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Kisses from Germany!
Btw, I have two ideas for two future fics:
1) Bella is a small orphan, who fell in her orphanage. She was taken to the hospital where Carlisle met her. He decides he wants to help her. Maybe adopt her. (I know, there are some stories about this out there but I like the few things I have in my mind)
2) Jacob&Bella. It's set in New Moon, during that moment where Bella thinks to herself what would the protocol be for another kiss when Jake is almost kissing her? It's a pure Jake & Bella fic...
Which would you like to read the most?
The Butterfly Effect.
Chapter 17: A new beginning.
Bella had come to peace with the fact that in less than two weeks she would be changed. But that didn't mean there wasn't a little bit of anxiety about the subject. Nevertheless, she had spent a lot of time with Demetri and Heidi as well as Felix, they were really good at making her forget all about being nervous.
She was currently in their room just talking. She loved to hear stories about their trips around the world, especially about those where they got lost. Bella laughed hard and long when Demetri told her that just because they were vampires didn't mean they automatically knew which direction was which. It made her feel a bit better. She had never thought about vampires having a poor sense of direction. Demetri said it didn't help the fact that if they were meeting a vampire they have never met, his gift wasn't exactly useful since he could only track the minds of those he had previously met, or at least been in the presence of.
It was that particular topic that brought him a few days before her change to her room seeking to speak with her and relieve his conscience. He had been feeling guilty because he had told her a lie, and he didn't want that lie to hang over their heads through her change and her newborn faze.
"I have to confess something." He looked nervous, Bella thought. She nodded stepping aside to let him in. "I lied to you." Bella frowned turning to face him. He went straight to the point and that disconcerted Bella a bit. He must be really nervous, he was always one of those people who when delivering bad news, tended to babble trying to avoid an uncomfortable situation. It was quite ironic, seeing as he was one of the high ranking soldiers of the Volturi, and many considered him a threat.
"About what?" She sat on one of the sofas in her room. She decided she was going to hear him out first and decide what to do later. She couldn't help but be disappointed, though. Demetri had never lied to her.
"When we talked about my gift when you came to live here, you asked me if I could track you, and I said yes. But it wasn't true. I've never been able to track you. I lied because I could see you were freaked out, and somehow I didn't want to add to that." He wasn't looking her in the eyes.
Bella looked at him. She was surprised. He was so afraid that she would get mad at him. Even if she wasn't exactly happy with the fact that he had lied, she could see why he did it. And truth be told, it was such a silly lie. Bella giggled unable to stop herself. Demetri smiled softly at her, albeit still worried.
"I'm not happy you lied, but I'm not mad either. It's something very silly to be mad at. And you were protecting me. But promise me you'll never lie to me again, no matter if you think you're protecting me."
He nodded. "I promise." He said fervently.
Bella hugged him because who could not when he was looking so cute.
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A few days later, one day before her change to be exact, she was emerging from the bathroom in her normal green towel. Felix had been spending more time at night with her, even if they didn't have sex. He said that lately she had been a bit restless and the only way to calm her was to take her into his arms. She has said that it made sense that she eased once she was in his arms, his smell was always something that she associated with home. Either way, Felix's stare was fixed on her right shin, which currently presented a medium-sized deep purple bruise. It looked nasty but it wasn't painful.
"What on earth happened to you there?" He pointed to the bruise.
She shrugged while getting dressed. "I kicked myself by accident while kicking off my boots the other day." It had been the first time she had ever kicked herself, and she had laughed quietly at herself. It seemed as she always found something to run into. Ever since she could remember she had bruises on her legs, most of them she didn't know how she had gotten them.
"You must be the only person in the world that does that." He rolled his eyes while Bella climbed into the bed. She shrugged. It wasn't as if it was going to be there longer. After tomorrow, she wouldn't need to worry about bruises or broken bones anymore. She was actually looking forward to that.
"How are you feeling about tomorrow?" Bella smiled amusedly, it was as if he had read her mind.
"I won't deny that I'm nervous. But I'm not afraid. I'm a little bit anxious, in a good way. It's like when I was seven and my dad promised to take me to the amusement park during the weekend. I was excited but nervous. I had so many expectations that I really wanted it to be done."
Felix knew she wasn't scared, she had said so many times. He wasn't the one being changed and he was the worried one. He caressed her back in an attempt to gain some time to gather his thoughts and form coherent sentences.
"What sort of expectations do you have?" It seemed the safer path.
"Well, you know I'm basically always running into things. So, actually developing a sense of space would be nice." He laughed at her. Sometimes it was comical when she ran into things, but there have been a few close calls. Another visit to the doctor wasn't something either of them was looking forward to doing.
"What else?" His concern decreasing with the things she wanted to do when she wakes up as a vampire.
"Well, I would definitely enjoy having sex with you without getting tired." He knew she enjoyed their intimate times due to how she constantly jumped him. But he was really curious about this one. Especially because of the way she was blushing.
"Oh yeah?" He purred in her ear. She nodded, still not lifting her head from his shoulder, too embarrassed at having said that out loud. This was one of those moments when her brain and mouth didn't act together. "That really interests me." He chuckled.
What the hell. She thought, ready to jump and be over with it. The more she hid the more embarrassed she'd be.
"Well. You know I like it." That was a euphemism, she more than liked it. " But one thing I'm really looking forward to is being able to jump you, get my way with you, and not having to take hours or recover. I could jump you again and again and again and not get tired of it. I would really enjoy being in equal conditions to you." She finished laughing. He had a look of surprise in his face. Bella had never been this vocal about their sex life before. She would blush hard at the slightest innuendo from her friends, and here she was, talking about jumping him and having wild sex, her blush from a few minutes ago, long forgotten.
"What if I jump you now?" He joked kissing her ear, just the point where she loved it.
"You won't get any complaints from me." She whispered.
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The next morning, Bella woke up very early. Too excited to keep sleeping. Felix laughed at her enthusiasm saying she might be the only one who has ever been excited about the unknown.
"That's the thing though. It's not exactly unknown. You will be there for me, even if I am a mess. I know that you will be there to guide me or tackle me. Yes, being a newborn still scares me, that hasn't gone away because of my enthusiasm. But I can't control it until I get there."
He felt bad at having put a damp on her good humor. He got off the bed and walked towards her, engulfing her in a hug. "Even if you become a crazy newborn. All of us will help you get through it. And I know the Cullens will do the same." Bella smiled and laid her head on his chest. He didn't have anything against the Cullens, just Edward.
She turned around and looked him in the eyes. She had had bad experiences with red-eyed vampires. Three of them had wanted to kill her just for the fun of it. Even Aro had once creeped her out, but she couldn't begrudge him his scientific curiosity, just his way of doing it. Felix had been the first red-eyed vampire who she hadn't been afraid of. He was a wonderful man, who showed her all kinds of patience, and love, and family, who she fought with, who let her make her own mistakes regardless of the situation.
"I love you, so much" she vowed intensely. He returned the stared. It was a very private moment.
"I love you too." He kissed her sweetly and let her get dressed.
Aro had given him permission to change her anywhere else but the castle. He had the tiny suspicion he had allowed it because he couldn't deny anything to Bella. He really loved her, she was endearing to him. And she liked to listen to him tell stories about his youth. No one had ever interested themselves in forming any kind of relationship with Aro. That scared Felix because that made Bella a double-edged weapon. And the three kings were wary of those kinds of people. Bella was creeped out by Camus, and she felt bad about Marcus' permanent disinterest in things. No one knew why Bella enjoyed hearing stories so much. When he had asked her, she said she wasn't ready to tell him yet. And he understood it. It wasn't a piece of vital information, he was just curious.
He shook his head and wondered, not for the first time, how was Bella going to be as a vampire. He knew she would remain basically the same. But he wondered what kind of gift would she bring to immortality.
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The two of them were all set in one of the most secluded houses he owned. In fact, this one could be considered as a cabin. It was all made of wood and rock. It took her breath away when she entered. They had talked a little about the proceeding which was about to take place. She would lay on the bed, and as soon as she felt one hundred percent ready, he would bite her on the neck. Neither of them wanted her to have any scars; not because of vanity but because they could be disconcerting at times. Bella thought back at Jasper's story and the scars he had shown her. They had been very disconcerting even for her human mind. So, no scars. Heidi and Demetri would arrive as soon as the change starts. They still didn't know if they would remain until she woke up. Unsure if she would perceive them as a threat.
Felix had also told her that there was no rush. They could play games, watch a movie, or just talk. As long as the change started today, the time didn't exactly matter. Bella processed that and told him she wanted to talk for a while. To calm herself before he bit her.
So, they were lying on the bed, she was resting her head on his chest while he caressed her back with lazy movements.
"I want to write a book or at least short stories that can be released online under copyright." She suddenly said.
"That's why you've been asking us and Aro about anything we can remember as humans?" He wondered. He felt her nod. "That's a good idea. I'm sure you would be a great writer. You'll have a lot of space in your head and you won't get tired. You'll be a success." She raised her head and smiled at him. He smiled back.
"I love your faith in me." He laughed. "I love you, very much." She kissed him softly, barely a brush of their lips. "I'm ready." He nodded.
"Do you have any questions before I bite you?"
"No. I know the process." Alice had been very clear about that. Edward had been as well in an attempt to dissuade her from 'damning her soul'. Rose and Jasper's stories hadn't lacked any details. And Felix had been completely honest about the change, the pain, and everything. Even if it made him uncomfortable. A part of him wished that she could get through it without any pain.
He kissed her hard, pouring all the passion he could conjure into that kiss. His love. His wishes for them. His excitement about their future together. His excitement about knowing more of this amazing woman. He released her suddenly and bit her neck, not giving her time to process one action when the other was taking place.
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The change lasted three days. It underwent as they had expected. She screamed at times, got quiet other times. He was anxious, excited, afraid, on guard. He had a million thoughts running through his mind. The changes in her were amazing but subtle to the human eyes. Her hair was longer, thicker, but it still had those barely imperceptible red stripes that only showed with the sun. She seemed to have grown a few centimeters, but with her lying down he couldn't be sure. She had a fuller figure but still remained petite and thin. She had been beautiful as a human, and even more so as a vampire, as cliche as that sounded. Heidi and Demetri decided to not be there when she woke up, but still be at the closest proximity as they could be without being heard. Felix didn't know whether to feel thankful or not.
Bella opened her eyes on the third day. He stood far away from her as to not scare her. He tried not to look intimidating. Being actively thinking about his movements, his stance, his pose. One bad move and it could be hell. Bella had a soft personality, guided by curiosity, and good. She didn't have trouble making friends, but she only preferred those who actually seemed interested in forming an honest friendship. But she was also explosive at times when her anger would get uncontrollable and unbearable. That made her unpredictable. He followed the movement of her eyes. She was taking all in. Observing the spiderwebs that had formed in the last three days. Listening to the birds chant outside. Finally, her eyes landed on him. He smiled softly without showing his teeth.
She frowned. His smile disappeared. "Who are you?" His eyes widened in panic and his heart broke in thousands of pieces. She had forgotten him. He had tried to make her transformation as less traumatic as possible and had failed. His eyes never left her, so that's how he was able to see the smile that broke in her face a few seconds later. It was the smile she gave him when she knew she had done something that she shouldn't have done. But something that she didn't regret doing.
"Not funny, Isabella!" he growled feeling as if his heart was going to jump out of his body.
"I beg to differ, Felix." She was in front of him in an instant. She seemed surprised by it, but her smile never left her face.
I was tempted to finish the chapter after she pretends not to recognize him, but I don't know when I'll be able to update again, so it seemed unfair to leave such a cliffhanger. You know I take some time between updates due to uni.
I hope you liked it. I loved this chapter!
Kisses and hugs from Germany!
