Alright, she is very short and I do apologize. Why, because I am trying to get to the drama XD! With that said-

Disclaimer: This chapter has mentions and descriptions of self-harm and relapse in Depression, if this is something you struggle with please know you are not alone.


Venus walked through her old home, the one her father had beaten the crap out of her. Bella and Edward had been away for the past two weeks, her mates had not made any form of contact. Not with her, and not with the guard either. Carlisle would keep reassuring her, but nothing that was said helped ease her mind. She needed something more, something that could take away the self doubt and hatred.

Walking through the old bedroom, she found what she was looking for. A box, as she opened it. She found an array of old razor blades, that would help; but she must be cautious. Taking one and moving to the bathroom and shower, a poem entered her head.

I knew a boy who liked to draw,

he drew pictures, not a soul saw.

His pictures came crashing in sharp waves,

helping the pressure of the day.

In the pale bathroom light,

where his thoughts came at night.

The boy kept this secret no one knew,

his art a secret, only grew.

The drawings were different, no paper no pen,

they did require a bandage now and again.

You see, he was ashamed of his art,

so no one could see his hear.

However his drawings were a twist,

you see his pen is a razor and his paper his wrist.

Venus cried, at the first slice burned through her skin as red began to spill from the line. Then another, and another, and another. The pain in her head began to numb, as she gazed at the steam above. Naked and alone, her mates would never know. As the blood continued to fall, and her heart clenched in fear. Her vision began to fade, and nothing was clear.

Meanwhile in Volterra, her mates were dispatching the guard. Hunting the Romanians to the ground, when their undead hearts cracked. The three flew up, grabbing at their chests.

"What is going on?" Caius cried out in agony.

Marcus answered quickly. "Venus, she is losing faith in us. Either she is dying or our bond is breaking."

Aro grabbed his phone, dialing Felix right as Carlisle called. He answered instantly. "What is going on! Is Venus alright?!"

"No she is not alright, we found her passed out on the bathroom." The Cullen replied. "She is going to be staying in the hospital, under suicide watch."

"Suicide?" Aro cried, venom spewing from his eyes.

"Her wrists were open and bleeding, the razor still clenched in her fist." Carlisle answered, his voice soft. "You need to call her, tell her what is going on. She needs you three, as the bond is affecting her more than you know."

Caius growled. "I told you, that pushing her away was a bad idea. She was healing, and now she has taken five steps back!"

"Brother!" Marcus shouted. "None of us wanted to do this, but we had to protect-"

"She self harming is protecting her how?!" Caius snapped, before he stood and left. His thoughts haywire as he thought back to several months ago, how they had their paint war. She seemingly happy and at peace, and her attack. They sent her away, discarded her, like trash and yet they called it love. No not Caius, the guilt consumed him.

"Your perfect Caius." He could still hear her voice, and how it clung to him. The memory from it made him smile, then cry as he felt the guilt consume him once again. Deep down, he knew this was right. If ever the Romanians caught wind where she was, then they could kill her. "I love you, My handsome warrior." Her voice once again whispered in his head, as he allowed a moment of weakness to weep.

0.o.0

Venus was fine a few days after the incident, was told that her mates were very worried. She felt hope as they were finally communicating, but disappointed that they would not contact her. "Why?" She asked.

Carlisle sighed. "They fear if the Romanians track their calls, that they could find you here."

The reasoning was valid, but her heart still ached. "I hate this." She whispered, as Demetri was trying to work the radio. A song came on that caught her attention. "Stop, please."

Lost in the darkness

Hoping for a sign

Instead there's only silence

Can't you hear my screams?

Venus sighed, as she had not heard a song by Within Temptations for almost a year now. It was nice to hear, and it related to her feelings at the moment.

Never stop hoping

Need to know where you are

But one thing's for sure

You're always in my heart

Demetri turned to her, before looking to Felix. "You know we won't be letting you out of our sights for a while." He finally spoke to his Queen.

"You really scared us." Felix agreed. "We were about to turn you early."

[Chorus:]

I'll find you somewhere

I'll keep on trying

Until my dying day

I just need to know

Whatever has happened

The truth will free my soul

"I'm sorry to have worried you." She whispered softly.

Carlisle moved and held her softly. "You worried all of us."

Lost in the darkness

Tried to find your way home

I want to embrace you

And never let you go

Almost hope you're in heaven

So no one can hurt your soul

Living in agony

Cause I just do not know

Where you are

She felt guilt consume her. "I'm sorry, I didn't-"

"We know, you had a relapse. To be honest we guessed this would happen. Not the self harm, but depression definitely. It is a disease that is hard to beat." Carlisle replied.

I'll find you somewhere

I'll keep on trying

Until my dying day

I just need to know

Whatever has happened

The truth will free my soul

Wherever you are

I won't stop searching

Whatever it takes me to know

[I'll find you somewhere

I'll keep on trying

Until my dying day

I just need to know

Whatever has happened

The truth will free my soul

]

Venus was quiet way to quiet, before Alice rushed in. "Carlisle its Bella she needs to speak with you."

The blonde left, leaving the human to worry. "Do you think my sister is okay?"

"I don't know, I saw Edward freaking out." Alice answered, right as Carlisle returned.

Felix looked at the shock and confusion on his face. "What is it?"

"Its Bella." The Doctor replied. "She's pregnant."


Do you like the Cliffy? Also how did you feel about Caius, I honestly think he is probably the most emotional of the three; but has to hide behind a mask.

Nature Faustus