Dear Darling
Back at it again with another AU.. This time Jordon is living in another country therefore the band is not together.. Also some family deaths never happened.
Also the Olly Murs song Dear Darling is the inspiration for the title.. feel free to check it out and see if it goes with the story or not.
Danny p.o.v – 23rd March 2008
12th March 2008
Dear my darling Danny,
I am so sorry it has been a while since I last wrote. I am fine, I landed a great job which has the downside of not very good shift patterns. I promise you that I will find more time to write to you. This is important to the both of us and my box of letters with your amazing handwriting will always have a special place in my heart. Anything you send to me has a special place in my heart. I will find a way to move to Los Angeles to be with you. I just need to save up the money to do so first, primarily why I took the job I currently have.
I hope you are doing well, I heard about the band and I'm sorry that it ended. I will always be your Australian Lorene Drive #1 fan. I also hope that you can find another career that you will enjoy to replace that. Maybe when I move to America we can start a band together with your friends. That sounds like it could be a lot of fun and I would love that it means I spend more time with you. I'd do anything to meet you face to face. Meet my precious little bear in person, so I can hold you as tightly as I can without hurting you and never let you go.
My family are incredibly supportive of us. I know I haven't really mentioned my family before, I was nervous to how they'd react about us considering you are on the other side of the world from me and things. My mom and dad were instantly supportive which is amazing. Anyone else in my family who has negative opinions of us can just rot honestly. I have my immediate family to support me and that is all that I need. My mom says she thinks you're very cute and gave me a long lecture on when we meet that I should take the best care of you.
I will always take the best care of you when we meet. I feel like what we have is special and I don't want to ruin that, especially after you have put up with me for the last 5 years without complaining to my face. I always say that I am blessed that you decided to say yes to me being your boyfriend. It has been the best five years of my life and it is only going to get better as we carry on. If I had a fixed date of when I was likely to come to California and meet you in person I could say that I am counting down the days, but at this moment I'd say its another two years at least.
I'm sorry, I'm rambling again. I usually end up doing this in letters to you. It takes me so long to come up with what to say and then I end up doing that. I've sent a couple of newer pictures of me since I haven't gotten Facebook yet. I should get it probably by the time this letter reaches you. I love your letters and am always willing for you to send more but I was thinking that maybe that kinda contact would also help us stay in contact more often as letters take a couple of weeks to reach each other. Maybe then I wouldn't ramble so much. Unless you're sitting at home reading this and loving me ramble then.
Anyways I better end this letter before I ramble any further. I love you as always
Jordon Terrell xx 3
I'm sitting on the sofa with a big grin as I read my boyfriend's letter. I can't quite believe it myself when we found each other on that dating website, and both said that distance was never something that we considered when looking for a partner. It doesn't mean that it hasn't been hard for Jordon and I in our day to day lives. A lot of arguments over the legitimacy of our relationship and each other to friends. Someone will get angry and say oh your boyfriend isn't even real despite how many pictures we have to prove that we exist to the partner's friends and family. I could never even attempt to match his handwriting. My handwriting is too awful and would be an insult to Jordon by ruining his handwriting with my own.
He will always tell me that mine is prettier than his and we will go back and forth on that. I have a Facebook profile, but I barely use it anymore. I could bring it back if it meant that I could be able to speak to Jordon more. That would be the one thing that I would want more than anything else in the world. To either talk to Jordon more or to meet him in person would be my ultimate dream. I do wonder what it would be like when the day comes that we actually meet each other. I know that it will take a while and I am very patient so I am willing to wait until he has the money, or I can get the money to have a holiday in Australia. I do need to get a job in order for that to happen though, it does cost money to travel and get visas and things.
I have been living with my friend Jorel while I have been trying to sort everything out. He doesn't mind me living here as long as I respect his wishes and pay my share of the bills when I am able to which is something that I plan on doing regardless. I had to let Jordon know that I moved a couple of months back. Otherwise he would have sent it to the wrong address and would have been upset for me not being able to reply to it. I often feel sorry for him when I find myself too busy when I was on tour to reply to him. I am hoping that I can talk more frequently with Jordon. I don't feel like I have to hide my letters from Jorel, I trust him to keep the contents of the letters private from anyone else including our friends.
"Hey, thought you'd be asleep by now Dan. Heard you being sick last night," Jorel tells me, when he walks in from his job. I have been feeling sick all day, but I have been resting as much as possible and I drank a little bit of water to see if I could keep it down. "I slept a little bit after you left. Then the mailman came, and I was reading the letter from Jordon while watching some TV. I struggled to read it through moments of nausea though," I tell him. I did notice it took longer than usual for me to read the letter, but I wasn't expecting to throw up so much last night. Jorel sits down next to me and I allow him to read the letter. "Yeah, but Jordon would understand if you waited a couple of days to reply while you get over this sickness. You also could find him on Facebook to talk to him then," Jorel tells me.
"Yeah, I guess that is true. I was supposed to be job hunting today though. I know I need to get one soon," I tell him, and he smiles before playing with my hair. I have been doing little odd jobs for the band he is in which I have been paid for doing, but I need a job that will support me in between that and the times which I am not needed. Lately Aron has been angrier with me and trying to interfere in the way that would make sure that I had no work to do with them. "I know, and Aron being a bitch doesn't help. I will help you find something suitable don't you worry about that," he tells me. I appreciate the help that Jorel will give me, I know he will be reliable with this. He knows what I like job wise so he can pick the best ones for me to enjoy.
"For today though, you just need to rest and get over this stomach bug you have. There is no use applying for jobs when you can barely focus," Jorel adds, and I relax against him as best as I can. I have a brother type relationship with Jorel, and I have done since I was really young. I used to call him my older brother when we went to school together even though I had an older brother of my own and a younger one. I just thought it was cool to have a second older brother because so many of my friends said that they had two older siblings. "Okay, I'll rest today then think about both replying to the letter and finding a job," I tell him. I did feel like it would be better if I did rest today anyway. I was surprised that I was making sense to Jorel at the current moment. "Okay Dan, you feel like eating anything or do you just want me to get you some Gatorade?" he asks me.
I have to think about this one for a moment. I know it has been a couple of hours since I was last sick, but I don't want to undo my current progress. "Maybe try some Gatorade now and if I keep that down then I might try some toast in a little while," I tell him. He walks into the kitchen and comes back with the bottle. "Yeah good idea Dan, I'm just going to make myself some dinner so feel free to fall asleep or whatever," he tells me. I nod and yawn at him, I barely slept today anyways, and I know I need the rest to get better. I have my laptop nearby, just in case I can't sleep, and I can watch something to relax myself and fall asleep to. I take a cautious sip of the Gatorade and just wait and see what happens.
I can hear Jorel cooking his dinner as I close my eyes. The Gatorade has stayed down so far, but my nausea became so much worse, so I decided to give my stomach a break for a while and wait until it calms itself down a bit. I have the trashcan nearby in case I do need to get sick again. I heard Jorel mutter something about me needing some good days for once. I think he came in to check on me while he is cooking and doesn't need to pay as much attention to what he is cooking right now. I briefly open my eyes to see that I had received a friend request from Jordon on Facebook. I was feeling a bit more with it and excited because it means now we can talk more, and I think I can even see his face while he talks to me if we ever do one of those messenger calls.
I accept his friend request right away, he has probably just woken up for the day. He's 19 hours ahead of me. I check the clock here to see it is about 4 pm here so it is about 11 am the next day for him. I leave my laptop to one side for a moment. The nausea had suddenly become a whole lot worse and I felt like I needed the trash can urgently, but I was lucky this time. Jorel was checking on me and I think he just plated up his dinner and was on his way to sit next to me. "You okay there?" he asks me, I bet he was worried that the smell had made my nausea worse. "Yeah I'm fine," I tell him. I was still going to not drink anything for a little while at least. Jordon's sent me a message, I look to Jorel and show him the laptop. "Answer him then silly," he tells me, and I grin.
Jordon Terrell: Hey! We finally get to speak in real time!
Me: Hey! Yeah, about time!
Jordon Terrell: I know, I have been waiting a couple of days. Wanted my letter to get to you first and I am on a little early lunch break at work so I thought I could do it. How's your day been?
Me: Yeah, I get that! I got the letter today actually. Just been thinking of a way to reply. I've still been looking for a job honestly. I have a stomach bug, so I have had a really lazy day on the couch.
Jordon Terrell: Nice, I'll be patient and wait for that then. I am sure the perfect job will come up soon. Aw no, hope your roommate is taking good care of you for me.
Me: I hope so. Jorel has been looking after me today don't worry! I have been getting as much rest as I possibly can.
Jordon Terrell: I will keep my fingers crossed for you. That's good, I'm glad Jorel has been looking after you and I hope you get as much rest as possible. I have to go back to work now, I'll talk to you later.
Me: Okay, I'll talk to you later. I love you xx
Jordon Terrell: I love you too xx
4th August 2011
I am so nervous. Jorel has blindfolded me and says he is taking me somewhere and I am not to know where we are going until we arrive. All he has said about it is that I am going to like it. I know he has his camera too, which narrows down the possibilities of what it could be, but I am still not sure. I moved out of his apartment a year ago ready for when the time comes that Jordon can finally move here from Australia, but that is going to be a long time yet. At least, that is what I have been told. "Relax Danny, I'm not about to pull a nasty prank on you," Jorel tells me. It only reassures me a little bit, I am still very nervous. "Yeah, but I didn't like the whole you have to come into the car blindfolded thing Jay. This is kinda creeping me out," I tell him.
It could have been worse I suppose. I could have been thrown into the trunk of his car. "I know and I am sorry for that. I just can't ruin the surprise," he tells me. I turn my head to Jorel and sigh. I bet he has my best interests at heart, but I am still incredibly nervous. "This better be worth it Jorel," I tell him. I hear him chuckle and I was tempted to swear at him. I swear to Johnny Three Tears that Jorel Decker is making this whole thing worse. "This will be worth it I promise Danny," he tells me. I still don't believe him yet. I'll have to wait and see what happens when we get to wherever we are going to. I think we have arrived because I didn't feel the car moving anymore. "Right, we are nearly at the time where I can unblindfold you," he tells me.
"Yay finally," I tell him, and he bursts out laughing. He guides me out of the car and then takes off the blindfold. We are at LAX, why the heck are we here? I look to Jorel and he takes my hand and we walk in towards the arrivals. This is all weird to me, I don't know what is going on and it is making me feel even more nervous than I was at the car ride. I know Jordon has gone quite silent on Facebook today, I thought he was going to make a letter that said he was going to dump me. We have been together for 8 years now and it has been a rough 8 years this far. "I promise you Danny, you'll like this surprise," he tells me. I look to the arrivals to see who is going to be showing up at some point. I have a sneaking suspicion now of who it is.
I didn't have to wait too long to see Jordon Terrell walk through the door after going through customs I bet. He saw me at the same time that I did. He dropped his bag and I ran towards him. I swear Jorel was recording this, but I didn't care. I just wanted to hug my boyfriend for the first time ever and we have been together 8 years like I have said before and waited for so long to do. "Hello Danny, it's nice to finally meet you in person," he tells me. I hold his cheeks and kiss him on the lips, I have been waiting so long to do this. He kisses me back, and it was the best first kiss that I have ever experienced in my life. "Hello Jordon," I tell him, then bury my head into his shoulder. This was more than I could have ever wished for.
He lifts me up and I am more than willing for him to carry me over to Jorel. "So you're here for good then Jordon?" Jorel asks, and Jordon nods. I cheer, this has got to be the best day ever! I can't believe he is finally moving to Los Angeles so we can spend time together. I take one of Jordon's bags and hold his hand with the other. Jorel said he has been helping Jordon send his things over and have been hiding them in my spare bedroom that I never go into. I didn't feel any anger towards Jorel for keeping this from me, if anything I was so grateful that he was so willing to help me meet the man I have been with for 8 years. "Thanks for this Jorel, I apologise if I was very angry when you blindfolded me earlier," I tell him. He chuckles at me as we walk back to his car.
"No worries Danny, I know you are super nervous when it comes to surprises like this. I just felt like I could do something to help you two get together in person because I know how sad it has made you," he tells us. I have kept it from Jordon for a little while that I was sad that we weren't seeing each other in the way that everyone else says they see their partners. We can finally go on dates and I can show him the best places in Los Angeles. I feel Jordon kiss my cheek and I can't hide the blush. This is almost dreamlike, I feel like this isn't quite real and I am going to wake up in my two bed apartment alone. "Right to the apartment, then I can leave you alone to get used to being together now you can see each other face to face," Jorel says, he could probably have stayed over for a while if he wanted to.
Then again, I can understand why he has decided to go home. It is the first time that Jordon and I get to enjoy some time where we can actually touch each other, and he will want us to enjoy that time now that we can have them. We smiled at each other the whole time Jorel drove us back to my apartment. This is amazing, I had pinched myself a couple of times which makes me thing that I am currently not dreaming. I hold Jordon's hand tightly as I see the apartment building in sight. I hope he likes my apartment. It will be ours now, but I don't know what he is used to and what he is expecting to see. "I'm sure I'll love our apartment Danny," Jordon whispers, and I smile at him. I love how he has already said our apartment.
"I hope so, it's not the best apartment in the world," I whisper back, and I saw Jorel smile at us. He must think that we are either crazy or cute. We have now stopped and Jorel helped me take Jordon's bags up the numerous flights of stairs it takes to reach the door of the apartment. Jorel carried the bags to the spare room where I would let Jordon set up if he wanted or if he wanted to share my room with me that would be fine too. "Right then, I'll leave you lovebirds in peace. Welcome to America Jordon," Jorel says and we thank him before he leaves. I still can't get over Jordon's accent, I just love it so much and the way he says my name makes me melt inside. I think I love everything about Jordon.
"Wow Danny, this is honestly amazing. Much better than my little apartment back in Australia. My perfect home," he tells me. I smile at him, I am glad that he loves my little Los Angeles apartment. One day we will be able to get the money to buy a house all of our own which we can spent the rest of our lives together if we want to. "I'm glad you like it Jordon, you can either share the room with me or stay in the spare room," I tell him, feeling a little nervous for what his answer was going to be. I might have asked a very stupid question. "I think after eight years of being together that it is about time that we shared a bed," Jordon says, before spinning me around and hugging me tightly. I hug him back and grin, this is going perfectly.
"After being together for eight years it is definitely about time that we shared a bed Jordon. I just wanted to give you both options first," I tell him, there is no awkwardness and I think that it's just perfect. "Of course, I appreciate that," he tells me, then he scoops me up into his arms and carries me to the bedroom we are sharing now. I sit on the bed and watch as he effortlessly moves around the room making everything he owns fit in perfectly with what I own. I was filming a little bit for my Instagram to make a little boast that my boyfriend is real, and we are now living together. The whole thing just felt right to me. "This feels amazing," I tell him as he gets on with putting his clothes in my closet as I have a lot of free space for his clothes.
"It really does feel amazing. I feel like this is just right like this was meant to be," Jordon tells me. I smile at him while I swing my legs on the edge of the bed. I have not stopped smiling since I saw Jordon in person for the first time. "I really feel blessed to have you in my life Danny," he tells me after a while. I had been watching him organise all of his things and how he managed to make things fit with all of my possessions. I was gobsmacked at how easily he had managed to do it. "I'm blessed to have you in my life too Jordon," I tell him. I just felt overwhelmed with joy that this was real, and we enjoy time together. I can't wait to wake up tomorrow morning with Jordon sleeping next to me, we had set up skype calls and we could sleep with our phones propped up to the tables so we can wake up with each other next to each other whenever possible. It is nothing compared with the real thing.
"I bet you can't wait to go to bed either Danny. I would love to wake up in the morning tomorrow when we can wake up together for the first time properly," he tells me. I smile as he holds me tightly once again, I don't think he can believe that he has moved to Los Angeles. I hold him back and we set up some picture, so that we can say to his parents that we has arrived here safely and that he has somewhere to stay. I know his mother and father were worried about him moving here and worried that I wasn't a real person deep down and that this was a whole cat fish type thing. If I can make his parents feel more comfortable about him moving here then I will be happy to do so. I know they want to keep in contact often and want to face time each other whenever possible.
I make us both some dinner and during the middle of it I heard the face time ring tone go off. "Hey mum, hey dad. I managed to make it safely," I hear Jordon say on this end of the line. I still cook the dinner for us both, I told Jordon he could show me to his parents if he wanted to. Just so that they cold prove I exist. I had gotten hot, so I had taken my shirt off while I cook so I don't sweat too much. "Oh Danny, I don't know if I can show you to my mother like this," he tells me, and I wink at him. I smile at him and continue to stir the cheese sauce for the pasta bake I am making to show him that I can cook. "Oh but Jordon, if she doesn't see me then how can she know that I actually exist and I am not a female who has been catfishing you this entire time," I tell him.
He laughs at me and walks around to stand next to me where his mother is on the other end of the line. "Hello Mrs Terrell," I tell her, and she smiles. I did send him the picture to pass on when I died my hair blonde a few weeks back. "Hello Danny, nice to meet you. You take good care of my boy for me won't you," she says, and I nod. I am definitely going to take care of Jordon and make sure that he settles into America. "It is nice to meet you too. I promise to take care of your boy and help him settle into America. Don't you worry about it," I tell her. Jordon goes to show her what I am cooking for our dinner tonight. I can hear her sounds approval from here. "Oh Jordon you have gotten yourself a man who cooks. That's incredible, I hope the meal is good," Mrs Terrell says, I think I heard her say that she wanted me to call her Jane instead.
We talked until I had finished the pasta bake and had put it in the oven too cook. She says that she will call him again tomorrow and she was glad he is safe and that I am real which made me laugh. "Your mom is lovely Jordon. I am glad she accepts me as a real person," I tell him. He chuckles and I let him set the table for the two of us as I get some beers out of the fridge. "You said you drink right Jordon?" I ask him, as he grabs the cutlery out of the drawer. He comes behind me and takes one of the cans out of my hands and cracks it open before taking a generous swig. "Yep, I drink Danny," he replies. We have had so many conversations that I can only remember half of it sometimes. It has been a long day.
"I can't wait to try your cooking Danny bear. I am sure it will be amazing," he tells me. I wrap my arms around him and hold him tightly for once. I can barely believe that we are here, talking to each other face to face until I get used to it. "I hope so, I haven't done this sort of thing in a little while," I tell him. I want to have an open and honest relationship with him. "I am sure you will do just fine Danny. It doesn't smell burned or anything like that," Jordon tells me. I take the bake out of the oven and dish some of it out between the two of us. There is plenty of it left for us to have as left overs the next day if we so wish. "Enjoy your meal Jordon," I tell him, and we tap the edges of our beer cans together.
"Oh my god, this is amazing Danny. I would even go as far to say that it is on par with my mothers cooking and that is a hard feat to achieve," he tells me, and I grin. At least there are no worries of me poisoning him now. I have done well, for the first time he has sampled my cooking and to say that it is on par with his own mother's cooking. That is definitely something that most people work years and years to be able to achieve. I can't even match the high level of my mother's own cooking. "Why thank you Jordon. I am glad that you like it. I don't think that I could ever match your mother's level of cooking," I tell him. We enjoy the meal and we go to the lounge afterwards to have a cuddle session on the couch.
"I insist on doing the dishes for you Danny. After everything that you have done to welcome me into our home. We can share the chores like a proper team would," he tells me, then carries me to watch him washing the dishes. I like this, just sitting and watching the love of my life do the chores. I still have my shirt off, but I was comfortable being shirtless around him. I get up and put my hands on his shoulders. Then I put my hand into the water and splash him with the warm soapy water. "Oh Danny, now I am going to have to take my shirt off too," he tells me. I chuckle and help him out of his shirt. I take a minute to admire how sexy he is and how much he has been working out lately. "Oh wow, I have really hit the jackpot here," I tell him.
I was never one who focused on body images, but I will love whoever I am with for who they are as a person and I have done this with all my relationships, and this is no different. "So have I Danny. You're really the little hottie here," he tells me. I almost forgot that I was half an inch shorter than him. "I'm lucky to have you Jordon. There have been many times where I have thought that the distance between us would have made you dump me for a hotter Australian man who would be able to care about you more than I ever could at the time," I tell him, I love having this relationship with him and this is perfect. He holds me tightly and I love the feeling of our bare chests against each other with our heartbeats in sync.
"Oh Danny, I knew when I saw your picture for the first time that it was meant to be. I know that this is right for the both of us and I can not wait to spend the rest of my life with you," he tells me. I like the sound of that, spending the rest of my life with Jordon. Maybe we will get married to each other one day. I love the dream of us walking down the isle and standing at the altar for us to say I do to each other and spend the rest of our lives with each other. "I can not wait to spend the rest of my life with you either Jordon. I love you so much," I tell him. I never stopped looking into his eyes the entire time that we talked. "I love you too Danny, you are always going to be precious to me," he tells me.
"Your precious to me too Jordon," I tell him. Then we share our second passionate kiss and I wrap my arms around him tightly as he lowered me down till I was almost on the ground. I smiled and laughed as he pretended to drop me to the ground and the scooped me up as we went back to the lounge. He has already done the dishes. We watch some television snuggled deep into each other's arms. I love this, I love this whole thing as I take another selfie and upload it to Instagram and add a cute loved up caption with it. I love being with him and he makes me feel all warm and tingly inside. I love this cuddle session with him. "So, you're a cuddly type," he tells me, and I nod and smile. I have always been one who enjoyed having a good hug with someone and it always makes any bad day better.
"Yep always been a snuggler," I tell him. I think it is almost time for us both to go to bed. Jet lag is going to hit him hard when he gets used to the 19 hours' time difference it is between here and where he came from. "Do you mind if we head to bed now Danny? I'm starting to get sleepy," he tells me. "I don't mind at all Jordon. I know these next few days will be a tough adjustment," I tell him. I let him carry me up to our room before I go and change into some sweat pants. When we are all settled in bed I look him in the eyes. "I love you Danny," he tells me. I kiss him on the lips. "I love you too," I tell him.
And that is the end of another oneshot. I hope you enjoyed. See you in the next one.
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