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Bella took a step down from the deck. She walked over to Esme, still half asleep and wrapped her arms around the motherly vampires neck. "Mum… please don't listen to dickward. You may not biologically be my mother but you are everything I need and want." Esme wrapped her arms around Bella's waist and kissed the human on her temple.
The human than turned around and saw Edward standing there, staring at her. She took a step towards the man, the blanket fell off her shoulders as she jabbed the man in his chest. "You need to leave us all alone. You need to learn how to have fucking manners Edward. How dare you say that to mom! She has done nothing but care for you and love you yet you treat like garbage. You know what? You are the garbage Edward."
I hate how you walk around thinking you are the only person who matters in this world. Guess what! You aren't! You are NOTHING. I'm this" She held her fingers an inch apart "fucking close to allowing Jasper to rip your head off! I don't know why you think you are so goddamn important. If you don't leave right now and never come back I can personally guarantee, when I am changed I will hunt you down."
I will find you and I WILL rip you limb from limb and slowly light you on fire so you can watch your body burn. Do NOT try and act all innocent. I know how much your words can hurt as you shut me down so hard that I gave up. I wanted to die. I jumped off a goddamn cliff. Fuck off." The human had spat in the mans face, she then turned and stormed back inside. Edward watched Bella storm off and ran into the forest.
Bella went inside, being followed by the rest of the vampires. She turned around when she heard Esme call her name quietly behind her. "Bella… did you… did… did you really jump off a cliff?" She heard a small sob break out of the womans chest as she was quickly engulfed in a hug from the mother. "Bella… sweetie… no…" Bella sighed and hugged the vampire tightly and shook her head.
"I did but it was for fun… I didn't try and kill myself… but I wasn't doing super smart things for a while…" Esme let out a sigh of relief and tightened her arms around Bella ever so slightly. "Mum… I love you…" Esme pulled back from the hug and cupped Bella's face.
"I love you two sweetheart… please don't ever forget that…" Esme kissed the humans forehead and wiped away a few of the tears on her face. "But… its late and you should be asleep. Let's get you back to bed hmm?" Bella choked out a laugh and nodded. She followed the vampire up the stiars and into her mates bed. Bella curled up under the blanket and she was out before her head hit the pillow.
Kate meanwhile was downstairs pacing back and forth, running her hands through her hair. She grabbed her hair and started pulling it out. "Kate breath… he's gone. He wont hurt her anymore."
Kate whipped around and glared at her coven leader and sister. "I'm not worried about him hurting her because if you didn't see that out there she can handle his shit. Im pissed that he would say something like that to someone who is so sweet and caring like Esme." Esme placed her hand on Kates shoulder.
"Kate… please don't be mad for me. Right now you should be upstairs with your mate." Kate turned to face Esme then shook her head.
"No… I need to go hunting…" Before anyone could say anything the blond tore off out of the house and into the forest. Irina turned to face her other sister and sighed.
Carlisle walked over to his wife and wrapped his arm around her waist. "We should head home for a bit hmm love?" Esme nodded leaning into her husband, suddenly feeling exhausted. The other Cullen children followed their 'parents' lead and also made their way back to their house.
It wasn't until 10 am the next morning that any of the Denali's heard from any one. Bella made her way downstairs, wrapped in a blanket. "Where's Kate?" She asked quietly looking around the room. The others all shrugged their shoulders. Bella sighed and went upstairs. She quickly pulled on her own clothes an grabbed her purse. She made her way back down the stairs and was quietly out the door and in her car heading back to her house.
She pulled into the driveway of her house and unlocked her door, took a step inside and closed the door locking it behind her. She sighed leaning against her door and slammed her hed back into the door closing her eyes.
The following week was an odd one as Bella went to work on her own, didn't speak to Irina at all. Kate meanwhile just didn't show up for work at all that week. It was Friday before Irina finally came up to Bella in her office during lunch. She opened the door and stood in the doorframe crossing her arms. "Alright Swan. What is going on with you?"
Bella looked up from her salad then back down and shoved another bite in her mouth. Irina groaned and walked over to Bella. She took the fork out of Bella's hand and moved the salad out of her reach. "Why won't you talk? After Saturday night no one has heard from you, Kate or Esme and were all worried. Even the Cullen kids and Carlisle haven't managed to make Esme talk." The gym teacher just sat back in her chair and closed her eyes.
"I don't know Ri… I don't know whats going on…" She looked up at the English teacher, her eyes looking lost as hell. "I'm fine… my stomach has just been bugging me as I get used to my new diet…" The bell rang for the next period to start and Bella stood. "Look ill come over tomorrow to talk okay?" Irina just sighed and nodded.
That night, Bella was laying on her bed, staring up at the ceiling as thoughts ran through her head like crazy. She decided she wasn't going to get any sleep that night so she threw on warm clothes and got in her car. She drove down to a little path, the northern lights shining to help her see along with a flashlight. She walked until she couldn't anymore which ended up being a good thing as she had walked to the edge of a cliff. She sat down, dangling her legs over the ledge and stared down at the icy water below her.
"I'm not good enough… what if Edward is right?" The brunette put her face in her hands as a sob broke through and wracked her body. Before another sob could escape, she shook off the feeling and laid down on the grass underneath and looked up at the northern lights in the sky. She didn't know how long she was laying there for. All she remembered was waking up to someone calling her name. She sat up quickly and whipped around. She squinted her eyes and could faintly make out the outline of Emmett walking owards her.
The bulky vampire quickly wrapped his jacket around the shivering human and scooped her up. "Bells! What are you doing out here?" Bella just laid her head against the bear mans chest and closed her eyes.
"I couldn't sleep so I went for a hike…"
"Why did you sit on the edge of the cliff?! Do you know how stupid that is? You could have fallen!" Bella just sighed and buried farther into the vampire. He wa quickly at the Cullen house which happened to be the closest and had her laid down on the couch covered in blankets. She noticed him quietly whisper to Carlisle who just nodded, patted his back and crouched in front of the human.
"Hey Carlisle…" The human said quietly turning her head to face him. "What's going on dude?"
The blonde doctor ran his hand through his hair. "Isabella why would you go for a walk in the middle of the night in November in Alaska? That was a really silly thing to do. You're lucky you were wearing good warm clothes." Bella didn't respond, she just shrugged and curled up on her side yawning. "Go to sleep Bella."
The human fell asleep rather quickly but not before she saw Esme step behind Carlisle with a blank expression. "Hey mommy… I love you…" She heard a small sigh and felt Esme's hand run through her hair as she fell asleep.
The next morning Bella woke up to the smell of coffee. She sat up and looked around the room she was in. She noticed some art on the wall and walked up to it. She noted that the artists name was Esme's and the painting was of a family. She recognized all her siblings and even her parents. She then noticed the brunette standing between Alice and Emmett. "I did that after we left…" Bella whipped around to see Esme standing in the doorway, leaning against the door frame.
Bella stared at the caramel haired vampire as she looked in her eyes, noting how dark they were. "When was the last time you hunted mum?" Bella said. "Also… is that me?" Esme nodded and walked over to the human.
"Over a week… Bella what were you doing outside last night? Why were you at a cliff?" Bella bit her lip looking down at her feet. When she didn't respond Esme took her chin in her hand and raised Bella's face to look at her. "What are you doing love? Talk to me?"
"I was… I don't know… Edward's words got to me more than I thought they would… then I woke up and you and Kate were just gone… I haven't seen her in a week… she realized that Edward was right… she doesn't want me anymore… she's not going to change me and it's happening again… I wasn't trying to hurt myself though… I swear… I just needed to walk and I don't know how I ended up there…" Bella just sighed and sat on the bed closing her eyes.
"Oh bella… im sorry I left without saying goodbye… I messed up that…" Esme sat beside her daughter and pushed the curls out of her face. "But I promise you that it is not happening again. I can't speak for Kate but I am not going to leave you again. Why don't we go downstairs so you can eat something." Bella just nodded and followed the vampire down the stairs and into the kitchen.
She saw Alice sitting at the counter staring at her laptop, when the pixie heard Bella enter the room she jumped up and ran over to the human and wrapped her arms around her hugging her. "Bella… please don't do that again! I was so worried when Emmett came home from hunting holding you! I love you and can't lose you again!" Bella wrapped her arms around her best friend and buried her head into the vampires shoulder.
"I love you too Ali… you won't lose me again. I'm sorry I scared all of you so much. I just wasn't thinking." Alice smiled, content with Bella's words and sat back at the counter patting the seat beside her which is where a bowl of oatmeal sat with a cup of coffee. (AN: don't at me about the oatmeal. There are plenty of celiac approved brands out there.) "Oh food!"
She sat beside her best friend and ate the warm food, feeling the warmth of the oatmeal and coffee warm her body as she ate. Esme walked to the other side of the counter and leaned against it with a small smile on her lips. Carlisle walked into the room and smiled, wrapping his arms around Esme from behind, placing his chin on Esme's shoulder.
When the human finished the food she sat back on the chair and looked around the kitchen. "Its so similar to the place in Forks." Carlisle chuckled as he cleaned the dishes the human left. "What are you guys doing today?" Bella asked looking over at the paternal vampire.
"We're deciding if you are going to move in here or into the Denali's house." When Bella shot him a look he just shook his head. "I'm sorry Bella but as of right now you can't be alone. Especially with that little stunt you pulled last night. Plus within in the next few days I assume someone will be changing you unless you don't want that anymore?"
Bella sighed and ran her fingers through her knotty curls. "Of course I will still want that. But who's going to do it cause clearly Kate isn't going to. She doesn't even want to see me anymore." Carlisle raised an eyebrow at her then shook his head.
"Either I or esme will change you if you would like however I can tell you that Kate does want you still." Bella just rolled her eyes. She got up and went upstairs to change into some clothes that Esme had left her on her bed. When she came back down she plopped down on the couch with Emmett as the man was playing a video game.
A couple hours later, Irina and Tanya walked into the Cullens house to hear Bella and Emmett in a full out war in the living room playing Call of Duty.
"Die bambi die!"
"Eat my dust bear man!"
"I will catch up to you!"
"In your dreams sparkle boy."
The last sentence made Emmett stop, look over at Bella who just raised an eyebrow, turned back to the tv and saw Bella throw a grenade, giving herself a huge advantage in the game. Irina laughed sitting on the couch crossing her legs watching the two fight. Tanya just rolled her eyes, flicked Emmett in the head to get his attention.
"Your wife has been calling you for an hour sparkle man." Emmett looked up at the blonde as his eyes widened. "Youre in for it." The bulky vampire ran into the garage with a look of pure fear on his face. Bella laughed as her character won the game and she looked up at the two sisters.
"Whats up T?" Bella asked as she got up from the floor and flopped down on the armchair looking at the coven leader.
"We need to talk about your change and where it will take place." Bella just groaned and flopped her head back against the back of the chair as Kate took a step into the living room with a sheepish look on her face. Bella looked up at the noise and her eyes widened. She jumped up and ran into the blondes arms, wrapping her arms around her neck.
"Kate! Where did you go?! Why did you leave?" The human pulled back looking into the golden eyes of her mate. Kate wrapped her arms around Bella's waist and kissed the human. Bella fell into mush in the vampires arms as she kissed her back. When Kate pulled away she had a smile gracing her lips.
"I'm sorry I left Bella. I was scared that you agreed with Edward and my go to reaction is to run so I did. I came back this morning and got smacked in the head by my sisters into seeing the truth and that it might have hurt you." Bella just leaned in and kissed the vampire again.
"It's okay Katie… im excited that you're back." Kate grinned and scooped her up an sat down on the couch, holding the human in her arms as the human just curled up into her mate. "Katie will you change me please?" Kate nodded kissing her head.
"Of course babe. We have it all set up for tomorrow." Bella just nodded and looked over at the tv as Irina put on a movie as Esme and Carlisle settled down beside the blonde sister.
The next day had Bella sitting at the Denali house eating her last breakfast. In Kate's room, Carlisle and Eleazar were setting up everything they would need for Bella's change. Kate had her arms wrapped around Bella's neck kissing her neck. When Bella finished her meal she looked up at her mate with a small look of fear in her eyes. "Love. Why are you so scared?"
"What if it hurts more than I think? What if something goes wrong and I end up dying…" Bella could feel Kate stiffen behind her before she was turned around in the chair.
"Isabella nothing is going to go wrong. We have everything set up perfectly and you will be more than okay. It is going to hurt, I'm not going to lie but I will be by your side the whole time." Bella just nodded and took a deep breath as Kate kissed her temple. Bella then looked up as her siblings all came in and gave her a hug. As Bella made her way upstairs she was stopped right outside Kate's room by Esme who just wrapped her arms around Bella quickly and kissed her temple.
"I'll see you soon love." Bella just nodded as Carmen then kissed her temple. She stepped into the bedroom and took a deep breath looking at Carlisle who just nodded, kissed her temple and made his way out of the room leaving Bella and Kate alone.
"Ready love?"
"Yes."
