*There are no Harry Potter Characters in this piece. Harry Potter is a fictional book written by our very own Nurse Pabbie, who then published it to the muggle world under the name J.K. Rowling. We are all very proud of her, but it seems that so many people are mistaking fiction from reality. This is the real world. Harry Potter, however inspirational, never existed. :)* ~Sassy Princesses


Elsa 7

Nobody even uttered a spell. That's because I hadn't used one of those either. I had just sorta worked on instinct. It was all luck I didn't almost kill her. My heart clenched painfully, I am too dangerous. I couldn't have stopped that flurry even if I had wanted to. It might have saved her this time, but I have the potential to do much more harm than good.

I froze in fear, just watching the captains fly down to Anna now propped atop a pile of living snow. The snowflakes flew and swirled at random intervals hitting bystanders before fizzling out.

The teachers who had been sitting contently in the stands had already rushed to the scene and the crowd continued to sit in silence. Beneath my feet I felt the cold reach as a layer of ice begins to spread around me.

As Anna stood, the quiet tension eased and the people in the stands all voiced their concerns at once. People surrounding me pondered what had happened and theories began to arise. The volume peaked and it awoke me from my trance. Jack sat beside me still silent, contemplating what he had just seen. He knew.

I began to have a hard time breathing. The world around me was increasingly cold and the will to flee consumed me. I wrenched my feet free from the ice clenching my flats and walked, desperately trying to contain everything, away from the scene.

As I stepped off of the stands, my head felt like it was splitting down the center, yet I didn't combat it. With my head held high I walked toward the castle. The memories of tantalizing smiles graced me and I realized that the life I had weaved around me was too inclusive. By becoming close with Jack and River I have endangered them both.

Anna-. I broke for a moment, then bit my lip and finished my thought. Anna is better off without me. I shouldn't have tried to reach out because I got to close. My want to reconnect was overriding everything I had worked toward.

There is so much that is endangering Anna here, though. I also can't ignore that fact that I just exposed my secret to the world. I continued to walk until I stood in an open hallway on the second floor overlooking the Quidditch pitch. My head continued to break in half, but I stood stoically and resisted the need to fall to the ground, the need to scream and cry, the need to flee. Clouds filled the sky and Snowflakes, each precisely made, fell and the temperature had a sudden decrease. I didn't feel any of it.

At least, I hadn't felt anything until the crucial word uttered behind me broke me. "Elsa?" I dipped my head with a wince before collecting and detaching myself again. Jack. He knows now. He knows that I didn't tell him.

I didn't turn around to greet him. Instead, I stared coldly at the Pitch, watching Anna stand and be escorted by Professor Toothiana out along with her Ravenclaw friend. Rapunzel. Another twinge at my heart. I was out of practice. I was a fool to have fallen so far from my goal.

Anna always has to be the hero. She has to be the one to save everyone else, she has to be loved by everyone. Whose fault is that? Mine. Everything I do seems to cause her harm. I wish she could just forget me, but no that's not practical.

They shouldn't have held this stupid Quidditch event for first years, for students with such little experience. They weren't ready. "The entire thing is stupid." I hadn't realized I had said it out loud and became suddenly aware of Jack. He had been standing there behind me, judging me. I don't blame him for being fearful to approach.

"Elsa." He said again in a comforting voice that surprised me. Wishing that everything would go away, that I might find protection in him, I turned to face him. I had once again lost control of my actions, but I faced him and saw the hurt in his eyes and I gathered control again.

"What." He paused before starting again. "What exactly did you do?"

I took a painful breath at his hurt, accusing words. "I- I don't know. I can't control it." I admitted breaking contact with his sad icy blue eyes.

"How long have you had this ability?" He continued.

I laughed hollowly. "Ability? More like curse." He continued to look at me unamused. "Since I was born." We sat in silence with tension building until I added on, "I used to have control of it until…" I trailed off again.

We sat in silence once more as Jack formed his next question. "Does anybody else know?" I looked at the ground, not wanting to answer. "Who?"

I snorted, unable to contain the sarcasm, "Well other than everybody who just witnessed them?" I bit my lip and realized it was time to be honest. I looked at the ground and gathered some strength before uttering the words that would shatter my universe, "Riversong."

His eyes changed. They hardened. "You trusted her but not me? Elsa! I have entrusted you with everything. Every secret I have had, every hope and dream and all along I have been dating a lie."

That shocked me to hear him say it so forcefully. It hurt more than I thought it would.

Then I snapped. Ice had been dancing its way along the floor, but it suddenly increased its pace creating sharp icicles jutting out menacingly and growing every minute. "I know! Ok? It killed me every time I had to blatantly lie to your face, but it was for your protection. You have never had a secret this big. The biggest problem you have ever faced in your life is a minor spat with your sister or a bad grade that threatens your ability to play Quidditch. I-"

His face had softened and he tried to cut me off "Elsa-"

"No! It is my turn. You want to know everything, then you will listen." His face hardened again and anger cut through his eyes. I wanted to stop, to retreat, to say I'm sorry, but I had come too deep to back down now. "I have had to completely disconnect from my sister for her safety. I have to lie to everyone and I shouldn't have even made friends! I was foolish for coming this far in a relationship. My hopes extend only as far as: I hope I don't get found out or kill someone today. I am dangerous and I have to live with the fact I am a monster. There is nothing I can do and I thought you would always be there. I was clearly wrong and am very glad I didn't trust you with my secret, but I guess I don't have much choice now do I? Tell me, for those who don't already know, how much longer will my secret remain a secret? I want to be prepared for when my life will end. Actually Never mind, I don't want to know. Just surprise me, you were always really good at that.." With that I spun around and forcefully glared toward the stands, still buzzing with activity. At least I could count on the fact that not everybody knew my secret. If they did they wouldn't still be attempting to decipher the events, but I know it's only temporary confusion.

He had grown menacingly silent. I almost turned around, but am glad I didn't. When he finally spoke it was easy, completely void of emotion, other than a little chuckle. "Ok. I understand now. It's all about Elsa isn't it? Poor Elsa she has more magic than everyone else. She is always superior. Elsa thinks she is saving the world all by herself. You wonder why your sister does crazy things? It's because of you. You shut her out and she is trying to get your attention desperately. You force her to find love from others, yet nobody else will ever really be enough. Other people have problems too Elsa. Rapunzel almost fell too, but you don't care. Continue to blame it all on the world because you're right. There is nothing you can do." He paused, considering for a moment before adding "And if you think I'm the type of person who would spill your secret to the world… well maybe… maybe I will!" With that he turned and left.

I took a couple long painful breaths, not truly breathing but attempting to start again. I know he is right. Every single word rang clear. The chill that hung in the air with the ever increasing snow billowed around me, causing the bottom of my robes to dance about. A bit of my usually pristine, tightly wound hair came loose around my face. The tears I had bit back suddenly held such a weight that I couldn't hold them any longer and they came flooding out. After rolling down my face they would freeze as they dropped off to join its frozen counterparts on the railing.

I looked out at the Pitch until the very last person fled from the increasing storm and then stared at the silent stands in despair. If anybody passed by I didn't take any notice, until someone perched themselves right next to me. I didn't need to turn my head to recognize my frizzy friend. I couldn't have turned my head even if I had wanted to. She performed another one of her mystical spells and all the salty water that had seeped into the pores of my face lifted and danced in front of us in a shimmer. She then let it fall onto some unsuspecting first years on the first floor.

That should have made me feel better, but it was like I was void of emotions. I continued to stare at the Quidditch Pitch blankly and she stared with me. Finally she spoke carefully, "You have had quite a day haven't you?" In response I laughed unhumorously. "I know sweetie." She turned her attention back to the Pitch, more visible now because the storm had begun to let up, just slightly. "How did Jack take it?" I couldn't do or say anything, but the sob had risen to my throat again. "That good huh?"

Finally I felt a small amount of strength rise into me. I turned and faced her, "The time I needed him most, he gives up." The words still sound hollow, but they are words that are connected with an emotion. Baby steps. "And now he is probably going to expose me. Although I did a pretty good job of that on my own. I'm such a fool. It's only a matter of time before they connects the dots."

She smiled sympathetically with that familiar glint in her eye, "I don't think they will figure it out. A wizard who can do wandless magic? It's ludicrous! It wont be a solution. Someone by tomorrow will have it all figured out. They will decide that they had seen a wand and had heard a spell. And Jack isn't that kind of person. He will keep your secret. You can trust him."

'Not after what I said to him' was what I wanted to say, there were so many things I wanted to say, but instead I simply asked, "Why couldn't I just have been normal?"

"You know what a normal person would do right now?"

I sniffed "What?"

"Get food. It's nearly 6:45 and I'm starving."

I gave a small smile, not quite ready to face the world. "I think I'm going to head up to my common room." River gave me a suspicious glance. "Jack-" I broke. "I had a picnic at the Quidditch event, so I'm not really all that hungry right now."

With a sidelong glance, River took her leave and I slowly made my way to my common room. I took my usual place in the window and just gazed out at the ever changing grounds and wondered how everything could have gone so wrong.

Standing there I finally allowed myself to look at the pitch again with forlorn and a small idea began to bubble. I realized that there is something I can do to keep Anna safe, from herself, from Quidditch and after today I also realized it is dire I do something.

I allowed myself a temporary smile as the idea slightly thawed my heart. She can't play Quidditch if I keep getting in the way. I am going to sabotage the first year Gryffindor Quidditch team.