Excitement, that went through his head when he arrived at Hogwarts. The emotion stayed with him through the first week and then through the next but around the third week, things changed. Why did they change? The boy known as Edward Lupin did not know as he opened his amber eyes. They always turned amber when he slept, he was not sure why. His hair was also a nice sandy brown the same as his father's hair. Oh, that's it, that's why he no longer feels excitement for school. Edward sighed and looked across to the other beds in the dorm room. The other kids were still asleep, and the sun had not even risen yet. 'Well, time to get up for school I guess.' He thought with a sad sigh as he got out of bed with everything hurting from him just walking around in the night. He tried to get some sleep on the full moon two nights ago. You see Edward Lupin or to all, Teddy is a part werewolf, part Metamorphmagus. Luckily, he got all of the benefits of being one and only a little bit of werewolf, but he still could not sleep on the full moon. Teddy sighed and pulled on his Hufflepuff robes as he thought back to his father. His father oh how he missed him. He missed laughing with him about his mother as he told him storys about her. He wished that he knew her, but at least his father lives. Teddy remembered when he told him about the battle. The battle that his Godfather fought in that saved the wizarding world. What really stood out to him was when his father Remus Lupin killed both the werewolf that bit him as a child and a Death Eater that almost killed him, but he didn't. His father also fought in this battle as well as his mother who sadly did not make it. Teddy sighed after he thought of this and walked out of the room with his books in his hands. He was almost asleep again when one of his friends came up to him.

"Good morning Ted," Teddy looked at his friend, Lloyd with a fake smile.

"Good morning," Teddy muttered under his breath, but Lloyd heard it all the same. "Why are you up so early?" Teddy asked as his hair turned to a shade of blue. This means that he's sad and lost but no one really knew that, well other than him and his family.

"It's not that early Ted. Come on I think breakfast started a few minutes ago," Teddy nodded with a sad sigh, but Lloyd did not hear it.

"Alright," Teddy said as he stood up and followed his friend out of the room.

Breakfast was quiet, that might be just because Lloyd and Teddy were the first ones down there but still. "How did you sleep?" Lloyd asked Teddy who has not said a word since they got down there. Teddy looked up from the table, but he said nothing as he let out a sharp breath and nodded while some other kids walked into the Great Hall. "Teddy?" Lloyd asked when Teddy did not say anything. Then he sighed and asked: "Is this about your dad. Do you miss him?" Teddy looked at him and gave him a dry laugh.

"No, why do you ask? Look, Lloyd, I'm fine alright. I need to get to class," Teddy said standing up.

"Ted?" Lloyd asked but Teddy was already out of the hall with unwanted tears in his eyes. Lloyd was right of course; he did miss his dad. His Godbrothers, his best friend. Why did he miss all of them? Teddy sighed as he walked through the halls. However, as he walked, he ran into a group of 4th years.

"Sorry," Teddy muttered as he continued to walk. However, one of the boys laughed at him.

"What did you say freak? You're sorry, sorry that you don't belong here. Your crying, I see it. Are you homesick freak. Do you want your mummy?" he laughed at Teddy whose hair turned red, but he did not stop walking. "Oh freak," he sing-songed after Teddy who had tears in his eyes again as he walked down the hall.

Teddy let out a shaky breath when he walked into his class that will not start for another hour. He then sat down and put his head in his hands. 'Dad, why do I miss you?' Teddy thought as Lloyd walked in.

"Hey Ted," Teddy turned around when he heard Lloyd say this. "Ted. I know you're missing them. why can't you admit that?" Lloyd asked Teddy who sighed but he said nothing to his friend. "Teddy," he said with a sigh as he sat down and looked at the half-wolf. "You can write to them. you know," Teddy looked at him and scoffed.

"I don't need anyone. I'm sure dad will understand that." Teddy said but he did not mean any of it. Even though at the moment he did. This was the sad truth of course. However, he did not want to tell anyone that he was missing his family. He was older, he does not need anyone.

"Teddy you don't mean that," Lloyd said after he gasped at his friend who laughed a little.

"Of course, I mean that. Lloyd, you don't know what it's like to grow up without a mother or be attached to someone then having to leave them for…...for like the whole year. Do you know what it's like to grow up after a war? To live with a father who might get blamed for every death on the full moon? To not be able to sleep at night on the full moon because you're scared to wake up with everyone you love is dead, In a pile of blood because you turned into a wolf and killed them?" Teddy's voice was loud and the kids that walked in heard Teddy's outburst. Teddy then sighed and looked at Lloyd who sighed also and nodded.

"Teddy, I know that since I don't have magic parents, but I think I might know what you're going through," Teddy laughed and said:

"How is it possible that someone as intelligent as Sirius Black can be so unfathomably dense?" Teddy had tears in his eyes as he ran out of the room with Lloyd to shocked to say anything.

Teddy did not know why he was running or why he got so upset with Lloyd but, yet, he did. He really does miss his father and his family, but he does not want anyone to know that. so, he continued to run well until he ran into some 7th years and fell to the floor. "Hey, are you ok?" one of the boys asked Teddy who rolled his eyes as he stood up.

"Yeah, leave me alone," Teddy said as he started to walk away however the boy whom Teddy does not know stopped him with his hand.

"Kid, what is wrong? Come on," Teddy looked at the older Hufflepuff and sighed but he did not say anything. Then he took a deep breath and said:

"I miss my dad. It's the first time since I have been this long away from him," Teddy said to the older boy. "Why? Why do I feel this way?" Teddy added as he got down on the floor.

"Hey," the boy sighed. "Why don't you write to them. it's ok to miss them, I miss my family as well," Teddy smiled as he got to his feet and nodded as he walked back to class.

When the other kids went to sleep Teddy let out a sigh and wrote:

"Dear dad,

How are you? I'm sorry that I have not been writing to you. I just thought that I can do it on my own. By this, I mean being alone without you but I miss you, dad. I cant wait to see you again. I need to get some sleep I have not been sleeping on the full moon, but you knew that. I'll write to you later.

-Love your son, your cub

Teddy."

A/N: Summary: Teddy Lupin is homesick, but he is to cool to tell anyone. Remus is alive in this story but Tonks is not.

House: Hufflepuff

Year 5

Standard

Words: 1369

Emotion: Homesick

Class subject History of magic