I was breathing so hard. My body was collapsed in a void of darkness... again...

Just seconds ago I saw my sister commit suicide...

Tears streamed down my face, they were out of fear and relief. The relief that it was all a dream and fear that I could really cause so much trouble for others.

I didn't feel like moving, not just yet. I had to process everything. It wasn't normal to have such a vivid and realistic dream. I could see everything clearly and I could physically feel Bella. It made no sense, I've had pretty strange dreams but this one felt completely different.

Almost like a vision...

No, it wasn't a vision. It couldn't be. I wouldn't let it be.

I rested my head on my knees and brushed the remaining tears away. There was so much going on and it was getting out of hand.

I have to say there was some truth to my nightmare-ish dream. I would, and was, hurt by people here. And Bella was getting into her mother mode. Things just kept going down hill from here...

And then there was Jacob. It was strange, how when we first met my heart jumped out of my chest, but then it was broken into a thousand pieces. I was so confused with my feelings and it didn't make this any better. I had a strong feeling we were suppose to be together but on the other hand I favored Paul more.

Then there was the red head... she was after me and she could come again.

Vampires and werewolves... what has my life become?

I had finally stopped crying but I refused to get up. What was the point? Only to be thrown into another hell? No thank you...

I played with my hands, waiting. Waiting for something, anything.