It had been a week, the longest week Meredith had ever had. She barely talked to Derek, really only to give him updates on the baby.
She couldn't stand to be around him, knowing what he did. Maybe she was overreacting, she didn't know. All she knew was she was drowning, metaphorically speaking.
Addison watched her from the desk, contemplating on coming clean. Meredith looked like a disaster, her hair was a mess and the tear stain trails on her cheeks made Addison feel even worse. She watched as every once in a while Meredith's breathing would get rapid and she would start crying, trying to cover it up with her hand.
Addison sighed, knowing she had messed up and was starting to realize she didn't have a shot with Derek.
She started walking over, stopping a couple times wondering if this was really what she wanted to do. But she needed to end this before things got worse.
"Meredith," Addison spoke so softly that she wasn't sure the blonde had heard her.
"What do you want, Addison?" Meredith asked and Addison cringed at just how defeated she sounded.
"We need to talk, come on." Addison said, summoning her to follow. Meredith wasn't sure she wanted to hear anything the redhead had to say but decided to humor her.
"What, Addison?" Meredith seethed as they walked into the on-call room.
"Meredith, I just want to say that Derek loves you and I guess I didn't realize how much. What I'm trying to say is, it was me, Meredith. I forced him to kiss me, it was my fault. So don't be mad at Derek, if anything you should be furious with me." Addison finally admitted.
Meredith was staring at her. This was what she was hoping to hear.
"Thanks, Addison." She whispered, a small smile playing on her lips. She started to walk out before Addison grabbed her arm.
"Don't let him go, Meredith. I made that mistake and now he's moved on. You guys are starting a family and you need each other." Addison sighed.
"Yeah, I need him." Meredith whispered as she looked down at her belly.
"Thanks for at least listening to me, Meredith. I know you don't owe me anything."
They exited the on-call room, parting ways. Meredith in search of Derek. She won't deny she had been mad at him, disappointed even but she also felt a little guilty. She should have believed him, she should have trusted him. He had never given her a reason not to and she knew she was in the wrong. All she could hope for now was that he would forgive her.
Derek was relaxing in the attendings lounge, having had a break in between surgeries. He didn't hear the door open, too lost in his thoughts. Only when a pair of arms around him and the sound of gentle sobbing filled his ears did he pay any attention.
"Hey," he whispered, reaching up behind him to pull her onto his lap. She was a mess, a beautiful mess, but a mess. "What's wrong?"
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, Derek. I should have believed you. I should have trusted you, you have never given me a reason not to." She rambled
"Okay, slow down and breathe Mer, just breathe." She mimicked his breathing until she was in a steady pattern of her own. "Now what is this about?"
"Addison. She told me everything. She admitted that it was her. I love you Derek and I've been an ass about this whole thing."
Derek breathed a sigh of relief. He knew Meredith had issues in relationships and she just needed time to process things. "You were hurt babe, you didn't know what to believe. I love you too, I just wished you would have believed me."
"I can't lose you, Derek and I was so scared I was going to. You're my other half, my person. I need you and our child is going to need you. I know what it's like to grow up without both parents and I dont want that for this baby but I was scared I was going to end up like that." She rambled, trying to calm down.
She laid her head against his chest as he ran his hand up and down her back. He hated that she felt that way.
After a few moments, she pulled away. Derek smiled, reaching up to wipe the tears from her face. "Come home," he whispered.
Meredith smiled and sniffled. "Yeah, I'd love that. I wouldn't want to spend another night away from you. Cristina's great and all but I want to come home to you."
She got up off his lap, immediately regretting it as she could feel just how much their child was moving. She placed a hand against her stomach, sniffling.
"It's okay," she whispered. "Mommy and daddy are fine now." She smiled. Derek reached out, placing his hand next to hers, slightly shocked at just how hard the baby was kicking.
"I don't think this kid likes mommy upset," he smiled.
"No, and trust me that's been a lot this week. Hopefully now they'll calm down."
All of the sudden, Derek grabbed her hand, leading her out of the lounge and into an on-call room. Meredith was confused, to say the least. But when Derek locked the door, she got the hint.
"Seriously? Now?" She whispered.
"I've been waiting a week for this and I don't think I can hold it back much longer." He smirked. They found themselves in bed, Meredith closing her eyes as she felt him slide inside of her.
She bit her lip, trying to suppress the urge to moan. One out of desire but also out of pain from the painful blows that were being delivered inside of her since they hadn't been intimate for a while.
She tried to ignore them, once in a while brushing her fingers over her stomach in an effort to clam them down. Her mind was racing.
It wasn't too long later when Derek's pager went off, making her mentally groan.
"Sorry babe, I gotta go but we'll finish this tonight." He said before kissing her lips.
"Okay, I love you. Go save lives." Meredith said with a smile.
"Always." He smirked, finishing up getting dressed. She got dressed and went in search of Alex. She needed to tell him everything.
"Hey, Mer." Alex greeted, seeing her walk up to him.
"Hey. So everything's good now with Derek and I."
"Mer—" Alex started before Meredith cut him off.
"He was telling you the truth, it was Addison. She told me everything today."
"She did?" Alex asked, feeling bad that he went off on Derek without getting the full story. "I'm sorry I went crazy on him, Mer."
"He deserved it at the time." Meredith said, smiling.
"So, you're really okay?" Alex asked, wanting to make sure.
"Yeah, we really are." Meredith said, smiling.
