"I didn't mean it" I softly said looking at the gigantic doors leading back to the Ruins.
"do not come back." Those four words kept repeating on my mind.
I kept thinking that I was just dreaming and in a moment I'll wake up on the warm bed and see a butterscotch cinnamon pie on the floor.
I never really understood why she always put it on the floor and not on the table. I chuckled at the thought.
Maybe it's a monster thing.
I looked at the ground.
Oh..
It was snow.
I never really realized it before. I was speechless when Toriel told me to never go back and left me.
I can see she was heartbroken and felt very bad for causing it but I was still stunned from what she last said.
I was supposed to be cold. I hadn't been able to handle cold that much and this is basically the first time I see snow.
But my full body was just
so numb.
I really messed up.
do not come back.
I can't feel a thing..
I'm panicking. Seriously panicking.
I can't believe I confessed to Sans thinking that I was not really confessing my true feelings.
What in actuall hell was I thinking?!? I asked myself, million thoughts circling my mind
Half of it was thinking so what? Let's just get this over with. You already knew he doesn't like you so let the rejection be done with so that we can kill this feeling and just move on!
Another half was saying this is all over. You'll never be friends again! He'll despise you for even saying you like him! You will never talk to him again like before. And he will ignore you and just tolerate you because of your mother!
I can see that we were both panicking. If I wasn't, I would've laughed at Sans' face.
I can't believe someone with a skeleton skull for a face can manage to display a lot of emotions at the same time. Why was I able to notice the changes of his face when I knew that I was doing the same thing? My face would have looked so horrified right now.
I would've noticed that he wasn't really saying anything.
My mind was so full of thoughts that breathing became hard and soon enough, it all came to a full stop.
I didn't even get to tell her my name. Thinking back nobody really asked me what my name is.
These two skeleton brothers made me realized that monsters were really not that scary.
I always thought that Toriel was an exception and most of the other monsters were intimidated by her so they didn't really post any threat.
Reaching out my hand to the first skeleton I've encountered, I didn't expect him to prank me. If I wasn't a ball of mess, I was sure that that would have made me laugh but I just feel nothing.
He calls me kid and his brother, a taller skeleton, called me human.
I guess that's all I ever was, really.
A human kid.
"Hey take it easy. I've gotten a ton of work done today" the smaller skeleton said gigling.
"A skele-ton" I cracked up surprised.
It was something Toriel would say!
I held my breath feeling nervous that maybe my cover was blown.
The name of the smaller skeleton was Sans, huh? I think to myself feeling a little bit cold.
Sans POV
i was phasing back and forth outside the kid's room. i never felt this nervous my entire life.
the kid just went silent at the realization of what she said.
suddenly the kid stopped breathing and me being preoccupied with my own thoughts didn't really noticed it at first. i was confused and startled when i saw her literally fainted in front of me.
i fortunately caught her before she fall down to the floor when i noticed that toriel was back. she looked shocked.
she gave me stink eye, asking me what happened to her precious child and when i wasn't able to come up with an explanation, she just sighed and carried the kid to her room. she told me that the kid must be tired from the work she's been doing and i should go home.
i never wanted to see her falling like that ever again..
talking to her was always like riding a roller-coaster. it is fun but i gotta admit i got lost most of the time.
"Sans, do you like mother?" why was she asking? toriel made my day easy when i didn't even know who she is. she is a great friend of course i like her.
but then the kid looked so serious that somehow i think i misunderstood what she really meant by that question.
"It's just that it was obvious to me, Sans" Sans would've scratch his head if he wasn't so shocked and petrified right now. no one has ever said that i was ever obvious. and obvious about what?
"You've been going here lately. Even though I have told you many times that Toriel is with Asgore but you always wait for her here." Sans gulped thinking about it. He realized that part was true.
He didn't really think about it.
Coming here was always been like a routine after coming to the surface. Something he does to make every day complete. Almost as normal as checking what Papyrus was up to for the day and making sure that his brother was safe.
"And when she's here, you were so preoccupied with the games I have or maybe you were just shy and haven't taken any initiative yet." but i wasn't going here to see toriel or your games..
Sans' thoughts stopped. He didn't understand what he just think of.
He wasn't going here for Toriel..
Well that was also true.
He goes here every day and most of the time he missed being able to meet Toriel. But that didn't really stopped him from spending his time here.
He was also sure that it was not the place that made him say that okay it's time to hit the sack. It was just a normal house. He was sure that it wasn't the reason he's been going to everyday. He stopped for a second.
but no one else was here besides...
Sans gulped again.
what the hell?
"I admit it was cute at first but Sans, you have been doing it for weeks. It's not a good look" Sans blushed. He didn't realized it before but now, he knew his face is so blue right now.
it didn't make any sense.
"You got to admit what you're doing is unproductive Sans. You visit her but then you just joke with her and that's it." i didn't even remember what toriel and i talked about, kid.
i was only remembering..
You.
"Sans, I love you but I can't see you like that anymore. It hurts"
