When we reached Caras Galadhon I could say that he was ready to murder me, but he had a nice behind, so it was okay. And we were presented with another flight of stairs, honestly what was with this people and stairs? And so up we went following Haldir and his guards. I had to admit it though; the place was beautiful, even more beautiful than Rivendell I think. The lights gave it a fairytale appeal making me feel as if I was in Neverland; I loved it.

Galadriel was the most beautiful being I had ever seen, nothing could compare to her, but her words annoyed me to no end, and honestly what was with all the blue eyed people? I felt like a minority, where did my brown eyed companions were? Anyways, Galadriel spoke of the fellowship and the state in which we were, her eyes locked with mine for a brief second, she seemed curious of me, I tilted my head as she spoke, she then told us that we could rest, the fellowship made to follow Haldir, but Galadriel stopped me before I could follow.

"I sense something very different from you," she told me, Celeborn looked at me.

"I feel different too," I admitted, and perhaps it was the fact that I had killed for the first time in moria or that the homesickness was getting heavier.

"You feel so young in comparison to the others, even younger than the hobbits, but often you have given them wise advice, you fear that you will fail them" it was weird how she could say all those things about me.

"But will I? Lady Galadriel, you that have felt my soul, you that are wise in comparison to others, will you reassure me?" I asked my voice tightening; Galadriel took a step forward and lifted my chin so I could look at her.

"So young and so lost, longing for the reassurance of a mother that everything will be okay, but you know the answers, and I shall tell you, everything will be alright as long as you believe in yourself, believe little one" she kissed my forehead and I bowed, I turned to find Haldir waiting for me, I followed him in silence, he looked concerned, he led me to a few elven maids.

"They will help you bathe, I shall be waiting for you to be done" he said, I nodded and thanked him as I made my way towards the maids.

My bath was anything but relaxing due to the many things that floated around my mind, the maids dressed me up in a blue dress with golden details that reminded me too much of certain idiot. They promised to wash my clothes and deliver them before I departed, they also unbraided and brushed my hair letting it fall freely, I thanked them and walked to Haldir who was waiting for me. He showed me around Caras Galadhon and led me to dinner.

"I want to apologize for before," I said as I finished my dinner, he smiled at me.

"It's all forgiven you seem troubled enough without adding a resentful elf to the mix" he joked, and god Haldir Joked, I giggled.

"Am I that transparent?" I asked; he tilted his head.

"No, but I am an older brother, and even though you can notice it you are fading so very slowly" he told me; I looked at him panicked.

"How can I stop it? I don't want to fade," I said to him, horror marring my voice.

"You love him, whoever he is, it is killing you to be this far from him, you probably left and argued with him before you did" he explained calmly, I looked down.

"How do you know that?" I needed to know, because Aragorn had said almost the same thing.

"Because had you been mine, I would have found a way to keep you next to me instead to have you risking your life like this" my eyes found his and I felt guilty for a moment, if Haldir was right and I was fading, then what of Glorfindel? Was he fading too?

"Is he fading too?" I asked softly, Haldir looked away from me.

"Perhaps, or maybe hope is keeping him going like it has kept you" he stood offering me his hand "Come on, the others must be worried for you" I took his hand and he led me towards the fellowship.

They were indeed worried and Haldir explained that since I was female I needed privacy, which calmed them enough, I sat next to Merry and Pippin; Haldir stayed talking to Legolas while Aragorn fiddled with his sword.

"Do you sing Lady Alex?" asked Merry, I looked at him and smiled.

"Usually when I bathe, but no I don't really sing" I told him.

"But you probably have a lovely singing voice Lady Alex" said Merry, I sighed, it had been years since I had sang in the Church's chorus back when I had attended a catholic school and I was not that bad, I had also won that talent show thing in high school.

"One song, this one time and no more" I warned, both hobbits smiled happily and suddenly everyone's attention, bar Gimli who was sleeping, was on me.

"I believe if I'd knew where I was going, I'd lose my way

I believe that the words that he told you are not your grave

I know that we are not the weight of all our memories

I believe in the things that I am afraid to say

Hold on, hold on

I believe in the lost possibilities you can see

And I believe that the darkness reminds us where light can be

I know that your heart is still beating, beating darling

I believe that you fell so you can land next to me

'Cause I have been where you are before

And I have felt the pain of losing who you are

And I have died so many times, but I am still alive

I believe that tomorrow is stronger than yesterday

And I believe that your head is the only thing in your way

I wish that you could see your scars turning to beauty

I believe that today it's okay to be not okay

Hold on, hold on

'Cause I have been where you are before

And I have felt the pain of losing who you are

And I have died so many times, but I am still alive

This is not the end of me, this is the beginning.

When I finished I was blushing, because who wouldn't when they had gained an unexpected audience, Merry and Pippin clapped as did the others, I scratched the back of my neck nervously.

"It was a wonderful song Lady Alex," said Merry, I smiled at him.

"I'll write it down so you can sing it at the shire then" I promised, he lightened up.

"Perhaps you could visit the shire one day!" exclaimed Pippin; I tilted my head.

"I'd be honored to visit" I said, both hobbits seemed content enough.

We stayed there talking until Haldir called me to guide me to my rooms; Aragorn seemed confused as he thought that I was going to stay with the fellowship for the night. Haldir again explained that I probably wanted some privacy, the fellowship agreed and bided me goodnight; I followed Haldir until we reached a beautiful talan.

"These rooms are usually used by Lady Arwen when she visits, the Lady thinks that you might be comfortable here" he explained as he led me in, the place was beautiful and glowed eerily.

"Hannon-le, its beautiful" I said softly as I looked around the place, I then turned to Haldir and hugged him; he returned the hug and patted my head.

"Rest" he said in a commanding voice, I nodded and he left.

I slept peacefully that night, the room kept me warm enough and when morning dawned a maid was sent to collect me and prepare a bath for me. I dressed in my leggings and a blue sweater, I grabbed my sword and my backpack and decided to join the fellowship for breakfast, they welcomed me animatedly, before we departed I asked Legolas to braid my hair and he did so and told me stories of how he had accidentally messed up his father's hair when he had been an elfling, he must have been so cute.

By mid morning we were ready to part, we were led to a little pier where Galadriel had prepared a farewell to us. Haldir and two other elves, that I supposed were his brothers were also there, along with others elves that were there to see us go, before approaching Galadriel, I walked up to Haldir.

"May the blessings of the elves be with you," he said, I smiled.

"And with you too, stay safe, will you?" I asked; he raised an eyebrow.

"You're the one who is setting out to a dangerous journey Alex, not me," he said, a smirk creeping up to his lips.

"You called me Alex!" I said surprised, he chuckled.

"After all the times you grabbed my behind while we were walking through the forest, I think I have earned that privilege, have I not?" he was smirking smugly at me, I shook my head.

"You are terrible Haldir, truly terrible," I said punching his arm, he laughed.

"Stay safe tithen-pen, namarie" I nodded and hugged him goodbye.

"You too gwador" he nodded. I walked to the fellowship where Galadriel gave us different gifts. She stood in front of me and smiled.

"Alexandra, daughter of Gil-Galad, princess of the Noldor, my gift to you shall be a box filled with our most important healing herbs and potions, may you find use for them in your journey" she handed me a medium sized box and I thanked her profusely.

I got into a boat with Legolas and Gimli and we started our journey down the great river, I often found myself huddled in my new cloak toying with the leaf brooch, or dipping my fingers in the water as Legolas and Gimli talked about random stuff, they also bickered much. We spent three days in relative calmness when we started hearing rustling; I looked around tensed. The others had heard it too; I sat straighter and motioned for Gimli to change seats with me, we slowly moved until I was in front of Legolas who looked at me concerned.

"We are being followed, and I fear these are no ordinary orcs" I told him; he took a look around and nodded.

"I can sense them too," he admitted.

"These are Uruk-hai Legolas, orcs most fearsome warriors, what if they find us?" I asked him, he sighed.

"We fight" up until this moment I had not realized that we were speaking in elvish.

"What if I can't?"

"You managed well enough in moria, you can do this" he gave me a sincere look.

"You have too much faith in me" Legolas smiled at me.

"If you are not ready to believe in yourself yet, someone has to believe enough for both of us" he said, I smiled softly.

"Thank you Legolas" he shrugged, we sat in silence for the rest of the day, and next day when we took off again I decided to sit in the same place.

We kept going down the river, Legolas often telling me stories he knew of his people or teaching me elven songs, we passed the Argonath, and boy they were impressive, two giant statues of a king.

"I have the feeling that someone doesn't really want us going that way" I joked, Gimli laughed as we admired the statues.

We reached our end and Legolas slowly led our boat ashore, I was the first to get out and stretch my legs, the others followed soon enough, Aragorn started talking about our next path, Boromir eyeing him warily, they had had a disagreement the night before. Aragorn mentioned some creepy plains and Gimli complained, Legolas and I exchanged glances and I nodded to him, he told Aragorn of our insecurities, but Aragorn told him that we had to stay. I had decided to climb a tree to see if I could spot the Uruk, I stayed in the tree for probably twenty minutes until I saw the first black blur, by this point I was certain that Frodo and Sam were already on their way, I jumped down swiftly and grabbed my sword.

"Legolas! Aragorn! They are coming, Boromir! Gimli! En guard!" I shouted, they all stood rapidly and armed themselves, I had made up my mind, Boromir had to live.

"How much Alex?" asked Aragorn.

"Many, beware of the archers" I said while taking a stance, Legolas was immediately trying to spot them, and so the uruk-hai descended on us.

They were way more talented than the orcs we had encountered in the mines, but I stood my guard next to Boromir and the hobbits, my sword glowing slightly. I slashed and killed several of them, but they also got me several times too, lucky for me if there was one thing that Legolas and Aragorn had taught me, was to stand as twice as fast as I fell. And of one thing I was sure, it was going to hurt like a bitch in the morning. One of the fuckers hit me hard on the stomach with the blunt part of his blade, I fell down to the ground, my breathing shallow, it took me a few more seconds to stand, but I spotted him, the motherfucking archer, I stayed down revaluating my options, Boromir had already been struck once, I could prevent the others, I had one chance.

I stood as fast as I could, but it all seemed to happen in slow motion, I grabbed one of the daggers that were lying around and threw it with all my might, hitting the fucker straight in the head, I smirked sardonically as I stood straight once again gripping my sword.

"Come at me assholes" I said, Boromir was looking at me in awe, but still helped me take the remaining orcs down, once we cleared the area I made him lay down.

"What are you doing?" he asked, his breathing was labored.

"Saving your life" I said trying to remember Maggie's first aid training, the arrow was embedded in his upper chest, narrowing missing his heart, probably filled with poison "This is going to hurt a lot"

"Wait, what?" I pulled the arrow out and Boromir screamed in pain, I tried to shush him.

"Be still" I commanded, not that he could really move "You are lucky this was not a morgul bow, or you would've been dead" with his own dagger I split his tunic so I could apply Athelas directly onto his wound.

"Stop that" he cried, I glared at him.

"Stop being a baby, I'm trying to safe your life here, shut it" I kept pressing the plant to Boromir's wound.

"Alex? Are you okay?" asked Aragorn, concern clear in his voice.

"I'm fine, Boromir, not so much, we could use your healing expertise" I said, Boromir raised an eyebrow at me, Aragorn came to crouch next to me "He was shot my an uruk, thankfully the arrow was not filled with poison, I pulled it out and put athelas on the wound" Aragorn nodded, he replaced my hands with his.

"You did good," he said, Boromir and I sighed in relief.

"So Boromir will live?" I asked, Aragorn nodded.

"They took the little ones," said Boromir after Aragorn finished to patch him up "Where's Frodo?"

"I let him go, he's safer this way" Aragorn and Boromir both stood up, I stayed on the ground, Aragorn offered me his hand and I stood with several degrees of difficulty, the adrenaline being already out of my system "Alex, you are bleeding" pointed out Aragorn, I looked at him puzzled, then down at my shirt.

"Fuck" I muttered under my breath, I lifted up my shirt to find a gash to the side of my stomach, I was bleeding and know that I realized it, it hurt like hell. Aragorn immediately slashed up my sweater and pressed the cloth to the wound.

"How do you feel?" he asked holding me tightly.

"Now that you mention it, I feel light" my brain was feeling fuzzy, possible blood loss.

"Aragorn, what is going on?" asked Legolas, his voice sounded far.

"She's hurt, and she's lost too much blood" Aragorn answered, my thoughts kept getting hazier until everything went black.


A/N: If you can recognize the song you know that its not mine, if you haven't heard it, it's Christina Perry's "I Believe" from the PAN soundtrack