Young and Trapped

Chapter 3: I need her

Miku bid Shidou farewell with a kiss with everything and tongue, he was getting used to it, but he kept blushing and she was not, as if she were completely normal.

He went back to the room he had with his partner, but he got lost because the mansion was huge and with many rooms that he would explore later, the good thing is that there was a whole group of servants and butlers, so he asked for help to go back to his room.

"Here you are".

He took his black leather wallet, he could feel it when he touched it and when he opened it, there was a yen sign in his eyes, as well as a smile. Carry just enough cash? Those days were dead!

"Shidou-sama, by the way, which car would you like to use today? To give you the keys", she asked from the other side of the door, but the man opened it quickly with great anxiety.

"What did you say?" The maid with brown hair and chocolate eyes was a little surprised.

"Your cars, Shidou-sama, they're all clean and I don't think they need to refuel, I've got the keys here, so I ask which of them all wants to take".

"I need to see them before I choose!"

Shidou was taken to the garage, his impression was enormous, he had never had a car in his life, he couldn't help but be happy, because there he had four cars; two sports cars and two more normal ones, in red, blue, yellow and black, just in that order.

He smiled and wanted to cry, every man has ever wanted to have his own car, maybe just to know what it feels like and others because they have always wanted it, even out of necessity.

"I'm glad you're happy, Shidou-sama," said the maid with a small smile and one hand on her chest, the other holding the bunch of keys. "It's impossible not to notice".

"They're all so... So pretty!"

"Hehe, they are all yours and you can choose whoever you want", she said with a smile as she watched as Shidou turned to her with a smile, but then turned to see the cars, to choose one.

It was difficult, everyone looked so great, he knew how to drive, of course, but it was the first time he could drive cars as expensive and elegant as those. He had a wallet full of money, plus a credit card, a beautiful and talented wife, what more could he ask for?

The maid saw that Shidou was going to take a long time to see each car, something strange in him, he always chose without seeing them and he was not so animated, although with his wife he was; Miku had all his attention and since he didn't have much to do, he got a little sad and lonely. The woman approached him from behind and embraced him, Shidou had a chill.

"Ah?"

"Have you made up your mind, Shidou-sama? It seems needed", she said in a whisper as she blushed because of the closeness, she had not had the courage to do this before, because of the man's attitude, but as she saw him so happy and friendly, she could not help it.

Shidou was speechless, he was not blushing, he was very surprised, had this ever happened before? Was he now harassed by women for becoming famous and having a lot of money? What's a little worse: was he harassed in his own home?


"Shidou!" He was hugged very tightly by his back, he smiled bitterly at Tohka, who was smiling. "Have you finished shopping? Look, look, I found a small watermelon!"

"That's great, Tohka, we could eat it together today, but I think you're going to finish it all," he said with a bitter smile, she pouted.

"I'm not so gluttonous, besides, I want to share it with you. Reine told me that being married means sharing everything".


"Let me go," he said in a dark voice, the woman paled and when he turned to her, she saw yellow eyes on the man. "Let go of me, please".

"Of course, Shidou-sama" spoke as a robot, Shidou had used Miku's powers without knowing it, took the bunch of keys and tested each key in the blue sports car, until he found the right one.

Shidou rubbed his eyes with guilt, annoyance and even sadness. He was doing everything wrong, he couldn't get that woman out of his head, although now he didn't remember anything about appointments, he felt so bad when that maid hugged him as if she were used to it, as if she were his...

"Tohka... Damn it!" He thought while driving, crying anime style. "That's supposed to be a dream, isn't it? I love Miku... I like her, I love her, I love this car, the house, the food, this life!"

But he couldn't enjoy it, he knew something was missing, this was too perfect, too boring, although his job of doing calculations and calculations was too, now he didn't have to do anything like that! He didn't have to worry about money! However, a latent space demanded a piece he didn't have today.

He paid all the bills in a short time, he got lost in the mall without paying attention to anything special, he noticed that people were paying attention to him, it was uncomfortable, but he tried to hide it. Even some girls came up to tell him to have a good day and make Miku very happy, he was surprised by that, and they wished him luck.

"Ahh". He dropped himself on a park bench and touched his locks of hair, the wind rocked the others and carried away his thoughts. "Since when did I get long hair?"

He couldn't remember, he always had it like when he was 16, like when he was still a normal high school student who didn't know the existence of spirits, besides that for work you should look presentable in every rule, having short hair was part of that.

He looked at his face in a puddle of water nearby, it must have rained earlier, his reflection portrayed a mature Shidou, good-looking, without dark circles, without fatigue, with longer hair and with a well worked body, but he was not happy.

His brown eyes came to see that gold ring on his finger, he smiled bitterly, he remembered having a silver ring that Ratatoskr bought him, both for himself and for Tohka, Kotori herself gave them to him.

He called her.

"Oh, what a surprise, Onii-chan", she said when answering the phone, much more cheerful. "Sorry for answering badly earlier, but seriously, it's Sunday, you should spend it with Miku today".

"She's busy rehearsing for her concert or something", he replied unwillingly.

"Oh, I see". But that's where the conversation ended, Kotori gave a slight laugh. "And what are you calling for?"

"Well, I wanted to know if you're all right".

"Of course you I am, just a little tired. Did something happen to you?"

"No, of course not", he replied with lies, her sister let it go.

"Well, you don't have to worry about your little sister, it's very rare for you to call, Onii-chan, but I'm glad you think a little more of me than Miku, you sure feel lonely and that's why you call me", she said with a giggle at the end, Shidou bowed his head and sighed with a small smile.

"You haven't changed much, you're still my pretty little sister, although I'm sorry I don't call or visit you", he said a little melancholy, he remembered that he always called her on certain days, besides visiting her at home, he never stopped worrying about her and Tohka. Deep inside, he was still the man of the house on both sides, he was still responsible. "I feel strange, Kotori..."

"And I feel weird about all this, are you sure you're okay? I don't blame you, I understand you're already married, you're quite a man now, Onii-chan, it can't be avoided".

"Really?" He asked a little disappointed. "Am I really like that with you now?"

"No problem, really! Geez, I told you it can't be avoided", she said a little nervously, didn't understand what was happening to her brother, he looked like someone else.

"Kotori, how is my relationship with Miku? I'm unsure of something, please don't ask me why". The truth is that Shidou had no way to explain it and that was depressing, he seemed to be the only madman in all this, Kotori sighed and blushed.

"I-I don't have to tell you, you're very... You know that, Onii-chan" replied a little nervous and embarrassed. "You love each other too much and I can tell, besides that she's very provocative, she always was and that bothered me, but that doesn't matter anymore!"

She said blushing, remembering those days when she was jealous of her brother, until Miku really took him away from her when they got married.

"Well, you get along well, you're always together and don't worry, you know Miku wouldn't love anyone but you, no matter how famous she becomes and how much money she spends on pure shoes and clothes, you know how she is".

"Tell me more", he said with a small smile as he recharged on the bench.

"And also... I would say your relationship is... intense. I wouldn't be surprised if one day you come home with several children". Shidou had never thought of that, busy working and supporting Tohka, it was impossible to think about children, so he started laughing. "I mean it, Miku is always with you!"

"I know, but it's too early for that, I guess". Shidou got serious this time. "Kotori, is it a little crazy to imagine my life differently?"

"Hmm... I really don't think you would want to change anything in your life, you have everything you could wish for and Miku loves you, that's what matters to me, plus you love her, I know you're happy, even if they have their eye on you, watch out for that!" she said in an orderly tone, as when she was commander of Fraxinus, Shidou shivered slightly. "Well... What have you been thinking?"

"But I don't love her". His mind never stopped thinking of Tohka, even if she didn't have a body like Miku's, he did love her, only so he could explain how he felt.

"I imagine myself married to someone else, don't worry, in my dreams it's someone I love, it was also a spirit, someone who didn't have a name and I gave it to her, someone clumsy, naive, simple, innocent and affectionate". Kotori opened her eyes like a plate, but she paid a lot of attention, Shidou said it all with feeling.

"I married her to save the world, to prevent her from destroying the city, she was too jealous and Origami always bothered her, it was funny now that I think about it" he said with a slight laugh, he seemed to talk about something more than a dream. "I had a good job, I lived in an apartment with what was necessary, my wife didn't work, she didn't have any talent, except for eating a lot, so we didn't allow ourselves so many things and I always had to cook, although she did too. I came home tired after working a lot, everything to work even more at home and on the weekend, it never seemed to end and I was fed up. But she was there, making things difficult for me, but giving everything of herself... To me".

He said with some guilt.

"It's crazy because Miku is my wife, but... I feel so strange, all this seems more like a dream than that dream I'm talking about, Kotori..."

"Well..." she said insecure, then sighed. "I don't think you're crazy, in fact, I had so much to listen to you like that, Onii-chan... So long that it seems almost unreal, you don't seem like my brother. And I know there are no more spirits and what you tell me is so strange that I should yell at you for dreaming of another woman who is not Miku, but... Just listen to yourself, my goodness".

"I know it is wrong..." he whispered, it was not right either for Tohka what he had done with Miku so far, or for Miku for not loving her. "I'm sorry".

"Shidou, you must not forget the person you love, no matter what happens, and I know that this is Miku, although in your dream is someone else. Maybe you're forgetting something and I'm sorry, Onii-chan, I'm not the closest person to help you now, but..." And he noticed movement on the other side, Kotori changed her ribbons, he knew immediately. "You're a man, Shidou! I know you can do this, you saved the world, you saved Miku, you gave her back her faith in her dreams and gave him more motivation than anyone else, you also saved me, but you are the only one who can do something with this. Shidou, I love you very much, even if you're no longer with me, it doesn't matter anymore, because I can feel it... Right here. And I know you feel the same way about the person you love, so stop wasting time with me and go for Miku, stop doubting, I know she is the person you love".

"I love you too, Kotori" said sadly, but a little more motivated, then hung without waiting for an answer. "But I don't love Miku, Kotori".

He returned to his car and drove for quite some time, circling, until he reached that place overlooking the city Tenguu, where he kissed Tohka for the first time, where he sealed it and promised to be always with her.

There he dropped to his knees in front of the railing; hit it a couple of times, but only hurt himself, had the eyes of a spirit, but didn't have the strength of Tohka. He remembered that little hooded woman and clenched his fists.

"Please!" he shouted loudly, unleashing his powers a little into the wind, his eyes on the blue sky, as if speaking to god. "I don't want this! Yes, I know I asked for it! And I have everything I wanted, but I didn't know what I wanted! I don't care about luxury, or living without worries, or how beautiful a woman can be, or her talent! I want my life, please!"

His voice went out, he felt a drop in energy from the use of his powers.

"I don't mind having a heavy job, I don't care if I have to work more and more at home; in that little apartment that I don't finish paying on time, I don't care if Tohka is the way she is, I love her like that, I miss her... I don't love Miku, I'm sure there's a Shidou who loves her like my sister says, but that's not me!"

He shed a couple of tears, nobody answered his prayers, he ended up getting up and thought about that little woman who was surely the cause of all this.

"LISTEN TO ME!" he shouted at the top of his lungs, resulting in a sound wave so loud that it shattered several parts of the city and left the shattered crystals of at least fifty buildings, destruction spread as the wave advanced and lost strength. "Ah, Ah... Ah..."

His eyes stopped being yellow and he wiped his tears, he was losing control and he dropped to control himself with breaths. When he calmed down, he returned home with the mood on the floor, he wanted to wake up from all this, he wanted to return with Tohka, he missed her very much, he regretted having wished for something different from what he had, because now he understood that he had everything he wanted, he didn't need another wife, nor a better life.

That night there was no action with Miku, she felt Shidou very distant with her, he did not want to do anything and wished with all his strength to be with Tohka again, wanted to wake up with her at his side, needed her.

Shidou fell asleep thinking about it, until fatigue, guilt and sadness made him fall, until he fell asleep, he didn't know that Miku was sad because of his attitude, he didn't know that she hugged him in the back and told him that everything would be fine and that she loved him. He didn't know many things.


But when he woke up he felt that he was on top of something soft, surely Miku had it between her big breasts or it was a thing of the high quality pillows he had now, anyway, he felt pain in his neck, in his back, his spirit was surely so broken that he didn't feel like opening his eyes, not even when he heard a soft alarm and the complaint of a female voice.

He didn't want to know anything about anyone and he didn't want to move.

"Agh, Tskkk" she said as she stretched and stuck her breasts closer to Shidou's face, so much so that she could no longer breathe, but that didn't matter to her partner and she ended up turning off the alarm, but she fell to the floor. "Wahh!"

Shidou knew that, at least out of politeness, he had to see if Miku was all right, even though he wasn't interested at all. So he approached the edge of the bed with a blurred look, the pain was still there.

"Are you... okay?" he asked without opening his eyes wide, his back hurt a lot, he didn't understand why.

"Oh, I forgot to turn that thing off yesterday, my love, I'm sorry!" she said with a drop on her head and scratching her head, Shidou opened his eyes immediately. "What's the matter? Didn't you sleep well?"

"Tohka!" he shouted with a thread of voice, to jump directly at her and embrace her as tightly as she had done in the past, almost crushing her. "Tohka, I missed you so much!"

"Huh?!"

"I love you, Tohka!" he said happily and crying anime style, kissed her on the mouth tenderly, but didn't control himself and threw her to the ground, she blushed a lot. "I... I can only love Tohka, there is no one else!"

"I only love you too, Shidou" she said with a smile, Shidou kissed her on her cheeks with tenderness, then on her forehead, Tohka was very happy for the way he was treating her, it seemed that he wanted to mark her all over his face. "What's wrong with you, Shidou?"

"I had a dream that looked nice, but you weren't there, I was very sad, I missed seeing you smile so much, the color of your eyes, your hair, your cheeks that always blush when you eat my food that I love to prepare for you". Shidou felt the sky touching his wife's breasts, making her blush and letting out a slight groan. "And although there are bigger ones, I love your breasts, Tohka..."

"Shi-Shidou..."

"Tohka, it's okay if you're not the best wife of all, I don't want any other, you're perfect and I love you, I even missed this little apartment that I haven't even paid my rent for the month!"

She became nervous about what he was saying, but when he carried her in his arms to get her back to bed and kissed her passionately, her mind went blank.

"I love you, I love only you, I want to wake up every day and that you are by my side, I cannot stand it anymore..."

"You don't have to." She completely took off her unbuttoned shirt and let Shidou release her feelings in it. Tohka thought she loved Shidou more now because of everything he had said, if that was possible.

They were tired after many things, but Shidou was afraid to fall asleep again, he fought, but being between the breasts of his Tohka and being so close together, sharing his warmth and feeling the softness of her skin, as they were without anything to cover them, he could no longer and fell asleep. Hoping to wake up with the person he loved and not with another different.

When he woke up he was still in that small room of his apartment, he was still in his wife's breasts while she embraced him, he still had a thin body, pain in his back, tiredness and dark circles under his eyes, but he was happy and smiling.


But elsewhere, in another world, in another home, in another room, in another bed, Shidou also slept and did it as always; glued his body to that of his wife who slept with little or very thin clothes which left nothing to the imagination, hugging her on the back and with his hand over her stomach or her spongy and soft breasts, he was used to it and his wife was his and no one else's, poor man who wanted to try to keep her away from him, because he loved her too much and too intensely.

Yes, Shidou Itsuka slept with confidence after having made love with the woman of all his nights, without imagining what was going to happen to him when he woke up...

"But that's another story, isn't it, Raziel?" said a woman with gray hair and blue eyes, finishing writing in a book that looked like the Bible, smiled.

It seems he's back with Tohka, but then... Who's this new Shidou? What's this mysterious woman up to? What's in store for Shidou Itsuka? We'll find out in the following chapters!