"You wanted to leave so badly?" Toriel asked.
It took me by surprise. Her tone was sad and angry at the same time. To be perfectly honest, I never wanted to leave. I didn't really think that I'll end up messing up and making her think that.
Toriel is the first person who really cares about me. I was with her for months I think. Underground doesn't really have a calendar that I could understand and I didn't really think to count the days I was in the Ruins.
It was just a passing thought. If I could ever go back. Not that I have any reason to. No one really wants me back. No one really cares enough to look for me.
Before I fall, I was at the mountain for three days. Telling myself that if someone, anyone, would come and find me, I will go back and never think of any of this.
Three days.
But no one came.
So I fell.
I really thought that's it.
I was only making things worse on the orphanage. Whatever I do just wasn't enough. People might say that I was just hard on myself but I can tell.
Every little thing I do creates a ripple to the people besides me.
No one likes someone who just makes mistakes.
But what if someone did come..?
After three days, what if someone did.?
Look for me?
"You are just like the others" Toriel said angrily.
I didn't really want this to happen.
I never did intend to go back. It was just a passing thought. A what if.
But then she said that she'll destroy the door and..
I was with her for months.
Nobody else is on the Ruins.
I knew she was lonely before I came.
Someday I'll die and who else would be with her then?
Why is she willing to cut herself off when there are others beyond these doors?
I know she'll get bored of me eventually, all the more reasons why she can't destroy it.
I can't let her isolate herself further than she already did.
"I just wanna go back" I lied clenching my teeth. Dodging her attacks, I can tell she didn't really want to hurt me.
She continued her assault telling me all the dangers I'll encounter if I leave.
Somehow the more she tries to reason that the Ruins is a safe place and beyond the gate is dangerous tempted me more.
After all, I did fall.
She grew restless and saw that I was somewhat eager to get out of here. She told me something I will never forget.
"If you truly wish to leave the RUINS... I will not stop you. However, when you leave... Please do not come back."
What..?
Sans POV
it was a normal boring day. being a sentry in snowdin where no one new really passes is just a piece of cake.
but not a good cake. just an average, boring cake that you eat everyday that you're just fed up of it.
a cake that was out at the table for days on end and you just really can't make yourself eat it again.
a cake that was good on your first try but another slice would just make you want to vomit just by thinking about it..
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wait why was i trying to describe being on a job with eating a cake?
i was not really thinking about anything today. living here and having a job where you're supposed to just stand by is just so..
boring..
nothing else to describe it.
so i tried patrolling the edges again, not that i was expecting anything new. i did explore the underground a lot of times already. but since i was not doing anything, why not?
i got to the doors to the ruins. nobody really knows what's inside. everyone just knew that you cannot go from here but you can go out from there. not that a lot of monster came from the inside. it was a common knowledge that everyone just accepted. i often came here just for fun, trying to sound off my knock knock jokes.
i knocked not really expecting a reply when i heard a female voice.
she laughed at my jokes and said that she loves them. she was also hilarious at making her own jokes. she also told me how she likes to bake..
i can't believe someone like her has been here all along.
i guess being a sentry here at snowdin was not that boring after all.
the old lady seemed very down today. i could've given her my first batch of pies that i made for her which i think they were not good enough but it might have lifted her spirits at least?
how am i going to pass it to her though?
dismissing my thoughts about passing her a gift, i asked her why she seemed sad..
and she made me promise something.
i can't believe i promised something when the last time i did, i couldn't keep it.
i guess it was just the way she is. i didn't really know how but i just couldn't refuse her.
she had found a human and it was somehow going here.
that's when i knew our boring days together were over.
i saw a human kid today.
she looked small and weak. i knew she noticed me following her and was truly scared when i initially approached her. it was kinda nice seeing a human scared..
"hey kid.." i said thinking..
so this is the human who made the old lady sad, huh? i thought gritting my teeth.
