If I Can't Sleep DM x CS
So, this one was requested by Katrina on AO3. Eyepatch is coming up next and then I will continue going through other requests as well as other ideas that I have come up with before I start back at college in September. I think I might have 2 or 3 one shots this week depending on how I work since I just need one thing done for Eyepatch and then it is ready to go.
Enjoy Katrina!
Danny p.o.v
I look to my right and see my husband Jordon peacefully sleeping next to me. It's four in the morning and I haven't managed to get any sleep yet. Scarlett is at her mother's because it is not my weekend with her yet. I toss and turn in the bed and after a while I decide to give up and go to the kitchen to have a cigarette. If I can't get any sleep right now I might as well use my time awake to be productive. I smoked my cigarette and replied to some emails from the management team about the next tour we are doing. They seemed surprised that I was awake this early in the morning but I told them I had only just woken up for the day.
They would be really worried about my sleeping habits if they found out that in reality I hadn't just woken up and that I haven't actually managed to sleep at all for a week. My insomnia has become really unmanageable recently. I tried to take medication for it to help me sleep at night but I kept having nasty reactions to the pills the doctor kept prescribing me. It took a severe reaction which ended up in a trip to hospital which caused me to stop taking medication for my insomnia. At this moment in time I have been awake for about 168 hours straight now. It's definitely left me feeling exhausted the last few days.
I need to think about what I should do for now until Jordon wakes up in a few hours' time. I decide to waste my time by going into the living room and maybe attempt to fall asleep on the couch. Louie follows me into the living room and lies down next to me on the couch and he rests his head on my arm. I rub his little head and he just sniffed my fingers. I think now that it is nearly half four in the morning. That means Jordon will be awake at either 7 o'clock or 9 o'clock depending on whether or not he has an alarm clock set. I mean I could wake him up now but I feel like it wouldn't be fair on him so I am not going to.
I know when Jordon does eventually wake up he will ask me why I didn't wake him up. I know when it reached day 3 or 4 he asked me to wake him up when I couldn't sleep. I don't know what to tell him if he does ask me. I'll probably tell him the truth and then ask for help to actually sleep at night. I don't know what else can be done about my insomnia anymore. I'll just see what happens when Jordon wakes up I guess. In the meantime, I will just watch some youtubers like Stumpt on the TV until I either fall asleep or Jordon wakes up, whichever one happens first.
~9 am~ Danny p.o.v~
"Danny, you haven't slept again have you?" Jordon asks when he joins me on the couch. I spent the last 6 hours watching different youtubers on the television instead of sleeping since the two attempts I tried in between playlists didn't work out. "No, I tried several times but it didn't work out," I tell him. He kisses my cheek and I kiss him back before we spend some time snuggling on the couch. "Awe babe, maybe I should take you to the doctors to get this sorted out," he tells me. "Yeah this needs sorting out. I have been awake for seven days straight now," I tell him.
"Okay, I'll go get you an appointment set up. You just lie here and rest your eyes and see if we could get you to sleep at least an hour," Jordon tells me and all I can do is nod tiredly at him. He decides to stay with me for a moment and play with my hair. I did as Jordon told me to do and I closed my eyes. Maybe know I will sleep for a little bit. I hear Jordon talk to the receptionist about getting me an appointment to be as soon as possible and their next empty slot was at 10:30 so she put me in there. That was fine by me and I went with Jordon upstairs to get ready for the day and then rest until we have to leave for the appointment at 10 since the doctor's office is nearby and it doesn't take long to get there.
"Do you think that you could get at least ten minutes shut eye before we have to leave?" Jordon asks me. I snuggle into him when we sit back down on the couch. It wouldn't hurt to at least attempt to get some sleep. "I can try and get some sleep at least," I tell him. He smiles at me and then covers me with throw blanket which is on the back of the couch. I had finally started to doze off and then a knock on our front door snaps me right out of the nap I was about to take. Jordon grumbled and then got up to answer the door. It was his ex-wife Randi and she had a tot in her arms. "I know, I haven't seen you in a while, but meet Jayden. He is your son Jordon," Randi tells him.
I sigh and roll over on the couch to snuggle into my blanket a bit more. He is so going to leave me for her and their son I know it. "Now is not a good time Randi. I have a sick husband to take care of right now," he tells her and then out of coincidence I sneezed very loudly. It was a complete fluke accident but it helped us prove a point to her. "Okay, I'll come back when he is better. You can't avoid me or Jayden for ever Jordon. He is your son and you need to spend time with him," she says, god she is such a bitch. I sighed again as they said goodbye. I do think that Jordon will leave me eventually. The door closes and I hear Jordon walk towards me and I close my eyes.
"Hey Danny, are you okay?" Jordon asks me and he rubs my shoulder. I open my eyes and I look at him. "I guess so. I didn't even know Randi was pregnant when you left her," I tell him. He pulls me onto his lap and hugs me tightly and I gently hug him back. Then I shuffle off his lap and look into his eyes. "Well, you know you are my one true love. I'll raise my son but only if I have you by my side. I don't want to get back with Randi, she is an ex for a reason," he tells me. It is like he knows what my worries are before I have even told him what they are. "I love you Jordon, I just thought that Randi wants to use the child to get back with you and what would happen then," I tell him.
I am so tired that I don't think that I am making much sense anymore when I am trying to have a conversation with Jordon. Jordon picked me back up and held me close to him as tears started to build up in my eyes. He rubs my back. "Even if she does want to get back with me she will be very disappointed because it isn't going to happen. You are my one and only. Now let's go to your appointment and make you better. Then when we get home it is couple time," he tells me. I wrap my arms around him "That sounds like a good plan," I tell him and I rest my head on his shoulder. Jordon carries me to his car and puts me down on the passenger seat and does the seatbelt for me before kissing the top of my head.
He goes to lock the front door and then comes back to the car. "Don't worry about a thing Danny bear," he tells me when he gets into the driver's side of the car. "I'll try not to Jordon," I tell him. Now we are headed for my doctor's appointment. I don't think that I will be able to take a nap in the car his time. Maybe I'll be able to sleep on my way back from the appointment if I am lucky. "Let's hope that your doctor knows what to do," Jordon tells me and I smile at him. "Yeah, I hope he can get me sleeping again," I tell Jordon who nods.
"Me too Danny, all we need now is for you to get better and start sleeping at night," he tells me. I started dozing off again as Jordon started playing a sleep playlist he found on Spotify. His little plan was starting to work but I might not actually fall asleep now. We are nearly at the doctor's office so there is no point in sleeping right now. "I might have a new tactic you get you to sleep when we get home," Jordon tells me. "Yeah, this playlist might send me to sleep at some point when we get home," I tell him as we get to the appointment. "Yeah, that could work out," Jordon says.
~After the appointment~ Danny p.o.v
The doctor recommended that I can try at least one more variation of sleeping medication before we move on to a different method to get me sleeping. There is a drug that would force my body into sleeping but he doesn't want to go far that yet since he knows there is at least one more sleeping tablet I haven't tried yet. Jordon took me to get the prescription dropped off and then he took me home because it was going to take at least ten minutes to get the prescription filled and I was very tired. It takes a little longer than ten minutes to get there from our house and from Target to our house so by the time we get home then the prescription will be ready to collect. Jordon told me he would go on his own back to Target to get some things while he gets the prescription and I might sleep while he is gone.
"Please try and get some sleep while I'm gone Danny," Jordon tells me as he crouches in front of me with his car keys in his hands. "I'll try to sleep Jordon," I tell him as my eyes finally started closing on their own, showing that my body knows I am very tired. "I'll put that playlist on for you and we can see if that helps," he tells me and then we kiss. "Okay, thanks Jordon," I tell him. He sets up the playlist and hands me my earphones when it was ready to go. "You're welcome bear," he tells me as I put only one earbud in since I didn't want to be rude and I wanted to hear if Jordon had anything else to say. "I'll be back in a few minutes okay?" he tells me.
"Okay Jordon, I might finally be asleep by the time you get back," I tell him and he covers me with the throw blanket again. "That will be perfectly fine by me baby. Have a good rest Dan," he tells me. We have another kiss on the lips and then he walks out of the front door. I put the other earbud in my ear and close my eyes as the music starts playing. Hopefully I will sleep while listening to this playlist. I start to doze off and I pray that no one else tries to visit before I manage to fall asleep. I wonder if Randi will come back with her child again and try and get Jordon to spend some time with him.
I really don't mind Randi giving Jordon a chance to see his son and have custody of the little guy but I really don't want him to fell forced into dating her again. From the way Jordon described Jayden to me while we were in the car, Jayden is a little cutie. I hope there are no issues from Randi over this whole co-parenting thing with Jayden. At the end of the day, the father in me says that Jayden needs to spend time with his father just like Scarlett needs to spend time with me but I don't want the toxic relationship between his mother and father to get in the way of anything important.
~40 minutes later~ Jordon p.o.v
I have just arrived at home after getting Danny's prescription for yet another variation of sleeping tablets. Hopefully when I walk inside the house I will find Danny finally sleeping in the living room where he was when I left a little while ago. I have a bag of food for dinner tonight because I do want to spoil Danny. He's not slept in just over a week now so I am really worried about it and the impact on his health it will have. I quietly walk into the house and put the bag down on the kitchen counter. I stay quiet as I walk through to the living room to see how my husband is doing. I see Louie sleeping on the chair. Also from what I could tell Danny is still on the couch because I could hear the music playing in the background.
Danny is fast asleep as I walked around the couch to see if Danny was finally asleep. The playlist is still going on his phone and he looks like he is peacefully sleeping now. The blanket I gave him is down to his waist so it seems like he was tossing and turning before he actually fell asleep. I move the blanket so it is completely covering him now. I decide to leave the playlist going so I don't wake him up because I don't think he has been sleeping for very long and I don't want to chance him waking up. I secretly thank the lord that Danny has finally managed to fall asleep since I did think I was going to have to call 911 saying that he passed out and he was really ill if he didn't fall asleep in the next 24 hours.
While Danny is still sleeping I will go into the kitchen and start trying to arrange contact with Jayden so if he is mine I can be the father I need to be. Randi was being difficult as per usual and she was asking for more things that I wasn't going to give her. I'm going to pay child support and visit him in a contact centre first and then have him over at my house with Danny but that is it. She wants me to go straight to picking him up alone from her house and dropping him off and her house but I said no to that. I want Danny to be with me every time I have contact with this child for safety reasons. If she tries to make any false allegations against me I will have Danny to back me up on them. She would not be able to get away with anything that she used to do with me.
I am also going to let Danny sleep for as long as he needs to sleep. He might end up sleeping for the rest of the day because of the amount of sleep his body has not had up until this point. I am making sure that all of Danny's needs are taken are of until I know he feels better and he has had some decent sleep for at least 3 days. Matt texted me to ask if Danny and I are up for a little meet up with the rest of the band. I explained to Matt what Danny has been going through for the last 7 days and then he changed his mind. Matt then told me that I should stay and look after little Danny and we will have the meet up some other time. Danny's health is more important to us right now than a meet up which could make him worse.
I sent Matt a picture of Danny peacefully sleeping his earphones just in case he thought I was lying to him about me finally managing to get Danny sleeping. I know some people in the band mainly Matt think I am lying but he never says it to my face. George texts me and he says that Danny was starting to look better than when George last saw my bear the other day. Danny rolls over in his sleep and nearly rolls off the couch if I wasn't there to catch him. "Careful Danny," I tell him but he wasn't awake and he still has his earbuds in so he wasn't able to hear me. I made sure that Danny is in a position where he won't roll off the couch if he decides to roll again. The last thing I want right now is for Danny to wake up when he doesn't need to.
He seems to still be out for the count which is something that I consider to be a good thing. It is now 1:30pm so I will give Danny until about 5 or 6:30pm to sleep so he would have had at least a few hours of sleep by then and then I will make dinner for us both and hopefully I can get him back to sleep tonight so we can start working on the sleeping schedule. If he sleeps too long now then there is a chance that he won't be able to sleep tonight. It is so difficult to get Danny to sleep at the moment so it would be so annoying if Danny sleeps and then straight way when he next tries to sleep he can't. Danny starts to stir in his sleep and he looked like he was just about to go into a nightmare.
"Shh Danny, please don't have a nightmare baby," I tell him and he still couldn't hear me. I didn't want to take his earphones out right now and wake him up but I am starting to run out of options. My poor little lion can't seem to catch a break recently and it was breaking my heart. I play with Danny's hair to try and calm him down a little bit. It wasn't going to work out it seems, he is too far into the nightmare now. All I can do is help calm him down when he wakes up. That is the only thing I can do to help him all and it was so frustrating. I love him so much and all I want to do is help him and look after him and right now I can't really do anything.
I go to get Danny a drink and a cookie so when he wakes up I can give him a little snack which might cheer him up a little bit. It should be really easy for me to calm him down when he wakes up, he likes cuddles and me; so, if I am the one cuddling him then it is a win-win for us both. Today is going to be all about him and whatever he feels up to doing today with me. Even if that is just cuddling on the couch all day. I am going to try and be the best husband that I can be to my little Danny-bear. Danny is definitely having a nightmare now, I can hear him whimpering and mumbling about whatever is bothering him in his dreams. I need to wake him up now and I really don't want him to have any more sleep problems.
~Danny p.o.v~
I wake up with a cold sweat and I ripped my earbuds out of my ears and bolted up on the couch. At least I didn't scream this time. Charlie Scene aka my husband Jordon was right next to me as I woke up so I knew he appreciated me not screaming down his ear. I was bawling my eyes out though and he was right by my side trying to soothe my cries. I am so desperate to actually sleep decently for once. "Aw shh baby, it was only a dream. A really bad dream but just a dream," he tells me and he picks me up and holds me close again. I hold onto him tightly and I try and stifle my sobs. "Jordon, I just want to sleep for once," I tell him and he rocks me slightly. "I know baby. I know, we'll try those new pills tonight and see if they will help you," he tells me.
I am really nervous about trying these new sleeping pills after all of my previous reactions to similar drugs. I just want something to work for once and for my insomnia to be more manageable. Jordon gave me a cookie and a drink when he finally got me to stop crying. He smiled when he saw me starting to perk up almost straight away. He knows what makes me happy and he makes me happy whenever he can. It is one of the many reasons why I fell in love with him. "Thanks Jordon, I don't know how you put up with me," I tell him and he hugs me tightly.
"Danny, I love you bud. Your health and happiness is my main priority. I am with you until death does us part remember," he tells me and I kiss him on the cheek. He kisses back and I snuggle into him. "I love you too Jordon," I tell him and he smiles at me. "If you have a reaction to the pills then we will deal with it," Jordon tells me. He is already looking out for my best interests and it was amazing. He tries to prepare for most possibilities. If I would have an allergic reaction to the drugs it would be dealt with relatively quickly even though I don't want to keep Jordon up and I don't fancy a trip to the hospital.
"Thanks, I don't want you to stay up all night for me though. I don't want to be in hospital again," I tell him, being completely honest with him. Something I always knew I could do with him right from the start. "I know and I won't stress out or worry too much Danny. I can deal with whatever happens Danny," he tells me. I believe him because I know he tells me the truth. I know my doctor is going to be keeping an eye on me over the next few days to make sure that I am going to be okay. The doctor knows my number so he will be checking up on me and making sure I don't have a reaction to these pills.
I relax in Jordon's arms, hoping maybe I could fall back to sleep. Jordon knew I was trying to go back to sleep so he turns the music off and covers me with the blanket for a third time, I kicked it off when I was having the nightmare and now we are going to see what happens next. "Try and sleep some more bear, if you have another nightmare you will be right here in my arms," he tells me. "Thank you Jordon," I tell him and I close my eyes to try and take another nap because I was starting to feel better after that small amount of peaceful sleep I did end up having while Jordon was out before.
~ 3 hours later~ Danny p.o.v
I woke up naturally this time, feeling a heck of a lot better than when I woke up from the nightmare whenever I had that. Jordon was quietly watching the television when I woke up. I decide to be quiet so I don't disturb Jordon. I looked at my watch and it read 4:20 pm which wasn't too bad considering I have been trying to sleep since 12pm. Jordon rubs my chest every now and then which sends shocks down my spine. I am going to try and sleep without taking the pills tonight to see how I do. Maybe I will do okay tonight, I am doing alright with falling asleep so far. Jordon still doesn't know that I am awake right now. I will see how long I can keep it this way. It might be a while by the looks of it.
I guessed right when half an hour later, Jordon finally noticed that I am awake and staring at him. "Hello bear, how long have you been awake for now?" he asks me and I kissed him. I smiled when he kissed me back. "Only half an hour boo. I feel good now that I have managed to sleep a little bit longer than before without having a nightmare," I tell him. Jordon looked like he was happy with the amount of sleep I have had. "That's really good Danny. You do look a lot better now," he tells me and I smiled. "Hopefully I stay like this now," I tell him.
"Yeah that would be the best thing to happen to you right now," he tells me. We just spend some more time relaxing, we have nothing important to do today because Jordon told me that today for some reason it was going to be all about me and my health today. I have no idea why he would do this for me. I know Jordon loves me and he cares about me but no partner of mine that I have had before would do this for me until now. They always make it about them first. I know now that Jordon is the one for me.
Then my phone started ringing and looking at the ID flashing on my screen and it was George. Now that I have been awake for a while so there is no harm in me having a chat with George. "Hey dude, what's up?" I ask him and Jordon hugs me again. He shifts me off his lap and he leaves to go and get us some drinks for now. "Hey Danny, just wondering how you are feeling right now," he tells me. "I'm alright now that I have managed to sleep a bit. I honestly thought I was going to end up in hospital and sleep was never going to come," I tell him. He sounded relieved on the other end of the phone. "That's good, at least you have slept a bit," he tells me.
"Yeah, Jordon helped me after the nightmare I had a while ago," I tell George, being honest with him. Honesty is the best policy in my opinion. "Aw bless, make sure he takes good care of you Danny," he tells me and I chuckled at the protectiveness being displayed by my older brother figure. "Don't worry George, Jordon is going to take good care of me," I tell him and Jordon pulls me back onto his lap and hugs me very tightly. George chuckles now because he knows what Jordon has done without being able to see or hear it. "I bet he us holding you very tightly right now," George tells me and I chuckle again. "Yeah, he is holding me very tightly right now," I tell him.
We talked for a while longer before George decided that I need to rest and that I shouldn't be talking too much. I am not sure I want to go back to sleep just yet. I am still sort of tired but it is important that I get some sleep tonight. That made me decide for sure that I won't sleep till night. If I get my sleep routine sorted then I will be alright. "Aw, still so sleepy Danny?" he asks me. I am a bit relaxed because Jordon is playing with my hair. "A little bit Jordon, I'm very relaxed as well," I tell him and he smiles. "I'm glad you are relaxed now," he tells me.
"I'll make you some dinner in a bit and then you can go to bed," he tells me. I snuggled up to Jordon again since dinner won't be for a little while and I have nothing better to do. "Okay, I might not want to sleep so soon after dinner though," I tell him. Then something on the television which caught my interest. A baby or toddler matching Jayden's description almost perfectly was shown on the screen as being a missing child. Jordon also noticed as quickly as I did. "Hey, that looks like Jayden," he tells me. I noticed as his facial expression changed from calm to angry in a minute. "Ask her about it," I tell him, referring to his ex-wife and the kid's mom.
"Yeah, I think I need to. If that is Jayden then this is scary," Jordon tells me and I hold his hand tightly in mine. "Yeah, it might not be Jayden though because I don't see his name on the screen," I tell him, trying to calm him down. He holds my hand back just as tightly. "She says the child isn't Jayden but we aren't the only people to ask that and people will pass that judgement on her," he tells me and then he shows me the text messages. "Yeah, I hope she isn't lying about it, you know what she is like," I tell him. I really don't want her to break his heart because somehow Jayden isn't his. I hope Jayden is Jordon's child for his sake and the child's. "Me too Danny, I really hope she isn't lying to me," he tells me.
I am still in Jordon's arms so I take this as my chance to snuggle with him and not to worry about anything for the time being. First, I change the television channel so that the news story isn't on anymore. Then Jordon looks at me. "I want the rest of today to be worry free. We can deal with anything else and our problems another day," I tell him, kinda milking the fact that Jordon wanted the day to be all about me. He smiles at me. "Okay bear, anything for you," he tells me. I am fully aware that I might be just delaying the inevitable but I can deal with things when they happen.
"I love you Danny," Jordon tells me, happy that we seem to be getting some control over my insomnia at this current moment. "I love you too Jordon," I reply and he smiles at me again. "I don't want to take the pills tonight," I tell him and now that I have voiced my fears and he knows I am scared he is going to make everything okay. He rubs my arm reassuringly. "Don't be scared Danny, if you do end up taking the tablets tonight then I will watch over you," he tells me. I am still scared of having a nasty reaction but I do trust him. "Okay, maybe tomorrow night I will take them. I think I can sleep on my own tonight," I tell him. Jordon kiss the top of my head.
"Okay Danny, I will make dinner now if that is okay," he tells me and I smile at him. I didn't realise I skipped lunch so I am quite hungry now. "Okay Jordon, I will just stay here on this comfy, comfy couch," I tell him. He touches my cheek very gently. "Yeah, you stay right here and be adorable," he tells me and then he leaves the room before he can see me pout. "I am not adorable," I shout to him and I could hear him laugh from here. "Sure Danny," he shouts back before I hear him start to make our dinner for tonight while I relax on the couch.
I suddenly felt very nervous about being on my own so I walk into the kitchen as quietly as possible. I wasn't interested in what was on the television anymore either. Jordon was busy cooking so he wasn't really up for chatting but being this close to him was enough to ease my nerves. I sit on the nearest bar stool and I hug my knees. I look at Jordon but I don't want to call his name while he is busy cooking. "Oh Danny, why aren't you on the couch resting?" he asks me when he notices me sitting there. "I didn't want to be on my own," I tell him. He takes a break from cooking to give me a cuddle. "Aw don't worry. I will look after you," he tells me.
I hug him back and I rest my head on his shoulder. He rubs my back but then he has go back to cooking our dinner before it burns. I go back to hugging my knees while Jordon cooks. I was fairly content to just watch my husband cook. I felt like we could eat dinner in here tonight for once which would make us start to feel like a family. I know we are missing our children but that will be another day. "I take it that you want to eat in here tonight then," Jordon asks me when he sees that I haven't moved from my seat. "Yes, please Jordon," I reply to him with puppy eyes and a smile.
Soon we have dinner at the table. Jordon put a candle in the middle of the table and it kind of looked romantic and cute. Yeah there could have been more effort if we had planned a date night but it was all last minute. I enjoyed it anyway because I love being around Jordon. When dinner is over Jordon started to clean up before I could even say that I wanted to do it for him. "Danny, sit down. You're on rest as much as possible today," Jordon tells me when I went to get myself another drink. I had my drink in my hand by then.
"Are you sure you don't want to take your pills tonight?" Jordon asks me when we get into bed a few hours later. I am very tired and my eyes keep closing on their own again. "Yeah, I think I can get away without taking them tonight," I tell him. I am falling asleep while I am sitting up in bed and Jordon noticed. "Let's lie down baby," he tells me. "Good plan," I reply and I shuffle down so I am lying on my side in bed facing Jordon. He snuggles up to me in bed and wraps his arms tightly around me. "Goodnight Danny I love you," he tells me. "Goodnight Jordon I love you," I tell him as I fall asleep.
And that is the end of another one shot. I hope you enjoyed. I will be posting Eyepatch later on but it is one in the morning and I am very tired right now. Leave your comments and requests down below.
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