I burst out laughing. "Spike and I? Soulmates?"

"You told me that you had feelings for him all of a sudden" She shake her head. "I'm supposed to do the spell once a month but after thinking about it I decided not to, that's where your sudden feelings come from"

"So you're telling me that Dru made you do a spell that would hide the bond between me and Spike?" I question, this girl must be insane. "And then all of a sudden you decided not to do the spell and BOOM I have feelings for him?"

"Pretty much" Thea shrugs.

"So this bond thingy, what's it about?" I was honestly curious about my newfound bond.

"I don't know much, vamps keep it pretty hushed but what I do know is that there obviously is a bond and a pull for you to be together and I think I heard something about a bite but I can't be sure. Ask Spike, I'm sure he knows everything about this."

Thea put her right hand in her pocket and pull out a chocolate bar. "Peace offering?" She throw me a sheepish smile.

Without hesitation I grab the chocolate bar and gulp it down. "There wasn't poison or anything in there?" I'd still eat it.

She shake her head and stands up from the bench. "I'll see you around Ana"

"Wait!" I call after her. "When will I see you again?"

Thea turn around and smile. "When you need me"

I utter a small stunned bye before Thea turned around and seemingly vanished into thin air. I could feel my head spinning with all the new information, my best friend was my soulmate and my soulmate's girlfriend conspired against us. The only solution to all of this confusion is alcohol and food. Lots of alcohol and loads of food.

I stand up from the cursed bench and start walking out of the small park, kicking pebbles along the way. Lots of parents with their children looked at me oddly when I stomped past them while muttering things under my breath that is not exactly appropriate for small children to hear. Not that they'd understand what I said but still, gotta protect the little ones.

Walking down the familiar road to my (and Spike's) favorite bar I can feel someone following me. If it wasn't for the daunting feeling or quiet footsteps echoing behind me, the extra shadow really blew this person's cover. I fasten my steps and as the blaring neon lights of the bar comes closer I can feel the fear ebb away. The loud bass from the music soothes my worries and the footsteps fade away.

I walk inside the bar and throw a hello to the bouncer at the door who tips his hat in greeting. When I come inside I am hit with a wave of heat which make me cough, when I look up again the attention is all on me. "What?" I ask and they all shrug and go back to their businesses.

I greet the regulars at the bar and wave at the prostitutes lurking besides the toilets waiting for a desperate soul. One thing that I loved with this bar is that there is no judgement, we all know each other and the community that has formed here is amazing.

I plop down on my stool at the bar and wave a hand at the bartender. "By all the freaking gods, this can't be happening" I curse to myself when the bartender turns out to be the bartender I slept with a few nights back. I attempt to hide my face when she walks closer but by the look on her face I can see that it's already too late for that.

"What do you want?" She ask with a sour look on her face.

"Some strong alcohol" I request and she scoffs.

"You gonna use another poor woman in here to forget your problems, huh?"

"Or man" I shrug, anything can happen.

"Man?" She ask surprised. "I thought you were gay"

"I'm bi" I answer here with a duh look on my face. "And I happen to enjoy both the D and the P"

"Whatever" She growl at me before leaving to get the requested alcohol.

Time flies by and I get drunker and drunker, my steps are unsure as I make my way out of the bar and into the cold darkness. I wish Spike was here, he always took care of me. If he's with Drusilla, I'm going to castrate him, I think angrily to myself. He should be with me, not her. Me.

Suddenly I can feel myself slam into the hard cemented wall behind me and strong hands pressing me still. "Hello, pretty. We're going to have some fun"