The Loss DM x JD
Okay so this one shot is gonna be based on personal experiences but not completely. Not everything I write in this one shot is what happened with me but it is loosely what happened and it might make the one shot a bit more sad than other ones I have done in the past but this is all I feel like writing tonight at least. To Love a Teacher is finishing this month and on the 11th of March my dad died.
Danny p.o.v
I feel numb as a nurse put their hand on my back and led me back to the staff room where they put us before. He can't be gone, he was my hero and he wasn't supposed to leave yet. I can vaguely hear my mom talking to a nurse who wanted us to get hot drinks to get over the shock. I was crying, my brothers and sister were crying and my mom was crying. We were handed tissues and Rigo decided he was going to wipe the tears off my face. "It's gonna be okay Danny. I promise," Rigo tells me and pulls me into a hug as I sob on his shoulder. The nurse left the room as my mom pulled my other brother and sister into a hug and tried to stop them crying. They let us into the room as they tried to save him and then they had to call time on it.
The nurse came back with hot chocolate for all of us and left mine and Rigo's on the table next to us. Rigo was rubbing my back and held me as close to him as he was able to. They knew that Rigo and I were close to dad and he would be very sorely missed by everyone. I wasn't expecting them to let us into the room while the tried to save his life but I am glad that they did. It was a bit of closure knowing that they did everything that they could possibly do to save his life but sadly it didn't work. "How's Danny doing?" my mom asks Rigo once she got Lisa Marie and Kyle to start drinking their hot chocolates. "He's still crying and in shock mom," Rigo answers. I could feel mom's hand on my back and she was also rubbing my back.
"He will be this was very sudden. I'll try calming him down, you drink your hot chocolate Rigo," she tells him. I felt Rigo reluctantly relax his arms, allowing mom to turn me around and pull me into a tight hug. "Come on little man, calm down. I know it hurts but we are going to be okay," Mom tells me. She was rubbing my back and trying to get me to stop sobbing. I finally started to take deep breaths and calmed down for the moment. They said something about us being able to see him one last time once they got him ready for us. I'm not sure I want to see him for the last time. Mom held the drink cup to my lips and made me drink from it. "You'll feel better in a minute Hun, when you have some sugar in you," she tells me.
I was supposed to be meeting up with the guys tonight to have some fun when and take a little bit of a break from work but it is clear that I won't be attending tonight. I'll probably text one of them later to explain my absence but right now I don't even what I want to look at my phone. My mom ruffled my hair and gave me a sad smile as she made me finish the drink. "Good boy Danny, do you feel a little better?" she asks me once she puts the drink cup down again and it was empty. "A little bit," I tell her, giving her a weak smile after it. Lisa came over and hugged me and she kissed the top of my head. "We're strong, we'll get through this won't we Dan?" she says and I nod. Then the nurse came in. It is time to say the last goodbye.
"Mom, I don't know if I want to do this," I tell her as she holds my hand tightly as we are lead to a room nearby where they have put him for us to see him before they move him down to the morgue where we would only be able to see him if we asked. "I know sweetheart, you can always leave if it gets too much," mom tells me and Rigo takes my other hand. "We all have each other's back if one leaves they won't be on their own," he says and we all nod. That was something I could easily agree too. I was probably going to be the first one to leave the room as well, this is all too much for me to take in right now. We had left him an hour before the call and he was doing okay ish. Now he is gone and there is nothing that anyone can do to bring him back.
We walked in and said nothing for a minute. No one went really close to him and no one touched him. He didn't look the same as I remembered him being just hours ago. His face was different, it was like he was someone completely different and yet deep down I know he is my dad. Mom looked to me as fresh tears fell down my face. "Don't forget you can leave anytime you want and come back too, the nurse said we have all the time we need," mom tells me and I nod at her. I managed to stay for two minutes before it became too much for me. I walked out with Lisa and we both sank down to the floor just outside the room at the same time. Nurses who walked by gave us sad, sympathetic and caring smiles.
Another family who were in another room came out with some tissues for us both. "Thank you," I tell them, I didn't want to say what happened but I think they knew but they didn't say anything other than you're welcome to the two of us. Mom and my brothers came out five minutes later and pulled us up to our feet. "Come on, you're staying at mine tonight kiddos," she says, trying to be strong for the four of us. We were given a booklet telling us some information about what to do after bereavement. Rigo borrowed my phone to let Reese know what happened and that she could tell Scarlett in the morning if she wanted. I know they both will be heartbroken but I couldn't really do much, it's not my weekend with Scarlett and Reese and I split up months ago.
I was still numb when I got into the car and mom was taking us back to her house. I knew my phone was going off constantly with the rest of my band wondering where I am and wanting to know if I was okay or in any danger but I didn't have that inner strength everyone else around me seemed to have. I felt so weak and unable to do anything when I should be doing everything for myself. I unlocked my phone and just stared blankly at the screen trying to win the mental battle I was having, I need to text the guys. I need them to know that I am safe and as fine as I could be after what has just happened. The hospital staff were so nice to us and very supportive until the moment we left. Kyle was given protective shoe covers because he rushed out in the wrong footwear for this wet and miserable night.
Me: Hey Jorel.. Sorry about not turning up to the party tonight. My dad was rushed to hospital and he passed away twenty minutes ago.
Jorel: Oh my god Danny I am so sorry, you don't need to say sorry dude. I know how hard this will be for you at the moment. We will all be here for you just message us and we will be at your house within ten minutes.
Me: Thank you so much Jorel. I know you lost your dad too and this just hurts like hell. I feel so numb right now so I don't think it has sunk in yet. I might ask for chats sometime soon, my mom is taking me to her house for the night.
Jorel: You're welcome buddy. I let the others know so you might get more texts from them with support. Try and get some sleep tonight, it might seem impossible right now but it will happen sometime tonight.
Me: My mom said the exact same thing about sleep just as I read yours. I will try my hardest even if I end up lying on top of one of my brothers. I know I need sleep and to get helped as much as I feel comfortable with it for the next few weeks at least.
Jorel: We will all help don't worry. I will come over tomorrow to come and look after you for the day or you can come over to mine for the day and spend the night. The others say you can do the same and it is completely up to you we don't want to force you into anything.
Me: That's nice, I might take up the offer tomorrow but I don't know if mom has anything planned or if any family are coming over since mom is now letting imitate family know so they will probably want to see us and support us. I will let you know in the morning what the plans are when I wake up.
Jorel: Fair enough Danny, I did expect that family would want to see you and give their condolences. Please let us know if you want to come over even if you just wanted to escape for a moment. We will always let you come and visit. I know you were here for me from the very beginning when I lost my own dad so I want to be here for you when you have lost your dad and you are completely devastated.
Me: Once again thank you so much Jorel. I am not really expecting people to be really helpful because what I do is just out of the kindness of my heart and don't do it to get something in return.
Jorel and I talked for the entire car ride and then when I was carried in by Rigo because he saw me texting someone. I was still shaking a little and I snuggled into Rigo when he sat on the sofa and held me tightly. "How are you doing now Danny?" Rigo asks me when he noticed I was finished texting. "Yeah, the guys know now and they are offering their support and condolences. Jorel has even offered for me to spend tomorrow and tomorrow night at his house," I tell him. Mom walked in with the phone in her hands. "Well that was nice of the boys. Don't worry about spending the night here tomorrow. If you want to spend time with the boys then you go. I know you are in capable hands," Mom tells me and she kisses the tops of our heads.
Kyle joined us on the sofa and I think Lisa Marie had gone to bed now. I give Kyle a weak smile and he smiles back. "Don't worry Danny, we will get through this together," Kyle tells me and I nod. "I know we will Kyle, it is gonna hurt like hell for a while but we will get used to this," I reply after a minute. I wanted to consider my answer because our dad had only died an hour ago roughly so we are still trying to get this to sink and to feel any kind of positive emotion. It is too raw and we are devastated. I kinda wish that I had more time to tell him how I felt about him but we did hug yesterday so I know I didn't abandon him. His behaviour was a little off in the last few years anyway but I don't know when he really changed for the worst. I know he was really off towards the end.
I ended up falling asleep on Rigo for two hours and woke up with him carrying me to bed. "Go back to sleep Danny, you were doing so well with the sleep," Rigo tells me and I nuzzle his neck. "Okay, stay with me please bro?" I ask him sleepily. He chuckles as he walks into the spare room that mom probably made us stay in for the night. "Of course I will stay with you Danny, I was going to do it anyway," he tells me as he lays me down on the bed and then joins me. I managed to doze off once again.
~weeks later~ D.p.o.v~
The more time that has passed since my dad has passed the angrier that I have become. Let's just say I have learned more and more things about him which have changed my opinion of him completely. I have been so angry and hurt about the extent of betrayal that has been discovered in the past few weeks. I have so far managed one week back in work helping the guys do the next album but I had to take some time out today because my emotions are all over the place, I am in a constant state of shock and I can't shake it. I have also pushed the guys away a little bit and I know I shouldn't but I need time to wrap my head around what just happened. I can't tell them what I learned because I don't fully understand what happened myself.
Someone was banging quite urgently on my front door. My mom always comes over at least once a day to check on me and to make sure I eat at least one full meal a day which would usually be dinner. Louie was barking at them and I have no idea who is at the other side because I haven't invited anyone over. I got up reluctantly from my blanket cocoon on the couch which I spend a majority of my day on if Scarlett is with her mother. I opened the door and Jorel was standing at the other side of the door on his phone. "Uh, hey Jorel," I tell him and he looks at me. I probably look like a bit of a mess right now because I haven't shaved properly. "Hey Danny, I just came to take care you for once. I know you've started pushing us away and we really want to help you," he tells me.
I gave him a weak smile. "I know Jorel and I am really really sorry. I didn't mean to push you away but after all the shocks I have been having these past few weeks have just taken their toll on me," I admit to him and he hugs me tightly. He carries me into the house and he saw how surprisingly clean my house is at the moment. "How bad have you been feeling lately Danny?" he asks me as we sit down on the couch and I am allowed to crawl back into my cocoon that I had made. "Not too bad, been here most of the day with breaks to the bathroom and stuff and my mom makes sure I eat one proper meal per day," I tell him, being honest with him because it is probably best to stop bottling up my feelings.
"Yeah, I can see that. You look nice and cosy in there," he tells me and I smile. I love the cocoon because I do end up feeling nice and cosy after a while and I don't want to move easily. Jorel spent a few minutes playing with my hair trying to get some knots out of my messy blonde locks. It didn't really work so he got up and came back with a lot of stuff. He gave me a good wash and shaved me and left me clean and very embarrassed by the end of it. "Come on Danny, we've been naked in front of each other before and now you're blushing like mad," Jorel teases when he is done. I took a deep breath and smiled at him. "I guess I am too stubborn for my own good. I am not used to people doing things for me like this," I tell him and he smiles.
"I was just teasing Danny, don't worry," he replies and I manage to smile a bit wider at him. I do feel that there is something romantic between us but I have never found the right moment to confess to him and he was in a relationship with Vanessa when I wanted to ask him for the first time. I guess never will be the right time to tell him how I feel. I rest my head on my knee and smile at him which made him get his phone out to take pictures obviously. "Only gonna send it to the others so they know that you are in one piece," he tells me and I nod. "That's fine, I should have texted you guys anyway," I tell him. "Yeah, but we know you are going through a rough time right now and it seems like it was worse than when my dad died," he tells me.
I sigh and he wraps his arm around me for a moment. Then he grabs me by the ankles and makes me lie down on the couch. He grabs himself a kitchen chair and a book which he rests some paper on and he also has a pen. I almost laughed at this silly little set up but it was probably going to help me more than any tactic I have used so far. "So Danny, tell me your problems," he says and I try not to laugh at him. I then told him all the lies that I have been discovering about my father and he listened to all of them and looked like he understood my emotions. I am pretty sure when I went silent because I couldn't say what I needed to that he was doodling on that paper. I sneaked a pic for my Instagram. I made the caption something about Jorel being a councillor if he didn't want to be in the band anymore.
"Well Danny, I think there is only one cure for your problems," he tells me, sounding very professional and business like only he didn't call me Daniel like most other councillors would if I went to get some expensive professional help. "Oh, and what cure would that be then Mr Decker?" I ask him and he had to try and stop laughing now. "Well Mr Murillo I have this prescription ready for you to use whenever you want," he tells me and I smile. He hands me a piece of paper all designed like a prescription would be. The only difference was that it was handwritten and I was not being prescribed drugs. Not that Jorel is in anyway qualified to prescribe me any medication because he isn't and he wouldn't.
The prescription he was giving me was for lots of cuddles and care from the band and my family. I gave him a smile and hugged him once he cleared away his little set up. "Can I send a pic to the guys so they know?" he asks me and I hand over the paper so he could get a decent picture of it for the rest of the band to see. He lets me snuggle up to him while he chose a show to watch on the TV "Thanks for coming over Jorel," I tell him even though I haven't invited him over and I was actually enjoying his company. "You're welcome Danny. I should have asked to come over but I didn't want you to refuse and I want to help you," he tells me and I smile at him. He already knows how grateful I am.
It was a few hours before my mom walked in and saw Jorel and I snuggled up in the cocoon on my couch. "Hello Jorel, been taking care of my boy I see," she says with a smile. I am usually in a mess when she comes because I over think and I cry myself to sleep. "Yeah, I decided that I should come and see this guys who seems to have forgotten how his phone works," Jorel says and I playfully slap his chest. "At least you aren't sleeping at this time of day Danny," she tells me and Jorel looks confused at me. "I usually cry myself to sleep at this time and don't really sleep at night," I admit to him and my mom gives me a sad smile before she kisses me on the cheek and heads to the kitchen to prepare dinner.
"Danny I should have come here sooner and I could have made you feel better," Jorel says, sounding really sad and I hugged him tightly. "I know Jorel, but you are helping me loads now. I have barely cried since you got here," I tell him and he hugs me tightly back. I think he was feeling guilty that he hasn't been here for me but that is my fault since I haven't really been that accepting of their help in the past few days. "Well I am glad I can help Danny. I really care about you and hearing that you've cried so much makes me sad because I am not here making you laugh," he tells me and I nuzzle his neck like I do with all the guys when I want to let them know I understand. I could feel him chuckle.
I was cuddling Jorel for a while and watching TV while my mom was cooking dinner and he was texting the guys to let them know how I have been doing this past few weeks. "George wants to know if you want anyone to stay over tonight," he tells me and I look at him. "Well, while you're here you might as well stay the night," I tell him and his eyes light up at the offer. "Sure, he will probably want you to stay at his tomorrow night then because he is very worried about you," he tells me. He lets me read the group chat which had the current topic about how I was doing since I stopped talking to them as often as I used to. He also let me type on my behalf but it will show up as him so I added my name to the end of the message to let them know I was sorry and I promised George that I will stay over tomorrow night.
He was happy that I promised that I was going to spend the next night with him. He was older than me and definitely a big brother figure in my life and he was very over protective of me. All of them were protective over me but that comes with having that brother bond that we do in this band. Jorel kissed the top of my head when he thought I wasn't paying attention and I started blushing instantly. He didn't seem to notice I was blushing again as he didn't say anything about it which made me feel a bit better. I wasn't sure how Jorel would react if I was to tell him I have fallen in love with him so I decided to keep my mouth shut. My mom walked in at the point of dinner where she usually wakes me up and smiles at the pair of us.
"How are you Jorel?" she asks, she doesn't have to keep a close eye on the dinner so we usually have a little chat while I try and wake up. The only differences this time is that Jorel is here and I haven't taken the nap which I am now starting to regret. "I'm doing alright, we've all been worried about little bear so I decided that I was going to be the one who comes to check on him and spend the night with him so he isn't lonely," he tells her and she smiles. "At least I have peace of mind that my little boy is being taken care of by people who generally care about him and will stick with him through the whole of the grieving process and further," she tells him. He smiles at her and holds me a little tighter.
"Yeah, Danny saved our band by joining us and he helped me out so much when my dad died and then again when Vanessa left me so I think that it's time that I helped him out for once," he says and I just say nothing. "Yeah, I can tell that he's had a wash and a shave which is a bonus. I don't want to force you into getting out of your comfort place when I don't feel like you are ready for it yet," she tells us both. "I'm going to stay at George and Asia's tomorrow night so I am slowly going to leave the house more often," I tell her, being honest with her. People are offering me help and I am willing to accept their offers because it will be better for me in the long run because I will be helping myself and trying to save myself from any depression that will happen.
There was another knock on the door while my mom was putting the dinner out about twenty minutes later. I crawled out of the blanket cocoon to answer the door, not knowing who was here to see me now. I opened the door and was greeted by Scarlett hugging my legs tightly and Theresa was holding a backpack and smiling at me. "Hey Scarlett, hey Reese," I tell them and Scarlett looks up at me with love in her little bright brown eyes. "Hello daddy, we are going to make you not sad anymore," she tells me and I smile at her. "Yeah, I thought having Scarlett around you would help you. I am so sorry for your loss," she tells me. I pick Scarlett up and hug Theresa. "Thank you Theresa," I tell her and she smiles again.
"Don't worry she's had dinner already. She's been asking to see you daily so I thought a sleepover will be a good idea right now," she tells me. She hands me Scarlett's backpack and gives me another hug. "Yeah, I miss this little one so I feel like it's going to be good. George wants me to stay over at his house tomorrow night," I tell her. She knows all the people that I know are very worried about me right now so she is understanding that my time will need to be split between friends and family because they will all want to see me at some point. I do want to prioritise my family over my friends for the time being without making the friends I do have feel left out and so far I seem to be doing a good job. I think they understand how I feel at the moment if I do decline the offers for them to come over.
I carried Scarlett into the house and put her down at the door so she could take her shoes off and hang her coat up. "Is Mimi over too daddy?" she asks me. I look at her and I smile. "Yeah, she is over and uncle Jorel is over too," I tell her and she grins. She runs into the living room and hugs Jorel. I follow her into the living room and she decides to go and find my mother while I talk to Jorel until dinner is out for everyone. "When was Scarlett coming over?" he asks me and I shrug. "Theresa just dropped her off for the night and I have to drop her off at school in the morning," I tell him and mom walks in with Scarlett behind her with another plate. My mom had two plates in her hands and she gives one to Jorel and Scarlett gives me the plate she was carrying. "I'll take Scarlett to school Danny, you could do with the sleep to be honest," she tells me.
"Yay, I like singing with Mimi in the car," Scarlett says which makes me smile. She knows I am going through the roughest time at the moment and it is the simple things in life which she loves make my day a little bit brighter. I could have the worst day ever and I can have Scarlett over and in less than five minutes if she picks up on my mood she will manage to do something to make me laugh. I am so happy to have Scarlett over for the night. She is the distraction that I need for the moment and I ate my dinner with Scarlett sitting next to me and occasionally stealing a fry from me and the nuggets from my plate which made me laugh. "I thought you had dinner Scarlett?" I ask her and I bop her on the nose with a fry which she then eats.
"I did, but mummy says I have a belly like you so I can eat for America," she tells me and I chuckle. "I don't doubt that baby bird," I tell her and my mom smiles. I got the fast metabolism and the appetite that goes with it and I could eat food all day without putting weight on and sometimes I occasionally lose weight from the exercise that I do and the running around like I hyperactive midget on stage. I let Scarlett feed me the last few mouthfuls of my dinner and she feels so happy to be feeding me and making a mess like I do with her when I want to mess around with her and to make her giggle. "Daddy, I love you," she tells me when my mom takes the plates away and goes to get pudding. "I love you too baby bird," I tell her and she smiles at me.
My mom came back with the pudding for everyone including Scarlett which was nice of her. We had chocolate pudding pots which was so good. Scarlett also decided that she should sit on my lap the entire time which I didn't have a problem with. She even held one of my hands while she happily ate her pudding. Jorel was sitting next to me and then he wrapped his arm around me once he was done and made me relax into him. My mom was grinning the entire time she saw me and Jorel snuggling with Scarlett on my lap playing with my fingers. "Hey Jorel, come with me for a minute so these two can have some daddy daughter time alone," she tells him and he gets up and follows her with the rubbish.
I knew exactly what she was planning; she can read me like I am an open book so she knows everything I feel. She knows that I have a massive crush on Jorel and she will probably want to talk to him to see if he has a crush on me too. I was happy that I can get some one on one time with Scarlett and just play with her until I have to get her ready for bed. Her bedtime is around about half seven but it could be earlier if she gets really tired. It isn't even my weekend with my little girl but Theresa has been kind enough to allow me to have her a bit more frequently than our court order says I am allowed to. That is fine by the courts because we have both agreed to do this and I will have her next weekend as we already planned. She will be so happy to see me when I go to pick her up from school.
"I missed you Scarlett," I tell her and she turns around and hugs me tightly. She had the biggest smile and I love her smile. "I missed you too daddy. I enjoy spending time with you and mommy," she tells me and I kiss her cheek. She kisses my cheek and she was surprised at how baby faced I am compared to when she last saw me a few days ago. "Daddy got no beard now," she tells me and I nod. I enjoy the simple moments when I know that Scarlett is observant to things around her and she isn't upset about changes. "Yeah, Uncle Jay shaved my beard off. Do you like it baby bird?" I ask her and she nods. "I like daddy with our without his beard," she tells me and I smiled at her. She is such an adorable little girl.
"Aww, I like Scarlett with her hair down and in a ponytail," I tell her, just a little something to make her feel good about herself. My job as her father is to empower her and to make her feel good about herself wherever possible and even at an early age like she is now. Then I decided to tickle her and the sound of her laughter made me chuckle a bit and she tried tickling me back but she was too busy trying to squirm away from my tickles so she was having a hard time. "Daddy please let me tickle you back," she tells me and eventually I cave and let her tickle me back which sends both of us into fits of giggles and I didn't mind that Jorel was recording this. I will probably put it on Instagram with a cute caption about how even in dark times that family can lighten my life.
Theresa is right again, Scarlett is so good at distracting me at times like this. She knows I am sad and that my daddy has gone to heaven and I need people to make me happy again. "Yay daddy let me tickle him," she tells my mom who smiles. "Daddy let you tickle him? Oh wow," my mom says and I just smile at her. Scarlett was sitting on top of my chest and she was smiling at me. We decided to recreate one of her baby pictures with me where she was lying on me and I wasn't really topless this time but it didn't really matter. We could do it again another day if we were really desperate. Scarlett smiled when I showed her the picture of me and her that we are trying to recreate. She looks a lot like me in the picture and even now she looks like me.
I played with Scarlett for another hour before I had to get her into her pyjamas and into her bed. I took her backpack into her room which my mom will take with her to school in the morning. I got her changed into her pyjamas which I had in her drawers in her bedroom and she went into the bathroom to clean her teeth before joining me on her bed so I could read her a bedtime story which she might fall asleep during. She hugged me tightly again when she walked into her room and I was on the bed with her favourite book. "Daddy, are you okay?" she asks me when she sits on the bed with me. "I will be baby girl, I just miss my daddy a lot and I am upset that he is gone," I tell her.
It is hard to explain to her what he has done and quite frankly I don't want to right now. I want her to have a good opinion of my dad because despite what he has done he was still a good father to me when I was growing up and he was a good grandad to Scarlett and my nieces and nephews. The things I have discovered about him have made me very upset, hurt and angry but one day I will get over it. Why he would lie about the things that he has lied about is totally beyond me. I do know he had a serious addiction and that will cause people to lie but some of the things he said was very odd and just made me question everything that he has ever told me. Scarlett snuggled under the covers and I read her the story with her helping me.
She wasn't ready to fall asleep by the time the story was over but she didn't want another one. "Daddy, I love you so much and everything will get better I promise," she tells me as I tuck her into the sheets. It made me pause for a second but I kept tucking her in. I gave her a kiss on the cheek and she kisses me back. "I love you so much too Scarlett. Goodnight baby girl." I tell her and she smiles. "Goodnight sleep tight, don't let the dead bite daddy," she tells me and I chuckle as I leave her room and turn her nightlight on. I love the little song quotes she comes out with and of course I only let her listen to clean versions of our songs so that she doesn't go around swearing. I don't think Theresa would appreciate Scarlett coming home and swearing after spending time with me.
I walk down the stairs and snuggle back up to Jorel who was waiting for me on the couch. My mom was still here and she was probably going to spend the night as it will be easier for her to take my daughter to school in the morning. "Did she settle down okay?" my mom asks, sometimes when Scarlett comes over she doesn't really settle down for the first night. "Yeah, she didn't fall asleep when I read her the story but she quoted dead bite when I was about to leave the room," I tell her and my mom smiles. She wasn't upset at night like sometimes she gets if her school day has been hard and she gets cranky or she really misses her mother. I love nights like tonight where it goes smoothly. Jorel wrapped his arm around me tightly and I rested my head on his shoulder. I do wonder what my mom was talking to Jorel about but I have a sneaking suspicion that it was about my crush on him or something.
"Hey Danny, do you really have feelings for me?" he asks, which confirms my theory about my mom telling him off my crush in order to find out that he either feels the same or rejects me totally. I look to mom who was sitting there like butter wouldn't melt. "Yeah, why?" I reply, feeling a bit unsure. Why was he asking me this now and why was my mom in on all of this? I don't understand why she suddenly wants me to get with someone so soon after my father died and we suffered from shock after shock which left me with constant shakes and I felt really ill all the time. "I know you've been feeling really off lately with all the shocks you have had and everything but Danny I honestly feel the same way about you," he tells me.
I was in shock for about the fifth time this week. I had no idea that Jorel did feel the same way about me that I do about him. I saw Jorel look at me with a lot of concern and my mom was as well but I couldn't find any words. I managed to put my shaking hand on Jorel's cheek and he held it and I looked into his eyes and tried to use them as my way of showing my emotions. He seemed to understand and kissed me ever so gently on the lips. I kissed him back and my mom was grinning by the time the kiss ended. "You better treat my boy right Jorel or you are gonna feel the pain," she tells him which made me smile. My mom is so protective over me and she always looks out for me even though I am an adult now and she doesn't need to do it as much.
"Danny this might be a pointless question now but will you be my boyfriend?" he asks me when I snuggle up to him again when I was starting to get tired. "Of course I will be your boyfriend Jorel," I tell him. I think they could both tell that I am really exhausted and I haven't really slept in the past few days. Jorel rubbed my arm and when I looked up at him, I could see him smiling like a cat that has gotten the cream. My mom looked incredibly happy for me, she was so upset when Theresa left me but with her help I am very happy. "I think that it should be bedtime for you two as well, you need to get into a proper sleeping schedule Danny," mom tells me. I yawned after she said that which made her chuckle. "Yeah I think it is bedtime for Danny," Jorel tells me and I snuggle into him so I can fall asleep on him.
"Okay, I need to sleep now I think, it is nine pm so that would be a good idea," I tell him and then I yawn again. Jorel rubs my cheek and I let my eyelids flutter closed for a brief second. "Go to bed little man, I'll see you in the morning," my mom tells me. I slowly get up and then go to hug her before Jorel follows me up the stairs to my bedroom. "I am not sure that my sweats will fit you Jorel," I tell him and he smiles at me. "Don't worry Danny; I will be fine in just my boxers for the night. I won't worry about my teeth for tonight either; I can do it when I get home tomorrow," he tells me and we get ready for bed. He joins me in the bed and we snuggle up to each other. "I love you Jorel," I tell him and then I yawn again. "I love you too Danny," he tells me and I manage to fall asleep easily.
Well I am not too sure people are going to react to this and it is once again very loosely based on how I have been feeling these past few weeks. I wanted it to not focus too much on that either and I wanted it to end quite cutely. Let me know what you think about this and I am still open to requests which will be done soon.
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