Night Cuddles DM x JD

January 2015

Jorel p.o.v

Today is another boring studio day, nothing particularly special going on. Only there was the fact that my boyfriend Danny was about half an hour late so far. I had texted him, asking him where he was but so far I haven't had a reply. I am a little worried because it is not like him to be late to the studio. He usually meets me at my house early so we can have some couple time and then go to the studio together. The guys both know and accept the fact that we are dating each other and have been since 2005. That wasn't why he joined us in 2009 as a full time member of the band though, they love his voice as much as I do, and he has the talents to help us grow as a band and be the success we are today.

"I'm sure he'll show up soon," George tells me, and I nod. Literally thirty minutes later Danny walks in and flops onto my lap. He looks exhausted right now and he rests his head on my shoulder. "Good morning little bear," I tell him and kiss him once on the cheek. He sighs and holds onto me for comfort. Something wasn't right, maybe he is sick or something. "Morning Jay," he says, and he spoke so quietly I almost didn't hear him properly. "Are you very sleepy there Danny?" I ask him, and he nods. I make sure that Danny is comfortable if he decides to sleep on me. I kiss him on the top of the head and let him close his eyes. It doesn't take him long to fall asleep in my arms. George looks at me sympathetically.

"Poor Danny, he must have had a bad night," George says as I hold Danny close. He was here in case we decided to record more vocals for him. They are focusing on Dylan and Jordon today from what I have been told so far. "Must have had a few bad nights. He looks so exhausted bless him," I tell George, we both noticed the bags under his eyes as he slept. I wanted to touch his cheek, but I don't know how deeply sleeping he is right now. "Maybe you can talk to him later, find out what is going on. He'll end up in hospital if this keeps up for much longer," George tells me. I have some worried about this, he has seemed to have come into work more frequently exhausted but not to this level where he basically passed out in my arms.

"I'll try but Danny is very stubborn when it comes to this sort of thing. He's not gonna open up to me all the time even if I am his boyfriend," I tell George. I have to be honest with George. I can't use my status as his boyfriend to get Danny to tell me everything that is wrong with him. Even his mom has asked me in the past if he opens up to me more than he does to her. He doesn't in fact he barely opens up to anyone regardless of how much he trusts and loves them. "Yeah, I suppose that is the downside to how stubborn Danny is. He just doesn't want to bother people at all, he will probably apologise a whole lot when he wakes up," George tells me. Danny has done that before, I have a few stories of it.

One of them was just after we had our one year anniversary of dating each other. I had gotten a fright filled phone call in the middle of the night from Danny who had a horrible nightmare and had asked me to come and comfort him. It did take a minute for me to get Danny to tell me what was wrong with him and he was sobbing pretty heavily. I went over to his house, held him in my arms and calmed him down until he fell asleep. I woke up before him the next morning and then decided that I should make him some breakfast when he started waking up. I did that and once breakfast was over he hugged me tightly and apologised like ten times for calling me the night before and asking for help even though I told him it was fine.

I tell this story to George and Matt who are in the room listening to me and both equally concerned about Danny's health and wellbeing. "I definitely see this happening when he wakes up. Maybe not word for word, but he will say sorry a few times," George says. He's right, I can picture Danny waking up in an hour or more and when he feels more awake hugging me and saying sorry a lot of times. Danny does wake up two hours later and it was almost lunch time. "Good sleep baby?" I ask him, and he nods into my shoulder. I kiss his cheek and he kisses me back. I was glad that he had a good sleep though, he'll feel a lot better than he did when he walked in this morning. "I'm gonna get lunch from that noodle place, do you three want some?" George asks, look to all of us.

I know the noodle place is going to take a while to make our orders. "Yeah I'd like the beef ones I usually get please George," Matt says, and I give my order too. I look to Danny who I had honestly thought had fallen asleep again. He was awake and sorta looking at us if he needed permission to speak or something. This is honestly turning out to be a weird morning so far. "You can have noodles if you want them Danny," I whisper, trying to not let the others worry about Danny more than they were already. He quietly gives his order to George who runs his shoulder and smiles. "I'll be back with the food as soon as they are done with it. This one is one me, so don't worry about paying me back," George says.

Danny slowly feels more awake as we wait for George to come back with our lunch. "I shouldn't have done that," Danny tells me quietly and I know what he is talking about almost instantly. He was talking about the fact that he had fallen asleep on top of me. "What do you mean that you shouldn't have done what Danny?" I ask, trying to get him to open up to me. I give him some time so that he can come up with his answer. "Falling asleep on you," he whispers, Matt was trying to listen in, but I gave him a look which told him to back off. Matt said something about making sure the two in the booth know that lunch time is imminent. "Danny bear, you looked like you were going to pass out if you didn't sleep. I don't mind you sleeping on me anytime. If you need me I'm right here," I tell him.

"Okay Jay, only also long as you don't mind. I've been really tired lately and I guess it got to the point where my body told me to stop," Danny says, and I smile at him. I was so impressed by how much he just told me. He usually never talks to me likes this. He's never usually opened up so quickly but what probably helped when I sent Matt away. That way he knows that unless I have his permission to do so I won't tell anyone what happened or what we discussed. "Has your sleep been bad for a while?" I ask him, again speaking quietly in case Matt decided to eavesdrop on us again. He nods, and I feel grateful that I am starting to get to the bottom of this so I can help my love with his problems.

I am gonna ask his mom in a little while about a theory I have. It might not be much, but I'd rather ask her to either confirm or deny it. Then I can work on my plan to best help Danny out. It's about time I moved in anyway but if it can help Danny sleep at night then it will be even better honestly. I don't want to be at home without him and the UCLA medical centre calling me up to say that they found Danny passed out somewhere due to exhaustion or something similar. "Do you want me to stay the night?" I ask him, and he nods. He mumbles something that I couldn't quite hear so I asked him to whisper it into my ear. "I think it would be better if you moved in instead," he whispers, and I smile.

Considering it is our ten year anniversary this year I am more than willing to make this next step with the love of my life. "If you are ready for me too babe, I can start moving my stuff in this week," I tell him quietly and he nods. When he looks at me I see the brightest smile. I already had started packing some of my things and my house is going to be "bought" by my friend Vanessa soon. I was hoping to have this talk with Danny about me moving in for a while now. "Yeah, I think I'm ready now," he tells me and kisses my cheek. I kiss him back just as George returns with lunch for everyone. He had been in a text conversation with the other two apparently. He gives us our lunches first because we were there first.

He got himself his order and said the others could fight over who got it next. "How do you feel now Danny?" George asks my little bear, who had just shoved a forkful of noodles into his mouth. He gives a thumbs up at first. "I'm okay. I have just had insomnia creep up on me again. All good now though," Danny tells him. I suspected insomnia had something to do with it, but I wasn't one hundred present sure. I also suspect something else is up, but I would rather talk to Danny privately at home about it than in the studio. It would just be more beneficial to us both to have some of our relationship private from the guys even though the guys are like brothers to us and we trust them with our lives, but they don't need to know this.

"Jay will help you with that. If not, come talk to me whenever you need to and I'll try sort something out for you Danny," George says, just as the other three walk back into the room and we decide to drop the conversation for now and focus on eating. I had one of Danny's favourite chocolate bars in my backpack, so I gave it to him once he was done eating his noodles. He looked at me in awe, he forgot that I know what his favourite chocolate is so I buy plenty of it when I can and give it to him. There was no special reasoning behind it, I just like to treat Danny sometimes especially if he is having a hard time. It's not bad to be a loving boyfriend when the opportunity arises. Danny has spoiled me far more than I have spoiled him that is for sure.

I am forever getting little gifts in the mail with love from him. Now it's going to change a little bit, but I know the gifts are not going to stop. He has already told me he loves me too much to bother changing that bit. He just needs to let me do the same thing for him every once in a while, or more frequently than he does currently. Danny and I work on more lyrics with George after the lunch break is over while the other three head back to the booth. I smile as Danny shows me the new lyrics he was working on. They might not be going on this album as we only have three months or less before Day of the Dead comes out.

I'm no shooting star

Just a burning heart

We never sleep

In California, we're dreaming

Running through the dark

Broken boulevards

We never sleep

In California, we're dreaming

In California, we're dreaming

It sounds really good, I can't wait to work on it with the others. The song will definitely go on the next album and not Day of the Dead as the track list for this album has already been set. We are just waiting for the album to get released because of stupid management issues. "This is really good Danny. I think that this could definitely be a track for the next album," I tell him. We are constantly making songs and preparing for the next album which we have them on a cycle where every two years we drop a new album which works. It isn't really that stressful, unless you have management which sucks like we have had until Interscope stepped in to take over. I look in the notebook and Danny had written some more for the "California Dreaming" song.

Tension hidden in the question

Underneath the dreams I hold

I can see rejection in my own reflection

I can feel my dreams grow cold

Dreams grow cold

I definitely can see this working into a really good song for us. I compliment Danny again and then pass the notebook to George who had heard me talk about the song but not actually show what I am talking about. "Jay is right Danny, we could make this into an entire song right now if we work hard enough," George says, and Jordon walks in and we work on the song together until it was done. Then we even got to the point where we had decided which of the five of us were going to have a part. Matty told us he was thinking that he should leave the band in a few years' time so that we should make songs with that in mind and "California Dreaming," will be one of those songs. "Danny you are a song writing genius," Jordon says.

Not long after we wrote that song I noticed Danny was rubbing his eyes more frequently and he was still tired. We are going to go home soon, I want to go back to my house to get some of my belongings. I want Danny to settle down and possibly sleep. I will go to the pizza place nearby to get dinner for us both. Danny's not going to complain about more fast food and also getting out of cooking. "Right, I think this is a good place to call it, only five minutes earlier than the other two," George tells us and Danny nods. He knows that it has been done with him in mind, they have all seen how tired he is right now. "Go get some good sleep Danny. You need it," Jordon says, and pulls Danny into a hug. They could have been twins if they were born on the same day instead of like 2 months and 18 days apart like they are.

On the way home Danny says if I didn't mind then he would like to take another nap. It was fine by me because I told him that I was going to get us dinner and make a start on the boxes that I had already packed to move here. Maybe when he has slept a little more I will make a bigger effort in moving in, but for now it is not essential, and I don't really need to make sure all of my stuff is here. Vanessa is still trying to sell her house. I still own my house, just when she's moved all of her things in and sold her house I'll sign the house over to her. It has all be arranged beforehand, she has even been encouraging me more and more to move in with Danny and not worry about my house right at this moment.

I sit down with Danny on the couch and I watch as he rubs his eyes again. "Go to sleep little bear, I won't be gone for long. I'll probably be back before you wake up from your nap," I tell him. Since I know Danny is super tired he will sleep for an hour or two. "Okay Jay, I love you," Danny says, settling himself down on the couch ready to sleep. "I love you too Danny," I tell him. I wait until he falls asleep before I leave to my now old house. I don't know why I have taken to calling it my old house so soon. Danny literally only told me less than a few hours ago how he'd like for me to move in with him. I decide while I am packing to phone his mom. See if she knows about what has been going on with her son and how we can help the poor bear.

Margo: Hey Jay, how are you?

Me: Hey Margo, I'm good thanks. You?

Margo: I'm good. How's Danny doing?

Me: He's been alright. Having sleeping issues again.

Margo: Oh no that's always a worry for me that he doesn't sleep enough. He's had sleeping issues since he was a baby honestly.

Me: Yeah, managed to get two naps out of him today. One in the studio and he's sleeping at home right now. I am just packing some of my stuff up to move it to his.

Margo: Brilliant, I am glad you are the love of his life. He's been so much happier these last ten years.

Me: I'm glad I could help him. I love him so much. I was wondering actually if he has a fear of being on his own. Maybe that is a major trigger of insomnia for him because he sleeps so well on tour while we are all there and I have always shared a hotel room with him.

Margo: I think so, he's never spoken to me about it, but I have noticed it. He stayed with me as a baby and toddler so he could actually sleep. Then he shared a room with Rigo and Ruben until he went to college where he had the worst time with sleep. I think he ended up in hospital a few times with exhaustion.

Me: Bless him, well I am glad I know about it now and I can fix it. He might open up to George and I and I can pass that on to you. I was worried that he was going to pass out before actually. He was so tired he could barely stand up right.

We talk for a bit long before we both decide to hang up to get on with chores. Knowing what I know now about Danny I don't want to make my trip longer than it needs to be to keep Danny calm in case he wakes up while I am out and panics because I told him that I would be back before he woke up. I pack the boxes and my kitty Tiger into the car and travel to the grocery store to grab a few things for dinner. When I am home, Danny is still fast asleep, so I put the boxes into the spare room for now and get Tiger all settled into his new home. I pick Danny up once I am done with everything and just hold him in my arms. We don't get much cuddle time so I am going to take advantage of it while I can and he's asleep which is good for him right now.

I send a picture to Margo, proof that her son actually sleeps because I was afraid for a moment that I had made her more worried about her son during my half an hour phone call with her earlier about his separation anxiety. I will do my best as his loving boyfriend to support him whenever he needs to, and I cannot wait to spend every night with him in bed and see what sort of difference that makes to his sleeping patterns and health related to that. I feel like it would be a cute couple moment to just hold him for a while. When he wakes up he'll be happy because I have kept my promise to him to be there when he wakes up from his second nap. I hope I can convince him to go to bed a little earlier tonight too. Just to make sure he sleeps well.

Danny woke up about 20 mins after I got back so I was glad I didn't stay at my old house longer. "Sleep good Danny?" I ask him, and he nods. I kiss him on the lips this time, and he kisses me back. Now we are not in the studio anymore we can display our affection for each other now more openly. We are being kind to the others by not being too kissy kissy in front of them when we are together. Not everyone has a partner in the band, and we respect that. "Can I help next time you pack some stuff?" he asks me after a little while. I put a pasta bake in the oven for our dinner, nothing fancy but we honestly couldn't be bothered doing anything else at the moment. "Sure, I'd love to let you help me move. I only brought over like four boxes," I tell him.

"Four boxes and a Tiger kitty," Danny says, as the lovely cat jumps onto Danny's lap and licks his face. He's grown a lot closer to Danny now than he was at first. He did scratch Danny a lot back in the beginning, but I worked on getting my kitty to love the love of my life enough so that they can live with each other happily and as injury free as possible. "Yep, couldn't leave little tiger behind. He'll be nice I promise," I tell him, and he smiles. He rubs Tiger's head and the kitty purrs happily. I rub Tiger's head and he happily headbutts Danny. He just wants attention from the both of us. I sneak another picture of the three of us while Danny is focusing on petting Tiger just to add that extra cuteness while he is distracted.

All of these pictures will end up on my Instagram page and possible Danny's. I don't share romantic things often, but Danny deserves to have me shout from the internet's rooftops how much I appreciate him and how much I love him. He needs more love honestly, he is just the sweetest and purest man that I have ever met in my life. I am so lucky to have him as my boyfriend. I thought that maybe one of the others would ask him out first. I was so glad that I managed to ask him out and he said yes. There was the slight doubt in my mind that he was going to reject me. When he said yes, I had to stop myself from jumping in pure joy. I might have done a little jump when I got home. Tiger thought I had gone mental honestly.

Soon it was dinner time, I couldn't be bothered making Danny move from where he was comfortable and still sleepy. He was very hungry though, he wasted no time digging in after he thanked me for cooking dinner. "You're welcome baby. I don't want you moving your butt off this couch unless you have to pee," I tell him, and he laughs. Oh man I love that laugh, it's so melodic and like music to my ears. "So I take it you're carrying me to bed then," he tells me, and I smile at him. I don't mind that, I love carrying Danny to bed. He'd probably fall asleep in my arms on the way to bed, which I also don't mind. It means that he trusts me enough and feels safe enough to fall asleep with me.

I know he has that fear of being on his own, but that doesn't mean that he will automatically open up to everyone who he knows. He doesn't necessarily feel safest with everyone and that's fine. I do the dishes when I am done eating, Danny finished a good few minutes before me. He pouted because he wanted to do the dishes with me. Then I reminded him that he was on couch rest until I said otherwise. I don't want him to collapse even thought he's had 3 extra hours of sleep than he probably has had for weeks now.

"Hey Dan, how much sleep have you gotten recently? You don't have to tell me if it makes you feel uncomfortable," I ask, we had been sitting watching television for the last hour and a half. I was keeping a close eye on the time to make sure I could attempt to encourage Danny to have an early night if he wanted one. "Maybe like an hour or two when my body finally lets me sleep. Then I wake up because I have stuff to do and I know in my head that I can't justify spending the whole day in bed because I only slept a little bit," Danny explains. It made perfect sense to me, why spend the whole day sleeping if you know you have things to be getting on with during the day. Danny's never been a lazy person. Today is an exception because I have made him take a lazy evening.

He never usually has a lazy day. Even on the days off on tour he is always doing something, from cleaning his bunk making sure it's all nice and maybe a couple of other parts of the tour bus. Otherwise he is out exploring the town we are in and seeing what new things he can discover. "I hope that can change now little bear. You can have a lazy day once in a while you know. It is not going to change people's opinion of you. I bed this evening has felt good for you," I tell him, giving him a smile. He snuggles into me a little closer, I swear he has enjoyed this, and he won't admit it. "Yeah, you're right.. again. I have always been so busy I forgot what relaxing really meant," Danny says, and I laughed when he said I was right again.

I am just trying to give him a little bit of advice, I don't want to seem to be seen as controlling when I am not. I just want what is best for my boyfriend and he feels the same way about me. "Let's make a little goal. One relaxing day a month. Then if you like it we can up them until it's at least once a week. It will make all the difference," I tell him, only suggesting the idea to him. He looks at me and smiles. "I don't see why that would not be manageable. You are probably right, and I would really like it," he tells me. Tiger makes a noise and if he was human it would probably be his version of an agreement. "Well now Tiger agrees there is no backing out now," Danny says with a chuckle. Have I told anyone about how much I love this man? Probably not because then they would get pissed off because I love him so much.

"When do you want to go to bed? Our usual eleven pm or a little earlier?" I ask him, and I watch as he looks at the clock while he considers his answer. He looks at the television show that we are watching as well while he is considering. "I think I can stay up till eleven tonight. I am not that exhausted right now and I don't think staying up for another three hours will do me any damage," he tells me, and I smile. I kiss Danny on the top of his head, and he looks and smiled. It wont do him any harm to stay up for the next three hours. He will hopefully sleep for the whole night with me by the side like I should be. Tiger jumped off to go and explore the house some more because this is still a strange environment to him.

"I think Tiger likes the house. He doesn't seem to mind the fact that Louie is here either," Danny says, the dog has been so quiet in the corner I almost forgot that my other fur child was here. That was sort of a good thing though, him and Tiger have not fought. Tiger went up to Louie and sniffed him and Louie sniffed him back before licking him. "I think Louie approves of his new brother," I tell Danny who grins. Tiger goes off to explore some more and then comes back and sits right next to Louie who is happy to have the kitty there. "I'm glad because I don't think that you would let Tiger go anywhere else than wherever you go," Danny tells me. He speaks the truth, that cat is like a child to me and there is no way I would ever give him up.

"Yep, Tiger moves wherever I move to a new house. I just hope you don't mind Vanessa coming to take care of him when we are on tour," I tell him. I know he wouldn't mind, he wouldn't want the cat to be neglected. "I don't mind, I have met Vanessa before, and she is really nice. I also don't want to responsible should anything happen to him while we are gone. I can get a spare key made for her before our next tour," he tells me. I will pay him back for that, I will also pay for myself to get a spare key to the house since I don't have one myself currently. I have always come over when he has been awake, so he has unlocked and opened the door for me. I have never come over when he has been asleep.

It was just not a thing that I felt was right, go over to someone's house when they are not expecting you and they are fast asleep. I know now that I am living with him that it has all changed and when I get my key and I am out later than he is for whatever reason or we are both going to separate places I don't have to worry about waiting for him to get back. I notice as we watch the television over the next three hours Danny slowly starts to pay attention less and is starting to fall asleep in my arms. I was cuddling with him the entire time. Just like I wanted it to be, I had a dream about this one night. One day Danny and I would be living together and cuddling just like this on the couch watching something.

"I love you Danny, goodnight," I tell him, it was clear he was not going to make it to eleven pm now. He is so tired, and I am just going to let him sleep. I know that it is useless to try and keep him up when he needs the sleep. "Night Jay, I love you too," he tells me. Not long after that he falls asleep. I wait twenty minutes, then carefully and quietly put him in bed and go downstairs to turn off all the electronics and lights that need to be off and make sure the pets have enough food and water for the night. I climb into bed and hold him protectively to my chest as our pets join us on either side. Man I love this life.

And that is the end of another one shot! Hope you enjoyed and I'll see you in the next one. Don't forget I am still open to requests as long as they are not too crazy, or smut related. For instance I will not write a one shot where a character is drug addicted when they don't take drugs irl.

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