Everything is blurry as I speed past houses and head to the only road out of this poisonous town that has brought me nothing but grief.

The only good so far is Tara. She was the only clarity I had throughout all of this. Her support was unwavering and I will always be grateful for it. Even now, as she holds on tightly to me as we sped out of town, she was comforting me. Kissing my shoulder, trying to tell me it was going to be ok. I wanted to believe her, I really did but I just couldn't.

My mother lied about so much, married a guy just for his status, didn't tell me my father was alive or that I had a sister. Wanted me to join an MC because it was my "Legacy" what ever that meant.

I didn't know what to do or where I was going for that matter. Looking around I saw a street sign announcing that we were headed to a town called Lodi. Sighing, I slowed down and pulled into a rest stop.

I didn't want to get far besides, I needed to call Thomas and have a talk with him, before our crazy ass mother got to him first.

I stopped my bike around some picnic tables near the edge of the woods and waited for Tara to hop off before I followed her. Swinging my leg over I sat sideways on my bike took out my phone and sent a quick text to Thomas telling him I needed to talk to him ASAP and told him where to meet me and to come alone.

After I pocket my phone I look Up To see an exploring Tara. She's looking up at a massive red wood, She looks pensive but has a small smile on her face. "Hey" reaching out I grab her wrist and gently pull her to me. She stands between my spread legs and I wrap my arms loosely around her waist.

"Hey you" She smiles "How you holding up?" She asks as she runs her hands threw my hair.

Shrugging, I pull her a bit closer "I'm fine. It's just...a lot. My mom" sighing, I shake my head "She lied about everything. I just can't believe she knew. Me and Thomas have been her world for so long and now this happens and I just feel...betrayed."

Nodding, she sighs a bit and rest her forehead against mine "I'm sorry, Jax. I wish things went differently and I hate that your going threw this now but you don't have to do it alone. You have Thomas and me and everyone else. We can help you figure this out"

Nodding, I smile and kiss her nose "Thank you" she was pretty amazing and for having just met her a few months ago she was handling my family drama pretty well. I was grateful for it because honestly I didn't know how to handle it myself and hell if I knew how Thomas was going to handle it. "what should we do next?" I asked her and she smiled a bit and shrugged her shoulders.

"We tell Thomas and then we figure it out."

Nodding, I pull her closer and lay my head on top of hers as she lays her head on my chest. For a while we stay just like that.

I don't remember the last time I had a steady girlfriend Girls were just a means to an end with me but Tara...she was...different I guess. She felt right. Nothing about us being together felt forced. It didn't feel like I was just with her to get laid or anything it just felt natural. Like this was exactly where I was supposed to be. Not in this situation of course but here with her comfortably fitted in my arms

Finally, I heard the familiar roar of my brothers bike and I lifted my head after placing a kiss to Tara's forehead.

She pulls away and looks up at me with a small smile. "Ready?"

Shrugging, I sigh "I guess. I just don't know how he's going to react. I know my brother pretty well but this" I run my hand across my face as I watch him pull into the gas station "I just don't know"

She doesn't give a reply just simply nods and takes a step back.

We watch as Thomas parked next to me, turned off his bike and climb off. He swung his helmet on the handle bars and walked over to us, mild alarm showed in his features.

"What the hell is the big emergency?" He took out his phone and showed it to me "I have 12 missed calls from mom but I couldn't answer cause I was on my way here. What the hell is going on?" He looks between us and I reach over, grabbing his phone I turn it off and put it my front my pocket.

"Let's go sit. I'll explain everything"

"Jax what the fuck? Your scaring me man!" He nearly shouts but follows me to a picnic table anyway. Tara squeezes my hand in reassurance and I raise our joined hands to kiss the back of hers. I'm grateful she's here, more so now than ever. I'd be able to tell him the back story but she'd be able to fill in the blanks about our father.

Thomas takes a seat in front of us and looks at me expectantly.

Sighing, I run a hand down my face. How do I start?

"Jesus Christ, Jax. Just spit it out" Tara sighs from beside me her tone exasperated "Your building anticipation for no reason"

I look at her bewildered surly she know this is going to change our entire life but then shes taking her hand out of mine and reaching behind us to grab the picture out of my back pocket and I lift involuntarily so she can snatch it. I watch as she places the picture of the first 9 in front of Thomas and he takes it tentatively. I can spot the moment he realizes what he's looking at. His eyes go wide and he looks at both of us before he looks back at the picture.

"This is about dad?" He asks and I nod. He looks to Tara and points to the picture "your dad is in this picture to"

she nods. "Your dad is my god father" she tells him and he sucks in a surprised breathe but still looks to her for answers and I'm glad for it cause there was no way I would be able to give them to him.

She starts from the beginning. How we went to her house and how she wanted to show me the world she grew up in. How she started with pictures of the first founders of the club and how I had reacted and told her about John being my father and finally how she couldn't sleep and went down and found her father.

She replayed the whole conversation, told him about the first son rule and everything that went with it and he sat and listened to her every word. His face showing no emotion. He was good at that better than me. He Never showed emotion until after he could take everything in. Me, I was the opposite, react now think later.

When she was done he looked to me and what Tara couldn't see was the anguish hidden behind them. "He's alive?"

I Shrug "I don't know. Nobody really knows but Tara says she thinks he's still alive"

"Uncle John was one of the best riders I know. There's no way he could have died being hit by a semi"

"Uncle John" Thomas snorts and shakes his head. "This is un real"

I nod "it is but that's not all"

"What more could there be?"

This was going to hurt him more than anything. Knowing that our mother knew all about this his going to hurt more than learning our father might be alive, living his life some where.

Tara pats my shoulder and stands taking her phone out her pocket. "It's Opie. I wanna know what's going on back home" she kisses my cheek and walks a little distance before picking up the call.

"Well how much worse can it be? Our father was or is alive and was living here while mom was busy raising us herself and not to mention he knocked up some other woman so now we have a sister god knows where."

Looking toward the red woods I sigh and drop the bomb "mom knew all of it. Married clay and brought us here so he can take over as president because of the first son rule. Wants us to join the club and wants me to be president one day"

There's a moment of silence and then his breathing becomes heavier and then his hand slams on to the table and I can hear him get up then turn my head to watch him pace. "How can she do that?! Why would she do this?! This club doesn't belong to us. If dad left so we wouldn't be apart of it what makes her think it's ok to come back here and just take everything over?!" He starts to rant and I block him out a bit as I take out a joint and light up.

Everything he's asking I've been asking myself. I don't necessarily want to think about it again.

His rant stops when Tara returns and tell us that Opie is on his way.

"Your mom is going crazy looking for you guys. She isn't to happy"

We both snort "yeah well we're not to happy either" Thomas tells her and practically snatches the joint from my hand.

"Dad said she's raising hell. Demanding they send prospects out to come find you" she tells me and sits on top of the table next to me.

"They won't find us out here." I tell her and she nods thoughtfully.

"Opie wants to talk about what's gonna happen next and how we can stop the first son rule from happening"

I run my hand up her thigh and smile up at her "thanks for being here"

She looks at thomas who's still pacing and finishing up the joint he took from me. Turning back to me she runs her hands threw my hair and bends to kiss me "where else would I be?" She whispers against my lips before kissing me one more time and pulling away. "Besides this whole thing affects my family to"

She props herself back on her hands and closes her eyes as she basks in the heat the sun provides. Shes extremely beautiful, smart and strong. I don't know how I lucked out with pulling a chick like her. She's pretty much my equal and threw out all this chaos she's been my saving grace.

Standing up, I stand in front of her and place my hands on her thighs. Her head snaps up and she smiles at me and sits up. I pull her to edge of the table and stand between her legs. "That kiss didn't satisfy me much" I smirk at her and pull her a little closer.

She laughs a bit and wraps her arms around my neck, dipping her head and connecting her lips to mine. The spark is instant. The minute her lips are on mine the whole world falls apart. She parts her lips in invitation and I dive in loving the taste of her. Her lips are so soft I can't help but pull at the bottom one before fully indulging in her kiss.

Jesus Christ, I wanna lay her down on this table and just get lost in her but the roar of a motorcycle and I can acutely hear Thomas calling me. With one last parting kiss, I lean my forehead on hers. "Now that's a kiss"

She laughs "glad I can satisfy" she winks and pushes me back a little so she can stand. "Maybe when we finish up everything we can get some alone time in?" She questions and I smile down at her and nod.

"Sounds like a date" dipping I kiss her one more time before I turn to Opie who's being greeted by Thomas.

"I'm sorry man. I didn't know my mom moving us here would cause all this trouble" I tell him as I stride over with Tara hand in mine.

He shrugs and lights up a cigarette "ain't your fault. Come let's sit and talk this shit out"

We all walk back to the bench and take our seats. Thomas starts shooting questions at Opie like fire cracker one right after the other. Opie answers each one to the best of his knowledge.

We learn that the only way to stop the first son rule is if John signs over his first 9 rights pretty much. "So we pretty much have to find out if your father is actually alive or not" Opie tells up

"But if we do that wouldn't he have to take over anyway since he's alive?" Thomas asks and Opie shrugs.

"Growing up. I was told I would be VP one day. Like my dad was but then uncle John died or so we thought and that changed. Suddenly people started telling me I'd take over and that I was being groomed to be president. I accepted that." He shrugs again and looks to both of us before settling on his sister "I told you before I didn't want the gavel. To much responsibility and I ain't much for decision making" he sets his eyes on me and sighs "id be a much better VP but this was the hand I've been dealt."

"What if Jax doesn't want to be President?" Thomas asks "would they look to me?"

Opie nods and flicks his cigarette "probably"

Thomas looks thoughtful but other wise remains silent. Would he want to join the club? That would be something we would talk about in private. I didn't know how he felt about it but seeing as how all of this just fell into our lap I would guess it's a lot to take in for him to.

"Oh my god I got it!" Tara shouts suddenly and we all look to her. She's smiling and looking at each of us.

Opie shakes his head "oh no I know that look" he points to his sister.

"What look?" Thomas and I ask at the same time and shift out gazes between the siblings.

"It's the look she gets when she's about to come up with a-"

"We should go to Ireland and look for Uncle John!" She shouts.

"really bad idea" Opie finishes.

But as it turns out...the idea wasn't really all that bad.

A/N: Honestly I can't believe how long it's taken me to write a chapter for this story!

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