Description: This is a post Joey/Pacey break-up fic. It is based five years after they parted ways that fateful night at prom. Two characters Ezra and Andrew are mine. Sort of a crossover fic though it's A/U and -A doesn't existed. I borrowed Ezra from Pretty little Liars, Emily might make an appearance. Not sure yet, if she does it will be as Pacey's ex.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except the original storyline and Andrew, he's of my own imagination.
Author's Note: Review and I will happily update often.
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Chapter#9
(Pacey's pov)
" Joey, our break up wasn't because of any one thing. Don't think for a second it was something that you did because you're wrong. We broke up because I couldn't deal with my uncertainties about you or where I stood. My jealousy of Dawson and fear that you would one day realize you could do better was what did us in, that's it Jo.", I console without even missing a beat. Pulling Joey into my arms once more, I hold her against me. Tensing when I feel her tremble against me with tears in her eyes, I waste no time kissing them away. God, it is killing me to see Joey like this. How could she even for one second think she was to blame for our parting ways? Joey should know that it was my stupidity that did us in. What would make her think that she did something wrong?
" Pacey, you said that you hadn't been happy in months. Obviously I contributed to that in one way or another.", points out Joey with fresh tears in her eyes. It's true, I hadn't been happy the last month or two we were together. But it had nothing to do with Joey. I was terrified, were we weeks from graduating. Lately it seemed all Joey could talk about was Worthington and how she couldn't wait to get out of Capeside. After a while I had begun to feel as though I were holding her back. That was the last thing I wanted to do. What was I supposed to do just follow Joey to Worthington? While I doubt she would have minded, I didn't want to stand in her way.
" Jo, I was mortified at the thought of you leaving for Worthington in the fall. Much as I tried, I just didn't see myself fitting in with your new life at a university in Boston.", I confess with a heavy sigh. Joey was about to start college and the last thing I wanted was to hold her back. In truth, I just didn't see where I would fit into her life at Worthington. Dawson offered to pay for her tuition and I was livid, while it might have only been meant as a friendly gesture I didn't see it as one. For fear of upsetting Joey, I said nothing and bottled up how I felt. Then she was so nervous about wanting to impress the dean, I couldn't help but feel left out from their discussions. It was as though I was only there to lighten up the atmosphere with my humor. Everything had been building up inside me for a while, when I saw Joey in Dawson's arms and smiling as they danced...something inside me snapped.
" Pacey, I wanted you right there with me. If that's how you felt, why didn't you ever tell me?", interrogates Joey in a soft voice, a look of hurt and confusion shining in her eyes. To be honest, I didn't want to say anything. Part of me knew that if I had, Joey would have only brushed it off. She was about to start a whole new chapter of her life and I just didn't know where I fit into it. The last thing I wanted was to confide in Joey and have her pity me. Something tells me that if I'm not careful, this could turn into an argument real quick.
Placing light kisses on Joey's collarbone, I whisper in to her ear," I know that you did Joey, I just didn't feel as though I deserved to be. You could do so much better than me, I was waiting for you to figure this out and leave."
Touching her lips to mine, Joey tugs at my shirt pulling me near," Pacey, don't take this the wrong way...but that is the stupidest thing I have ever heard. Sure, maybe I could do a hell of a lot better than you. That doesn't mean I would want to."
" You really know what to say to make a guy feel good about himself Potter.", I tease with a playful nudge to her side. This earns a grin and laugh from Joey. I'm so glad this didn't turn into a shouting match. It could have easily and yet it didn't. Things are going surprisingly well with Joey and I right now. Her lips are on mine and I'm just about in heaven. The girl is getting me more than a little riled up. While I know sleeping with Joey is out of the question that is currently all I want to do. I'm in pain because of her right now.
" Pacey, I'm in love with you. Nothing you can say or do is going to change that.", reminds Joey before lying back in my arms. She's in love with me? I thought for sure Joey stopped caring about me when I stomped on her heart. Could I have been wrong? Could Joey have still loved me even after all I put her through? What the hell did I do to deserve a girl like her? Joey knows that she could do way better than me yet she's willing to settle. If she's not second guessing herself, why should I? Joey wants to be with me, who am I to question her reasoning?
(Joey's pov)
" You still love me Potter?", prods Pacey with a saddened smile. Of course I do, to be completely honest I never stopped. Pacey might have crushed me beyond repair and I might have despised him. Despite all of this, I never once stopped loving him...not even for a minute. I may have wanted to more than anything, but I couldn't. It was always Pacey, even when I didn't want him to be. Now that everything is out in the open, I'm left vulnerable once again. Will things come together and work out between Pacey and I this time? Only time will tell in the end I guess.
" I never stopped Witter.", I confess before leaning up to kiss him again. Pacey's lips crush against mine eagerly. Touching a hand to his chest, I grasp hold of his shirt. If I'm not careful I might wind up in bed with Pacey before I know what hit me. He might not see that as a bad thing. But if we're going to start over, it's best that we take things slow. The last thing I want is to dive into things with my heart out on my sleeve. That didn't work too well for me the first time around. My only hope is that Pacey doesn't realize I'm all but putty in his hands right now.
Brushing a stray strand of hair behind my ear, Pacey wraps his arms around my waist," What did I ever do right to deserve a girl like you?"
Settling down beside Pacey, I nuzzle myself into his arms with a content huff," I'm not sure but let's hope we don't make the same mistakes twice Pace."
" Jo, the last thing I want is to lose you forever. Whatever I need to do to keep you in my life, I'm going to do.", vows Pacey with a determined look in his eyes. Letting out a relieved sigh, I place a gentle kiss on his cheek. That is precisely what I wanted to hear from Pacey. If I'm going to allow him back into my life, I need to know that I won't come to regret this decision. Thankfully Pacey didn't think twice about giving me one. With hopes this time we're going to last. I don't see myself with anyone but Pacey. He's the only guy that I want. We're still a long way from working things out, but our talk has definitely put us a step in the right direction.
" For now, would you just hold me?", I inquire with an exhausted smile. That's it, that's all I want from Pacey right now. It has been so long since I have been in his arms. This is the safest I have felt in a while. I'm not even worried about where I'll be staying. So long as I don't have to see Ben anytime soon, I'm happy. I don't know what I'm going to do about getting my things, but I don't care. If I have to, I'll buy new clothes. Right here is the only place I want to be. Nothing else matters but lying here with Pacey.
" Thought that you would never ask.", taunts Pacey as a goofy grin makes its way across his face. This is what I have missed the most. Being in Pacey's arms is the greatest feeling in the world. All I want is to fall asleep listening to his heart beat. Nothing would make me happier. Sneaking my hand under Pacey's shirt, I trace circles on his chest. His skin feels so soft under my fingertips. Who would have thought the two of us would find our way back to one another. I sure as hell didn't. Whatever the case, I'm not about to question what's going on currently.
" Don't let me go this time Pacey...please.", I all but beg of him. If Pacey were to change his mind, it would wreck me. He's the only one I want to be with. No one else matters to me. I have never felt this strongly about anyone. Maybe allowing Ezra to talk me out of going back to my place the other night just may have been the smartest thing I have ever done. At first, Pacey was the last person I expected let alone wanted to see. Now, after spending all this time with him...I'm not sure running into him was the disaster I thought it was going to be. …
