Sorry this chapter is shorter than the last few! Loving all the reviews. I would like to ask your opinion! Anything you would like me to include? I'll consider all ideas and give them my own twist! Also, should I skip ahead at all or keep it moving the way it has been? Thanks a bunch, guys. You're the best.


Sex with men other than Jax was and still remains a disappointment. Jax set the bar very high when the two were teenagers and Tara, giving herself to Jax and Jax only before leaving Charming, learned that her expectations were a little unrealistic. She mastered fake orgasmns just so things wouldn't be awkward.

Thirty-two years old and only one man - and he was barely a man at the time; just sixteen to nineteen years old - has ever gotten her off. Tara loved sex. It felt great and she was - is - in love with Jax, so what wasn't to love? But she discovered that sex isn't always what she thought it to be. Not with anyone else at least.

Jax always made sure to take care of Tara before he took care of himself; he cared about getting her to climax more than reaching his own. The men Tara slept with in Chicago were not like that. They didn't care about foreplay or any of the fun stuff before intercourse. Tara resorted to buying a toy and learned to get herself off.

Tara pulls away and looks into Jax's eyes which are filled with confusion and desire. "What was that for?" He asks. Tara bites her lip. "I really need to tell you something but I'm nervous so I kissed you instead." She admits shyly. Jax tilts his head to the side and continues to stare at her. "What are you trying to say?"
Tara's heart starts pounding in her chest as she thinks of how he might react. Sure, he's in love with her but he could be pissed. He has every right in the world to be honestly. The last thing Tara wants is to hurt him again.

"Tara-" Jax starts but she cuts him off with another kiss and starts to back up, pulling him with her. Seeing where this is going, Jax follows her lead. Tara's back is now pressed up against her bedroom door. Jax reaches around and opens it before gently nudging her back so she can enter the room, his mouth never parting from hers.

Tara pulls Jax down once she's on her bed and flips them over so she is straddling him. His hands are on the back of her thighs but he slowly slides them up and palms her ass. She lets out a quiet moan, already knowing she is going to get what she's been missing for twelve whole years.
"Are you sure about this?" He asks, praying she won't back out now; he's hard as a rock. Tara just nods before kissing him softly, wanting to slow down the pace. She sits up and pulls her tank top over her head and reveals one of her new black, lacy Victoria's Secret bras. Jax's hands are now on her bare back caressing her soft skin. She eases herself up so she can unbutton his jeans and pull them down. He lifts his hips and kicks off his shoes and socks to make it easier for her.

Jax then flips them over so he is on top. He removes his kutte and SAMCRO T-shirt so the only thing he is wearing are boxers. He presses his erection against her core through her jeans and she moans. He leans down to kiss her again while cupping her breasts through her bra and she plays with the elastic hem of his boxers, really wanting to take them off. He peppers hot, wet kisses down her jaw and onto her neck and she arches her back so he can finally unclasp her bra. He gently pulls it from her body and begins to massage her breasts and tweak her hardening nipples. He takes one into his mouth and rolls the other between his thumb and forefinger.

Tara can hardly contain herself. Squirming beneath him, she reaches into his boxers and begins to jack him off. Jax groans at the contact and switches breasts. Tara tugs on his boxers to let him know she wants to remove them.

He smiles in a teasing sort of way and doesn't remove his bozers. Instead, he pushes himself up, a knee still on either side of her, and unbuttons her jeans before pulling them from her legs. Tara takes a moment to thank herself for buying sexy panties to match her bras although she knows Jax wouldn't mind if she were wearing something as casual as Hanes. Jax takes in the sight of the goddess beneath him only wearing panties and leans down to kiss her again. He starts to rub her through the thin material and she bucks her hips in response, wanting more. He reaches up to fondle her breasts at the same time and she about loses it. "Mmm, Jaaax." She moans his name slowly which turns him on even more - something he didn't think was even possible at this point.

In one swift motion Jax strips her underwear from her and tosses them aside. He starts to rub her, focusing on her clit. She gasps and moans a little louder while grabbing her own breasts. Jax, surprised but loving it, groans and starts fingering her, curling his fingers to reach her g-spot. "Holy fu-!" She cuts herself off with a moan. "That feels.. ughhh." She groans.

Jax moves his fingers in and out of her faster and continues to flick his tongue on her swollen nub, enjoying the taste of her sweet nectar. It doesn't taken long for Tara to tighten around his fingers and find her release. She grips the sheets and arches her back while letting out a sexy moan that only Jax has ever heard. Panting, Tara smiles at the beautiful man on top of her and kisses his neck. She slowly slides her hands down his back, slipping her thumbs under the elastic of his boxers and begins to pull them down. He helps her when she can no longer reach, and Tara's eyes light up when his cock finally springs out. "Wow." She says in awe. Jax flashes her his signature panty-dropping smirk. "What?"

"It looks even bigger now.." She says while biting her lip. He rubs up against her and she reaches down to take him in her hand. She pumps him a few times before having him flip over so she can be on top now. Jax lies flat on his back as the beautiful woman who has had his heart since they were sixteen makes her way down his toned body. Without warning, Tara takes Jax in her mouth and begins sucking while continuing to pump the rest of his lower shaft with her hand. Jax closes his eyes and groans as Tara picks up the pace, knowing he's enjoying it. Just as she looks up at him, he looks down at her and their eyes meet. Jax closes his eyes and reluctantly pulls her up. "I won't be able to hold off if you keep doing that." He admits sheepishly.

Tara grins and kisses him and he reaches around to cup her bare ass. "I want you Jax.." She admits. Jax nods. "Are you on birth control? I don't have any condoms with me." Tara smiles and kisses him again. "I want you in that way too, but I meant that I want to be with you.." She says and shyly looks away, nervous of his reaction. Jax gently cups her chin and kisses her sweetly. "I want you too, Tara."

They heatedly and passionately make out, their hands roaming each other's bodies. "I am on birth control, by the way." She says breathlessly after pulling away. She kisses his neck and he flips them over so he is on top yet again. He inserts two fingers and is pleased that she is still very wet. He pumps his dick a few times before rubbing the tip along her clit. She groans and pushes herself against him. "Please be gentle at first.. it's been a while and no one was ever as... as big as you." Jax nods, knowing this may be a little painful for her.

He places himself at her entrance and slowly pushes the head of his throbbing cock inside. Her sharp intake of breath makes him stop and let her adjust, but she eventually tells him to go deeper. A few more inches and he is about halfway in, and he groans at how tight she feels around him. Jesus, did she have sex at all? He inserts the rest of his impressive length before pausing again so she can get used to the stretching pain. Tara starts to rock against him to let him know she wants him to give it to her, so he slowly pulls almost all the way out and then pushes back in, continuing this slow pace until Tara no longer feels a burning pain. He then positions himself differently so he will be hitting her right in her sweet spot - a place no other man has managed to find.

Tara puts her fingers in his long blonde hair while he continues to pump himself in and out, picking up the pace with each thrust. Tara's eyes nearly roll back in her head as she falls into pure bliss, and Jax looks over her, watching her breasts bounce up and down. He leans down and gently catches one of her nipples between his teeth and the moan that escapes her lips sends him over the edge. Knowing she is close to her release, he pounds her hard and fast. Relieved because he wasn't sure how much longer he could hold off, Tara tightens around him and digs her nails into his back. He finally lets go and groans as they finish together - just like they used to.


Jax ended up staying at Tara's last night and they had sex two more times. Sydney knew Jax was staying there and it made her happy because she knows how much he loves her. She wants things to work out for them because she believes Jax deserves to be happily in love. Also, she would love to have Tara around.. a woman other than her grandma to talk to about things - someone who might be a little more understanding.

Gemma and Sydney left early this morning to go to Jax and Wendy's old house. Both them and Jax have been cleaning it top to bottom and packing up whatever Wendy left behind and putting it in the shed. They want things to be perfect when Abel comes home and the big day is tomorrow.

Sydney makes a few trips carrying her laundry baskets of clothes inside and into her room. She's missed her purple bedroom the past months she's been living with her grandparents. She had it decorated super cute and can't wait to put it back to the way it was. She starts hanging up and folding her clothes when Jax enters the room with a box of her things from Gemma's Cadillac. He sets it on her bed. "Thanks, daddy." He nods and bends down to kiss her head. "How are you sweetheart? Sleep okay?" She nods and asks the same of him. He just grins. "What?" She asks confused.

Jax walks into the nursery where Gemma is rearranging things again; she wants it to be perfect. "Oh, hey baby. How are you doing?" She asks him. "I'm great.. how are you mom?" He asks as she kisses his cheek. "I'm fine.. are you ready for tomorrow?" She asks a little worried. He sighs. "Yeah, I suppose.. I'm happy he'll no longer be living in a hospital. I'm a little nervous though." He admits. Gemma nods and rubs his back lovingly. "I know, baby.. I'll be here whenever you need me though. We are all here for you, Jackson."

Just then they hear a bump, Sydney say "ow!", a scream and then frantic footsteps coming their way. "What? What is it?" Gemma asks concerned. "There's a spider in my closet in the corner. A big one.. I can't go back in there until I know it's gone!" Gemma sighs in relief before laughing. "Define big." Jax says while straightening out the pile of diapers under the changing table. She walks over to him and grabs his hand, tugging him along with her.

"Fuck, this thing is big.. Give me a shoe or something, kid." He commands. Sydney takes her sandal off her foot and hands it to him. He smacks it and then acts like he is going to shove the shoe in her face and she jumps back. "Not funny!"


Jax, Gemma, and Sydney spent most of the day at the house getting things ready to go and are happy when they are finally satisfied with how clean it is and how it looks. Jax follows Gemma outside to smoke a cigarette. "Think you're gonna follow through with not smoking in the house?" Gemma asks. Jax nods as he takes a drag. "Yeah, I do.. I don't think it's a good idea for Abel to be around it, especially with his medical issues.. and it will make Sydney much happier." Gemma nods. "Good for you, baby. I'm so proud of you. Sydney is a beautiful young lady and Abel is going to be a healthy little boy.. so, can I ask you something?" Sydney is walking by the front door and hears what her grandmother says. She stops quietly and listens.
Jax stubs out his cigarette and looks at his nosy mother. "Sure. Is it about Tara?" Gemma nods. "Are you guys a thing? What's going on, Jax? You stayed at her house last night. You guys are up to something."

Jax rolls his eyes. "Mom, we're adults. We aren't 'up to something.' I love her. You know that - everyone fucking knows that." Gemma nods. "I know, Jax.. I just don't want to see you get hurt again, okay? You have children you need to focus on."
"I know. She knows that too.. we had a very long conversation last night.. she feels the same way, mom. She always has." He says before getting up. Sydney dashes across the room and throws herself on the couch but she's a second late - Jax sees her. "That was smooth.." He says laughing.


Though the house is not very big, the entire club and the old ladies crammed themselves into it for Abel's homecoming. Jax and Gemma will be arriving any minute now with Abel and everyone can hardly contain their excitement. They are very happy for Jax and his growing family.

Opie looks out the window and announces that the Cadillac is pulling up the street now and everyone erupts into cheers. Jax is the first one to enter the house holding a carseat and a sleeping Abel. "Hey, guys. He's asleep right now." He says to the large group of people in his home. He sets the carseat on the coffee table so everyone can have a look at his sleeping son.

Gemma walks in and kisses Clay on the mouth. "He's finally home, baby." Clay nods and takes a sip of his beer. "That he is. Nervous?" Gemma smiles and shakes her head. "Not so much anymore.. I think Jax can handle this. He has lots of people willing to help him anyway." She says while admiring her son smiling at his own son. She loves her boys so much. She kisses Clay one more time before speaking up.

"Sydney? Go over there and see your baby brother! I need to get some pictures of this perfect, little family!" Jax nods and motions for Sydney to come his way. "Yeah, c'mon over here." Sydney walks over and bends down next to the coffee table and stares at her sleeping brother. She gently touches his little hand and he grips her finger, still fast asleep. Sydney smiles widely as tears fill her eyes. There is a chorus of "awws" around the room as Gemma snaps a picture. Jax smiles at his two beautiful children in awe and Gemma takes another picture.

Sydney blinks and a tear rolls down her cheek. Jax is quick to wipe it away and plant a kiss on her damp face. Sydney gently removes her finger from Abel's grip and throws her arms around her father's shoulders. "I'm so happy right now, daddy." Jax returns the hug. "I know, baby. I am too. I love you so much."


A few hours later everyone left so the new family could enjoy some alone time together. Abel eventually woke up and cried because he was hungry so both Jax and Sydney took a turn feeding him. Jax changed the first diaper.

It is now nine o'clock and Jax and Sydney are standing by Abel's crib watching him sleep. "He's perfect, dad." Jax smiles and wraps an arm around his daughter. "That he is.. as are you." He says kissing the top of her head.

There is a very light knock at the door. "That's probably Tara." Jax says leaving the nursery. He opens the door for the beautiful woman and she smiles big. "Hey, how is he? I missed him at work today." She admits. Jax grins. "He's sleeping again. Want to see him?" He asks, stepping aside so she can walk through the door. "Yes, I'd love to." She grabs his hand and pulls him close to her so she can kiss him just as Sydney enters the room and sees it.

Tara flushes apologizes to Sydney as she pulls away from Jax. Jax shakes his head. "No, don't worry about it. Come on, he's in here." He says tightening his grip on her hand and leading her into Abel's bedroom. Sydney smiles as they walk by and peeks in at them standing over Abel. She is overjoyed to see her father this happy. Things feel as if they are finally falling into place. Hopefully the start of junior high next week doesn't ruin that.