Break up DM x CS
D.p.o.v
How could he do this to me? Right as I leave to go on tour with all of my friends/brothers he tells me he can't do this anymore. He was the one who told me I should follow my dreams and join the band in the first place. He knew Lorene Drive was a sinking ship so he told me to go join Hollywood Undead and now he can't be with me anymore because I go away too much. I think there is more to that then meets the eye. I purposefully miss my flight, I'll get one later and be there on time. I just need to confirm my theory.
You know how it goes in movies and fiction, your partner starts moaning someone else's name in their sleep and you get a bit suspicious. I know he dated a chick that was either called Paige or Hannah before he dated me but he started moaning her name in his sleep the past few weeks. I know his excuse for breaking up with me was bogus, now I need to prove it. I drive back to his house; my stuff is all in my truck anyway, I can find somewhere to stay while I'm on tour. If it comes to the worse and I can't find somewhere, then one of the guys will let me stay until I find a new place.
Louie is staying with my mom like he usually does when I'm on tour so I slip into the house without being heard. I just hope I'm not right on this one. I don't want to be right, no one likes a cheat. I quietly make my way through the house and put some more of my personal belongings in my backpack. I don't want to come back or lose my valuables. As I get closer to the bedroom I knew my worst fear was being realized, he was moaning her name and she was moaning his. They were having sex so soon after he thinks I'm gone. Nathan was cheating on me and now I am going to ruin his new relationship.
I manage to keep the tears at bay, I'll cry later when I get to the hotel. I walk into the room and they split apart instantly. "Danny? What are you doing back so soon?" he asks me. I try to keep calm, Hannah just looked between us. "I missed the flight so I came to get a few last things and to give you something back," I tell him. He was confused at first but I went around the room to get my last personal items and then I stood at the end of the bed. "You know, I never believed your pathetic excuse." I say.
"What do you mean Danny?" he asks, as if he didn't know. "You don't think for one second I knew you were fucking this hoe behind my back while I was away. You moan her name in your sleep, not mine. You were the one who gave me this promise ring at the beginning of our relationship saying you'll always stick by me and support me while I join the band you said would be better for me than my other one," I tell him, getting angrier at his pretend dumbness. I take the promise ring off and drop it to the floor.
"I don't need that anymore; it has no meaning to me now. You go enjoy fucking your slut; I'll go do my job with people who deserve me around," I tell him and I walk out of the room while Hannah starts asking him questions about why the lead singer of Hollywood undead was in his house and saying he used to be with her guy. I don't know how I managed to keep my composure while I drove to the airport and to security. The guys had texted me, asking why I missed the flight. I told them I had finally slept okay and kinda overslept. They believed it but I didn't want to lie, I can't tell them I just broke up with my boyfriend yet. I need to get over it first.
I swear everyone at the airport knows what just went down. I keep looking up and seeing fake sympathetic smiles and people who just want to tell me it's gonna be alright and it's gonna get better. Even the security guy asked me what was wrong; did I really look that open to them? I managed to get them to stop the stares and put on a poker face. I need to keep this up till I get somewhere private and I am completely alone. I know the tour manager is picking me up from the airport when I land, they texted me about it.
There weren't mad at me for missing the flight, I don't know if they knew where I was before the guys did or not. I know they weren't mad when Jorel and I missed the flight; we still made it on time and didn't miss a show. I didn't sleep on the plane; I know I should have done but there was too much on my mind. I was only going to another state with USA so I should be fine without suffering too much jet lag. I hope that asshole knows he is gonna lose more than a loving boyfriend soon enough.
I couldn't wait to get to the hotel room. We all got our own rooms so I guess the guys don't even know I am here yet. I put my suitcase on the floor and get my toiletries and change of clothes out. I was going to break down in the shower while I clean, it is a way to hide the fact I'm crying when I get out because the water mixes with your tears leaving behind no trace. Chase knew something is wrong with me and tried to get it out of me on the drive here. It was just the two of us and I could have told him but I didn't want to cry in front of anyone.
I don't want to seem weak, not now when I need to prove I don't need that asshole in my life. I managed to have the shower successfully and I felt better after I let it all out. I was glad I said no to getting his name tattooed on me. I lay down on the bed after drying my hair and just stared at the ceiling until there was a knock on the door. I would have told them to come in but they don't have a key card. "Who is it?" I shout, just out of pure curiosity. "It's me George, you gonna let me in?" George says and I get up.
I open the door then walk back to my bed to flop down onto it. "Chase sent me and I wanted to make sure you got here okay," he tells me. I should have known Chase was going to send one of the guys I was closest to and get the information out of me that way. "I'm fine though, just a little unhappy I slept so much I missed the first flight," I tell him, pointless but I was going to deny it anyway. He knows I haven't slept more than two or three hours in a week or two, it's clear to him on my face.
"What really happened Danny? You know I won't tell Chase unless you really want me to," he tells me and sits at the end of the bed, watching me. He was seeing how my chest moved as I tried to hold back more tears, my eyes are watering from the tears and I looked a mess. I think he saw I didn't have my promise ring on anymore and I always wore it everywhere. I was a fool head over heels in love with someone who fell out of love with me. "I caught Nathan cheating on me, he was trying to break up with me anyway but when I saw him in bed with Hannah, everything just died," I tell him.
I hoped he wasn't going to tell Chase but I started sobbing again so I wasn't able to tell him. He stood up and lifted me into his arms so I gripped his shirt. "Aw Danny, I won't tell anyone I promise. That bitch will get what's coming to him, you'll see," he tells me and he sits back down on the bed while I hold his shirt so tightly my knuckles went white. He was doing the usual tricks to calm me down so I could stop crying, this was affecting me more than I first thought. I just couldn't stop crying. "Danny, you gotta breathe for me buddy, calm down," he tells me and he starts taking deep breaths for me to try and copy.
It took me a while but I managed to take my first deep breath and then I calmed down after a few more deep breaths and snuggling up to George. "I'm sorry," I tell him once I stopped sobbing, I was just sniffling occasionally. He made me look him in the eyes and he wiped the traces of tears from my face. "Don't be sorry or blame yourself. You are going through a shit time, your insomnia kicked off and your long term boyfriend just ended it with you. You are going to be emotional and I am going to be here for you every step of the way," he tells me and I rest my head on his shoulder.
I let out a yawn and closed my eyes while I rested on him. "Do you want me to stay with you for a little while, so you're not on your own?" he asks me and I nod, I didn't even tell him I am now technically homeless. He is only thinking about staying nearby me or in the same hotel room as me so I don't do something I am going to regret later. I heard both our phones vibrate against the table as we got messages. I was way too tired and comfortable to check mine but George checked his. "The guys wanted to know if I'd seen you so we could all hang out, I am telling them we can do it later, you need a good sleep first and you might want to clean your face again," George tells me.
"Sounds like a plan, I am very tired," I tell him and he chuckles. He used one hand to text back while he held me with the other arm. He showed me the text so I could see if there was anything I wanted changing and I couldn't find anything, he just said that I wasn't feeling too great and could do with some more sleep so we'll all hang out later. It wasn't a lie, but at the same time it wasn't the complete truth either. They don't need to know now so it was going to be fine. "So I take it you didn't really sleep last night again?" George asks, I was starting to doze off but I wasn't totally comfortable.
"No, I purposefully missed the flight so I could see if he was cheating on me. I wasn't expecting him to jump into bed with her so soon after I had left. I needed to get the last of my stuff from his house," I tell him. He knows full well I don't have a place of my own, I was working on saving up with Nathan to get a new place than the little one bed house we did have. "Aw Danny, do you want to stay at mine until you get back on your feet after tour?" he asks, he knew straight away and I knew he feels sorry for me, I don't want him to. It was my fault I got into this mess.
"I can't ask you to do that, you have a wife and child at home, I'd just be a nuisance," I tell him and I heard him gasp and felt his grip tighten on me. He made me look him in the eyes again and I saw that he was upset and he just wanted to care for me like any decent big brother would. "Danny, please don't say things like that. I am sure Asia won't mind another hand helping around the house and a free babysitter for the little one, we love you and nothing is going to change that and we just want you to be safe and with a roof over your head," he tells me.
"Okay, if I can't get somewhere by the end of tour I'll stay with you I promise," I tell him, giving him a small smile. He smiles and lies down, taking me with him. "Good, I only want to look out for you. I really want to punch that guy for breaking my little brother's heart," he tells me and I snuggle up to him, hoping I could sleep a little. "I know you do, thank you for being here for me," I tell him as I yawn again. "Don't even worry about it, just go to sleep. I'll be here holding you when you wake up," he tells me as I eventually manage to doze off.
~two hours later~
"What did you say was wrong with him?" Jordon asks. I was now awake but I kept my eyes closed and played pretend. George must have let him in at some point. "Just feeling a little under the weather, he's not been eating and sleeping properly this past month or so and if he is just starting to now, it's going to affect him," George answers and I feel a cold towel like fabric touch the skin of my face. I have to struggle with not shivering. I guess he's been doing this for a while so he could wipe the tear tracks off my face.
"He should be getting better soon though, right?" Jordon asks, I have never heard him take such a level of interest in my health and wellbeing before. It made butterflies flutter in my stomach at the thought. I have had a crush on Jordon for a little while now, but that's all it's going to be. Just a crush, he may sound like he cares now but he won't later. "I don't see any reason why he shouldn't be okay after a little while of sleeping and eating right," George says and I decide to stop pretending. I rolled into George and he chuckled.
"You would have fallen off the bed then Dan," he tells me and gently squeezes my waist. "One of you would have caught me though, right?" I ask, adding a yawn at the end as I open my eyes. Jordon smiles at me and I smile back, it wasn't my strongest smile but I just woke up and stuff. "Of course we would Dan-Dan," he tells me and I raise my eyebrow at the new nickname I seem to have been given within the last minute. I looked to George who seems just as puzzled about my new nickname as I did.
Sure I have had plenty of nicknames before; my name is Daniel so it is very easy to give me nicknames. Danny or Dan are the most common nicknames people have called me. The band gave me the nickname Dan-bear or Danny-bear. Though, having said that the fans could have given me those nicknames and the guys have adopted them. I don't remember any weird ones; maybe Dan-Dan could fit into that category. "Where did Dan-Dan come from?" I ask him, I really wanted to clear up some of the confusion I was feeling.
I knew the sarcastic answer was going to be his brain. "Honestly, I don't really know it just came out. Sorry Danny," he tells me and I sit up so I could hug him. I got hit by a wave of vertigo 'cause I sat up too quickly and I think I have been lying down for a while. "Steady dude, a two hour nap and no food," George reminds me and I hug Jordon before resting against George. I can't remember telling him that I hadn't eaten yet today but I guess he knew that. My stomach was growling a little earlier but I didn't know if he could hear me.
"Do you want room service or takeout?" Jordon asks me, it is five pm now so I guess I should think about dinner. It seems like they don't want me to leave the hotel room and I guess that is fair enough. I am definitely a mess right now and I need to sort myself out. "Take out, I don't really trust room service here," I reply and he leaves the room without asking me what I wanted. I point this out to George. "The guys are getting food from your favourite take-out place here so they kind of know what you would say you wanted to eat," he explains.
"They just want to spoil you because they believe you are unwell, they don't know about Nathan. They want you to sleep properly and start eating three meals a day dude, you've lost weight and honestly don't look too good," he adds, rubbing my shoulder. "I know but all this stress Nathan is making me go through with added stress from Deuce isn't helping keep my mental health well," I reply and itch my wrist, a nervous habit. "What's Deuce been saying now?" he asks, prepared to murder the son of a bitch.
I had respect for Deuce as an artist, sure I know creative differences and fame getting to his head lead to his departure of the band but I respected what his lyrics represented. Since he left he has put out a few unoriginal tracks dissing us because he is salty. I have heard some of his original stuff but he isn't pulling the same amount of fans as we are. "Just the same old shit, there is another Danny v Deuce debate going on," I reply, Deuce wasn't getting directly involved with me but he might as well have been.
"They should all learn to get a grip, you have your qualities and talents and so does he to a certain extent. He can't scream or rap as good as you, his nasally tone prevents him from having as much of a wide vocal range as you and sound good. You studied for this work man, don't let the haters get you down, let them go beat their meat," George says and I smile at the pigskin reference. I get up on unsteady feet to go to the bathroom and George watches until I close the door. He trusts me enough to go to the bathroom on my own which is good.
When I got out of the bathroom, Jorel had appeared with the others and food. "Hey Danny, glad to see you made it in one piece," Jorel says and hugs me gently. I hug him back and sit in between Jordon and George before I was handed my food. "Thanks Jorel, I promise to all of you I'll work through these issues and try not to let them impact the tour," I tell them and they shake their heads before they smile and some started eating. "Just know we are here whenever you want or need us to be," Matt tells me and he starts eating.
The next few minutes were filled with silence while we all ate the food. It wasn't too uncomfortable but I could tell all eyes were on me and how much I was going to eat and how much they guessed I was going to leave behind if I got full. It wasn't likely that I'll get full before I finish all the food I was given; I am very hungry. I guess that meant they were surprised when I kept eating until I had no food left. George was proud of me because I was showing that I am willing to eat three meals a day without any side effects.
I don't think they got desert but it didn't really matter to me, I wasn't going to be fussed either way. They all seemed happy that I was eating and I had finished the food. I kinda stopped eating as much before Nathan split up with me because I was always fearful of people calling me fat. I still have that fear now but I know the guys will help me get through it. I was told that I'm too skinny so I need to put some weight on. Jorel handed me a chocolate bar and just watched me stare at it. "Dude I don't want it so eat it," he tells me. I still stare at it; I was confused because he just gave me his favourite brand.
I stopped staring at it when he took it off me and unwrapped it then stuffed it into my mouth. I did eat it but then I just sent a glare at Jorel. "What? I was guessing you were still hungry which is a good thing," Jorel tells me. They all stared at me. "Yeah I was still a little hungry but I wasn't expecting you to give me your favourite chocolate bar," I reply. He lifted me up easily and hugged me tightly. "Yeah I know, I want my little Danny to put weight on, that was way too easy to lift you up then," he tells me and I hug him back. "I know that too, I am trying to put weight on I promise," I reply.
"To be fair on Danny, tour is not the best place to put weight on. He is a hyperactive midget, he'll burn more calories than he'll consume," George says and we all laugh at the hyperactive midget comment. It is the second time I've heard it today. It does get old after a while but I think they will stop saying it; I don't want to get annoyed by them saying it too much. "Maybe we need to put him on those additional calorie shakes or something, make him consume more than he burns," Jordon suggests.
I have heard of what he was talking about and I feel like it could work. If I eat and consume more calories than I burn off chances are I can put maybe a few pounds on and I am seriously approaching the underweight scale. Maybe I was there already, I never weighed myself so I didn't know for sure but I probably am. It doesn't take much for me to lose pounds, especially on tours. The really short ones I do fine on and there is no weight difference but if we go out for three months I am bound to lose a pound or five. There weren't any leftovers from dinner not that I minded.
"So how's everything back home with you guys?" Matt asks and I feel a pang of pain in my chest. I can't tell them now. I try and get George's attention without it being questionable. He rests his head on my shoulder for a brief moment. "You don't have to answer this, just snuggle up to me. I'll cover for you," he whispers. I was biting my lip to stop the tears and that was gonna be raising some questions if the guys see it. I waited a minute to see if I could hold back the tears on my own.
I couldn't so I sat on George's lap and buried my head into his chest to let a few tears out. "Did I say something wrong?" Matt asks after a minute, George has his arms tightly around me and they knew that question might have upset me. "Nah, he just misses his family more than usual, he didn't see them much before we left for tour. He's okay," George says and that was one of the best cover ups I've heard from him because it is not a total lie. I was a little worried about what he was going to say. He could have made up something ridiculous and made me look like an idiot.
"Aw, I'm sorry dude; I know you don't get to spend a whole lot of time with them at the moment. Maybe we can convince Kyle to come out and see you and maybe Rigo and your mom can come too," Matt says putting his hand on my back. I flinched but nodded. That sounded like a good idea, I need my mom right not to be honest. Sometimes even when you're an adult you need the advice and guidance of your mom through tough times. I might call her later; she has a rough idea on what's going on between me and Nathan.
She knows he was hurting me and forcing me to do things I really didn't want to do. That is something that is evident on my skin but I have had no questions about it from the guys and as far as I am aware they don't know. It was more emotional abuse than physical to be honest, that guy made me feel like a piece of shit on a daily basis and made me feel like I wasn't worth anything. I think Jordon just noticed my promise ring wasn't on my hand. "Dude where is the ring you always wear?" he asks and I have to think of a creative answer.
"I had a shower when I got up this morning and rushed out the door without paying attention to what I was wearing really, then I missed the flight and didn't go back home, I sorted myself out in the bathroom at the airport, the ring is at home," I tell him. A total lie apart from the shower part but it fit into the story that I woke up late and missed the flight which means they are slightly more likely to believe me than if I only just mentioned some of that information. He seemed to accept it straight away. I didn't even sound that upset from the small cry I just had.
It wasn't long before they all wanted to go out and get drunk. That sounded like a good idea to me but it was also like I was going to hit the self-destruct button. I would drink until I passed out and then if I woke up not long after I'd drink more and not really care what happens to me. I whisper this to George who agreed it was better we both stayed here and I could call my mom and explain that I was a broken person now. George was staying to keep an eye on me; I could use any method of self-destruction right now.
"Come on Dan, you'll be fine. It's just a phone call with your mom and nothing is gonna happen to you or her apart from maybe a few tears from you. He will be occupied with his hoe to worry about you," he tells me and rubs my shoulders. I had my phone on the bedside table and I pressed my mom's contact so I could ring her and put it on speaker. He could talk to her if I couldn't and I didn't mind him hearing the conversation. She answered almost straight away, like she was waiting for it. Mother instincts I guess.
D: Hey mom
M: Hey Danny, what's happened?
D: You know how I told you about what Nathan has done? Well I missed one of my flights today so I could go and see what he was up to and he was cheating on me. I broke it off with him before he did it to me and left before he could really register I dumped him.
M: Aw Hun, just know it will only get better from here. You have five guys willing to snuggle you whenever you give those puppy eyes. Who knows, maybe you and Jordon can get together, you'll be happier with him and he will treat you right.
D: Mom, it's just a crush. He isn't going to go for it and so far only George knows so he is giving the snuggles right now. I just don't think I am ready to tell the others yet. I've been a bit shaken and upset by this; I thought I had something there.
M: I know baby, but trust your mama. Jordon will be the one for you and George will help you get together when you are ready. I am not expecting it to happen right away, that would be silly. Do you think I could get hooked up with a V.I.P pack? This mama needs to be with her boy.
D: I could mention it to Chase that you want to come out tomorrow to see me for a bit. I'm sure that's fine.
G: Chase says its fine Mrs. Murillo he has even sorted the flight out for you and you can share with Danny, he has two beds in here. He emailed you the details of the flight and everything.
M: Oh thank you George, the sooner I am with Danny the better. I knew something was up with one of my children when I woke up this morning.
D: I appreciate you dropping everything to come out and be with me mom. I need you right now.
M: I know baby, a good mother knows when her son needs her. I'm going to go pack and prepare for this flight, just try and relax a bit. I'll be there before you know it.
D: Okay mom. I love you and I'll see you later
M: I love you too bear, see you later.
I hugged George once the call ended and another round of sobbing started. I just still couldn't register that all of this had happened and that any of this was real. He held me like before and used the same tactics which calmed me down a lot quicker than before. I was still left emotionally drained. I guess that is to be expected once your heart was ripped out and stomped on before returned.
It was getting quite late and George just lay with me in the bed. Like a big brother comforting the younger one after a night terror or something. I just need someone with me right now; I don't trust myself to really be alone. I manage to fall into a dreamless sleep with George holding me. I know when I wake up in the morning my mom will be there, waiting to comfort me and feed me up as much as possible. He stopped me from seeing my family so she will be shocked to see how ill I look right now.
~next morning~
"How long has he been this skinny? I don't think he's ever looked like this before," I hear my mom ask as I wake up. I opened my eyes but they didn't really notice. "I think it has been at least three months, I had no idea Nathan was abusing him or anything like that. We all thought it was smooth sailing until he told me yesterday," he says and I rub the sleep out of my eyes, making them aware I was awake now.
Mom instantly pulled me towards her and engulfed me in one of the tightest hugs I am probably gonna get so far. I melted into the comfort and just hugged her back. I was craving having family around me. "Hey Danny," she says and kisses me on the cheek. I kiss her cheek. "Hey mom," I reply and just snuggle up to her. Then my stomach decided to let them know I was hungry. My mom and George chuckled as my cheeks heated up with embarrassment.
"Come on, I know a great place to get breakfast," George says and gets up. He was in different clothes than yesterday so I'm guessing that he went to his room when my mom got here and I was sleeping. Mom was reluctant to let me get up but I fell over pretty much as soon as I got up so I didn't really get far. "I had vertigo again," I tell George who just goes through my suitcase and throws an outfit at me. I got changed into the outfit and just about made it back onto the bed. Mom was very concerned about me but I know she is going to make me eat good stuff to put weight back on and that feeling will go.
"I'll piggy back carry him if it makes you feel better?" George offers. It's the only way I could think of getting anywhere without falling. At least until I can steady myself, which I probably will do by the end of the day at least. "Yeah, I don't think Danny even trusts himself on his own two feet," my mom says and I nod. George puts my vans on for me and lifts me onto his back; I wrapped my arms and legs loosely around him and let him support me. My mom grabbed a few things we both needed then we walked out.
The café was nice, wasn't too crowded and hardly anyone recognised us. The one or two people who did got told I was too lazy to walk at that point and we had pictures and signed some stuff for them. They liked my mom too which is a plus point I guess. No one really commented on how bad I look but I am guessing it will be all over social media later. It might even become an article I can see it now. Hollywood Undead: Lead singer potentially anorexic following snaps from tour. I'm not even anorexic, I'm just stupid.
I checked my Instagram and saw one of the girls had dm'ed me asking about my health. She said she was too scared to ask when we met. I replied saying thanks for the concern; I am fine I just lost a bit of weight from my metabolism and exercise. She said that was okay and she seemed to accept that answer. I don't even know how she could have accepted that but I guess I'm her idol and she believes anything I'll tell her.
~time skip 1 month~
Mom ended up staying two weeks until she was happy I was on the right track and I had put on enough weight to be healthy again. George stays with me most of the time to make sure I am okay and Jorel found out about two days after the break up. He is super supportive of me, even if I haven't been sleeping recently. I haven't collapsed yet or screwed up. I just over think and can't switch off. I want to confess to Jordon and I play the scenario out in my head and it never ends well.
We are playing a show and my heart sinks and my stomach turns. Nathan was in the crowd watching me, I didn't see his bitch but I didn't want to see him. I was mostly moved on from him. I was ready to confess to my crush and now he is going to screw it all up because he just can't let me be happy. He can't accept that I want to forget his worthless ass. George noticed straight away because to him he saw my mood change. I still had my mask on and I was trying to be hyper active like usual. It just wasn't really working.
He wrapped his arms around me and spun around a couple of times. He has done this before on shows so tonight was no exception. The only thing which made it different tonight was he spun me into Jordon who held me tightly and pretended to slow dance with me. Don't get me wrong, I liked it but it sent me mixed messages. Sometimes he won't leave me alone and other days he ignores me and today was a day where he ignored me. Now he wanted me to not leave his side, he was being protective over me and glaring at the direction of Nathan.
He doesn't know about the break up, neither does Dylan or Matt. Chase knows but he was concerned for my health and wellbeing so he had to know. Jorel only found out because he walked in on George and I talking about it when we thought we were alone. He was concerned about how much time we spent just the two of us since tour started. I assured him that we weren't going to get together and we explained what happened and he comforted me straight away. They might want to kill Nathan now but I doubt he is going to come and see us after the show.
Okay I was wrong, totally wrong. Scrap my last thought completely. The rest of the show went great; we messed around and had fun while singing our hearts out. Then he came back stage and played the boyfriend card even though we broke up a month ago. Jorel and George hid me as soon as they heard his voice which confused the others; I guess that they are learning about the break up tonight. It is nowhere near how I wanted it to go but I guess it was never going to go smooth sailing.
Jorel and George both looked like they wanted to deck Nathan when he walked in. Even Chase looked pissed off and I rarely see that guy mad. "Danny, baby you haven't texted or called all month, I was worried about you," Nathan says with a level of falseness which made me feel sick. The ones who didn't know looked at me with shock. "First of, don't call me that save it for your hoe. Second of, we split up a month ago, why do expect me to text a cheating, back stabber?" I say, feeling angrier.
Now it was out in the open and people had mixed reactions. Mostly protectiveness over me and anger towards him. Only two out of five know about the abuse, well Chase does too but he is the manager not a band member. Nathan tried to advance towards me but I stepped back, I don't want him near me. George stepped in, creating a divide between us so we could see each other but not touch. I felt safe with George that close, Nathan can't do anything to me while the guys are around me.
I was still angry and I wasn't going to calm down any time soon. How dare he just walk in and act like nothing ever happened. He abused and cheated on me, I dumped his worthless ass and I don't want to take him back any time soon. George had one hand on my chest and the other one was on Nathan's. I wasn't going to hit him but we weren't sure if Nathan was going to hit me. "That was a mistake Danny, I'm going to change I promise," he tells me and I roll my eyes. "You're never going to change. Old habits die hard and I talked to some people. I know exactly what you are like now," I tell him.
I wasn't going to accept what lies he was trying to feed me anymore. I have seen the light and the error that I made by saying yes to him. He was going to say something else, try and convince me that he is actually going to change and it was going to be better this time around. I know full well it isn't going to stay changed for long, I'd give it two days before he is back to his old ways. It might even be less than that knowing him. I don't trust him anymore. He had my trust and destroyed it and I am not willing to waste my time letting him earn it back.
I wound myself up so much I just left without saying anything else. I wasn't followed straight away which was good cause I was gonna end up punching someone accidently if it was any of the guys. If it was Nathan I wouldn't mind punching him. I ended up punching the wall really hard and the pain shoots through my hand and up my arm. I whimpered and held my dodgy hand with my other one. Jordon came running out and straight over to me. "Danny, he's gone now. You can come back in now," he says.
Then he saw my hand, it had blood on it and looked like a complete mess. "What happened?" he asks me and had to rush forward to catch me as I fell from exhaustion and other stuff. "Punched the wall, and I've not been sleeping so good," I tell him and I lean against him as he walks back towards the backstage area. "We need to go to the emergency department dude, your hand is messed up," he tells me. We forget to go inside but we go straight to the car which Chase had hopped into the driver's seat.
I'm guessing Chase suspected I had done something, he knows that if I get angry I am most likely to do something stupid. "I knew you were going to punch a wall," he tells us as he drives to the emergency department. "I didn't know until I did it," I tell him. He smiles at me and we get there surprisingly quickly, Chase might have been speeding at some points. Jordon supports me as we walk in and sit on the chairs in the corner.
I got seen really quickly and I learned that I broke my knuckles and I had a weird bandage thingy that included my fingers as well as my arm and wrist. Jordon was unusually silent until there were finished with me. He sat in front of me and took my good hand in both of his. "Danny, I had no idea that it was over between you and him," he tells me and I squeeze his hands with mine. "I know, I was struggling to deal with it myself but I only told Jorel, George and my mom. I didn't know how people were going to react to it," I tell him.
"I was happy that you were free of him, you know I never liked that guy. But I was a little upset that you were left broken by it and you didn't feel like telling me. Listen Danny, I love you and I know I can treat you better than that douche, please let me in," he says and I would have stopped holding his hands if they didn't have such a firm grip. I can't believe everything that has happened tonight. He has just confessed he loves me and I don't even know if I am high on pain killers or anything like that.
"Jordon I had no idea that you returned the feelings I have for you. I only went out with Nathan because I thought that my feelings were just one sided and that there was no hope for me. Of course I'll let you in," I tell him and he gently pulls me to my feet then gives me the tightest hug possible, even tighter than when my mom hugged me for the first time back in that hotel room. "Danny you will make me the happiest cholo if you would be my boyfriend," he tells me, with a massive grin on his face. I smiled back, my heart melting one.
"Okay Jordon, I will make you the happiest cholo," I tell him and then I set off in a little laughter fit. He smiles and I think he knows I accepted and we are now dating. "Danny-bear I love you so much, my little precious goofball," he tells me and wraps his arms around me as I calm down. "I love you too Jordon," I reply and he presses his lips to mine. I swear the room shrunk around us. I couldn't focus on anything else but him. Nathan never made me feel this way even from the first kiss. It was another way that I could tell he was the one.
Then my phone buzzes. My mom had texted me, which brought us out of the kiss and Chase was smirking in the corner of the room. "God damn it Chase," I tell him and he chuckles. Jordon looks confused at me and Chase. "How would you know I did anything?" Chase asks and I sent a glare his way. "I just have a feeling it was you, that's all," I tell him and then I open my phone and decided to read the text message. I know what it was going to say before I opened it but I was going to open it anyway.
Mom: I told you Jordon would be the one for you. I already approve of it. You'll be so much happier with him you'll see. Also what did the wall ever do to you young man, I know Nathan being there made you upset and angry but no more punching walls okay.
Me: Sorry mom, you were right like usual. I just couldn't see it until now. Also I didn't want to punch one of the guys or Nathan so the wall was the only option I thought of at the time.
I put my phone back into my pocket and hugged Jordon who hugged me back straight away. "Does this mean I get snuggly Danny all the time now?" he asks me and I felt his lips on the top of my head as he kissed me again. "Yeah, I guess so," I tell him and he makes me look up to see his smile. "I'm glad, cause I am going to protect you and be with you to the end of the line bear," he tells me.
And that is a one shot written by both me and my little goofball Danny. I know I haven't posted any one shots I have written in a while but I haven't written any since I still have a lot from Jess to post. I will try and get a Demon Inside update this week but not 100% sure yet. I am still feeling ill and so is Danny so we might just take some time off to get better.
