It was on his way to his room that the situation became clear to him. He had broken up with his own boyfriend and he felt better than he did before the fight.

And it might be a very silly reason. Especially to other people. Kurt had broken up with his boyfriend because he was able to go to an university but to him it was a serious reason.

Kurt and Chandler had had many conversations about what they wanted to do when they grew up and the one thing Kurt always wanted to do was go to Harvard to study languages. Chandler's idea changed every 2 weeks.

It was only a few years ago that Kurt realized that he would never be able to do that. He had been very sad and was on the edge of a breakdown. Chandler knew this and had been there.

And what does he do, behind his back? In secret? He applies to Harvard, God knows for what, and he probably wasn't even going to tell Kurt at all.

It was then that the sad feelings came up. How come that such a strong couple as them had become so thin and see through that breaking up was the only option?

Naturally by the time he entered his room he was sobbing. "Omg Kurt." Blaine said looking up from whatever he was doing. He sort of fell in Blaine's arms. Enjoying the warmth around him.

He wasn't sobbing because he broke up with Chandler, well in some way he was. He will never miss the relationship they had the last few weeks. He will miss the relationship he had with him since he was 13. He will miss the Chandler who was there for him when his family was mean when he came out.

Chandler was there on Kurt's loneliest days, days that no one even said a word to him. He was there when his father remarried, and Kurt wasn't even allowed on the party because he was going to cause a scene anyway.

Chandler was there on the sweet 16 party that he had, where nobody that his father had invited turned up. Chandler even flew to America for Kurt.

But, now Kurt doesn't need Chandler as much as he used to, would that have been the problem? Would Chandler have got it hard because he suddenly didn't have all of his attention anymore?

Did he do the wrong thing with breaking up with him and should he have given them a chance to talk it out.

He then realized that they didn't even talk properly anymore, it were hums and shrugs and short sentences and other times it were shouts and sentences that were snapped to each other. They wouldn't have stand a chance to talk it out.

"Hey you okay?" Kurt then realized that Blaine was still there.

Kurt took a bit distance and started drying his tears.

"I just broke up with Chandler." Kurt then said.

"You what?" Blaine couldn't believe him. Okay, they had been both a bit distant around each other for a few days, but they had been together for such a long time, surely they wouldn't break up over something stupid like that.

Kurt shrugged. "We were shouting and saying mean things and then Chandler went over it and he hurt me with something that he knew would hurt me and I shouted that we were over and left. It was in the centre of the senior commons. I think Nick will come and check on me soon." Kurt explained himself.

Blaine couldn't believe that such a long term couple had cracked under the pressure.

"How are you feeling?" Blaine asked. Kurt shrugged. "What am I not feeling? I feel happy, I feel relieved, I feel angry, I feel really sad. I don't think there is a word to say how I feel at this moment." Kurt said.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" He asked. Kurt shook his head.

"No, I don't think that will help me. It's just. I'm happy that I'm finally out that relationship that was breaking me but, I didn't break the relationship that saved me in many situations in the past few years. That relationship is gone. It's over." He said.

"What you did was okay. Every normal person would do it." He said. Guiding Kurt to his bed.

Just when Kurt had crawled in his bed an angry knock sounded on the door.

Blaine opened it and held whoever it was from entering. "Let me in, Anderson!" Chandler said.

"I don't think that is a good idea at this moment. Kurt is rather upset." Blaine said.

"He is upset? HE IS UPSET? HOW CAN HE BE UPSET WHEN HE BROKE UP WITH ME?" Chandler shouted.

"Hey, no reason to shout at me." Blaine said.

"You think, I'm taking this? I am the duke's son and if I wanna see my boyfriend, I wanna see him." Chandler said. "Ex-boyfriend" Blaine answered. Chandler then pushed Blaine who almost fell in the ground.

"Hey, hey. Maybe you should keep a bit of distance. We don't accept that kind of violence here." Nick said now, standing next to Blaine.

"What you gonna do, turn me in?" He asked. Nick nodded. "Yes, you could be the king of England and you can be removed of this school. We've seen it happen before. Kids who thought they didn't have to follow the rules and got send out. So I would back up and leave Kurt alone for the day." Nick said.

"Fine. But Hummel, this is not the end okay. I hope you know that." Chandler shouted in the room before leaving. Half of the warblers were already standing around him. Ready to protect Nick and Blaine.

Blaine closed the room again and Nick went to sit on the bed next to Kurt. "Hey, I thought that what you did today was very brave." Nick said. Kurt now took his head from under the covers and nodded. "If you say so." Kurt said.

Nick nodded. "Yes, yes. You are very brave for doing that. He had no reason to embarrass you so publicly. He had no reason to hurt you like he did. That's not something that someone who loves you would do. You're just my friend and I wouldn't do that either." Nick said. Kurt pulled himself up against his headboard.

"It's just. Chandler has been there for me over the years. You guys are the first friends I have made in my life. Next to Chandler. Birthday parties existed of my stepbrother and his girlfriend who didn't really like me but were forced to come and Chandler. He was there. My father used to hold ballroom parties but I wasn't invited. Chandler was there on those nights. All moments in my life that I was on the point of breaking down. He was there for me. Without him, I wouldn't even be here right now." Kurt said.

"Yes, he saved you. But you don't need to be saved anymore" Blaine now said sitting next to Kurt.

"I know I don't, but we still have had a good time together and, it's just all gone. Memories." He said.

"Oh. See it as a new chapter in your life." Blaine said.

"You were pretty bad ass to him. I didn't think you would break up with him. But you made the right choice. He had no right to say that you can't live without him." Nick said.

"I slowly feel my heart breaking, like. Yes, the person who he is now is a monster, but he hasn't always been like that. He was my first everything. Friend, kiss, boyfriend and many more. It's hard to let him go. But I also know that I couldn't let him break me down so he would have a Kurt to save again."

Nick lay down at Kurt's other side and hugged him. "You're fine now. You will be fine." He said. Kurt nodded.

"I know I will be. But it will be completely different and I hope that I'm ready for that." He said.


3 weeks later

Kurt looked at the other boy through the open door. They had broken up for 3 weeks now and they had tried to stay out of each other's way. Something that had sounded easier said than done because they share a few classes.

"So you are really leaving?" Kurt took the courage to enter the room and sit down on the empty bed. Chandler clearly hadn't expected him to be there. He looked around and Kurt felt his heart melting inside his chest. Chandler looked a bit innocent, a bit sweet. A bit like the guy that Kurt fell in love with all those years ago.

"Yes. I am leaving in a few hours." He said. Kurt nodded. Walking over towards the window to sit on the windowsill.

"These are yours." Chandler said. Giving Kurt a bag. Kurt looked inside of it. There were sweaters , bowties, socks and even a watch he once gave Chandler because he had lost his when they had gone picnicking in Chandler's neighbours their garden.

"You can keep this if you want." Kurt said when he saw that Chandler had included a sweater that Kurt had loved and worn over the years. It was actually chandler's.

"No. You can keep it, it still has your smell." Chandler said. Kurt took it in his hands and smelled it. It smelled like his aftershave. "Besides, my father doesn't want me to send back 3 suitcases with clothes, so if I don't take it with me, I'll have to bring it to a thrift shop." Chandler said.

Kurt didn't answer but kept looking out the window.

"I know this will sound weird to you, but I will be happy that I can leave this school." Kurt looked up from that. Chandler looked a bit miserable.

"This might be an anti-bullying school but I the only friend I had here was you. It's been a bit lonely here without you." He said.

"You don't need me in your life Chandler. You can become a big man without me too." Kurt said. Standing up and walking towards the end of the room. "I know I haven't always appreciated it, but so can you. And that hurts me more than having to leave everything and starting again." Chandler said.

"Well it's you who have made me see that by treating me so horribly." Kurt said leaving the room of his ex-boyfriend.


Kurt was sitting in the warblers practice room when he saw the car that picked up Chandler leave campus he had it hard to stop a tear from falling. "He's gone." Kurt then said to Blaine who was sitting next to him.

"Oh Kurt." He said hugging him. It was Wes who pulled their attention. "Fellow Warblers. We need a set list for sectionals. We are running out of time." He said.

"Maybe if we wouldn't discuss stupid things like the colours of the lightning we would have a full set list by now." Thad said.

Everyone was starting to chat around. Wes took his gavel and smacked in hard on the table. "Silence!" He shouted.

Blaine put his hand in the air. "Warbler Blaine?" He asked. Blaine stood up. "Maybe, we should take a few songs of the homecoming concert. We all had a blast then." He said.

"That's actually a good idea, warbler Blaine."

Kurt zoned out during the meeting. He knew they would find songs soon.


next week

"Kurt? Is it true what I have heard?" His father said. "Depends on what you have heard." Kurt answered.

"Chandler left to Harvard and you broke up with him." His father said.

"Yes, that is true. He left like a week ago and I broke up with him a month ago." Kurt said. He had just finished classes and he was now walking towards the library.

"Why didn't you call me sooner?" He asked. "Well, it's not exactly you wanna tell your parents do you, 'hey dad. My relationship failed.' There are more fun things to talk about." He said.

"I think it's a good thing that you finally broke with Chandler for good. It is for good right?" He asked. Kurt sighed. "Oh, it is for good. We didn't really work out anymore." Kurt said.

"I don't really mind that much." His father answered.

"This is exactly the reason why I didn't call you. Anyway. I have a singing concert and I was wondering if you could make it over." Kurt said.

"Oh, Kurt. No." He immediately said. Kurt felt his heart sink. "I'll let Finn fly over." His father then said.

"Okay, thank you. See you later." Kurt said. Ending the phone call before his father could stop him. Why did he even think that he was loved by his father.

He knows that his father doesn't know how far he has come since he left, but it would be the perfect opportunity to see who Kurt had become.

Who is he really kidding? He'll have to go on and do how he is doing right now and maybe one day he'll be appreciated for it. He is doing this for himself and not for anyone else and it becomes time that Kurt realizes that.