"Could you tell me what your problem is?" Blaine asked dashing into Kurt's room. Kurt looked up from his homework. "Excuse me?" Kurt asked. He was going to finish his homework and then go into the city for a night out with Chandler. "I have been so nice to you. For the past month, I have dealt with you being mean and snappy and humiliating me all the time. But now you went too far!" Blaine was really angry. There was this vein on his neck and it looked like it was about to explode. Literally, Kurt knew how to deal with angry people. So he did.
"Calm down, freak! Sit down. Take a deep breath and tell me what's wrong." Kurt said placing a ruler between his book and closing it. He would learn later tonight.
"You're good friends with Nick right?" Blaine said still angry. Kurt just nodded. "We get along. He's nice. He talks about himself a lot. I like that about him." Kurt said. He was calm. Although he knew that during fights you always have to stay calm, he wasn't always good at that. Except from now. He was very calm now. Especially because whatever is Blaine's problem, it definitely isn't his. "I just got a text from Nick. You're giving a party?"
Seriously what is Blaine's problem? Kurt nodded. Why did he have to explain himself? "Yeah. At Chandler's place." Kurt said. He sat up more straight. He felt the back of the chair against his own back and it felt refreshing. After being concentrated for a while, the distractions came in handy, even though they weren't the nicest distractions that he knew.
"You barely talk to people. Why would you give a party?" He asked. Kurt shrugged. "I'm not here to make friends. Nick is my friend because I was tired and he's self-centred. I like that. That way I don't have to talk and I'm not that cruel that I would unfriend him. Chandler and I are giving this party because we love to dance and party. It's all we did in Denmark. You can come if you want. If that's the problem." Kurt said. Blaine shook his head.
"You keep confusing me. Like why are you here then? Are you a spy? You would be a bad spy. You keep saying that I don't know you. Well I'm here. I want to get to know you. Tell me who is Kurt Jensen?" Blaine asked. Kurt chuckled. That's the point. Blaine knows him as Kurt Jensen. Not Hummel. It would be so much easier to keep his identity hidden if it wasn't for Blaine who was curious.
"Oh Blaine. You should learn to stay out of my business. I'm not a spy. Not at all. I just haven't had the normal life you had. You might think you're a lot here in Lima or in Dalton. But to the outer world. You're nothing, a nobody. I'm confusing you. Am I? Well that must suck." Kurt stood up and took his coat.
"If you will excuse me. I'm going to have a nice time with my boyfriend." Kurt said before walking past Blaine, making sure the push him a little bit and he slipped out of the house.
That weekend
"I missed this" Kurt said to Chandler. Well more shouted in his ear. The house was filled with Dalton boys and the music was turned up high. Kurt felt like he was on top of the world again. Chandler nodded and kissed Kurt "You know. I don't need this as much as when my father held me under pressure" Kurt said. Chandler took Kurt's hand and lead him out of the room. "You know what I want? I want you" Chandler mumbled while pressing Kurt against the wall in the hallway. Kurt shook his head. "Uh no baby. I don't. Not with all those guys. No. Sweetheart" Kurt said pulling Chandler off his body. "It has been a month Kurt. You keep finding excuses not to have sex with me." Chandler looked angry. It's not that Kurt doesn't miss being close to Chandler, he just doesn't feel very comfortable and although it may seem like he doesn't have any standards in that area, he really does.
"I don't feel myself here. I, I just have been feeling so down ever since I came here and I just don't feel like being intimate with you. I. This feels like we're actually living together now and I still have to place it. Because it's great now. But, once we'll return. I'll have to be this big figure and I just. Can't" Kurt started crying.
Why was he even crying? Because he confessed that he doesn't want to have sex? Because his boyfriend is angry? Because he just wants to go home? Who knows. Kurt most certainly doesn't.
"Well Kurt. Let me tell you something. Your problem is that you don't wanna be free. You see this all like 1 big punishment. Like your father punished you. But he really didn't. He send you away to another country with another identity. Out of the media. You should go on your knees and thank him. But all you're doing is locking yourself off and being a little bitch to everyone who wants to be nice to you. You wanted a normal life? Here it is...now make the best of it." Chandler ranted. He shook his head at Kurt who looked like a deer caught in headlights. "Go home Kurt. We're done here for tonight."
Although Chandler seemed really angry at Kurt, he did wipe away the tears. Kurt nodded and placed a salty kiss on Chandler's lips. "I'll call you tomorrow morning. Don't do something stupid. I love you Chan." Kurt said. Chandler nodded. "Drive safe" he said before Kurt went out the door.
The drive home was a moment where Kurt finally could place all the words that Chandler had said and he got a chance to place them. What seemed easier than it was.
He arrived at the Anderson House and instead of going into his own room he went down the hallway where Blaine his room was.
The door was closed but he could hear music playing. Kurt couldn't place the song but it was one of these songs that Blaine would play on repeat for days at a time. Kurt listened a few seconds before knocking on the door. "I already told you mom. I'm not going to wear that stupid shirt for your birthday party!" Blaine shouted. A smile appeared on Kurt's face. "Um Blaine?" Kurt said. In a few seconds Blaine opened the door.
"Kurt?" He asked, clearly confused. Kurt sighed and nodded. New tears already flooding out of his eyes. "I'm sorry, Blaine." Kurt said. Blaine looked at him still confused but then opened his arms to hug Kurt anyway. "Are you okay?" Blaine asked. Kurt let go and nodded.
"Yeah." His voice was quite was high and unstable. Kurt coughed to get it normal again. "I. I'm sorry. I, I realised which a d-bag I had been towards you while you tried to be nice and instead of fixing the whole situation, I'm only making it worse." Blaine closed his door behind Kurt and turned the music a tad bit down.
"I seriously have no idea what to say. I didn't even think you knew what sorry meant." Blaine said sitting down next to Kurt on his bed. Kurt sighed and nodded.
"Proves how bad I have been acting. I'm sorry. You have been wanting to get to know me ever since I arrived. So, I'm Kurt. I'm born in Denmark and I have year free that I can spend in America." Kurt said. Blaine smiled and nodded. "Hi Kurt. I'm Blaine"
"Are you taking me or are we going stand here till we both start growing beard?" Kurt asked Nick when they were standing in the grand hallway. Nick wasn't sure what to do. Like he hadn't suggested it himself.
"Are you sure Kurt? I mean. It was only a suggestion. Don't feel forced." Nick said. Pulling at the strap of his book bag and walking towards what is the warblers rehearsal room. "Yeah. Nick. It's okay. I have been here for 2 months. I am sure I want to join the choir. This is totally my own decision. Don't worry." Kurt said. Nick nodded and he suddenly looked like he was on cloud 9. Kurt only decided to change his behaviour for a few weeks but he was already liking how his new made friends were reacting to him.
"Perfect! Imagine how nice it would be. I'll get to spend even more time with you" Nick said. Kurt smiled and nodded. "Nick. You should want to spend more time with Jeff. Not with me" kurt said joking. Nick just pushed his shoulder and walked in front of him. Pulling him with him.
"I know, I know. But, you're interesting. I like to spend time with you" Nick said. Kurt smiled and nodded. Although he had been more positive and open, most of the guys in his class still knew him as the bitchy and mean transfer. So because Kurt was tired of it. He would join the warblers. There were a few seniors in there and if he can bond with at least 1 or 2 more. He could already feel a lot less lonely all the time.
"Guys. Sorry I'm late. But I have found a new member for our team." Nick said. All the warblers started talking. 1 guy was angrily tapping on their desk. "Warbler Nick. You know we have already held auditions this year. You know we can't accept any more people right now." The guy said. Nick nodded. "I know, I know that. But, I think you should give him a chance. I mean, he has a voice like a nightingale. He is the perfect addition for our team, just let him try out." Nick tried to defence Kurt.
The council members looked at each other and eventually Wes nodded. "Okay, what do we have to lose. Let him in Warbler Nick." Nick nodded and looked around the corner so he could take my hand. He dragged me with him in the room. I almost fell over when he did so.
"Kurt?" Blaine asked. Kurt looked around the room. He straightened his shoulders and lift up his chin. Making his posture perfect. It's something Kurt does subconsciously. "Are you interested in becoming a new warbler?" David asked. Kurt nodded. "I am." He said. "Okay, introduce yourself and sing a song. Do you have a song?" Wes asked. Kurt nodded. "Yes, I do."
"I am Kurt Jensen. I am a senior at this school and I am interested in becoming a member of the warblers. As audition song I will sing Don't cry for me Argentina from the Broadway musical Evita."
"Just start when you're ready" one of the council members said, Kurt nodded and took a big breathe before starting.
"It won't be easy you'll think it's strange..."
Kurt still remembered how he sung it together with his mother. How they used to sing hours and hours. She used to find songs in all languages. That's how Kurt learned Italian and French also Danish because he never really spoke that with his parents.
"..Don't keep your distance" he finished.
People started clapping but the council let them stop. So the room was actually very quiet. He looked around and saw Blaine putting his thumbs up at him.
"Kurt Jensen, normally we wouldn't let you enter this late in the season, but because it is undeniable that we can strengthen our team with your talent. We accept you as member of the warblers. Welcome in the team Warbler Kurt." Wes said.
Kurt smiled. For the first time in his life he was part of team. He now officially was for the first time is his life part of a group of people.
