He went looking for her, combing every hallway and on call room in search of Meredith but she was nowhere to be found.
"Alex, where's Meredith?" Derek asked.
"I saw her running out, she was crying." Alex replied. Derek took off, hoping to catch up with her at home.
He opened the front door of their house, hoping she would be sitting on the couch but she wasn't. He combed the house finally finding her in thier bed, tears streaming down her cheeks.
"Go away," she mumbled.
"Meredith, please." He begged walking over to sit on the bed. "Listen, she kissed me, Mer.
"Why should I believe you? I wouldn't blame you going back to her. She's prettier, smarter. Everything I'm not." Meredith sighed, trying unsuccessfully to stop her tears.
"Meredith, I love you. Addison has been trying to flirt all day. She's my past, not part of my future. You and this baby are."
"Derek," she whimpered, sitting up on the bed. A new round of tears glistening her face. "I can't lose you but I'll understand if you want to back to her."
"Meredith, you may think you're ordinary, nothing to look at but you are, baby. I'm the happiest I've ever been. Addison and I, we're never going to work out."
She sniffled, wanting to believe him. "Derek, how am I suppose to know it was her? That it wasnt you?"
Derek didn't know how to answer that. He held her close, feeling her tears soak his shirt. He wanted her to believe him, he needed her to believe him.
The next morning didn't squire much talking between the couple. Meredith was already out the door before he was ready and he knew it was going to be a long battle with her.
"Addison," Derek's voice boomed. The redhead looked up, a smile appearing on her face.
"Hey, Derek. What's up?"
"I'll tell you what's up. You have the love of my life questioning my love for her. I can't lose her, Addison and you're going to make it right and confess that it was you who kissed me."
"Now why would I do that? With her out of the picture we can finally be the family we always dreamed of." Addison said seductively.
"Family? Addison, get this through your thick head, I'm going to be nothing with you! Meredith is the woman I love."
"If I were to set things straight, where would that get me?"
"Some respect. Right now, you are messing with my relationship and it's even worse now that she's hormonal. She's been lied to and cheated on in the past so now she doesn't know what to believe."
Addison walked past him, without giving him an answer. He watched, clenching his fists in an attempt to hold himself back.
She was trying to act strong, but having to see him made her heart break more. She was sitting in an on call room, wiping at her face as the tears kept coming, feeling like they would never stop.
She heard the door open, trying to quickly hide the fact she had been crying but she was too late.
"Mer," Alex asked. "Are you okay?"
Meredith laughed bitterly. "Oh yeah, I'm fantastic. I'm the size of a house, not sleeping and to top it all off Addison is back and Derek was kissing her in a storage closet.
"He what? That som of a bitch! Mer, I don't know what to say." Alex said taking a seat next to her.
"Why me, Alex? We were happy and now she's back and obviously they still have feelings for each other." Meredith said through her tears.
It was silent for a moment before Alex spoke again. "You want me to kick his ass?" He asked, earning a laugh from Meredith.
"No, I dont know. I just wish we could go back to the way we were, Alex.
"I'm gonna go find him, nobody hurts the person I consider my sister. No one, not even Derek." Alex said with a scowl on his face.
Derek was talking to Ross, going over tomorrow's procedure. He was caught off guard when he heard Alex shout his name.
"Shepherd!" Alex's voice boomed. Before Derek had time to react Alex was in his face, a hard blow being delivered to his face. He tried to defend himself but the blows kept coming as he fell on the floor.
"This is for hurting Meredith!" Alex spat. "You don't get to hurt my person!"
Before he knew it, he was being pulled off of Derek by April. Owen was pulling Derek back, his face was a bloody mess and more than likely he had a broken nose too.
Alex got out of April's grasp. "You think you can hurt her and get away with it?"
"She told you." Derek assumed.
"Damn right, she told me!" Alex shouted.
"Nothing happened! It was Addison." Derek tried to explain.
"Yeah, sure it was. Then why isn't Addison here defending you?" Alex asked. What they didn't know was that Addison was watching the encounter from a patient's room.
Meredith couldn't help but watch through the window of the exam room as Derek was being stitched up. She didn't mean for him to get hurt.
She shook her head before walking back down the hallway, not entirely sure where she was going. Her whole world had been turned upside down and she didn't know how to handle it.
The same bar where they met, the same stool where she first laid eyes on him, she sat trying to comprehend everything that happened. She didn't know why she was here. It wasn't like she could drink because of the pregnancy but none the less she found herself at Joe's downing some soda. She couldn't bare to go home, not back to where Derek was.
She couldn't stand to look at him and feel her heart break every time he looked at her. She needed some space.
She was lost in her thoughts as a pair of arms wrapped around her. She turned quickly in shock.
"Surprise." Cristina laughed.
"Hey, you're back! How was your trip?" Meredith asked.
"Nothing special, the panel went great. I've been asked to speak at next years cardio convention." Cristina said excitedly.
"That's amazing!" Meredith said, genuinely happy for Cristina.
"How are you? It's only been a week but it feels like I've been gone for a year. Anything new?" Cristina asked.
Meredith chuckled, knowing Cristina was in for a shock. "Addison's back and she told me she was back for Derek. Next thing you know, I'm walking in on them making out like high schoolers in a supply closet."
"He cheated one you?" Cristina asked in disbelief and anger.
"It would seem so and Alex beat him up when he found out."
Cristina laughed. "I knew there was a reason I liked him."
"I don't get it, Cristina. He swore to me that he didn't have feelings for her anymore and now...everything is just so messed up." Meredith said, trying not to break down again.
"Men are pigs, Mer." Cristina said, trying to console her friend.
Meredith chuckled. "Yeah, they are."
"Hey, do you wanna come stay at my place? Sleepover?" Cristina asked with a smile, trying to cheer Meredith up.
Meredith smiled. "Yeah, that sounds great." Cristina grabbed her hand, leading them out of the bar. Music was blasting through the speakers on the drive back to Cristina's house and the girls were singing along.
Meanwhile, Derek was trying to call Meredith, it was nearly ten o'clock at night and she hadn't been home. He called the hospital, Owen telling him that Meredith wasn't there. He tried calling her again but the calls were going straight to voicemail.
Where is she, he thought out loud. He couldn't help but be worried, it wasn't like her not to call. He called everyone he could think of, person and hospital, even the local jail.
"What do you want, Derek?" Cristina answered, annoyed.
"Is Meredith with you?" Derek asked.
"Now you care?" Cristina spat.
"Come on, Cristina. I'm worried sick and I can't find her anywhere."
"Yes, she's with me. Happy now?" Cristina replied. Derek blew out a breath, at least she was safe.
"Thank God. Can you tell her not to scare me like this and pick up the damn phone?" Derek snapped.
"Ya know what, Derek? She really doesn't wanna talk to you."
"Put her on the phone please, just let me talk to her, Cristina." Derek pleaded. There was silence for a moment before Cristina spoke again.
"She doesn't wanna talk to you, goodbye Derek." He bears and before he could say anything, he heard the dial tone.
