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This will be my first time writing in a few years, so please be patient with me. All the stories I write are my interpretation of how I would have wanted the show/game to end up. The characters and the actual series I write about are not mine as I do not own any rights. I am just a fan and love to show it by creating my stories, but any OC's I create are that of my own imagination and creativity.


"U-Ulquii!" Ulquiorra awoke as the door to the guest room burst wide open scaring the living shit out of him. He sat up in his new memory foam bed that was a huge upgrade from the shitty one his father purposefully got him. He squinted his eyes to get a look at the intruder and saw a female figure run into the room. They made their way to the bed and threw their arms around his shoulders. His hand instinctively rested on the small of her back as he heard her sobbing uncontrollably. "N-Nel?"

'Goddammit, woman. What did I just say?!'

"I was so worried when I didn't see you! Nnoitra told me EVERYTHING! I'm so sorry Ulquii I feel like such a bad friend for not noticing! I thought you were just going through 'guy stuff' yanno like females do on our per-"

"O-Okay! Too much info Nel! Get off him can't you see he's still hurt."

"G-Gah! I'm so sorry! Do you need anything? Water? More blankets? Do you need help showering!? Anything you need I will help you with it!"

"N-Nel calm down. I am ok I promise. Thank you for coming by please don't be too upset at Noir he was doing what he thought was right...like what I was doing by keeping the truth from both of you, I'm sorry."

"You don't EVER have to apologize. You've been through a lot, Noir and I get that and we will do our best to be there for you from now on, promise!"

"No, I do need to apologize. As my best friend's I should have told you everything from the get-go. If I had told you when it started happening maybe I would have gotten the help I needed. I was ashamed and angry at myself...I may not have caused my mother's death, but I still feel responsible. I can't explain it clearly for it to make sense for you both...I guess that is the reason I let him do what he wanted with me as a way of redemption to make up for taking her away. Instead, I let it go on for too long and as a consequence, I became fucked up. My inner turmoil and this depression took over...shitty attitudes became frequent. I know now I could have been a much better friend to you both. All the times you were happy for after something good happened, or all the invites I turned down, all the special life events I missed...I wasn't there to be supportive so for that, I apologize."

Nel shook her head and leaned against his shoulder while Nnoitra sat at the end of the bed staring at them, "you don't have to feel so guilty. I am sure we would have done the same thing in your position. Like I said before you are never going back there and with Nel knowing everything now that's a whopping two against one."

"I honestly can't thank you two enough. If possible, keep this to yourselves. I don't want the principal and faculty finding out, the last thing I need is an investigation and to be the center of attention at school. I know he deserves to be punished, but...I just don't want to cause any more pain. I want to start over but I fear it may be too late."

"It's never too late Ulquii and of course! It's not our place to say anything, but promise me if you feel like it's too much or that you need someone to talk to you'll confide in one of us?" A few tears had stained her face which made him feel pained. His hand reached up and caressed her face before he ruffled her hair knowing she hated it when they did that to her. The gesture was intimate but not in the romantic sense. It was almost like watching a big brother comfort his little sister.

"I promise." Nel smiled warmly and wiped her eyes before getting off the bed.

Hoping to change the subject he laid back down and got into a more comfortable position as Nel adjusted his pillow, "did I miss anything from school?"

Nel giggled and shook her head, "always the nerd. Mr. Kyoraku assigned us partners for the read-along assignment! You and Momo Hinamori got cast for, you guessed it, Romeo and Juliet!"

He groaned out in annoyance, "why?!"

"I think he liked the way you two connected when you both read the beginning chapters. Don't worry you have the whole winter break to get to know one another and study! It's going to be our final project so you have to pass this or you fail the class! I jotted down all the notes while you were absent, so you can just copy the instructions and page numbers from my notebook."

Nnoitra ruffled her hair and smirked, "always quick to help your friends. Nel, do you have a way of getting that girl's contact information? I think it would be in Ulquiorra's best interest to get acquainted to prevent any social awkwardness when presenting in front of the class. We both know how much you love to read in front of a crowd."

Ulquiorra rolled his eyes and flicked him off, "asshole."

"Be nice you two! Anyways I'll be more than happy to get that info for ya Ulquii! I'll text you the details later! I have to head home so I can pack for my mini winter vacation with mama."

Both of his friends waved goodbye and left. They knew he needed to get as much rest as possible to recover from the trauma he went through two days ago.


"Will he really be okay?" Nel mumbled as she made her way down the hall and into the living room. She plopped down onto the loveseat and rested her long legs on the armrest.

"One can only hope. He is tough, but sometimes he holds in stuff that he feels he can't share with the rest of the world, not even us." Nnoitra sighed and sat down at the end of the couch, letting Nel use his lap as a headrest. Looking up toward the ceiling he pondered his thoughts. Nel looked up to see his face, but her eyes zoomed in on his eye patch that shifted ever so slightly.

"Noir? I have been meaning to ask you, but how did you lose your eye…? You never mentioned it before, at least not to me. I'm sorry if it's rude…I was just curious."

"Nah, it's all good. I made peace with it." He placed his hand over the fabric and rubbed it. "I like to think of this as a constant reminder of what happens when you are high off your ass and not aware of your actions."

"H-High?"

"Mmhmm. At fifteen I was heavily into drugs. Anything you can think of I was probably on. I also distributed them while I was in the gang with Tier, it's how I put my elder brother through college. I'm not proud of the path it led me down, but it paid the bills and then some. Grimm always thought I 'worked' at the same time he did, but I didn't have the heart to tell him."

Nel turned onto her belly and rested her chin on her hands, "Woah. You got so much money at such a young age and you were able to help your big brother get into college! Who cares how you did it to me, you are a hero!"

Nnoitra snorted and crossed his leg over his knee, "he promised me to work harder and earn loads of cash with his new degree, and just like he promised, he did. I haven't told him about my past and I don't plan to. It would devastate him and he doesn't need that distraction especially now that he has a fiancee and is about to start a new chapter of his life. He still calls every day and made sure the apartment was paid until a little after graduation. I told him he didn't have to do any of that because I have my own job, but he insisted."

"Woah! You both are so cool! I wish I had a little brother or sister! I am so jelly!"

He smirked and rolled his eye, "it wasn't always fine and dandy in our relationship, I gave that man hell during my rebellious stage."

"Ooooo a hot-tempered little Noir, how cute!"

"Not anymore. The drugs made me feel and probably look older than I actually am."

"You're right! You're an old man now!"

He pinched her cheek out of annoyance, which caused a red mark to appear, "Whatever makes you like me more."

"L-Like you...?"

"Err. Never mind. Forget what I just said, anyways so that your curiosity is guaranteed to be satiated, when I turned seventeen Grim got me this apartment so that I didn't have to continue living in the rundown house that our parents left us when they passed."

"Oh, in the car accident right...?"

"Yeah. It was hard for me and Grim then, we were in the foster care system for a year before he could legally adopt me when he turned eighteen and get us the hell out of there. We lived in that house until my brother got his associates and the rest you already know. As for my eye, it happened during my freshman year, the same year I met you. I was high off heroin and thought it would be a good idea to make multiple drops that night. I was a cocky little bastard who always wanted more money so I could use it towards more drugs for my own addiction and my brother's tuition gift. I made the drop, but I didn't realize I used my boss' product, again because I was so high. He ended up wanting a cruel repayment. An eye for an eye I guess, literally. After all, it was a top-notch quality batch that I ruined so why not take something of equal value?"

Nelliel's eyes softened this was probably the most she had ever heard him talk. She sat up on her knees and rested her hand on his cheek in a comforting gesture. "You and Ulquii had it so hard. I feel like I have been shielded from the real world my whole life. My mama doesn't believe in violence, she wishes the whole world could live in peace. I know it's a childish dream to want the same considering how the world is."

"I just wish you and Ulquii had told me what all you have been going through. Maybe I could have helped. I'm so, so sorry."

"Nn." He frowned and invited her into his open arms. Nel scooted in closer to cuddle into his comforting embrace, "sometimes I wish we could stay like this forever. You, me, and Ulquii under one roof. At least then I would know you two are safe and I could protect you both. I...What I mean to say is...I...Noir I want you to know...that even if you only see me as a little sister or just a friend, I am okay with that. However, please continue to let me be by your side. I want to help. I want to be there for you as both of you have been for me. Because I...like...you."

"Wait what-"

Suddenly she became flustered and chickened out, "a-ah! I'm sorry I didn't mean to say that it just kind of came out! Forget I said anything I-I have to get home soon I don't want mama to have a fit that I am not home before the streetlights come on!" She quickly got up and put on her jacket, frantically looking around for her bag.

"Nel, wait a minute. Will you just calm down? Nel? Nel!"

"I-I have to go, I'm sorry for the trip down memory lane. I'll see you both after my trip."

"No, it's okay honestly. Will you…wait a minute!" He grabbed her wrist while her other hand was on the door handle, "Ah!"

"Nel-"

Her eyes widened as he leaned in closer as if he was going to kiss her. She closed her eyes tightly and leaned her whole body against the door for support. Suddenly she felt her forehead being tapped with his, "for so long I have wanted to be this close. I felt like I had to keep my distance from you, because of who I was and who you grew up to be. Considering my background, I didn't want to taint you or rather be the eclipse to your light that shined upon Ulquiorra and me."

"N-Noir I don't know what to say-"

"You don't have to say anything. I don't know if you have felt the same way about me or if I am just reading too deep into this. If I am, let me know now and I promise I will back off. You won't ever have to worry about me bothering you about this matter again. We can go back to how it was."

"I-N-No that's not it! I don't know how I feel I just thought I was too crazy to be loved by anyone but mama and Harri-Chan. You know that's why Itsygo had broken up with me and cheated. I just assumed it was always me." She gave a slight giggle before staring into his dark grey eye that she could get lost in forever. "It feels so good to know I was wrong. If we do this Noir you must promise me that you won't keep any more secrets. That you will continue to take care of yourself and watch over Ulquii with me."

"I promise. I'll be an open book from now on, but I can't guarantee I won't stop teasing you."

"I wouldn't have it any other way silly." Soon the silence filled the room. It's as if they were challenging each other to make the first move. Slowly they both leaned toward each other for their first official kiss but were quickly interrupted with a loud kick to the door, "Oh my god will you two just kiss already. I can't even knock on this goddamn door without fearing that I am about to walk in on a sex fest. The sooner the better or should I just leave that idiot's shit on the curb?"

'Harribel.' Both thought before laughing and opening the door but that didn't mean they stopped holding hands, a clear display of the affection they had for one another.

"H-Harri-Chan!"

"Hey, squirt. I'm here with his majesty's bags. Noir, they are in the car be a dear and go get them."

"Tch. You are lucky you are somewhat tolerable or I would have made you haul everything yourself."

"Nah, I straight up would have just tossed his shit on the side of the road and blamed you."

Harribel pushed him out the door, before going to his kitchen and shifting through the fridge, "goddamn I'm hungry."

"Ah, Harri-Chan you look so beautiful today! Is that a new lipstick color? Eh heh."

"You don't have to play coy with me little girl. I know how you are when you like someone. However, you weren't quite this giddy with that jock douchebag. This means you just don't like Noir you are in love with him. I would say fuck it and go at it like two dogs in heat but the thought of Noir naked makes me want to puke in my mouth a bit. Anyways why the nervousness? If you like something go and take it make it yours...make him yours."

"R-Right, Harri-Chan I wish I had your confidence but I am a chicken. It took forever to confess my feelings and I feel like I did it at the worst time. Ulquii needs us and-"

"Yeahhhhh I'm going to stop you right there." She opened another bag of chips and sat on Nnoitra's counter crisscrossed, "you have to understand, Ulquiorra isn't your only friend. You have Nnoitra too how do you think he feels whenever you put Ulquiorra before him? Especially now that you know he feels the same way about you. I'm not saying you don't have to care for your friend anymore but try to find a balance between the two of them. They are men after all!"

Nel's eyes widened and then cast downwards, "you're right. Thanks, Harri-Chan!" She hugged her tightly around her waist causing her to fumble the chip bag, "aye! Watch it! I'm eating 'ere."

Nnoitra groaned whenever he brought the last suitcase in. He couldn't believe Ulquiorra had so much shit, but then again, he promised him he would have Tier grab the important stuff. "Alright your highness. We appreciate what you did you can leave now."

"Not without my payment, good sir. Oh and another bag of these wasabi chips."

"Always cash with you. My chips? Really? Is nothing sacred in my damn home anymore?"

"Hey, you used up my valuable time and mileage on my car. I got to make cash to survive you know, these little delicacy's and your cash are my compensation."

"Helping a friend shouldn't cost anything."

"I believe Nel is my only friend here. I only play nice because you two are important to her a reason I am still trying to figure out." She rolled her eyes and snatched a couple of hundreds from his hand, "alright. I must take off, hope what's his face gets better. Later, captain."

Nnoitra growled at the nickname knowing she only used it because of his eye patch, "get out of here already."

"I should probably get going too, Harri-Chan can you give me a ride home?"

"Of course. Uh, I'll wait in the car. Don't take too long I got a date with my next paycheck." She waved goodbye and headed for her luxury car most likely, purchased with the money from men and women who fell for her seduction tactics.

"Why are you leaving so soon…?"

"I need to take a shower after today's whirlwind of events, plus I need to get that info for Ulquii. A girl in my gym class has Miss Hinamori for a subject, so I was going to hit her up for her number." Nnoitra's mouth formed in the shape of an 'O'.

"Don't worry we'll talk more I promise. I just need more time to process everything," Her hand reached upwards and rested on his cheek before she brought him down to her level and tippy-toed ever so slightly. "Mmph."

Their lips connected in a passionate kiss as they explored each other for the first time. Each of them slowly getting used to how the other moved. His hands massaged her sides while her fingers found their way entangled in his hair. Quickly he wrapped his arms around her waist, bringing her in closer. They stumbled over the shoes that were lined up at the entrance causing both of them to bump against the door. The kiss began to increase in fierceness and passion showing how much they wanted to be with each other. It probably would have progressed had Harribel not honked her horn indicating she was getting a bit impatient, "that's my cue, have a goodnight. I'll see you soon okay?"

"Y-Yeah-" His cheeks remained flushed as he bumped the tip of her nose with his. She winked and gave him one last kiss before skipping out of his apartment, what a good mood she was in now!

Nnoitra sighed in bliss and sat back down on the couch. It still smelled like her which made him smile, but he couldn't help but feel a sense of loneliness now that she was gone. It seemed like everything was finally going his way he just wished the same could be said for his friend. Hopefully, Ulquiorra could find that special someone who would be able to heal his broken heart and give him the love he so deserved. Closing his good eye, he felt sleep overcome him as the minutes ticked by without Nelliel by his side.