Feelings and Feeling
After two months of intense physio therapy sessions Kara is doing much better, her hands are working much better, and her arms are stronger than before, she started to have a bit of independence, being able to do some of the daily things, such as changing her shirts, eating by herself – that one she was so relieved to accomplish - going to the bathroom alone, sometimes she still needs help, especially when she gets tired, but it's starting happen less and less. She is sometimes is able to lift herself from the chair, she start lifting wits the week before, thinking it would help get her strength back.
Lena has been by her side through it all, giving her strength when she needed, a shoulder to cry on when everything became overwhelming for her and especially showing her love when all Kara wanted was someone to cuddle up with.
Kara wouldn't say they are dating, not yet anyway, they haven't gone on a date yet, and maybe that's all on Kara, who refuses to go out, she doesn't want to be seen like this. Aside from the eventual stroll through the park in front of Lena's apartment Kara hadn't gone outside since the accident.
They hadn't gone further than exchanging a few kisses here and there, Kara wanted to get better so she could take Lena on a proper date, and Lena was taking things on Kara's speed, she wasn't pushing for anything more than Kara was willing to do, she wanted Kara to feel comfortable enough with her and with her situation when they decided to take things further, so Lena only followed Kara's lead.
Kara was on leave from CatCo, and the DEO had to spin a story about Supergirl having gone to another Earth, she wasn't entirely sure what was said, she wasn't keeping up with the news, knowing it would only frustrate her to not be able to help anyone.
Lena had been working on the serum nonstop and she had managed to enhance the serum a couple of times, she said to Kara it would speed her recovery by a couple of months or more. She saw as Lena tried everything to make Kara feel better, every type of tech she could think, eventually Kara asked her to stop and to just live her life, she had done plenty and Kara would recover, she was certain of that.
It maybe wasn't going to be a speedy recovery, but Kara was certain she was going to recover fully, and she didn't want Lena to stop her life just for Kara, she had her company to take care as well. And for the most part Lena listened to Kara, but every now and then she would get together with Winn to review the applicator and the serum.
The applicator was working fine, but it needed to be replaced a couple of times a month, making the need for Kara to go to the DEO for the procedure. Today had been of those days, and Lena had gone with her.
Kara was laying on the bed in the Med bay of the DEO with Lena seating on a chair by her bed. Lena was going through some e-mails on her phone while Kara was reading a book she had taken with her when someone knocked on the door.
"Hey, can I come in?" Kara heard Alex ask through the door.
"Yes, come on in Al." Kara sat up on the bed, with a little bit of struggle still, but she did it by herself, Lena was ready to assist but held herself back so Kara could try to do it alone.
"Hey Alex, is it time already?" Lena asked, as Alex was the one going to perform the small procedure on Kara.
"Yes, it's time, are you ready Kara? It won't take long, and you'll be able to leave right after it." Alex said as she approached the bed, making sure to secure Kara before moving the bed through the door.
"Yes, just want it to be over already. Let's go!" Kara said as Alex pushed the bed to the procedure room, Lena trailed behind them.
Before taking the bed inside the room, Alex stopped so Kara could talk to Lena.
"Hey, I'll be right here waiting for you okay?" Lena said as she kissed Kara's forehead, taking the book from the blonde's hand, so she could put it in her bag.
"Okay, thanks." Kara whispered to Lena. Alex started to push the bed through while Lena said a little bit louder over Alex so Kara could here.
"Good luck darling!" Lena blew a kiss to Kara, who blushed as she went through the door.
Alex said as she looked behind her shoulder. "It will be only half an hour Lena, don't worry, it will be fine." Lena stood there as she watched the love of her life go through another procedure due to this kryptonite.
It had taken months, but Lena had been able to locate the aliens who did that to Kara, she knew exactly who was behind the attack, her mother of course, the only one able to make that kind of kryptonite and inject it to other aliens so they would be the ones to do the deed. But Lena was smart, she knew that there wasn't an alien species that had kryptonite as a weapon, she knew it could only be someone to access to it. And after months of searching, with Winn help she had located them.
They hadn't acted on it yet, they wanted to get Lillian, so they were trying to locate her, and when that happened the DEO would arrest her mother, but for Lena that wasn't enough, she knew her mother would just escape again. That's why she was trying to come up with a plan to end her permanently, and that's what she was doing right now.
She knew she would need help with this, but didn't know if Alex or Winn would accept what she had in mind. So thought of maybe contacting Sam, but she didn't know if her friend would join her, she just knew she wouldn't Lillian get away with doing this to Kara, it had been 6 months already, and Kara was still in a wheelchair. By Lena's calculations Kara would still need another year before recovering fully. That was just too much for her, she had never needed that much time to recover.
While Kara was in the procedure room, Lena was searching, and searching, she knew some day she would find, and she would make Lillian pay.
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Kara had been resting on the Med bay for about an hour after the procedure, when Alex discharged her. Lena was right beside her to help her get ready.
"Do you need help putting your clothes back on? If you want I can wait outside." Lena said as Kara picked up the shirt Lena had offered her.
"Thanks Lee, yeah I think I'll need help with the pants." Lena noticed Kara was still shy about those things, even after months of Lena helping her. Lena understood, it was an odd situation.
"Okay, I'll get the pants while you change the shirt." Lena winked at Kara as she turned around to go get the pants, which were inside the small closet to the side.
"Thanks." Kara changed the t-shirt, she put on the loose white tank top Lena offered her, while Lena was getting the baggy jeans she had came in.
When Lena turned around Kara was already with the shirt on.
"So I think it's easier if you lay down Kar." Kara just nodded as she laid down on the bed. She had been using the hospital gown so now she only had her panties on.
Lena tried to be the most respectful she could be. She tried not look at Kara's Supergirl panties, she really tried, but it was futile when you needed to put pants on the blonde.
So Lena did just that, she put Kara's pants as fast as she could, without looking too much. They were both a bit stiff after that, so Lena just rolled the chair near Kara so she could sit down and they would leave.
"Need a hand?" Lena only asked because the bed was a little bit higher than the chair, and it would be a big fall if Kara couldn't manage to do it. She had been transferring alone for the last few weeks, only at night when her arms were tired she would ask for help.
"Ah… I think yes, it's bit higher this one." She extended her arms in a gesture that caught Lena by surprise, but she appreciated nonetheless.
So Lena helped her down and Kara adjusted her legs on the chair.
"Ready to go?" Lena asked as she grabbed her things.
"Yes, please. I really want to go home." Lena loved when Kara said that, she didn't know if Kara had noticed or not, but she had started calling Lena's apartment home for some time now.
"Great, I'll text Charles to bring the car around." Lena was already texting when Kara starting wheeling the chair out of the Med bay.
They went home, but on their way there Lena asked the driver to stop at Big Belly Burger, so she and Kara took some burgers to go, breaking their 'diet' a little, but Lena knew Kara needed something to feel good about today.
They spent the rest of the day watching Brooklyn Nine-Nine on Netflix, Kara was just happy to be around Lena, sometimes she couldn't believe she had forgiven her.
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Six months later Kara and Lena were even closer than before, if that was even possible. It was, but they hadn't gone on a real date yet. Lena had asked a few times, but Kara just said she wasn't ready yet. Lena would sometimes doubt herself if Kara really wanted her, but then Kara would say something that showed her that she really did, she was just going through something really hard, and Lena just needed to have patience with her.
Kara was feeling so much stronger now. Her body was responding better to her, her arms much better, she could anything with them now. The pain from the kryptonite almost gone entirely, she barely had any flare ups anymore, but she knew it was still there, as her powers were still gone.
Her legs, only her legs hadn't responded yet, and sometimes she would question if they ever would, but Lena was quick to reassure her they would, and she was going to have her powers back too. Lena had just the night before done a power assessment on Kara, they were still out, but her body was starting to get toned again. Maybe it had something to do with all the hours Kara spending on the gym and with the physical therapist. So much so that she didn't need Joanne anymore, she was so grateful to her, they had become friends, but Kara wanted her independence again. They still exchanged text and talked regularly. But for a couple of weeks now Kara was managing alone, only on occasion she would ask Lena's help.
She was even considering going home, but then she remembered that her house didn't have the same features as Lena's, she had fitted her house for Kara, and Kara wouldn't be able to be independent on her own home. So she stayed, even if at times she felt she was invading Lena's space.
Tonight was Saturday and Lena had told her she would be grabbing Chinese so they could watch the new season of Money Heist on Netflix together.
Kara was setting the table when Lena arrived home, with her hands full of takeout.
"Let me help you there Lee." Kara said as she wheeled to the front door. She took a couple of bags from Lena's hands and put them on her lap.
Lena had been slacking on the whole diet front lately, maybe because Kara's appetite had return fully, and the balanced meals weren't really helping her there, so Kara was now free to eat what she pleased.
"Thanks, I'll grab a wine for us, do you have a preference?" Lena asked as she made her way to the wine cellar.
"White for me, thanks." Kara said as she opened the bags and took out the food.
Lena appeared a few minutes later with two wine glasses and a bottle of white wine. She poured for both of them while Kara unpacked the food.
"Hum, this smells great Lena! I'm starving." Kara said as she smelled the potstickers, she noticed Lena had brought extras for her.
"Then let's dig in, I'm so hungry right now too." Lena seated at the table right across from Kara, who was already eating some of the potstickers.
"You don't have to say twice." Kara laughed with half a potsticker in her mouth.
Lena chuckled with her, she loved hearing Kara's laugh, she was so happy that Kara was smiling again, she seemed happier lately, Lena was so pleased with that. She didn't want her friend?, girlfriend?, to be unhappy.
"So how was your day today?" Lena asked Kara, who stopped eating to look at her.
"Well, I've been reading this new book about quantum particles, really interesting. So I had a convo with Barry about it, on that new inter-earth massaging device Winn made.
"Wow, that sounds interesting, you'll have to tell me about it later then." Lena said as smirk made its way through her lips.
"Off course. I really want to show you the Fortress; I know you'll love all the technology there." Kara said it with a smile on her face.
"And you, what did you do today?" Kara asked Lena as she looked with heart eyes at Kara.
"Oh, I had some meetings at L-Corp, the new product launch is in a few weeks, so there are many things to be taken care of right now." Lena answered.
They chatted idly while they ate, they finished and Kara helped Lena clear the table.
"Let me clean the dishes Lena." Kara asked as Lena was preparing to wash them
"There is no need Kar, it's just a couple of plates. You can go prepare Netflix." Lena never let Kara do the dishes, she didn't want her to spend her energy with that, but Kara really wanted to help and so she left mumbling to herself.
"Hey…come here." Lena said as Kara turned around her chair.
"What?" Kara asked Lena.
"Just come here…" Lena motioned with her fingers for Kara to come closer.
As Kara's chair stopped right in front of her Lena leaned down, putting her hands on Kara's tight and kissed her, taking Kara's breath away.
Kara gasped as she pulled back. Lena looked at her and saw a tear go down her cheek. Was she such a great kisser that she left Kara crying?
"Kar, are you okay?" Kara was looking down, so Lena lifted her chin so Kara would look at her.
Kara took a long sigh, she pulled Lena's face to her, and kissed her passionately. After they both pulled apart Kara had the brightest, the sunniest smile Lena had seen.
"I felt it, I can feel my legs again." Kara's voice broke on the end, she started sobbing as she grabbed Lena's hand that was still on her tight, the one that had made her realize that she could feel them. And she kissed it, she kissed her Lena, her best friend, her soulmate.
"Oh My God, Kara! That's wonderful news. I can't believe it, are you feeling it really?" Lena was so happy for Kara, her heart could burst right at that moment. Kara wouldn't stop crying, it was cathartic for her.
Kara would rub her hands over her tights over and over again, not being enough just one time. She needed to press a little to feel it, but she was feeling it, and that was what mattered to her, she knew then that everything would be fine.
"Oh Kara! I knew it, I knew it would happen. Oh darling, you deserve it so much." Lena said as she embraced Kara and sat on her lap, making the blonde feel even more.
On that night they slept together, and Lena spent the night pressed to Kara's side, so she could feel all that she wanted.
