A/N: Thank you to my awesome beta JayhawkWrites, for correcting my mistakes. Also smut warning for the end of the chapter. Sorry, it took so long to get a chapter posted, but I hope you like it. Thanks for the reviews I have gotten on this story, they are very much appreciated.

Chapter 20 Miscommunication

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Blaine couldn't believe he was finally in London with Kurt; this had been one of the places he had always dreamed of bringing him. When Blaine had first asked Kurt to marry him, he had started planning their perfect honeymoon. Blaine had intended for them to spend a week in London and then spend two weeks in Paris. He had spent a lot of time making plans, things he had hoped they could share. Blaine had sat for hours thinking about how Kurt's face would look when he finally realized where they were going; he had gotten so excited just thinking about Kurt's reaction. It was still kind of sad to him that they hadn't made it.

By the time the three of them were able to grab their luggage and make it through customs, they were all dragging, and Sere was barely holding it together. It was past her usual bedtime, and she hadn't even eaten her supper yet. Blaine just kept whispering in her ear, rubbing her back, and gently rocking her.

Kurt managed to hail them a cab, and they were soon on their way to the motel where they would be staying. Blaine had wanted something close to Shey's apartment, but didn't want to go to the motel he had stayed at with Bryce, so he had chosen Park Plaza County Hall. Blaine had stayed there when he came to London at sixteen with his parents. He liked the location and its proximity to the different places he hoped he would be able to take Kurt.

Blaine knew this wasn't technically a trip for pleasure, but this was the first time Kurt would be in London, and he wanted him to be able to do a little sightseeing before heading home. He planned for them to spend more time in Paris, than London though, because out of the two, he knew that Paris was the one place Kurt had always wanted to go, and he so wanted to share that with him. He wanted them to explore all the different places Kurt had said he wanted to go.

"Blaine, this room is amazing!" Kurt said, walking over to the window and getting his first real view of London at night.

Blaine walked up beside him and wrapped his free arm around Kurt's waist. "I always loved the way they light the Eye up at night," He said, pulling Kurt a little closer.

From the window of their room, the London Eye could be seen, and with it being nighttime, it was lit up in red and was beautiful. Kurt just stood there, staring out of that window, and Blaine stood there staring at Kurt. He sometimes still can't believe that he has Kurt back in his life again. Blaine had learned that he couldn't live without Kurt; well, he didn't want to. He needed Kurt like he needed air to breathe.

When Sere started to fuss, it pulled Blaine back from his thoughts, "I know, sweet girl, I'm going to order us dinner, and then we can get you in bed. You did so good today," Blaine said, placing a soft kiss on top of Sere's head.

"Do you want me to order dinner while you get her ready?" Kurt asked, looking at Blaine.

"Would you mind? I can go ahead and get her bathed, and in her pajamas, that way, once she has eaten, she will be ready for bed." Blaine answered, feeling dead tired himself.

"No, I don't mind, go take care of her, I'll get some food ordered for us," Kurt said, placing a kiss on first Sere's cheek and then Blaine's.

Watching as Blaine walked away from him, Sere in his arms, Kurt feels a sadness wash over him. If only he could go back and change so many things in their past, he would. Kurt would change the decisions he had made that, at the time, seemed so right, only to find out just how wrong they were. He was glad he had Blaine back in his life, but Kurt knew that he had lost part of the boy Blaine used to be, the boy that he had fallen in love with, and he would never be able to get that back.

Blaine had changed so much over the last year. He wasn't the same happy, go, lucky person, Kurt had known. Blaine no longer had that carefree smile on his face, that had always gone straight to his eyes. There was an innate sadness in Blaine that had never been there before, a sadness that he couldn't hide. Yes, they were back together, but the things Blaine had gone through had changed him.

Kurt slowly walked over to the room service menu, looking through it, deciding what to order for the three of them. One thing he had learned spending time with Blaine again, was what he usually ordered or fixed Sere for dinner, and had to laugh. When Blaine had been in high school, his go-to meal had been chicken strips with a side of Mac and Cheese. It brought a smile to his face thinking back to that. Kurt would fuss at him, and Blaine would smile his beautiful smile looking at him.

"Kuurrt, chicken is protein. The macaroni is made from flour; flour is made from wheat, which automatically makes it part of the bread family, aaannnndd the cheese in it is dairy. So see, a well-rounded meal." Blaine would always say laughing and then would usually kiss Kurt until he forgot what they were even talking about, to begin with, much less the fact that the orange powdered 'cheese' was in no way dairy or cheese.

Kurt stood there with a smile on his face, with memories flooding back to him. They used to be so close. Blaine was the one person who had always seemed to know what Kurt needed or just wanted without Kurt having to say a word, and, if Blaine could, he would move heaven and earth to get it for him. Kurt remembers the day he had found out that he hadn't made it into NYADA. Kurt had gotten so depressed, and without him having to say a word, Blaine had shown up with a pint of Kurt's favorite double mint chocolate chip ice cream at midnight. He had driven two hours, at night, just so that he could cheer Kurt up.

They had stayed up all night talking. Blaine had just kept saying that they would figure something else out, that it wasn't the end, it was just a new, unplanned beginning and then had pulled him tight just holding him. Blaine had always seemed to know what to say to make everything ok again.

Blaine had also been the one to convince Kurt to go on to New York. He had known that staying in Lima would have killed Kurt inside. Blaine had pushed his feelings aside, so he could support Kurt, help him make the best decisions. Kurt had been so scared, but Blaine had reassured him that he was ready, he would be ok.

Kurt had looked at Blaine and asked: "what about us?"

To Kurt, it had felt almost like an ending, like Blaine was pulling away from him. Blaine had just looked at him with a smile, reaching out to take his hand, and said, "In a year, I'll be there too, but, right now is your time, you're ready." Blaine had been so sure of them, so confident in their love, so sure also, that in a year, they would be back together, and everything would get back to normal.

He had made some really dumb decisions and hurt the most important person in his life. Kurt was glad that he had a chance to try to repair some of the damage he had caused. But in his heart, he knew that nothing would ever really be the same between them again. Some damage just couldn't be repaired, no matter how much you might want it to be. Listening to Sere laughing from the bathroom reminded Kurt he was supposed to be ordering their dinner.

Kurt opens the room service menu and can only smile. He quickly ordered Sere's chicken strips and macaroni and cheese and a carton of milk, but also ordered her some fresh fruit to go with it. What he sees next on the menu makes him smile even more. When Kurt and Blaine would go out for their date night at breadstix, they would always order two entrees and would split them. Kurt would order the lasagna with a salad, and Blaine would order chicken parmigiana and his beloved Mac and Cheese.

With a smile on his face, Kurt quickly ordered their food. When he hung up the phone, he walked back over to the window, looking at the view of London at night. It was breathtaking. Kurt was happy to be here, and yet sad at the same time. The next couple of days, he knows will be hard for Blaine. When Blaine and Bryce had first found out about Shey's death, Blaine had felt bad for Bryce but had no other feeling about it, only finding out later that Shey was the sister he never knew he had.

Kurt turned around when he heard Blaine walk back in the room, noticing just how tired he looked. "Why don't you let me take her so you can go take a shower, they said dinner would be here in about fifteen minutes."

"That will be heavenly if you're sure," Blaine said walking over to him.

"I'm sure, go... I'll call you if the food gets here before you get out," Kurt answered reaching out to take Sere, and smiled when she happily came to him.

"Kurt, is something wrong?" Blaine asked, looking at Kurt's face, he was getting a weird vibe off of Kurt

"No, nothing's wrong," Kurt said with a soft laugh that didn't fool Blaine at all. Something was wrong, and he knew it.

"Kurt, are you sure?" Blaine asked again, reaching his hand up to gently stroke Kurt's cheek. He had gotten good over the years at being able to recognize Kurt's moods. Blaine used to spend endless time just studying Kurt. He knew something was wrong.

"Blaine, I promise everything is ok, now go. Sere and I have some quality time we are missing because you won't go take a shower," Kurt said, but for whatever reason, he wasn't able or at least wouldn't meet Blaine's eyes. He decided that he would give him time.

"Thank you," Blaine said, leaning in to place a sweet kiss on Kurt's lips. He didn't know what was wrong, but Kurt just seemed a little off now. Kurt had seemed fine before Blaine had taken Sere to bathe her. He would wait to ask him again after she was asleep, and they could spend a little quiet time alone talking.

That was one of the things Blaine had missed from his and Kurt's relationship when they had first gotten together. The way they could talk about anything and everything, nothing was off-limits. After Kurt had left for New York, things changed. Now, they seemed to be getting back to where they were in the beginning. He didn't want to fall back into the old routine where he was afraid to anger or push Kurt and Blaine would let things build-up. He wanted to face things as they came now. If their relationship was going to make it this time, they had to be honest with each other.

Blaine took his time in the bathroom. He shaved and then stepped in the shower, letting the hot water relax his tired muscles. Blaine had just stepped out of the shower and had wrapped a towel around his hips, when he heard a soft knock on the bathroom door.

"Blaine, dinner's here," he heard Kurt say on the other side of the door. Shutting the door was also something he never used to do when he was with Kurt. Blaine had started shutting the door when he was still with Bryce. Why he had done it tonight, he didn't know. There was nothing about himself that he would ever want to hide from Kurt again.

Blaine walked over and opened the door, and watched as Kurt's eyes went from his head to his toes, looking Blaine over. Since they had gotten back together, this was the closest Blaine had been to being naked around Kurt. Watching Kurt's reaction to his body made him feel better about himself. With everything Bryce had put him through, he had lost a lot of the self-confidence that he had once had.

"Wow," was all Kurt said, not once taking his eyes off of Blaine's very exposed form.

"Hi," Blaine said, walking up to Kurt, wrapping his arms around him and pulling him close. Slowly lowering his head, he gently kissed Kurt on his lips. Just when he was about to deepen the kiss, feeling Kurt hard against him, he heard Sere start to cry. Leaning back, looking into Kurt's eyes, he could do nothing but whisper "later." He was so hard, and the towel around his waist did nothing to cover up that fact up.

"Oh yeah, later," Kurt whispered breathlessly with a smile, reaching down to adjust himself before turning around and going back into the living room area. He had left Sere buckled into the high chair when he went to let Blaine know dinner was here.

Blaine stood there watching first as Kurt adjusted himself in his pants, and then walk away. Blaine hadn't been this turned on in a while. Now that he felt comfortable again about exploring the physical side of their relationship, he couldn't seem to think of anything else. Right now he longed to sink into Kurt's warm body again. Blaine knew they were both too tired for anything like that tonight, but maybe they could explore other things. He knew before they went to sleep tonight, though, they needed to talk. Blaine needed to understand what had been going on inside Kurt's beautiful mind earlier and why he had suddenly looked so sad.

Shaking his head, Blaine dug through his suitcase and pulled out a pair of pajama bottoms and one of his old T-shirts. He quickly dressed and then headed back to the other room to join Kurt. He stopped, unable to breathe at the sight in front of him. Kurt was standing at the window holding Sere, pointing out things to her talking to her softly and occasionally placing soft kisses on her cheek. Showing her more love and attention than Bryce ever did.

He watched as Sere would look at where Kurt was pointing and then would look back at Kurt with a look of almost awe on her face. Blaine's heart filled with so much love standing there watching the two people he loved more than anything in this world interacting together. In this room was Blaine's world, and he couldn't have been happier.

While Blaine stood there watching them, he didn't notice that Sere saw him until she laughed, looking at him. "Dada," she said before turning around to face the window again, pointing.

"What do you see, my sweet girl, huh? What has Kurt been showing you?" Blaine asked walking up to them, standing behind Kurt and wrapping his arms around him.

"Tell Dada that we have been watching the Eye go round and saw a double-decker bus and saw a bunch of people in ridiculous outfits," Kurt said once again kissing Sere on the cheek before turning around in Blaine's arms, leaning in to place a kiss on his lips. "Ready for dinner so that we can put this little girl to bed?" Kurt asked before slowly pulling away from Blaine, walking over to the high chair, and strapping her back in.

Watching Kurt walk away from him, Blaine got the feeling again that something was off. He knows that he will not be able to sleep until he finds out what is wrong, but for now, he puts it to the back of his mind as he walks over to the table and sees what Kurt had ordered for their dinner. He could do nothing but stare Kurt had remembered.

Blaine started feeding Sere, trying to get her to eat, even though her eyes kept trying to shut the whole time. He managed to get her to eat a chicken strip and a few bites of macaroni and cheese, and that was it. Giving up, he gently pulled her out of her chair and started rocking her while singing her the song he had written for her. Before he even made it to the chorus of the song, she was out like a light.

Blaine slowly stood up and walked with her to the portable crib they had brought with them, thankful that Kurt had thought to put it up while he was bathing Sere. It was nice to have someone else willing to help out in caring for her. That was something he really wasn't used to. Other than his mom and dad, Blaine had been Sere's only caregiver since the day he had decided he wanted that little girl. Bryce had never even tried. Laying her down, Blaine makes sure she is covered up, before walking back over to the table to finish eating.

"I can't believe you ordered me macaroni and cheese, Kurt," Blaine said, looking at Kurt

"How could I not? I know how crazy you used to be about it, even though I still feel like it's junk food," Kurt said with a soft smile on his face.

"But, Kuurrtt." Blaine started to say only to be interrupted by Kurt.

"I know protein, bread, dairy, most of the food groups on one plate. But I still think that powered junk that comes in a box can't, in any way, be classified as cheese," Kurt said with a soft laugh.

"Wow, Kurt. When did you get to be so snobby, huh?" Blaine asked, laughing back, enjoying the camaraderie they had always shared. He missed this more than he realized.

"Hey, when it comes to food, I have always been a snob. Do you remember nothing?" Kurt laughed before he realized what he said and then blushed and started to eat.

Just like they did when they were dating, they split their meal in half and shared it. But just like before, Kurt wasn't interested in eating any of the Mac and Cheese, saving it all for Blaine. After finishing his dinner, Blaine looked at Kurt deciding he had waited as long as he could to find out what was going on.

"So, do you want to talk to me now?" Blaine asked, looking at Kurt taking a sip of his diet coke.

Kurt stopped mid-chew, looking at Blaine with an almost lost look on his face, "What are you talking about?" Kurt asked, setting his fork down. He looked down at his hands, once again not looking at Blaine.

"Kurt, please don't do this. Please don't shut me out. I know you. I know you sometimes better than I know myself. I can tell when you have something on your mind. Talk to me, sweetheart. If something is wrong, let's talk about it to see if we can fix it," Blaine said, starting to feel concerned. He had just gotten Kurt back, and he wasn't ready to lose him again.

"We can't fix it, Blaine. That is the problem, this is something that can't be fixed," Kurt said as a tear slowly started to run down his cheek.

Blaine was out of his seat in a heartbeat and on his knees in front of Kurt, trying to get him to make eye contact. "Kurt, please. There is nothing that we can't fix together. There is nothing that could ever be that wrong," Blaine said softly, bringing his hand up to cup Kurt's face, forcing him to look at him. The look of devastation he saw in Kurt's eyes took his breath away. No, No, No. I can't lose him again. Blaine knows this time he won't survive it.

"I was just thinking, you deserve so much better," Kurt whispered, looking into Blaine's eyes, seeing the hurt and concern he had put there once again.

"What are you talking about, Kurt? I don't understand," Blaine whispered back, looking back into Kurt's eyes. Eyes he had always gotten lost in. "Talk to me, sweetheart, please."

"I just started thinking about everything that you have had to go through because of me. How much better off you would have been if you hadn't met me. I don't regret meeting you or loving you, Blaine. That isn't what I mean at all. But look how your life turned out. All the heartache you have gone through because of me. You left a school you loved to follow me to McKinely. You left all your friends, a place where you shined and felt safe, especially after what happened to you at Carson." Kurt paused to take a breath, knowing he needed to get all of this off of his chest if they had a chance to make their relationship work this time around.

"Then I started off thinking about everything you had to go through because of our breakups and subsequently what Bryce did to you. If it hadn't been for me, for my stupidity, you never would have met him. If it wasn't for me, he never could have hurt you. You didn't deserve that! You didn't deserve everything I put you through, and yet here you are, ready to give me another chance. You deserve so much better," Kurt said, finally breaking down, his shoulders shaking.

"Ohh, Kurt. When are you going to understand that there is nothing and nobody out there better for me than you? You are all I have ever needed. Yes, I tried to build a life with Bryce. I thought if I tried hard enough at it that Bryce and I could make it work. Kurt, you have to understand, though, there wasn't a single day that I was with him, or away from you, I didn't think about you. There wasn't a single moment that I didn't want to be back with you. On the night of what would have been our fourth anniversary, I got so very drunk. I had to put my phone in my sock drawer, because all I wanted to do was call you and beg you to take me back, to want me again. Don't you have any idea how much I love you?" Blaine hoped he was getting through to Kurt. He so desperately needed the other man to understand how much he loved and needed him in his life.

"Yes, some really bad things happened, but one thing you aren't thinking about is the good that happened too. If it hadn't been for what happened between us, I wouldn't have that beautiful little girl in there that I love with all my heart. I wouldn't have even known she existed. I wouldn't have her in my life, and I wouldn't change that for the world. Because of you, I have this amazing daughter." Yes, Blaine had to go through horrible heartbreak and so much anguish to get Sere, but he knew that there is no way he would have changed a second if it meant not having her in his life.

"Would I change the pain our breakups caused? Yes, in a heartbeat. Would I change the time I had to be away from you? Yes, but that is all I would change. I would never change the love I have for you, the need I have for you. Kurt, there is nothing better in this lifetime or the next that could EVER be better for me than you," Blaine said, forcing Kurt to look at him, before slamming his lips against Kurt's, needing him to feel what he was saying was the truth.

Blaine pulled his lips away long enough to look at Kurt, once again cradling his face in his hands. "I love you so much, Kurt. Please don't ever doubt that; don't doubt us. You are what I want, what I need. No one else could ever compare to you," Blaine whispered, looking into Kurt's beautiful eyes, before standing up and pulling Kurt with him.

"So beautiful," Blaine whispered, leaning in and placing a soft, sweet kiss on Kurt's lips. His kisses were gentle now, showing Kurt just how much he loved him. With his right hand, he cradled Kurt's face, allowing his left hand to slide down Kurt's side to his waist. Blaine pulled him as close to him as possible, not wanting to leave enough space for air to be between them.

"Come on," Blaine said softly, looking in Kurt's eyes before stepping back enough to grab Kurt's hand, and guided him over to the bed. Blaine never took his eyes off of Kurt, wanting to make sure this was what he wanted as well. He reached his hands up and slowly started unbuttoning Kurt's shirt, kissing over every inch of skin he exposed. Slipping the shirt down Kurt's shoulders and tossing it on the chair beside the was kissing him and slowly rotating his hips so his erection connected with Kurt's.

"You are so beautiful. How could I have forgotten just how beautiful you are?" Blaine whispered in Kurt's ear, kissing down his neck to his jaw, and then reconnecting his lips to Kurt's. He slipped his tongue into his mouth, loving the taste that was pure Kurt. Blaine slowly ran his hands down Kurt's back to his ass, squeezing it and pulling his hips closer, while once again thrusting his hips forward.

"Blaine, I need you so bad right now; please do something," Kurt moaned, throwing his head back as Blaine's lips left his and started gently kissing down his neck, to his shoulder gently biting down.

"What do you want, sweetheart? What do you want me to do?" Blaine whispered in Kurt's ear, his voice gravelly with need.

"Make love to me. It's been so long," Kurt moaned out right before Blaine was attacking his lips again, deep and hard, thrusting his tongue back in Kurt's mouth and chasing his, not able to get enough.

Blaine reached between them and unbuckled Kurt's belt before unbuttoning and unzipping Kurt's jeans. He slowly slid his hands under his waistband, down Kurt's ass, gently squeezing before pushing his pants down. Blaine stepped back long enough to pull off his own T-shirt, pajama pants, and boxers before gently pushing Kurt back on the bed. He pressed Kurt down on the mattress, and then he pulled Kurt's pants and boxers off, tossing them on the chair next to the bed.

Blaine walked away from Kurt long enough to grab his toiletry bag out of his suitcase. He brought it back over to the bed and pulled out the box of condoms and lube he had thought to buy before leaving New York. He knew they were heading this way and wanted to be ready when they were ready to take this step, no matter where or when it finally happened. Blaine pulled a condom out of the box and removed the plastic from the bottle of lube. He leaned over to place a slow, deep kiss on Kurt's lips before crawling on the bed and settling between Kurt's legs.

Squirting some lube on his hands, he slowly started prepping Kurt and taking his time. He knows how long it has been for Kurt and Blaine doesn't want to rush this, even though the only thing he can think about is sliding into Kurt's warm, tight body.

When Kurt started whimpering in the back of his throat and thrusting his hips up, Blaine knew without him saying a word that he was ready. He quickly tore the condom pack open and then rolled it down his hard cock. Squirting some more lube on his hand, Blaine rubbed some on himself, and coated more onto Kurt's puckered hole. Lining himself up, Blaine started pushing forward, entering Kurt slowly even though everything in Blaine wanted just to thrust forward and be encased entirely in Kurt's sweet body.

When he was finally all the way inside of Kurt, Blaine reached between them with a soft smile to grasp Kurt's cock in his hand. He started moving it up and down Kurt's shaft until he was hard again. Bracing himself on his forearms, Blaine leaned over so he could slowly kiss Kurt. He slowly started thrusting his hips, pulling almost out of Kurt's body before slowly pushing himself back in.

Blaine was in heaven. He had forgotten just how amazing it felt to make love to Kurt. Blaine loved watching his reactions, seeing just how active Kurt was, making love to Blaine as much as Blaine was making love to him. Kurt didn't just lay there; he gave Blaine as much as Blaine gave him. When Kurt wrapped his legs around Blaine's waist and pulled him in further, he knew what Kurt wanted without him having to say a word.

Blaine sped up his thrust, popping his hips harder, faster; his balls slapping against Kurt's ass. When Kurt unwound his legs from Blaine's waist and firmly planted his feet on the mattress and started thrusting his hips up to meet Blaine faster, Blaine knew Kurt was close.

"Blaine, please," Kurt moaned out, thrashing his head back and forth his mouth open.

"I have you, sweetheart," Blaine said, reaching his hand between them and grasping Kurt's cock in his hand, moving it up and down in rhythm with the thrust of his hips. Blaine leaned over and placed his mouth over Kurt's right before Kurt would have screamed out. Blaine had always loved hearing the noises Kurt made when he was finally able to find his release; it had always turned him on so much to the point that if he weren't there yet, Blaine would usually follow soon after. But Blaine knew they had to be quiet this time if he didn't want Sere to wake up. If they were at home, it would be no problem because she would be in her room down the hall, but right now, she was in her crib across the room.

Blaine continued to thrust into Kurt until he could feel a tightening in his balls and a pull in his stomach, and he was soon coming, filling the condom while still buried deep inside of Kurt. Blaine leaned over and placed a sweet kiss on Kurt's lips before slowly pulling out of his body. Blaine remembered how sensitive Kurt was after sex. Reaching down, Blaine pulled off the condom and quickly tied it off, throwing it in the trash can by the bed. Blaine laid back down beside Kurt, pulling him into his arms and peppering kisses all over his face until he tasted tears.

"Kurt, honey, are you ok? Was I too rough on you?" Blaine asked concerned, pulling Kurt even closer to him. Kurt had never cried after they had made love before.

"No, Blaine, you weren't too rough. I had just forgotten that is all," Kurt whispered, burying his face in Blaine's neck, breathing in his scent.

"Forgotten what, sweetheart?" Blaine asked, worried now that he had done something wrong. Worried that maybe Kurt hadn't wanted it after all. Those old doubts Bryce had given him came back full force. Had he misread Kurt?

"I had just forgotten how amazing making love with you was; how amazing you are at it," Kurt whispered, running his finger across Blaine's cheek. "I missed that so much. I missed you, Blaine, so much," Kurt said as tears continued to slide down his face.

"I missed you too, sweetheart. I missed you more than you will ever know," Blaine said back before kissing Kurt, putting as much emotion into that kiss as he could. Needing Kurt to understand once again what he meant to him.

"Kurt, what happened earlier, you were fine and then all of a sudden you seemed so sad. Please don't say it was nothing. If we are going to make it, we have to be able to talk. I think that was a lot of our problems before. We talked, but we didn't at the same time. I don't want that to happen again. I don't want us to bottle everything up until one of us explodes," Blaine said, sitting up and turning so he could look at Kurt. They had discussed some of it after dinner, but Blaine felt there was more to it, that there was more going on.

Kurt slowly sat up too, leaning back against the headboard. "I don't know really. I was happy we were here together, and even though I understand why we're here, I just knew we were going to have an amazing time because we were here together. I started thinking about how much you have changed, and I realized I was the reason for that or at least part of that change, and it hurt," Kurt said looking down at his hands not looking at Blaine

"What do you mean, I have changed Kurt? Because my love for you will never change, I will always love you," Blaine said, looking at Kurt trying to understand.

"I started thinking back to the person you were when we first met. Your happiness and spontaneity was contagious. You laughed at the drop of a hat and jumped on furniture for god's sake," Kurt said, looking at him. "Since we got back together, I noticed you don't smile as much as you used to. You don't laugh as much anymore. To be honest, you seem so sad sometimes. I look over at you sometimes when you don't think I am looking, and you just look so lost. And I realize that I am the cause of that. I was stupid, and because of that, look what it caused you, Blaine. I caused that Blaine, me, and I will never forgive myself for that," Kurt answered, finally looking Blaine in the eyes.

"You're right, Kurt. I do sometimes think of things and get sad, but not because of you, never because of you. Don't you realize how much joy you bring into my life? Just you being in it and being able to spend time with you again? I'm sad because of the situation, not because of you. Please, Kurt, understand that, ok. I'm being completely serious, Kurt, we need to start talking to each other about the important stuff. That was part of our problem before. We would push things down, afraid of saying something that would make the other person mad. I know I did that a lot towards the end. I let things build up until they blew up. I don't want us to do that ever again. If I say something or do something you don't like, tell me about it, and I will do the same with you." Blaine knew this was a pivotal moment in their lives, in their relationship. He knew that if they couldn't fix this right here and now, they'd never be able to make their lives together work.

"We can't be afraid to have the hard talks anymore, Kurt; we mean too much for that. If I have learned anything in the last year apart from you, I have learned that. What we have together is everything I could ever want from life, you, me, and Sere," Blaine said, never meaning anything more.

"Ok, I will try. I know I let fear motivate me before; I don't want ever to do that again. If I feel rushed or pushed into something I will tell you, I won't let it build up as I did before our last break up," Kurt said with a soft smile on his face.

"And that, sweetheart, is all I can ask for. Now then, why don't we go take a shower, and come back and get our cuddle on. If I have it figured right, we have about four more hours before my beautiful daughter is going to be waking us up," Blaine said, kissing Kurt, standing up and pulling Kurt with him towards the bathroom. Life was good, Blaine thought.

A/N: Park Plaza County Hall was the motel I stayed at when I visited London in September. The last night I was there, I got to see the Eye lit up all in red. It is a sight I will never forget.