Weird, isn't it.

One second I was fine and the next…I was on fire.

It started slowly and slithered its way into my very core. I must have forgotten the things that happened before I started to burn…I just can't recall them. I don't even know what was happening to me right now. Was I really burning? But why do I burn for so long…it feels like an eternity passed already…

And why…is no one helping? Where is everyone?

If I die now…can't I go back to my world? Isn't this the time where I wake up in my world, because people always wake up right before they die? Right?!

Everything was just so blurry and everything seemed nonexistent. I could hear screams and things shattering around me, but the noises seemed so far away.

Everything seemed so scary. Having no control over anything…and just feeling the pain and hearing chaos around you like it was behind a thousand closed doors. It wasn't when everything just suddenly stopped and a white bright light flashed right before me, that I became truly frightened.

I could hear my heart start beating faster with each second that I started to look around. A heavy weight suddenly lifted itself off of my body.

What was happening to me? Please! Someone…help me!

"You can open your eyes and stand up now." A deep gentle male voice suddenly announced.

It startled me so much that I involuntarily ripped open my eyes and jumped up. My heart was still pounding against my ribcage, now more than before. Everything around me was just a pure blinding white. It was no room that I was in or any location for that matter. Just this nothingness of light. This is how a deer must feel like when it is right in front of the headlights of a car.

"There is nothing to be scared of, Genesis." I whipped my head around and gasped in shock. There right in front of me stood someone…or rather something. It stood very tall with a nearly blinding white rope on. The head completely hairless and the face inhumanly smooth with gentle facial features. It smiled at me with this pitting smile as it waited until my mind was less foggy from all the stuff that was happening.

"Take your time to calm yourself." It nodded assuringly and I felt myself calm down a bit by its understanding of my situation.

"What is this? Where am I? What are you…" Before I could continue to ask my questions…or the ramble in general, it held one hand up with a smile and made me stop.

"Yes, yes…a lot of questions. I know…and there are a lot of answers that I can give you, but first…are you well enough to take all those information's in?"

Hell…I have been ready to get these information's since the moment I got dropped into this madness called 'Twilight'! But of course I didn't say that. Something told me to not get onto this things bad side just yet. So, I just nodded…maybe a little bit too eagerly.

He smirked before he gave a nod himself: "Very well. I suppose you don't know where you are or what I am?"

"Kind of obvious after I asked you those questions just seconds ago." I answered him…with too much attitude than I wanted, but at this point I was just frustrated.

"I've asked you, because I know that deep down you already know. You know that I am not human…you also know that we are not just at any random location. The fact that the pain suddenly stopped scared you…because…"

It looked at me expectantly and I raised my eyebrow at it not saying anything. If this thing wants to play games now…sorry to disappoint but I'm not feeling like playing right now…

"Genesis, I am not your enemy. I am just here to make this easier for you. You've been dropped into a world and you were expected to adjust to it but you never did. I'm here to make this better."

"So, are you going to take me back to my world, because frankly…I'm done with this one?" I asked hopefully. Finally! Finally I was going back home. Waking up to my father being finally home and me and my parents enjoying the dinner my mother was making.

But when I looked up at this thing and my hopes started to vanish. It wasn't agreeing. It was just standing there with pity in its eyes.

"Genesis, you can't go back…" It announced with a soft whisper.

I felt my heart stop. My hands started to shake as cold sweat coated them. I was about to have a panic attack…wasn't I?

"What do you mean? Of course I can go back! Just send me to my room again. I just fell asleep…this is just a dream and my mother will just come in and wake me up for dinner. What are you talking about…this must be a joke…"

Again I started to ramble and as I started to ramble I felt myself become angry. Angry at everything that was happening to me. So much happened and there was just no explanation. This thing was no help at all, it was just standing there with its boldy self and was looking at me expecting me to know everything myself. Hell If I knew everything…I would have already been at home the second I woke up in freaking 'Twilight'.

"Genesis, you really don't remember?"

It asked me and cut me off from my rambling.

"Remember WHAT?! What do you want me to remember? I got home and I went upstairs to unpack this stupid book and fell asleep…"

"Gen…you never got home."

Silence.

My head started to spin as its words repeated themselves over and over again in my head. My mouth went dry and I had to lick my lips in order to moister them before I asked: "What do you mean 'I never got home'. I parked my car in front of the house like I always do and I talked to my mum about this guy that infected himself with this dirty needle…my dad was about to come home so…"

"Where was your dad, Gen?"

"What do you mean…he was at work…"

"What is your dad's name?"

My dad's name…It's…what was his name…It's at the tip of my tongue…what was it…

"I will ask you again. Where was your dad, Genesis?"

It was like cold water was thrown right at me and with the cold water memories started to erupt inside of my head. All the memories with my dad…him suddenly having a blurred face until he disappeared out of every memory I made up…

"I have no dad…but…what is happening…I didn't just make this up…I…"

"Theoretically you do have one, but he left your mother when she got pregnant with you, but let's not dwell on that for now. It always astonishes me what a human's brain will make up to cope with certain situations. Very well…I will tell you everything although I think that deep down you know what happened to you."

I sat down and curled up as this thing hovered over me. At this point I just…I wanted to end everything…

"You were on your way home from school and it was this one crossing where the traffic lights would sometimes malfunction. You knew that so you were always extra careful when you drove into that crossing…but there are people outside that simply don't care."

Yes, the crossing…It always gave me anxieties…sometimes I would stand there and wait until no car was around until I crossed it, because I was so scared…

"A truck that was previously on a smaller side road turned right into the crossing and he didn't see you until it was too late. You were thrown out of the car by impact and your head suffered severe head trauma. The paramedic's arrived and tried to keep you alive until you reached the hospital, but you were pronounced brain dead. There was too much damage…"

Brain dead…how is that even possible when I'm being here and have a sound mind…

"Your mother…she couldn't let you go just yet and so she agreed to put you on life support but…"

My dream…when I couldn't move or see…when I thought that I was back in my world…when I thought…that I was one step closer to my world…but didn't this mean that I wasn't brain dead…just yet…

"…your mother realized that she did that to say goodbye to you…"

"NO!" I stood up with my heart pounding once again but this time from rage.

"This is stupid! It's not true! What is this!? I can't be dead…how am I dead when I had those weird dreams…this is not true!"

He tried to put a hand onto my shoulder to calm me down but I just shrugged it off: "Gen, your dream was you trying to get back into your body…but you couldn't because it is just a shell now. Bella saved you that night…because you would have been lost to any world… forever being in the state you were in when you 'dreamed' this weird 'dream'."

Tears were flowing down my cheeks as things started to piece together. The small things that I did…like calling Charlie 'dad' so easily and hating myself afterwards because I thought I was forgetting my real father…I never had one.

Charlie was the only father I ever had…that's why it was so easy to forget…

I felt two massive arms start to embrace me as I curled into myself even further. The tears steadily flowing down as I cried rivers of tears.

I'm dead…and I didn't even know.

It took this thing a while to calm me down with its head patting…in all honesty…it only calmed me down because it reminded me of Charlie and Emmett…I know…it's weird, but it was the only comfort at this moment.

When it started to step back I wiped away the last remains of my tears before I looked up at it again: "So, what now? Is it hell? I kind of expected it…"

It smiled a bit at my attempt to cope with this shit.

"Trust me…if there was a hell, you wouldn't be in there. You have cruel thoughts from time to time but everyone and everything has them. The difference is when you act out on them. You are a good person Genesis. You easily accepted Bella and Charlie into your family and protected them like a lion would its cubs."

I scoffed at his description of myself: "So what is it then? If there is no hell…where do I belong to?"

"You belong right where you are now. There is nothing like heaven or hell, because everyone has good and evil inside of them. The balance of both is what makes a person. The afterlife is as much as one deserves. Granted…you didn't deserve all the pain that was inflicted upon you while arriving here, but it was necessary to make you come this far for me to explain to you everything. 'Twilight' was chosen, because you simply hated it, but if you're being honest with yourself, you hated it because love like in these books…doesn't exist in real life. You knew that and you didn't want to fall into this mindset. You didn't want to be more disappointed than you already are. Twilight is the payment for the small evil things you did in life, like not helping an old man cross the street even though he needed the help. Of course you weren't thinking about it while you ran passed him, you probably don't even remember him anymore, but it is the Karma for it that you can't pay any longer, because you will never be able to get old and experience it yourself."

"So, Twilight is my hell then? Is that it?" I asked a bit impatient with these wordy explanations.

"If you want to put it that way to make it easier for you to understand than yes…Twilight is your hell, but the 'heaven' part is the thing that awaits you once you wake up."

"What do you mean by that?"

"I will not lie…for a fact… I CAN not lie. It will be difficult for you once you go back, but there will be so much more waiting there. An eternity of happiness. You didn't deserve to die Genesis and you were a good person, which we don't have many of. You deserve happiness in a way that you thought was impossible. Twilight is your afterlife."

My head was whirling. It seemed so unreal that it was hard to think that this was really happening. I combed my fingers through my hair, a trade I picked up from Bella, before I sighed: "This is a whole lot of bullshit!" I announced with resignation on my face.

This thing started to chuckle: "I can see why you would think that. Normally, a transition goes much smoother but you were particularly headstrong. Usually people start to forget about their old lives and let themselves fall but you didn't. Another remarkable trade of yours Genesis."

"Hold on…I was supposed to forget my old life…no! No, no, no, no…not happening. I can't forget my mother!"

"I'm afraid that you have no choice."

I stepped back from it, the anger inside of me relit with new fire once again: "Are you telling me that once I wake up, I will forget everything? Even you, whatever you are?"

It had this stupid pitting smile once again. If I could hit it in the face just once I would, but to be honest…I was kind of scared of whatever it was.

"You have to, or else you will never find your peace again."

"Fuck peace! I can't lose my memories!"

"Why is that? What is holding you back, Genesis?"

"All those memories made me who I am. How can I live a life without any memories of my past?"

"You will have memories if that is what you are scared of. Memories that will be slightly altered, to fit you into your new life but you will still be you. There is nothing to be scared of Genesis. Trust me and trust yourself."

My head was pounding by now. Everything can just go to hell at this point. Whether hell was real or not, I didn't care anymore. This whole shit right here was the reason why people were so scared of death. Rightfully so…nothing is your decision. Whether you live a good life or not…everything will always make decisions for you.

"And for your information, I am a grim reaper."

I couldn't hold myself from scoffing: "What…no skeleton with a black rope and a scythe?"

"No, no scythe. I'm here to guide souls into their afterlife, nothing more and nothing less…however, if a soul refuses to do so, I have no choice but to step in." He gave me a pointed look before he continued: "The rope is just to make you more comfortable. People associate white and light peace."

Peace…my ass…his creepy face was enough to scare me off. He should really work on his skin…no one has such smooth skin except for the Cullen's maybe and they were vampires.

It was weird. Weird that all those emotions came to surface just seconds ago and now I was just…calm…or maybe numb, I couldn't decide yet. Is it because I finally had all these answers? Granted, they were so bizarre and farfetched for anyone to believe and yet so many things happened that it is hard not to.

Maybe the reaper was right, maybe I already knew all along and I just refused to accept it and I suppressed every memory I had of the accident. He was right with my father…and I had memories of me and my mum without my father…

What am I even thinking, of course he is right and this is real. It just can't be not real…

"I'm afraid we don't have time anymore. Your questions have been answered and you are coming to terms with your situation, which means that you will soon wake up in your new life again.

"This is so messed up. All of this…if people knew about this…"

The reaper put a hand on my shoulder once more but this time I didn't shake it off.

"People can't know about this. The fear of death is what keeps them away from it…heaven and hell is what makes them fear it. Death is no solution for anything and if this is how it keeps them away from it than people have to continue believing in heaven and hell or a painful death."

"It's not like I can tell anyone about it. I will forget everything so don't worry about that."

He chuckled: "You, dear Genesis, are so headstrong that I fear that you might…somehow get around the 'forgetting'-part."

I couldn't help myself but to smirk and scoff at that: "If I do so…you will just bring me back here…won't you?"

"First I will come to your world and see how much you remember…if it is too much than yes, I will do just that."

I raised an eyebrow at that: "Hold on…you were there…how? When? Did I see you and you made me forget?"

He shook his head with a gentle smile: "The creeper at the bookstore? That told you to be careful while walking around in the dark and you just ignored that and led yourself and Bella right into this dark alley. This is what let me know that you still know too much. You did what happened in the movie."

"Holy shit! You were the creepy dude that sold the book…no wonder I couldn't remember him being so weird…but well played, grim reaper…well played."

He gave me a slight bow in a thanking manner: "Thank you very much, dear and now…we have to part, dear Genesis. I hope that we will not meet again. Enjoy your new life. You deserve it, Genesis."

"No offence but I hope we won't meet again as well. I can't do this shit again."

He chuckled: "Enjoy your afterlife, dear."

And with a freaking 'whoosh' he was gone. Just like that…and I'm not even joking…it made a 'whoosh' like in those comic books…was this…planned. Did he do this on purpose?

Wait…

What was making this 'whooshing' sound again?


POV Change (I usually don't do this but bear with me on this one ^^)

Genesis has stopped screaming a day ago. Which means that, at one point she passed out for good. Carlisle didn't know if this was a blessing, because Genesis wouldn't have to deal with the pain any longer, or if this was a bad sign. It was Jasper that ran up first to what was now Genesis's room. It surprised Carlisle for a second that Jasper didn't even hesitate to run up…but…Jasper surprised him in general when he announced that he would stay with Carlisle in Alaska until Genesis wakes up. The rest of his foster-children went back to Forks to keep the image intact. In fact, Jasper missing as well was a good excuse Carlisle to go to Alaska. He simply told everyone at the hospital that Jasper wasn't coping well with the move to Forks and he needed to go back with him so Jasper could come to terms with some stuff. It would also explain to people why Jasper had that tortured face all the time…a teenager that didn't want to move…

The second thing that Carlisle was very relieved about was the Swan-Parents. He didn't think that it would work…telling them that he could treat Genesis better in Alaska because in Alaska was colleague of his that was specialized in brain activities or simpler said…a neurologist. Of course this wasn't true…but he couldn't risk the parents going to the hospital and demanding to see Genesis only to be met with an empty bed…or worse, being told that there was no Genesis Swan emitted to the hospital. It was Renee that agreed to it and Charlie didn't take much convincing afterwards. Carlisle told them that he was sorry for what happened and that he wants to help wherever he could, that Genesis was a good person and that she didn't deserve this and he wants to do more than just waiting for her to wake up. This is how this huge problem was taken care of and now…Genesis can take the time she needed to make her decision.

Carlisle walked into Genesis room to find Jasper once again inside the room with Gen. Jasper was looking outside the window, stiff like a statue.

Carlisle could hear Genesis's steady heartbeat slowing down with every minute. It didn't take long until the transition would be complete…IF Genesis makes it…but Carlisle or the rest of the Cullen family couldn't think about that now. She has to make it! She simply has to!

"It is not typical to be calm during a transition." Jasper suddenly announced while still looking outside.

"But she is still with us, Jasper. She is not dead." Carlisle announced. He assured himself more than he assured Jasper. He still couldn't understand why Jasper stayed and let Alice go back to Forks on her own. Those two were inseparable.

"Jasper, is everything alright? You seem different? Is there something that you want to get off your chest?"

This was the first time that Jasper turned around and looked at Carlisle, his face contoured with pain…but it was not the pain of thirst…no it was different.

"I-…first I have to talk to Genesis before I tell you what happened."

Carlisle was surprised by this. Jasper was known for sticking to Alice and trying his best to fit into this family, even though he did without questioning, but he always was so hard on himself that it was hard to see Jasper slip up. So, what happened that made Jasper feel so much pain…or was it guilt?

Carlisle nodded understandingly before he assured Jasper: "I'm sure whatever it is, it will be alright."

It was at that moment that both realized that Genesis's heart stopped beating.

For a second both of them were just frozen to the ground. It was Carlisle that nearly sprinted to Genesis side first, before Jasper followed. Jasper didn't step too close to them, leaving Carlisle and Genesis still the room they needed.

Carlisle looked intently at Genesis's face. She was paler than before, no imperfections on her face at all…not that she was imperfect to him before…she was always perfect.

The arm and leg that were twisted during James torture where completely healed, as was the big gash on her forehead. Her hair, this rich dark brunette hair, was flowing around her form. Alice and Rosalie trimmed it to the middle of her back before they left. It would have been in the way during the hunt…once she had to do so. He told them that he would put the blame on them once she wakes up.

"Carlisle…It's taking too long." Jasper suddenly announced with a nervous voice.

Carlisle furrowed his eyebrows, because Jasper was right. She was taking too long…by now…she would have opened her eyes.

He laid a hand onto Genesis cheek and Jasper stepped forward, exploring Genesis emotions to find something…anything to tell them that she was still in there.

"Genesis? Gen?" Carlisle kept repeating her name over and over.

Jasper started to reach for her arm and squeezed it.

"Genesis, please." Carlisle had this desperation in his voice that was heartbreaking to anyone that could hear it.

And then…suddenly…blood red eyes were looking right back at his honey-colored eyes.

Genesis was alive.