The Talk
Lena wakes up tangled between Kara's arms. She is just so happy to have her friend there with her. Kara's getting better even if it's taking some time to happen. Lena just loves Kara so much, she'd do anything for her. Today she plans on spending it with Kara. After her breakdown the day before she realizes Kara needed her friend close to her, this was getting to Kara's head and she needed the support.
Lena gets out of bed and goes to the kitchen to get started on breakfast. Kara didn't even stir as Lena got out. She was tired from the day before. Lena was going to make her a filling breakfast. She got started on the pancakes and a fruit bowl too. Her chef would get there soon, but she wanted to do this for Kara. As she was done with the pancakes and the fruit someone knocked on the front door.
Lena opened the door to Alex, who was carrying Kara's journal with her.
"Hey Alex, come in. I'm making breakfast, are you hungry?" Lena motioned for her to get in and Alex followed her to the kitchen.
"Hey Lena, thanks, but I am in kind of a hurry, late for work. Is Kara awake yet?" Alex said as she sat on the stool in front of the kitchen counter and watched as Lena finished breakfast.
"Not yet, she is out cold. She kind had an emotional breakdown yesterday. I think everything finally hit her. Maybe you should talk to her, it would help her." Lena was putting everything inside a tray along with a cup of coffee for Kara.
"I wish I had the time today, but I really need to get going. I just stopped here to bring this to Kara. Can you give it to her for me? I'll try to come by tomorrow to talk to her." Alex was now worried for Kara, but she couldn't stay today and that was breaking her heart, her sister needed her and she had to work. Maybe the journal would help her.
"That's a shame, but if you can tomorrow, I think it would be good for her. You can just put on the table there and I'll give it to her." Lena said as she watched Alex expression, she was sad and worried for Kara.
Alex stood up and thanked Lena for everything, but she had to leave. She left Kara's journal and went to work.
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Lena entered Kara's bedroom carrying the tray of food. She settled it on the bedside table and stood there watching Kara sleep. She was so beautiful, even after all of what had happened to her.
It didn't take long for Kara to wake up. She opened her eyes and grumbled a little. Lena could see that she was in pain. She thought to herself, maybe Kara always woke in pain and that she needed to fix that. Maybe Kara needed more painkillers before going to sleep. It was evident Kara had been waking up feeling pain the last few days. So Lena promptly went in search of some painkillers for her.
"Hey sweetie. Here, take these pills. You'll feel better." She gave them to Kara and helped her with the water.
"Thanks Lee." Kara's voice was hoarse from sleep. She was still in pain, but opened a big smile as she saw Lena beside her with a tray of food. "Is that for me?" She tried sting up, but her arms were still weak, so Lena immediately jumped to help her.
"Yeah, darling. Made it for you. Here, is that comfortable?" Lena put various pillows around Kara to make her more comfortable.
"Thanks Lee. Yes, it's pretty good. You didn't need to do this. But it looks delicious. And I'm starving." Kara cheerfully through her pain. She loved that Lena was so good to her.
"Good, then you should eat it soon, it's getting cold. I'll help you darling." Lena sat beside Kara and got helped her eat the food. This part of the new routine Kara had already gotten used to, and she definitely liked it.
"Thanks Lee. You're spoiling me, you know that right. How can I eat without you after this." She gave Lena a wink.
"And who said that you'll need to?" Lena quirked her eyebrow in answer. They talked while Kara ate. They fell into the usual easiness of their conversation. Kara just laughed.
After Kara ate all of her meal Lena said. "By the way, Alex came by this morning and left your journal for you. I'll bring it up to you." Lena left the room with the empty tray and came back with Kara's journal.
"Here Kara, I think it would be good for you to write a little. I need to work a few things on my laptop, but today I'm staying in. Joanne must already be up, I'll send her in okay? Need anything?" Lena was already at door when Kara answered.
"Just, do you have a pen Lee, and that thing the doctor gave me to hold it?" Kara asked in a low voice almost as if she were embarrassed.
"Sure darling. It's over there inside that drawer, I'll get it for you." Lena opened the drawer and took it out a pen holder, and a pen for Kara to write on her journal.
"Thanks Lee." Kara tried to put it on herself, but Lena watching Kara struggle with the pen holder put her hand on Kara's arm and helped her. Smiling at Kara, she easily got it on her wrist, and left Kara to her writing. Kara gave a thankful smile that lit up her face.
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Joanne helped Kara during the day, she gave her a bath and helped her get ready for physio therapy. Lena had said she was going to observe during Kara's session today, she hadn't told Kara that yet, so when Lena showed up before it started Kara was surprised.
"Are you going to watch me?" Kara said as she looked at her feet, embarrassed that Lena would see struggle during her session today.
"Yes darling. Are you uncomfortable with me being here? If you want I can leave." Lena said as she knelled in front of Kara.
"No, it's okay, is just not the prettiest sight, me being a total uncoordinated person." Kara didn't want Lena to think she was uncomfortable with her. Maybe she was just nervous the girl she liked would see her trying to do a lot of things she struggled with now, it was just her pride that would wounded, just a little, she could muster through it.
"Okay then, I'll seat here on the corner, just forget I'm here. After this we could watch a few movies if you're up for it." Lena said as she stood up from the ground.
"Sure, I would love it Lee." Kara made her way up to Joanne and the physical therapist to start her session.
It was brutal, Lena almost couldn't keep watching sometimes. Kara had a really hard time doing everything. She could see the strain on Kara's face. Kara tried to move her legs, but nothing would happen, needing her doctor to help. At least with her arms and hands Lena could see Kara do something. Not much, but it was better than with her legs.
She could move her arms, but didn't have strength to hold them up too long, or to hold things. But as the session progressed she started to be able to hold little things and Lena cheered every time she would manage to do stay holding something and this boosted Kara's self-esteem, helping her hold more each time. It made her happy that Lena was there for her, and everyone noticed the difference from the day before.
Maybe it was because Lena was, maybe because Kara let go of her worries, but the day had a much more positive outcome than the last one and even her doctor complimented her on it.
"Today was great Kara, I wanna see this commitment everyday from now on. Continue like this and it won't take very long for you to be running around again." Doctor Smith said to her as he was leaving the room.
"Thanks doctor. I feel much better today too." Kara was blushing, she knew why today had been better. She had someone rooting for her, and that made all the difference.
"You were great Kara. I am so proud of you, you're so strong, and even with all this kryptonite inside you you're really improving."Lena cheerfully said as she gave Kara a tight hug. She was so happy her friend was getting better.
"Thank you. I don't know if that's true. I only did what I could, there's so much I need to get better at still." Kara was humble, she still needed a lot of work to go.
"Don't underestimate your efforts Kara, but your right there's still a lot of work to do, we are at the beginning, but I'll be here with you. Now let's get lunch so we can have our movie marathon okay?" Lena said as she stepped behind Kara to push her chair to the kitchen.
"Yes please, I'm starving." Kara chuckled as Lena pushed her to kitchen.
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After eating the nutritional meal Lena's chef had prepared she and Kara went to the living room to have a movie marathon. They started with "Gone with the Wind". It was the middle of the movie when Kara asked Lena to stop the movie.
"Lee, can we talk a little, I feel like there's so much we be talking about. What is going on here? I mean, I think you know what I mean." Kara turns towards Lena, who shyly gives her a smile.
Turning to face Kara Lena takes Kara's hand into her own. "Kara, I know what you mean. Well, I have feeling for you Kara. Deep feelings, and I can only hope that you feel the same. So do you?"
Kara looks inside Lena's eyes and sees there the love shining through her eyes. "I…I…how could I not have feelings for you too Lee? Since the first time I saw you, I knew you were the one for me. Yes, I do have them. I just worry that we still haven't resolved all the lies I told you. Are you okay with that really?" Kara looked worried.
Lena gave her hand a light squeeze and answered her. "Kar, all that is gone now, it all passed, all of my anger vanished when I saw you lying on that hospital bed. I'm not dwelling on that Kara. I don't want to lose someone so important to me due to pettiness. I am over that, and I would like us to be something when you feel like you are ready. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable with me."
"Well, it's not the best of times, but I think we lost enough time as it is, with our fight and me getting hurt. I just don't know if starting this right now would be fare to you. I'm not 100%, it will take time to get there, so I'm not in the best place, I don't want to put you through all of my problems." A tear escaped Kara's right eye. Lena reached with her thumb to wipe it away.
"Hey, I am here right? I decided that I wanted this. I will help you either as a friend or as something more, that is up to you Kar, I won't push it. So will go on your pace and we'll deal with every problem together, I promise you I want this more than anything I ever wanted and it'll not be a few problems that are going to stop me wanting you."
Kara leaned on Lena's body and brushed her lips on her's. Lena pulled Kara closer to her bringing their lips together, the tenderness of Kara's lips surprising her. Lena depended the kiss, but Kara pulled away after a few moments of having given in.
"Sorry Lee, I just… I needed air." Kara was heaving, her chest was breathing rapidly. It was a panic attack that it was starting to build up inside her.
Lena hugged her very hard, she knew what was going on. Kara was overwhelmed with everything. She needed time, and Lena was going to give it to her. She rubbed circled on Kara's back.
"Hey Kar, just hear the sound of my voice, try to ground yourself. Breathe in and breathe out, slowly, that's it darling." Kara was starting to calm herself. Lena's voice brought her to the moment and her breathing evened out.
"Thanks Lee. I don't know where that came from." Kara rested her head on Lena's shoulder while Lena hugged her.
"It's okay Kar. We can go slow, you'll set the pace alright?" Lena reassured her that they would go on Kara's speed, she would determine the pace of their relationship.
"Okay, can we finish watching the movie?" Kara asked Lena, when she felt better.
"Of course, let me get the control." Lena started the movie again, but they stayed in each other's arms.
They ended the movie marathon after three more movies and then they went to sleep separately that night. Kara wanted to think about things.
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The next day Lena had to work so Kara woke up to Joanne and then she had to go her third session of physio, which was good one, she was feeling much better than the first day.
Lena had a good effect on her. She knew she loved Lena and she wanted to be with her more than anything, she just didn't know how. Maybe with time she would learn how to navigate her injuries and be with Lena.
After having lunch with Joanne, Alex stopped by again and they had a sister's talk.
"I'm in love with her Alex, I really want to be with her, I just don't know to be with her like this. She says she wants it too. I know she does, but she's letting me set the pace." Alex was seated at the coach facing Kara.
"Ow sis, I know you love her, and anyone can see that she loves you too. Just take one day at a time. You'll start to feel more comfortable, I can already see that you're better today than before, and when you're body tells you to just go for it. I'm sure Lena there's no problem with any of this Kar. She set up all of her house for you." Alex motioned her hands to all that was around them.
"Yeah I know. I'll just go slowly then, I don't want to do more than I can for now." Alex hugged Kara until Kara pulled away.
"That's it Kar, just take your time, everything will be fine. Now I have to go to work. I'll be back in couple of days okay? Need anything?" Alex was getting up to leave.
"No, thanks Alex. Just don't be a stranger okay?"
"Okay Kar, love you." Alex said as she opened the door to leave.
"Love you Al, bye." Alex left and Kara was alone with Joanne again.
After Alex left Joanne started some exercises with Kara, to help with her hand. Kara had dinner and only after that Lena got home from work. They talked a bit about her projects and they both went to bed.
