The ride back to charming was way better than the ride out of it. I wasn't as tense and I wasn't worried. The talk I had with Jax went really well and I felt good about our just dating nothing official rule. The pull we felt was there and very real but we didn't really know each other. I've known him for a short amount of time and I wanted to know more about him.

We pulled into charming only restaurant and I hopped off his bike and handed him the helmet. He hung it on the handle bars and grabbed my hand leading us inside. There was hardly anyone inside so we got seated immediately.

"Hey guys I'm Ashely. I'll be your server tonight. Can I start you off with some drinks?" She eyed Jax and smiled when he looked at her and I just rolled my eyes. Of course she would attracted to him. Half the school was already obsessed with him and his brother. For good reason to. The Teller boys where frustratingly good looking.

I was happy to see that Jax didnt pay her any mind and ordered some sprite for himself, she wrote it down on her pad and then looked at me. "I'll have a coke"

She nodded as she jotted it down. "Do you guys need a minute? Or are you ready to order?"

"I'm ready. I think we'll have 2 chicken Parmesans" he looked at me and I nodded in confirmation that I did indeed what chicken Parm as well. He smiled "Extra cheese extra sauce please" he told the waitress she again nodded, jotted it down and left after giving him a seductive smile.

The jealously in me raged on but I kept it at bay. He didn't seem to catch her staring at him and that was a good thing. It scores him some cool points.

"So" I began "Tell me something about you?"

"Like what?" He ask as he put folds his hands in front of him on top of the table.

I mimic his movements and smile "like what was your hometown like?"

"Small like this one but there was big city life" he shrugged. "I miss it a little but I'm starting to like it here"

"I'm glad" I offered him a smile which he returned. "Tell me something your scared of?"

He looked up for a second and bit his lip "Well since you told me about your mom. I guess I can tell you about my father" he sighed and continued "Becoming my father is my fear. I was 5 when he left Thomas was 4. One day he was there and the next he was gone. My mom tried to explain it to us when we got older. Said he just didn't know how to be a family man anymore and needed to get away. I still don't get how he could do that but I think I figured it out. He was a coward, someone who ran away from responsibilities, I never want to run. I want to be the kind of man who faces things head on. He couldn't man up but I will"

Now that was something to live by. I guess we had more in common than we thought. We each had a parent that left us and we each didn't want to turn into something we weren't.

"What do you want to do when you graduate?" He suddenly asked me. It was strange cause that was something I've been thinking about for awhile and I still couldn't figure it out myself. I wanted to experience life though. Get out of charming for awhile, see what this world had to offer before coming back to my hometown to settle down.

"Honestly? I have no idea" I chuckled "I've been thinking about it more and more and I can't seem to come up with something. I don't know what I enjoy doing so much I want to make it a career. My whole life has been this town, these people, my family, that it's hard to imagine leaving but I do want to leave. See the country and then come back home to settle down" I stop talking when the waitress brings our food. She places each plate in front of us and leaves again. She came back seconds later with our drinks then left with a flirty smile toward Jax which he didn't catch because he was to busy pouring a mountain of Parmesan cheese on top of his food. I laughed at his antics and then continued "what about you? What do you want to do when you graduate?"

"Haven't decided yet. Mom thinks I should be a mechanic cause I'm good at that sort of thing. My brother thinks I should be a writer" he rolled his eyes "I like to jot things down. Certain situations and shit. It helps me think things threw. Apparently, he's read some of them cause now he won't shut up about it"

"Can I read something sometime?" I asked cause let's be honest him writing? Was highly intriguing and I couldn't help but think if he was any good at the writing thing.

"Sure. It's just stupid stuff but if you want to give it a read" he shrugged and took a bite of his food.

"Does anything interest you? That you might want to do?"

He swallows his food before answering "Honestly, when I graduate, I plan on looking for my father" he sounded skeptical and honestly I didn't get it and I guess that confusion was written on my face because he explained "I just want to know why. What's the real reason he left? And why didn't he ever come back...ya know?"

I nod because yes I did know, I knew exactly what he meant "yeah I get it but just a heads up, even when you know the reason it still doesn't feel good. My mother gave me plenty of reasons and I still hate the fact that she up and left us. Gave up on her family, Just like that" i snap my fingers to make my point. "She quit us not even fighting for us to go with her"

He reached over and took my hands in his "So we have shitty parents in common"

I was happy for light moment in a serious conversation. We were getting to deep "Yeah I guess so. Cheers to us" I raised my glass and he raised his, we clinked them and took a sip for good luck.

"So what about Mike?" He asked after our food came.

Winding up my noodles I look at him "What about him?" I knew he was asking but I wanted to know for sure I never volunteered information and to be honest I didn't know what I was going to do about him. He wasn't going to let me go especially if I got back with him so quickly after I broke up with him the first time.

"Why were you with him?" That's not what I expected and I had to think about it for a second. Why was I with him? Shit that was something I didn't even know.

"I don't know. I've had a lot boyfriends. I guess I just like the companionship" I admit.

He kid and takes a bit of his chicken "But you've never slept with any of them" it's more of a statement than a question and I stop eating just to look at him.

"How do you figure that?" I question.

He doesn't look at me when he speaks, concentrating on his food more than me which I'm grateful for after he says "because when I touch you, your body tenses before it melts" my face gets hot as I blush and I have to look away when he looks up. The fact he noticed that, the fact that he paid that close attention is both embarrassing and completely attractive and as if he picks up on my discomfort he adds "I'm good at reading people especially when I find it worth it" he smirks and I can't help but smile, oh he's getting so many cool points today.

"Seems like your full of surprises"

"You ain't seen nothing yet" he winked at me and shook my head smiling as I continued to eat. The rest of the meal passed by quickly. We didn't talk about anything specific. Just school and classes.

When we finished our meal he paid for our food and we left, heading back to the clubhouse. I loved being on the back of his bike. Despite having one of my own. There was just something about it that made me happy and excited something I never really felt with any of the other guys I've dealt with.

When we arrived at TM I was shocked to see Mikes car still in the parking lot and him coming out of the clubhouse as Jax parked his bike.

Sighing I got off the bike and handed Jax his helmet. "I have to talk to him" I told Jax and he nodded.

"I know. I'll be inside when your done" he kissed my forehead and went inside. Leaving me to face Mike...alone.

"Have fun?" He asked as I approached him.

I knew he was being sarcastic so I didn't even answer him "We need to talk"

He put his hand up "Save it, Tara. I know what your going to say" he motioned toward the picnic table then walked over to have a seat. I sat down next to him then moved to straddle the bench so I can face him. "What is it about him?" He asked and I shook my head.

"its not-" before I could say something else he cut me off.

"I'm not stupid, Tara. Don't say it's not about him" he sounded angry and I guess he had every right to be.

"I wasn't going to say that. I was going to say it's not just one thing about him. It's several. I can't explain it. It's just different" I hated having to admit that. Be that as it may Mike was still a pretty good guy, he could be an ass some times but he was a good guy nonetheless.

"Do you love him?" Whoa curve ball!

"What? No. I've only known him for a couple of weeks"

"And yet he's managed to break us up twice already"

I narrowed my eyes "The first time wasn't about him. You get really possessive and I'm not your property. You should never have spoken about me like I was some sort of slave to you" I spat.

His shoulders sagged and he deflated "Im sorry. I was just upset"

"I know and it's ok. You have a reason to be" sighing again I ran my hand threw my hair and stood up "look you should know. Jax and I are dating. We're not together officially but I can't ignore the pull I feel towards him. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I really really am. That was never my intention and I'm sorry"

He stood up to "He's going to hurt you, you know and when he does I'll be there to pick you up" he kissed my forehead just like Jax did minutes before but this felt different.

Jaxs touch leaves me tingling unlike when Mike touches me and I feel nothing. I watch him as he walks away, gets into his car and speeds off the lot. I feel horrible for doing that to him but it was the Absoulte truth. I couldn't just keep seeing him and sneaking behind his back to see Jax. They both deserved better.

I take a few minutes to myself before I walk into the clubhouse in search of Jax. When I spot him, he's in the corner with a group our friends sandwiched between that chick I found him with in the bathroom and Ima.

Nope. That wasn't going to work for me. Jax looks up at me and smiles when I stand in front of him.

"Hey"

"Hey" I smile down at him and plant myself in his lap then take his beer and take a swig.

"Are you guys like together?" Ima ask, a sour look planted on her face.

We both look at each other and start to laugh. "Nope" he said "Were just dating"

Nodding my head in agreement I take another sip of his beer then place it on the table beside us. "It's complicated to explain but not complicated for us" I shrug. That's the only explanation their going to get and it seems like our brother are just fine with it. The only people grumbling were bathroom bitch and Ima. Not that I cared but I like to make sure my point gets a cross.

"So about our second date..." I begin and he grins and kisses my cheek as I wrap my arm around his shoulders. Looking back at Ima I can tell she gets the message and I'm glad. Me and Jax may not be together (Officially) but he was off limits and id make sure everyone knew it.

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