When I got to school it was like ten thirty. I walked down the halls and people parted just like they always have but now they looked shocked and afraid.
It's senior year and I have finally found myself. I don't know what the tipping point was; dying my hair, the nose ring, my ironic tattoo of Ryan Seacrest, but one thing I know, I'm never going back.
While I was walking I saw Puck, he looked disappointed in me. Whatever. He did try calling me over the summer but I never answered, I'm sorry if I didn't want to hear about pool cleaning or Lauren and him.
I was under the bleachers. It's kind of where I hangout now. Anyway Santana called me over and said,
"Okay Quinn this is our senior year and frankly being on the Cheerios isn't the same without you." It's funny I haven't even talked to Santana or Brit all summer,
"You guys are such suckers for going back to coach Sylvester."
"Come on screw her this is for us. We could win two National championships this year. We joined Cheerios together, we joined glee club together, we all slept with Puckerman the same year, were like besties for life." Then Brit said,
"Yeah come on Quinn we used to be like the three musketeers and now Santana and I are like almond joy and you're like a jolly rancher that fell in the ash tray."
"You guys never understood the pressure I was under, it sucked. I'm not interested in the boys, the makeup, or the polyester outfits."
"Look I got a bar of soup and a bottle of peroxide with your name on it in my locker." I smirked
"Come on Quinn you can't break up the unholy trinity."
"People grow apart deal with it. I've got new friends now and they accept me for who I am." I walked away.
My new friends and I call ourselves the skanks. I was smoking with them when Rachel came over to us and said that we were friends once and that she should've spoken up last year when I cut off all my hair blah blah blah she just wanted me to join glee club again but as I said before I wasn't going back.
She told me that they were going to sing at every purple piano they had around school. How annoying. She said she was sorry I was so sad and then she said she was sad not seeing me in the choir room. Uh I wasn't sad I was just trying something new and I liked it. To not pretend all of the time and not trying to look perfect or be perfect.
So during lunch the glee club performed. Is this what we always looked like? It's pathetic. Puck looked at me he seemed angry. He doesn't have the right to be angry with me! We haven't even talked about that one night he kissed me. That night when is was something more. When it was better than Finn's kisses. The night where I forgot all about Finn and everyone else and just thought about Puck. I wonder if he felt the same.
Blaine performed after lunch outside. My god the glee club was everywhere. Just because of these stupid pianos. So I took matters into my own hands as I normally do. I paid the cheerleaders to throw oil on the piano during the performance. And then I flicked my cigarette on it at the end and it went up in flames. It was amazing to see. Like my own little fourth of July. And everyone in glee club looked so sad. Boo-who.
I skipped most of my classes and went out by the bleachers. I stayed there till the end of the day. I was smoking and talking with my friends until I saw the football team practicing. I saw Finn. He looked happy. I saw Puck he looked at me but then I looked away. You know they haven't even tried to talk to me they just stare like I'm a weird species.
I stayed under the bleachers. All my friends had went home. I heard coach Beiste blow her whistle. She told the boys to hit the showers. I got up and walked over to the fence. I looked out. Puck had seen me and started running towards me. He was wearing his practice jersey. He did look good.
But I didn't want to talk to him. I started walking away until I heard him say,
"Hey!" I turned around. "What is going on with you?"
"What you don't like the new me?" I laughed.
"Well…" He looked me up and down. "It is kind of turning me on. But this isn't you Quinn."
"I finally found myself. And I thought you'd be happy for me. Seeing that we could be the perfect badass couple."
"As far as badasses go I'm numba one! I don't share the top." I shrugged my shoulders as if to let that roll off me. "Why did you change?"
"I'm sick of answering that question." I rolled my eyes and handed him the cigarette I had in my mouth through the fence.
"You know I stopped smoking after I got out of juvie."
"God you're weak." I put the cigarette in my mouth and then blew out smoke.
"Fine." He reached his hand in between the fence. I took the cigarette out of my mouth and gave it to him. He stuck it in his mouth and blew out smoke, I could tell he had missed it.
"Are you doing this because Finn dumped you? I thought you were over him?"
"I am. This has nothing to do with him. I did this for me." I was so much more chill now.
"Okay whatever Quinn, I got to get to glee."
"How is glee?" He looked shocked that I cared.
"It's okay...we need more members since you're gone and Lauren left." I was surprised had they broken up?
"Lauren? What happened?"
"I thought you wouldn't care." I rolled my eyes,
"Just tell me."
"She said show choir was stupid. And she broke up with me."
"Oh wow Puck, sorry to hear that." He handed me back the cigarette so I could smoke some of it.
"Yeah it's whatever, I never really loved her…"
"But you told me you did."
"Yeah I lied because you were with Sam and then Finn."
"What does me being with them have anything to do with you and Lauren?"
"Oh well um…" He looked down, "Because I didn't want you to feel sorry for me. You had your own problems." Was that really the reason? I handed him back the cigarette as if saying it was his turn. We were both quiet for a second.
"I tried to call you to tell you over the summer about it but…"
"Why would you wanna call me?"
"Cause you're my best friend and I thought you'd wanna know."
"Well I'm sorry for you Puck, I really am but I don't care much about you anymore."
"That's not what you said in New York City, in the lobby…" His moved his eyebrows up.
"Yeah well I've change. I have better friends who respect me for who I am."
"So I'm not your friend anymore?"
"I mean I guess I'm you're friend, but I have a new life now."
"And you don't want me in it?"
"I'm sorry if you feel hurt from what I've said but all you ever talk about is different girls, and it's just pathetic."
"Yeah sure. You don't like me talking about different girls because deep down inside you're mad that we haven't talked about that one night."
"What are you talking about?"
"You think I have forgotten the time I kissed you in my car, after prom." I didn't say anything. "I know under that disguise you remember it, because I can't get it out of my head." I stood there silent until I said,
"Me neither." He felt it! The more than fireworks kiss. The kiss that made him forget about everything else but me. But I'm not that girl anymore. I went back to Finn even after we kissed, doesn't that me that I didn't care as much. And he went back to Lauren so that means something. Unless he went back to her because I went back to Finn.
I said this to let him know,
"So what it's different now I'm different"
"Yeah well you won't be getting another one from me, not dressed like that anyway." Then he threw the cigarette down on the pavement and walked away. I stepped on it to burn it out.
I'm over boys.
So there you have it. Will Quinn change back to her normal self to get Puck to give her that kiss? Or will Puck and her grow apart? Or will they become the new badass couple?
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