"This sure is the biggest, boldest move I have ever made for a girl…I let my sister put a permanent idea on her body, is Gwen crazy?! Am I crazy?" I am sitting in the front office at the Mad Tatter looking like a complete wreck I'm sure. "Why would she go along with it? It's not like we're dating or married and I know her inside out…..but the thing is I do know her inside and out. Even after all of these years. No one has gotten to me like her. I'm smitten, just like I always have been. I've always been intrigued by her, attracted to her. Her mind is unlike any other, the way her nose scrunches when she laughs…but my badass exterior never let me show it. I had to be the badass. I just had to keep my player image up. Like a dumbass. That's what's always gotten in my way, in just about every aspect of my life." I run my hand through my hair and sigh. "I can't change the past. I just hope I can shape my future…"


"I'm so nervous, why did Tara make me put a blindfold on so I can't see anything!"

"Okay, and we are done, Gwen! Now let me guide you back to your man." I feel myself blush.

"Tara, he is not my man, he's my next door neighbor and my best friend." I hear her laugh.

"Oh please, it's not like you wouldn't love for him to be your man. The biggest perk of that is I would be your sister in law! Isn't that enough of a reason to date him?" I laugh.

"Oh Tara, you haven't changed a bit. You used to say that all the time when Duncan and I were in high-school."

"Well it's not my fault, he wouldn't ever shut up about you." I roll my eyes even though no one could see it.

"He had Courtney, remember?"

"Doesn't mean he liked the bitch. What's funny is big miss I'm gonna be a CIT or a lawyer ended up being a waitress stuck in that loser ass town. You're out here living your dream, and you still have Duncan by your side. So who actually won? You did Gwen, through everyone I promise you that you are doing so much better now than anyone else I know." I smile, and can feel my cheeks heating up again.

"Can I just see the tattoos now? I'm so anxious."

"That makes two of us Sunshine." Duncan said. I gulp. I hope that he likes what he did to me.

"Have a little faith, brother! What do you think?"

"Tara you're a fucking genius."

"Can I be the judge of that?!" I say a smidge irritated that I still haven't seen what is now permanently on my body.

"Okay, okay!" Tara comes up behind me and takes of my blindfold. I look down at my arms and tears immediately form. They're covered from the top of my hands to my shoulders in a beautiful twist of teal blue roses, dark blue roses, and vines with thorns and on the parts where my cuts were super deep the quote "The rose and the thorn, and sorrow and gladness are linked together" wrapped around my arm.

"Oh Fuck she's crying, do you hate it?!" I immediately hug Duncan and sniffle.

"No I love them..I love them so much Duncan….thank you thank you thank you…." I feel Duncan relax and his strong arms wrap around me so gently, like I might break. "I really really hope he can't feel my heart beating out of my chest right now."


"I really hope she can't hear how fast my heart is beating." I look down at her and smile. "I've fixed one of the biggest wrongs of my life….to the one that means and meant the most to be. Fuck I gotta tell her how big of a sap I am for her."

"Ahem, guys I'm still here." I glare at Tara and Gwen moves from my embrace.

"Sorry." Gwen mumbles.

"Geez Tara way to ruin a hug." I roll my eyes at her.

"Hey, it's not my fault I gotta get you two lovebirds out of here." I nod my head.

"Thank you again so much, Tara…you know how much this meant to me, but I couldn't have asked for a better tattoo…"

"Hey sweetie, again, thank Duncan not me. He told me what to do I just put my flare on it!"

"You did great Tara, thank you." I put my arm around Gwen, we get in my car and I start the drive home.


"I should tell him. I should tell him that I think I'm- no no this is so fucking stupid. I can't just be like lmao btw I love you! I can't be doing this to myself. I swore myself off. I was done with being with someone…I was content with it being just me….but then…..then Duncan came along and changed my whole damn mind. It also doesn't help he looks so damn sexy in that shirt and I haven't had sex in God knows how long. I'm all sorts of fucking fucked up aren't I? But I can't just sit here and not say anything while I'm trying to figure out what to do."

"I really love the tattoos….I seriously do Duncan. I can't get over it… I feel so much better about myself…" I look up at him and see him smile. A genuine smile.

"With our without them…you're a beautiful woman…but I will say with them you look sexy as hell." I blush, hard. I know I'm a red as a Christmas ornament.

"Is that what you think of me? Sexy?" It's my turn to smirk.

"Of course, but you knew that."

"Well, you look really nice in that shirt." "I'm so fucking lame."

"I'm sure you'd like it off a lot better."

"I'd like a lot of things better if they were off of you." "I DID NOT JUST-AHHH WHY GOD WHY."

"Oh we have plenty of time for that if that's what you wanna do for your birthday." Duncan winks at me and I wish I could bury myself in this seat cause I'm fucking embarrassing. After that exchange, we just decide to listen to the radio on the way home.

"Is power couple T-" Duncan changes the channel. "I fucking hate commercials I swear to God."

"So do I." I nod my head in agreement.

"I guess it doesn't matter, since we're back home." Duncan puts the car in park. I look at him, I feel my body get flushed and hot. "I don't understand how he can have this affect on me." Duncan smiles and gets out of the car. He comes over to my side and opens up the door for me. As we walk up the stairs, his hand rests on my lower back, my heart beats faster. We get to my door, and we stand in the doorway.

"So…"

"So…"

"I don't know which one of us went for it first, it was probably a bit of both, but next thing I know I'm kissing Duncan, and damn does it feel good. I run my hands through his hair, his hands roam my back. I don't know when we stumbled into my apartment, I don't know when we made it to my bedroom…I don't know who took off my dress, I just know this is the best birthday I've had in years." I look down from writing to see him fast asleep next to me, his hair the best kind of messy, his face relaxed. "I don't know where this will lead, I know things are different forever now, but it was worth it." I close my diary, grab his shirt and slip it over my head. I put my diary back in its spot, and stretch a bit. Right as I am about to walk away, my computer pings. I sigh and roll my eyes. "I'm sure it's Trent wanting to tell me happy birthday or something." I sit to open my laptop, but I pause. "For once…I don't need to talk to him. I don't need him, and I'm done with him. You know what? I should just block him…even if this thing I have with Duncan doesn't pan out like how I want it to, I don't need this anymore." I open it up and with no hesitation I go into Skype and block his username. I shut my computer, happier than I have been in years. I walk back over and lay back down in my bed, feeling warmth like I have never felt before.


Thank you everyone for reading and being patient with me! remember to review cause it means a lot' thank y'all 3- Tdifreak55