted to get away just like when he was visiting people´s homes with Tom.

Feeling a bit guilty the blond stepped away from the entrance and followed the flea while the guy just leaned against the doorframe trying to stop the blood.

Swearing was to be heard and Shizuo realized that if anything the man had probably justified reasons to go after the flea-

Not that he would let him right now, but he did feel a bit guilty about punching the guy out of the blue. Swearing and name calling was to be heard, but disappearing into silence as the blond caught up to the raven.

"Izaya, wait." Izaya didn´t particularly seem fazed though.

"Can you refrain from mentioning my name to these people?" Was all he said as he continued his steps, his phone in his hands and fingers typing away on it rapidly. Shizuo figured he was already searching for the next address.

"I want to get over with this quickly."

-Shizuo´s point of view. A few hours earlier.-

"You want to-" Shizuo couldn´t help but wonder if maybe he had misheard. The rain was still falling relentlessly from the sky, causing the street to look more and more like a giant mirror than a road.

Droplets were falling of Izaya´s hair tips, but it didn´t seem like he cared even in the slightest.

"Kill them Shizu-chan. Is that so hard to believe?" he repeated once more, looking into Shizuo´s eyes. It was obvious that he hadn´t misunderstood anything.

There wasn´t anything weird about it, in fact Shizuo himself felt the urge to kill these bastards so he knew very well what kind of rage Izaya had to feel. And still-

"I thought you can´t remember their faces?" Silence covered them like a blanket, only the sound of falling rain and splashing water filling it.

Izaya couldn´t help but feel a hint of nausea at the comment.

Of all the things he did know- he hadn´t seen their faces.

That´s right he didn´t see them, he didn´t even know them or at least he hadn´t talked to them personally because he didn´t recognize them, but...

"I remember their voices."

The blond´s eyes widened just the slightest bit. A surge of rage filled his veins and he felt his hands tighten into fists at the response.

"They were stupid enough to rant the whole time, so I´m sure I can discern them from others," the raven continued, adding a shrug to his explanation as if to try and show just how much he didn´t care about it anymore.

It took the blond aback and made his blood boil at the same time.

Wondering about what they said. What the hell they kept telling Izaya while-

His fists clenched tighter.

Kill.

And all of a sudden Izaya´s idea seemed the best fucking idea in the world.

Killing them off, huh? There was no doubt they fucking deserved it.

"I will just visit all those humans that hold a grudge against me. I will be bound to run into them that way." Izaya said.

Stated it as a matter of fact. As if it weren´t even him they were talking about.

It seemed almost as if he was treating himself as a client that he had to work for. Movement startled the blond as the raven just got up from his seat, more droplets falling from his hair tips as he sighed.

"Guess you don´t approve of that." The blond got up quicker than the raven could move to walk away.

"You aren´t going alone." Seemingly surprised the raven stood there, just facing the blond. Something akin to a frown drew across his expression.

"What, do you think I can´t defend myself?" he asked, his tongue freezing right after he spilled the words though, realizing the bitterness of that question.

Running a hand through his hair the raven closed his eyes for a second, the frown persistent staying on his expression.

"Don´t answer," he chuckled, but it sounded way too bitter to Shizuo´s ears.

Izaya had asked for his help. And he damn right wanted to see these guys dead as much as Izaya wanted to.

So when the raven motioned to walk away the blond cut off his way stepping in front of him once more.

Maybe he was out of place to do this sort of thing, and maybe he shouldn´t meddle with the flea too much after everything that happened.

Izaya was difficult, he was an ass, he played with people´s minds, only caused him trouble-

He hated the flea, always did, always would, but what had happened to him was beyond anything he would wish upon his worst enemies.

But right now he just couldn´t leave the flea alone like this.

"I will help you."

-Shizuo´s point of view. Present. Another house.-

Sighing the blond glanced at the door on front of them. This time it wasn´t anywhere near as filthy as the last house gladly, but it still didn´t give off the best vibe either.

Glancing at the raven he watching him as he knocked at the door.

He wondered what he even did to all these clients that could be after him.

Was it all about money? Something else?

Did he get them fired or something similar?

With a hint of anger Shizuo realized Izaya didn´t even know who the guys were that... so he also didn´t know why they even did it.

Not that anything the flea did would justify their actions, but if it were him he would want to know the reason at least.

Pissed him off even more.

They did something this nasty cruel and just inhumane just because of some shitty ass reason. His fists tightened to an extent that he usually only had before busting someone´s face in while he watched the door in front of Izaya slid open.

A guy was standing there, middle aged, black hair that was starting to fall out and a pair of glasses on his nose. He seemed like a normal working man. A frown decorated his expression when he mustered the two men in front of his door.

"Hello there, Yamada-san," the raven suddenly spoke, with a voice so hollow it made the blond want to cringe. He knew he just wanted to get the man to say something so he could check if he was one of them and then walk away.

The man´s face suddenly lit up like a Christmas tree and before the blond could even react the man stepped forward, grasping the raven´s hands- "Orihara-san!"

The blond noticed a shiver trailing up Izaya´s spine as he quickly pulled his hands away from the guy with a deep frown.

"Don´t touch me." Shizuo frowned.

"I´m so glad you are here!" the guy didn´t even take notice of what the informant had said, "People asked me for the money!" he started to explain, gesturing odd things with his hands as he went on, "But you see I didn´t have any since you suddenly disappeared! But now you are here and I´m so glad-!" he rambled, and rambled on and all of a sudden he was again reaching for the raven.

He didn´t even know why but just the intention in itself made the raven tense up and he took a quick step back- but the man didn´t stop and instead just took the same step forward-

Again reaching for the flea, just in a friendly gesture, and yet-

"You will help me out of this, right? You will-"

A strangled gasp filled the air before the raven was even able to blink.

"He said don´t touch. Are you deaf or something?" the blond growled, his hand having grasped the man´s throat and shoved him against the wall of his own apartment.

Wheezing the guy looked between Izaya and Shizuo, his hands trying to get the blond´s had of his throat, without any result.

It made the blond so mad. Was he the guy?

Did Izaya back of because it was him?!

Did he do that?!

The sound of footsteps made the blond twist his head, only to see the raven had already turned around and was walking away-

"Izaya?" Unceremoniously the let go of the guy´s throat, making the man drop down to the ground wheezing and touching his neck in fright.

"Wrong guy." Was the short answer he received tearing his stare away from Izaya to glace shortly at the man he had just frightened.

Quickly Izaya walked away, step by step.

He could hear the blond mumble some sort of apology before rough footsteps approached him from behind.

Having been chased through Ikebukuro and Shinjuku for so long he was more than just familiar with them. And yet he just couldn´t get rid of these goose bumps travelling over his skin.

Shizuo frowned just the slightest bit as he walked next to the flea once more. He was walking faster than before and not looking at his phone for the next guy they should visit.

"...you okay?" he asked, concerned. He didn´t really know why but this whole thing unsettled him way too much.

A soft snort was to be heard and the raven faced him for but a second, throwing him a glance that only said how much he hated Shizuo for even asking that question.

"Of course I am Shizu-chan," he chirped, refocusing his attention on the road in front of them.

...

Shizuo could see Izaya was having a hard time, not just because of the meetings.

It was obvious he was getting exhausted too.

No wonders, he nearly died a week ago and only woke up yesterday... it couldn't be good for him to run around this much.

"Izaya, do you really think this is a good idea?"

The raven frowned at the question and stopped in his tracks.

"What? To kill them?" he asked looking at Shizuo as though he was being betrayed.

The blond shook his head with a sigh, "No, to run around like this."

Narrowing his eyes the raven looked at him.

"Like this?"

"Well you aren´t... quite okay yet-" he wasn´t even able to finish his sentence when suddenly a knife pressed to his throat- so fast he hadn´t even seen the raven draw it.

Malicious he was glaring at the blond, obviously mad over something he didn't even understand.

"Don´t give me that crap Shizu-chan," the raven hissed, pressing down on his neck just a bit more.

"I don´t need anyone´s pity." Warmth was trickling from the spot Izaya's knife pressed against his throat-

For a second, Shizuo was just confused, wondering what the hell he had said to make the flea react like this, and then- then he was mad.

Tch-

It pissed him off.

That fucking flea.

He was just trying to help.

It fucking pissed him off.

He was just tagging along to make sure nothing happened to him and now he was pulling shit like this?!

"Alright then just go die you stupid flea," the blond barked, the knife being withdrawn from his neck as the raven glared.

"That´s what you want to do anyway you monster, isn´t it? Kill me?" Tightening his fists the blond tried to count backwards and ignore the rage that built up in his system.

This flea-

"Just fuck off Shizu-chan, I don´t need you."

He doesn´t-

The blond felt a vein pop on his forehead.

He was done with this bullshit.

First he asked him to help, then he acted as if it was Shizuo´s idea altogether to come with him in the first place and now he refused his help?

"Tch, fuck you Izaya. To hell if I care," he spat, shoving his fists into his pockets he drew out a cigarette, walking past the raven.

He was done.

If the flea hated him being there so damn freaking much then he could have that fucking peace he wanted.

He wasn´t going to bother him anymore.

Looking after the blond as he walked away the raven turned.

Izaya couldn´t ask for more. Flipping the knife shut he walked away in the opposite direction.

He didn´t need that brute.

Why the hell did he even ask him to go with him?

Was he delirious? He didn´t need him.

He didn´t need anyone.

And he especially didn´t need these stupid ass questions.

Pulling the phone out of his coats pocket he snapped it open, almost violently hitting the buttons on it to find the next guy´s address. He could very well take care of this alone.

So what if he was exhausted? He knew he wasn´t in top condition, that didn´t mean that imbecile had to treat him like some sort of invalid.

Tch-

Spotting the next house he had to visit his steps sped up.

He didn't need Shizu-chan.

Step after step he took, approaching the door.

He didn't need anyone.

Flipping out his phone once more he checked if he was at the right address.

He was going to continue like this.

Izaya rose his hand to knock at the door-

He was going to find them.

- and hesitated.

...

For just a moment he let that sink in.

One of the guys might be beyond this door. This exact door right in front of him.

...

What if there really was one of them?

Swallowing he felt a familiar feeling of dread fill his senses.

Calm down that´s the point of knocking.

To find them.

He could kill them easily with his flick blade, just one swing, they wouldn´t expect it. Just imagining it was easy. He would knock, they would come not expecting anything, they would open the door, and-

... he would kill them, yes!

He should be elated at the thought.

He should be happy knowing he could get rid of them.

But nausea acted up as he found himself unable to move.

Instead his hair stood on ends.

The guys. Could live here.

One of them.

Only slowly his hand lowered itself, a crushing thought crossing his mind.

He didn´t want to meet them-

No.

He shook his head quickly, frowning deeply, trying to get rid of these stupid thoughts.

NO, he wanted to.

He had to, to kill them. It would all be better once they were dead.

That´s right, once they were dead everything was going to be alright again!

And so he brought down his hand on the door.

*Knock knock knock*

Silence.

An unbelievably comforting silence filled the air. There was no noise, no nothing. He could hear cars from afar, speeding on the main street.

He could hear little insects producing annoying sounds from the garden.

But except from that, nothing.

The raven exhaled the breath he hadn´t realized he had held.

He felt like laughing.

Was no one at home?

But that´s when he heard it.

Steps.

He froze.

One two, approaching the door within the apartment. Time seemed to run in slow motion as he heard them coming closer.

Heavy.

Slow.

If it was one of the guys he was going to kill him.

The thought was like glued into his mind as he stood there like frozen.

If it was one of the guys he was going to kill him.

A feeling as if someone had suddenly punched him deep into the guts made itself noticeable.

If it was one of the guys he was going to kill him.

The steps were coming closer.

If it was one of the guys he was going to kill him.

His hair stood on ends.

If it was one of the guys he was going to-

The door creaked open-

...

A woman was standing in the frame. She seemed as though someone had just woken her from her sleep and she glanced around confused.

"Stupid kids," she cursed, closing the door again- as there was no one outside anymore.

To be continued~

I´M ALIVE PEOPLE XDDDDD ahahaha

I am so Sorry For taking so long ahhh! I broke my record of not updating -sobs- TAT I was really damn stuck with this story since... fucking November gosh xD I made you wait so long hnnn sowy ;-; and then my INTERENET DIED uwahhhhh

But!

Some people were wondering whether this story has been dropped- No no no no no

I am definitely never ever going to just drop a story! or leave it unfinished, or on hiatus forever. I can´t promise I will be this in love with Shizaya forever, but what I can promise is, that once I do start a story I'm definitively seeing it to the end xD (even if I take three months updating lmao)

I have finished two stories by now that I absolutely hated and one that I disliked xD So my dear readers, even if I seriously came to detest this story, I will definitely finish it C':

Relica: I know x'D I'm sowy C': Now I´m finally back xD

Shufflepink: you think so? C: well well, and now? After this chapter? xDD

Guest 2: I love writing rain xD his control really slipped him away ahhh I was struggling hard with this chapter despite having the plot for it since like three months ago- screams- I hope it was oki tho. Yeah this stupid victim blaming shit is just wrong, no matter if it's the person blaming them or others being shitty assholes about it. Well- let´s see how this will actually continue C:

About the other updates, I updated 4 stories today x'D ast, bcd, SnS and SD xD and the reason is quite simple-

I am basically cut off from the internet people x'D

It sucks so bad, there is a slight bit of it, but it just doesn´t let me upload pretty much anything. xD While writing little text messages seems to work (with a delay of ten minutes lol) doing anything apart from that is out of the question x'DDDD

So basically right now I´m hijacking my grannies computer to upload my fics while I´m visiting C': Sorry for the long delay my dear readers xD Seeing as I won´t have any proper internet any time soon I will think of solutions now to upload each Monday though x'DDD So, next week Monday the 27th I will be updating Sotd, twtd and ast C:

And on Monday the 6th March I will update SD, bcd and SnS C:

That being said, see you in the next chapter~! C: (It´s already half written so rest assured it´s gonna come out for real xD)