Chapter 3 Confessions
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Blaine and Bryce spent a lot of time just talking, getting to know each other, and enjoying each other's company, stealing an occasional kiss.
"Can I ask you a question? Feel free to tell me it is none of my business, but you have mentioned a long term boyfriend, can I ask what happened?" Bryce asked.
Blaine just looked at him for a minute before deciding to answer. He really liked Bryce and was hoping what they had together could become more.
"Ok," Blaine said, letting out a long breath. "I met Kurt, my sophomore, his junior year in high school. He'd come to spy on my old glee club. I was part of a group called the Dalton Academy Warblers, and Kurt was in a rival glee club from McKinley High called the New Directions. The day we met as I said, he came to spy on us. The Warbler's had planned this impromptu performance. We were performing Teenage Dream, and while I sang that song, I couldn't keep my eyes off of him, I just kept being drawn back. To be honest, I fell a little in love with him that day. It took me a while to realize how I felt about him, though, hence the whole kissing Rachel Berry fiasco. He ended up transferring to Dalton for about six months because he was being bullied so badly and had even received death threats because he was gay. Once he came to Dalton and we were able to spend more time together, that was when I realized I was in love with him."
"He transferred back to McKinley when there was no longer a threat. I ended up transferring there the next year to be with him. It was great. We were in love. Everything was perfect until it wasn't anymore. Kurt was accepted at NYADA so he and Rachel moved to New York. I was going to follow him after graduation the next year."
"We had it all figured out, we were going to call, and email and Skype all the time so we could stay connected. That worked for the first month, and then he got an internship at Vogue. He started working crazy hours, calls went unanswered and not returned, text message the same, and our Skype dates got rescheduled and then rescheduled again."
"I started to feel like I was losing him, like I no longer mattered to him, like I was no longer part of his life. Important things happened, and he wouldn't return my call. I knew it took seven rings for his phone to go to voicemail, that's how many times I called and heard it. I knew how many rings it took. Before I knew it, voicemail was picking up after only two or three, which meant he was purposely ignoring my calls. I was seventeen, and the love of my life had pushed me aside. I felt like I was no longer part of his life, much less his world, and… I cheated on him."
"The minute it happened, I felt guilty because I should have acted like a man and got on a plane and made him talk to me. As soon as I cheated, I flew to New York. I had to tell him what I'd done. I had to confess everything. I guess in the back of my mind, I thought we could work it out, somehow we would still be ok, but he broke up with me, and we were broken up for about six months. The bad part was that Kurt wasn't just my boyfriend, he was also my best friend. He was the person I went to when I needed someone to talk to, the one person who could keep me sane. We became friends before we were boyfriends. We could talk to each other about anything. So, because of my stupid insecurities, I lost both my boyfriend and best friend at the same time. That was the worst six months of my life."
"His dad Burt loved me. He kept pushing for us to get back together, he even flew me to New York with him to surprise Kurt for Christmas even though we were broken up. Burt had just found out that he had prostate cancer and wanted someone to be there for Kurt, and as far as Burt was concerned that someone would always be me. After that, Kurt started coming home more and more often, and we started talking again, reconnecting. We finally made up, and we were happier than ever."
"We got back together, and I asked him to marry me a week later in this grand proposal in front of our friends, and his dad, on the spot where we had first met. He said yes, and I was the happiest man you could have ever seen. I still had four months before graduation, and I could move to be with him, but things were better. We worked on our communication issues. If he missed a call, he called me back."
"Once I graduated, I moved to New York to be with him. He and Rachel had this big apartment in Bushwick. It was a part of a converted warehouse. It was big, so there was plenty of room for the three of us."
"I should have seen the signs that there was a problem from the minute I moved in, but I just kept pushing everything to the back of my mind, within a week of me moving in we had the biggest fight we had ever had. I had tried to make myself a study area, so that I would have a small space in the apartment that was mine since everywhere else you looked was all Kurt. His setup, his design. I just wanted one spot, and he exploded, saying he wished I had asked him before making design decisions in his home. I was in shock because I was under the impression that it was our home."
"We made up from that, and things seemed to be back on track until two weeks later we had an even bigger argument because I asked him to change the towel in the bathroom for a clean one. He had been brushing his teeth, and instead of rinsing his mouth the way he always did, he wiped it on the hand towel. He said there was no reason to change it, that he had put it out clean that morning. I should have just changed it myself, but at that point, I was getting a little aggravated myself, and I told him no one would want to use a towel with toothpaste on it. We ended up arguing about something that stupid for two hours."
"When it came time to start to plan our wedding, I really should have caught on that something was wrong, but I just kept pushing all my doubts to the back of my mind. I was the only one working on planning our wedding. It was something I'd assumed we would do together. When we had first met, all Kurt could talk about was how he planned his dad and stepmom's wedding in less than two weeks, but for our wedding, he didn't seem to want any part in the planning at all."
"I picked flowers that I knew he loved. We had always given each other six red and six yellow roses. He said that wasn't the look he was going for, and then the I restaurant I chose to cater the reception just wouldn't work either. This was a place we both loved mind you, which is why I chose it. It didn't matter what plans I made, he had a problem with it, but he never gave me any suggestions on what would be better."
"All that should have clued me in to just how big the problem had gotten, but I was so blindsided by love and the thought of spending the rest of my life with my best friend, that I ignored a lot of the signs, I just kept pushing on. The night we broke up, I was supposed to be meeting him for dinner. We had this restaurant that we started going to when I first moved to New York. He took me there my first night, and it just became our place. I was running late that night because I was trying to find another caterer for our reception, and it was pouring like crazy. When I got there, he was looking at his watch and started in almost as soon as I sat down. I was so excited by the place I had found and could hardly wait to tell him. I didn't even get the chance. He asked why he was always the first to arrive? Why did I always pick that restaurant for our date night? He just kept going on and on."
"I finally asked him, 'What's wrong, are you not happy anymore, do you not want to marry me anymore?' I expected him to deny it, you know. I expected Kurt to say, of course, I still want to marry you. Instead, he looked at me and said, 'Maybe I don't. Let's just end things before we start to really hate each other.' No explanation. It was just over. Three almost four years of our lives tossed aside like it didn't matter."
"Shit Blaine, I'm so sorry," Bryce said, staring at him.
"Unfortunately, that isn't all. I can stop there if you want though," Blaine said, not wanting to bore him.
"No, go ahead and tell me the rest," Bryce said just looking at him
"After we broke up, I got a little depressed, and I moved back home with my parents. I ended up getting a substitute teaching job for the Warblers, and I loved it. I started dating someone who helped me a lot. There was no great love, but I liked spending time with him. I need to say though that he was also the person who bullied Kurt during high school. Come to find out he was gay and didn't know how to deal with Kurt being out of the closet when he was too scared to be. Dave had apologized, and He and Kurt worked things out. I wouldn't say they became friends, but they understood each other a little better."
"When Dave first asked me out, I couldn't say yes because of how bad he had hurt Kurt. Then I decided that I needed to stop thinking about Kurt and start thinking about what was good for me. We had a lot in common. We ended up moving in together, on my end just as friends, on his, he was hoping for more. We were dating, but I didn't love him, and he knew it."
"When our friend Rachel crashed and burned on her sitcom, she came back to Lima to help revamp the New Directions. Rachel and Kurt had become close while they were living together in New York, so within a few weeks of her coming home, Kurt came back, along with most of the original glee club. The New Directions weren't just Kurt's friends, they had become mine as well. One by one, they started calling me to come to McKinley for one thing or the other."
"Mercedes wanted me to help her convince Rachel she needed to go back to Broadway. She had given up the role of Fanny Brice to come to California to do that TV show. She didn't belong on TV, Rachel Berry belonged on Broadway, and we all knew it." Blaine said with a smile, remembering the day she had come back. Blaine had been shocked that Kurt hadn't told her that they had broken up.
"Wait, is that the same Rachel you drunk kissed?" Bryce asked with a big grin.
"One and the same," Blaine said, laughing. "As I said for one reason or another, I kept getting called back to McKinley, by Rachel, Mercedes, Sam, even my old cheerleading coach called me."
"Wait, wait, wait, you were a cheerleader?" Bryce said, mouth hanging open.
"Yup guilty. There are even a few videos on YouTube to prove it, along with a few others," Blaine said, laughing again.
"Sorry, go ahead, I'll try not to interrupt you again," Bryce said, still looking at Blaine.
"Rachel had to leave her childhood home. Her dads were selling their house, and she was having a tough time dealing with it. A group of us got together and decided to throw her a goodbye to Rachel's childhood home party. Kurt and I were chosen to do a duet together. Everyone was going to sing a duet with someone else. We did ours, and all these old feelings came out. When I had to leave, he walked me outside, and we just talked. It was comfortable. It was us, you know, and before I knew what I was doing, I kissed him. So twice in my life, I cheated."
"Doesn't really paint me in the best picture, but that is what happened. Dave and I broke up, and I had to decide what to do with the rest of my life. Kurt showed up begging me to come back to him, apologizing for everything, even things that had caused our first break up, he acknowledged that he had gotten too busy and pulled away. Kurt said that he realized what we had, after the breakup, and wanted me back. I was so close to saying yes. Kurt had been my world for so long, you know, not only that, but he was still my best friend. I loved him so much."
"Sitting there looking at him, I realized how easily he had ended us twice one way or the other. If we got back together, how long would it be before he decided to do it again? I finally had to think about what was good for me, what I needed to do for myself. I packed up and moved here. You know the rest," Blaine said with a sad smile.
"Wow, Blaine, I am so sorry you had to go through that. No wonder you looked the way you did when I mentioned your boyfriend," Bryce said, not believing Blaine had gone through all of that and was still such a sweet person.
"So, has my story run you off yet," Blaine asked really hoping not. He really felt like they could be something. Bryce looked at him for a few minutes, not saying anything, and Blaine waited for the worst.
"No, you haven't. I understand why you did what you did both times. But if we do start something and Kurt shows up, I might have to hurt him and then probably you if he comes near you, so you have been warned," Bryce said with a scary look before a smile spread across his face.
"I think I can handle that," Blaine said with a laugh, before pulling Bryce back into his arms and kissing him again. When things started heating up, Blaine pulled back, putting his hands on either side of his face, placing one more gentle kiss on Bryces lips.
"If we don't stop soon, I won't be able to," Blaine said softly, leaning his forehead against Bryce's.
"Yeah, I guess I need to head home,'' Bryce said, standing up and heading to the door. "See you tomorrow, " he said almost questioningly
Blaine walked up to him, wrapped his arms around his waist, pulling him in close, "Oh, you'll definitely see me tomorrow, have a good night and be careful driving home ok."
"I will," Bryce said, placing a kiss on Blaine's lips one more time before walking out the door.
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Blaine woke up the next morning with a smile on his face, looking forward to seeing Bryce again. Then it hit him, how were they going to act on set. Bryce wasn't out. Were they just going to act like co-workers because technically, that was all they were. Yes, they had shared stories and several, several kisses that had pushed Blaine to the very edge so that he had to take care of himself again after Bryce had left. Blaine decided the best way to handle everything was to let Bryce make the moves. He was the one who wasn't out, Bryce was the only one who could decide on what to say. Blaine couldn't out him. He decided just to go in and act normal and go from there.
Bryce and Blaine ended up not being in any of the same scenes during the morning shoot. After lunch would be the first time they were together. Blaine knew in that scene they were supposed to argue. During their lunch break, Blaine kept expecting Bryce to join him. Since their first day working together they had eaten lunch together, and Blaine figured after last night they would for sure, but Bryce never joined him. Blaine spent his lunch break with Cooper. He was going to go looking for a car Saturday and Cooper had agreed to go with him.
One of the crew members walked over to the television in the break area, turning it on, "did you guys see where Bryce is going to be doing an interview this morning? He has been up in the office all morning, talking to legal and to his mom and dad on the phone. I heard he was about to make a big announcement."
Blaine turned around and looked at the screen. The interview was just starting.
"Hi, I don't normally do these kinds of interviews, but there is an announcement that I need to make. I've met someone very special. This person makes me laugh, and smile, and just makes me happy. We haven't really known each other long, we are still in the infancy stages," Bryce said with a nervous laugh. "I have never met anyone like this person before, someone who is so honest, amazing, and caring. The main reason for this interview is because you will probably start hearing things, and I wanted to be the one to announce this. I have spent the morning talking to my parents, publicist, and with the head of the studio."
"This has been a long journey of discovery for me, I have always had these thoughts in the back of my mind, but it wasn't till I met this amazing person that it all made sense. My world opened up. Things became so much clearer. Ok, now the announcement," He said, looking over at his parents who had arrived just before the camera started rolling. They just smiled at him with encouragement
"I want to announce that I am gay. This isn't something I ever thought about, I have always dated girls, and have even loved a few, but there has always been something missing. The minute I met this person, my eyes were opened for the first time. He made me see things like I never have before. He lights up my day just by being in it. I can see my future with him," Bryce said, looking at the camera, heart in his eyes, almost like he was looking straight at Blaine.
That was as much as Blaine could handle, he thought he had had a shot with Bryce, but apparently, he already had someone else. When will he ever learn?
"Let's go out Friday night," Blaine said, looking at Cooper
"Works for me squirt," Cooper said, smiling.
Blaine was glad he hadn't told Cooper about his conversation with Bryce last night, a conversation that had made him believe he had a shot at something that could have been special. He smiled at Cooper and then stood up.
"I am going to go to my trailer. I have a little bit of time before my next scene. I think I am going to go and have a quick nap." Blaine said. Thank goodness he usually did that, so it didn't seem so out of place. With being on set at five in the morning, a lot of the crew would grab little naps in between shoots.
Blaine needed time to get his thoughts in order, time to prepare to face Bryce, and be able to act normal. They had started being friends before last night, and he hoped that they could continue with that. Blaine kind of laughed when he remembered the scene they were about to shoot. He and Bryce were supposed to have a small lovers quarrel with Blaine ending up being smacked. Well, this should be cathartic, if nothing else.
When Blaine got the call that he is due on set, he made his way there, trying to keep everything off his mind except for what he needed to do for his scene. Usually, he went over and talked to Bryce, but he wasn't feeling it today, he wanted to get his work done for the day, go to Coopers borrow one of his bottles of liquor and just forget everything, even if just a little while
"Beau, I'm sorry, but that is about the stupidest thing I have ever heard. You have lost your mind if you think I am going to let you go out with someone else. You are MY boyfriend, how would that look. I don't care if it was already planned before we got together."
"Let me Alex, who are you to let me do anything, you are not my parents, and you don't get to tell me what to do," he said getting right in Alex's face pointing his finger the whole time.
"You know what I meant Beau, how would you like it if I decided to go somewhere with Adam, would that be ok with you?"
"That is different, and you know it, you and Adam used to be a couple, Ben and I have been friends forever, we've had this scheduled for months, Alex, months."
Now it was Alex's time to get mad, "And Ben loves you, you idiot. How can you even think of going out with him even as friends? Are you really that dense? Fine, do what you want to do, go out with him, but don't come back to me when he breaks your heart. I'm done. Man, I still can't believe you could be that dumb." At this point, Bryce slaps Blaine and the scene cuts
Cooper walked up to them with a smile on his face "Man. You guys nailed it on the first try. Good deal. Come on Blainer's, let's go grab dinner, my treat. I wanted to talk to you about something."
"Have a good night," Blaine said to Bryce, turning around and walking away with Cooper.
Bryce just stood back and watched as he walked away, shocked and just a little hurt. He had been hoping to talk to Blaine, see if he had seen the interview, see if what they had started last night could be built into something, but Blaine had been acting weird ever since he came on set. Blaine wouldn't look at him and seemed to put a lot more anger into the scene than they had rehearsed. Bryce was starting to think he had misread what happened last night. In the back of his mind, Bryce had seen the whole thing play out. He would do his interview, talk to Blaine, let him know that he was the one he had been talking about, and they could go from there. But Blaine had been distant, and now he was walking away with Cooper. Now what…..
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Blaine went with Cooper for dinner. They once again went to the burger place, but ate in this time instead of taking it too Coopers
"Ok, squirt, what's up? You've been off most of the day. You barely talked to Bryce other than during your scene. Is there something going on? You were fine this morning, and then after that interview, it was almost like you zoned out. I thought what he said would be a good thing, that you now had a shot, and then you asked to go out Friday," Cooper said, looking concerned.
"Didn't you hear what he said, he has someone 'special,' in his life 'He lights up his day just by being in it.' I can't compete with that Cooper, and with everything that happened with Kurt, I don't think I have the strength too," Blaine answered. "He came over last night, and we talked. I thought we were heading somewhere. He told me that he felt something when he was with me and we kissed. I told him everything about Kurt, the first time I cheated, and how I cheated on Dave with Kurt. He made some comment that if we get together and Kurt came around, he will hurt him and probably me too. I took that to mean that we might be moving towards something, and then that interview pretty much showed me there was no way," Blaine said softly, feeling defeated.
"Blaine, did you talk to him today, after the interview, did you take time to talk to him. You have a habit of taking things the wrong way, spinning them the way you think they are. You did that with Kurt, don't do that with Bryce. Talk to him before you just give up." Cooper said with concern
"Ok, I'll talk to him tomorrow; I would like him to be my friend if nothing else. I just had to shake what I was feeling. It felt almost like rejection. I know how I can get sometimes, but with the whole Kurt thing that happened, I guess I am a little warped in the head," Blaine said with an almost sad smile. He was feeling better after talking to Cooper.
After they finished eating, Cooper dropped Blaine off at his apartment building, he took the elevator up to his floor, and as he was walking down the hall, he was pulling out his keys. That is when he sees Bryce sitting on the floor beside his door. He had his legs pulled up to his chest with his arms wrapped around them. Bryce's head was on his knees, and Blaine could just make out his shoulders moving up and down like he was crying. Blaine ran up to him and squatted down beside him.
"Bryce, are you ok?" he asked, putting his hand on Bryce's back.
"I thought you would be happy," he said, looking up at Blaine, and Blaine could tell that he had been crying for a while. His eyes were bloodshot and swollen.
"Thought I would be happy about what?" Blaine asked, looking at him concerned. "Come on, stand up, and we can go inside and talk," Blaine said, holding out his hand to Bryce, to help him stand and then unlocked and opened his door. They walked in, and Blaine guided him over to the couch so that he could sit down.
"Give me just a minute," Blaine said, first walking towards the bathroom, grabbing a washrag and wetting it before walking into the kitchen to grab two bottles of water out of the fridge, carrying them over to Bryce.
Blaine sat down beside him, handing him the rag and one of the waters. "Here, wipe off your face, drink some water, and then we can talk, ok," he said, hating to see Bryce so upset, wondering if his wonderful person had already broken his heart. Blaine hoped not. Bryce was too special a person for that. Bryce drank half of the water in one long sip, and then using the rag Blaine had brought him, he washed his face and then leaned his head on the back of the couch with a deep sigh.
"Ok, are you ready to talk to me about it?" Blaine asked him softly.
"Blaine, when I woke up this morning, I was so happy. I had finally figured everything out, why I have never been able to get close to any of the girls I've dated. I've loved some of them, but I've never had that connection to someone like you hear about until I met you. When you kissed me that first time, I felt it down to my toes. I just knew that you were the person I was meant to be with. I called my parents and talked to them, went to my publicist, and the head of Fox to let them know I was planning on coming out. I did the interview because I didn't want any rumors floating around. I wanted to be in control of the situation, in control of the story, not the paparazzi. When I got on set, I was so excited to tell you, but you were so standoffish. I figured I had misunderstood what happened last night, that I had somehow misread the signals. I am so new at this," Bryce said with a long sigh.
"Ahh, honey, you didn't misread anything. Apparently, I did. When I saw your interview, since you hadn't said anything, I just assumed you were talking about someone else, that you had found someone else." Blaine said, pulling Bryce into his arms.
Bryce wrapped his arms around Blaine, placed his head on Blaine's shoulder, and whispered, "No, I meant you. You are this amazing, wonderful person. I was hoping you wanted what I wanted, that you would be willing to see if we can be something to each other. I know that is crazy, but I was really hoping."
Blaine leaned down and placed a kiss on the top of Bryce's head. "Nothing would make me happier. I want that too, I really do."
Bryce raised his head and looked at Blaine. "Are you sure? I know what you've been through, and I can't promise you that I'll never hurt you, but I can promise to do my very best not too.
"That is all I can ask for, and I give you the same promise. But we are going to need to take this slow. Like you said you are new to this, I don't ever want to do anything you aren't comfortable with, that you aren't ready for. I'm going to depend on you to talk to me if things are going too fast. I need you to let me know what you want and what you feel comfortable with. I don't ever want to rush you. If I go too far, stop me."
"Ok, can you kiss me now, please?" Bryce asked a little hesitantly.
"Ahh honey, nothing would make me happier," Blaine said with a smile, before leaning in and capturing Bryce's lips, running his tongue across his bottom lip and sighing deeply when Bryce grants him access and allows Blaine to ease his tongue in. Releasing Bryce's lips, Blaine starts kissing his way up Bryce's jaw to nibble on his earlobe biting down gently before going back to his sweet lips, loving all the noises he made.
He felt Bryce arch up against him, and heard his heavy breathing and knew he needed to slow down. He wanted to try to build a relationship with him, not let it be only about sex. Blaine kissed him slowly one more time before pressing their foreheads together.
"Oh, how quickly you make me forget myself," Blaine whispered with a soft smile on his face, pulling Bryce into a hug so that he was half lying on him, and comfortable to just stay like that, occasionally planting soft kisses on top of his head.
They just sat like that forever holding each other, and then Blaine noticed how still Bryce had gotten, how slow his breathing was. He was asleep, and Blaine smiled. He was in heaven, he had always enjoyed cuddling, and with Bryce in his arms, he couldn't think of a time that was any better. Blaine reached for the throw he kept on the back of the couch. He placed it across Bryce's back, and slowly while holding him slid down on the couch, so he was lying on his back, with Bryce on top of him. With his arm still wrapped around Bryce, Blaine gently rolled to his side so that Bryce's back was now toward the back of the couch, his head still on Blaine's shoulder. He adjusted the throw so that they were both covered, Blaine placed a gentle kiss on Bryce's forehead before closing his eyes and drifting off to sleep with a smile on his face.
Blaine was woken up a few hours later when he felt Bryce gently thrust his hips against Blaine. Without opening his eyes, he whispered, "honey, you really need to stop that, or you will get more than you were expecting" Blaine was already getting hard, loving the feeling of Bryce rubbing against him like that.
Bryce stopped, and Blaine felt him duck his head further into his neck. "Sorry," he said, unknowingly blowing warm air on one of Blaine's most sensitive places on his neck, making him even harder. Blaine shifts his hips so that they are further away from Bryce, kissing him on his forehead.
"It's ok, you don't have anything to apologize for," Blaine said, placing another soft kiss on Bryce's forehead.
Blaine just manages to drift back off to sleep when he feels Bryce rock into him again, this time Blaine opens his eyes, barely making out Bryce's face with the small amount of light streaming in around the curtains from the outside light. Blaine slowly leans in and places a soft kiss on Bryce's lips. He was so hard now it was painful, but he wanted to give Bryce time to stop, knowing he had never done anything like this before. When Bryce deepened the kiss, Blaine slips his tongue into Bryce's mouth, chasing his tongue, gently sucking it into his mouth, before tugging gently on his hair to tilt his head. Blaine kisses Bryce's neck, and gently bites down,
Blaine takes his arm that had been draped across Bryce's waist and slowly runs his hand down Bryce's side down to his ass and pulls Bryce's hips even closer. When Blaine felt how hard Bryce was, that was all it took.
Blaine shifted his hips and now his hard erection is on Bryce's. Still squeezing his ass Blaine pulls him as close as he can, and then slowly starts rocking into him, kissing him passionately at the same time. When Bryce starts to moan and shifts himself to a different position, allowing Blaine more contact he almost loses his mind. Blain wanted to make this special for Bryce, but couldn't stop himself from squeezing Bryce' ass as he started to thrust his hip faster, pressing his erection harder into Bryce's until they were both panting.
He continues rocking his hips connecting with Bryce, chasing his orgasm hoping he can hold out long enough for Bryce, to get his first. This was their first experience together, and a first for Bryce. Blaine wanted to make this so good for him.
When he feels Bryce starts arching forward, Blaine holds him as close to his body as he can continuing thrust his hips giving them both the friction they desperately needed. Blaine feels as Bryce's hands on his back starts digging his nails in. Soon he is gasping and is moving faster, nails digging in harder and Blaine thinks it is the most amazing feeling he has ever felt. He never knew how much he would love nails digging into his back like that. When Bryce moans out Blaine's name he knows Bryce has gotten his release. Blaine rocks himself through his own orgasm with long strangled moans, he follows not long after.
They both lay there panting, not saying anything, just staring at each other.
"I didn't know it could be like that" Bryce said before leaning in and placing a soft kiss on Blaine's lips.
"It has never been like that for me before" Blaine said, looking at him with a gentle smile, and he was one hundred percent honest about it. He and Kurt had had sex, a lot, and it had always been good, but something as simple as what they had just shared had been better than anything he had ever experienced before. He knew his back was going to be scratched up and really couldn't bring himself to care
He held Bryce in his arms tight placing gentle kisses on his lips, snuggling close, pulling him tighter. He had always enjoyed the after. He loved the closeness. The longer him and Kurt had been together, it seemed like the quicker Kurt pulled away. He wasn't a cuddler, or at least he wasn't after they had gotten back together, after the first breakup. Before then Blaine remembers holding him for hours. Maybe that had been another sign he should have paid attention to.
"Why don't we go and cleaned up, and then we can climb into bed?" Blaine said, kissing Bryce one more time before standing up and putting his hand out to Bryce to help him stand.
Still holding his hand, Blaine guided him into his bedroom, shuffled through his drawers and pulled out a pair of lounge pants so Bryce would have something clean to put on after he got out of the shower. Blaine sat on the side of his bed while Bryce showered and couldn't keep the smile off of his face. True, he had not intended things to move as fast as they had tonight, but he couldn't bring himself to regret a minute of it.
When the bathroom door opened Blaine could do nothing but stare as Bryce stepped out wearing his lounge pants and no shirt. Bryce was beautiful, he was tan and built and before he realized it Blaine was turned on again. He had never been so turned on by someone, for the simplest things before. He leaned in and placed a gentle kiss on Bryce's lips before heading to the shower, wanting to do so much more but knowing he needed to slow down. This was too important to be messed up with sex, they needed to take things slow until Bryce was ready for more.
Blaine knew he couldn't walk back into the bedroom in the condition he was in, so he soaped up his hand, and started running it up and down his cock, thinking about Bryce and what they had done in the living room and before long he was coming again. Biting his lip to keep from calling out, it hit him that hard. Twice in less than an hour, he had never been like that before. That turned on by another person.
Blaine quickly cleaned up and dressed before walking back into his room. Bryce was setting on the edge of the bed were Blaine had sat down, he walked over to him, and pulled him back into his arms placing a small kiss on his lips before bending over to the bed and pulling the blankets down and allowing Bryce to slide in and then slid in beside him, he reached over and turned off the lights and was soon pulling Bryce back into his arms.
"Was that it?" he heard Bryce ask from where his head was lying on his chest.
"Was what it?" Blaine asked, leaning up and looking down at Bryce a little confused by the question.
"Was that all there is to sex between two men?" Bryce questioned, turning red, looking embarrassed.
"No honey, that's nowhere near all, trust me. But for now I think that is all you are ready for. We can always try more when you are," Blaine said, looking at him with a small smile.
"Was it enough for you, if that wasn't all of it, and you are used to more, is that enough for you?" Bryce questioned sounding nervous
"Me just holding you in my arms is enough, what we did in there is enough" Blaine said, leaning down, placing a gentle kiss on Bryce's sweet lips, before pulling him even closer, with a smile on his face. This was definitely enough. More than enough for now anyway, he thought before closing his eyes and drifting off to sleep, with a happy smile on his face.
