So... after poor Abby find out Amar is dead, her reaction was hard to write... Let me know what you think!
I find myself at an apartment. I knock on the door. No answer. Out of curiosity, I try the handle. I gasp when it opens. Fully turning the handle, I push open the door.
I remember when Amar shoved open the fear simulation door. I bite my lower lip, remembering that day. I try not to remember his smiling face but it's stuck in my head. It's permanently printed in my brain.
Once I open the door, the smell hits me like I ran into a brick wall. The smell of Amar's cologne surrounds me. I clutch the note in my hand. I walk to the bathroom, flicking on the medium light. Light shows the bottle of his cologne sitting on the counter.
I pick it up and study the small bottle. I picture him spraying it in the morning. How he would surround me in his scent. A scent that I took as comfort. The scent that is all around the room.
I set down the bottle and walk quickly to the bed. Still holding the note, I sit in the edge of the bed. The soft bed sinks in. I fall backwards until my back is flat on the mattress. A soft blanket is within my reach. Pulling it around me, I adjust until my back is against the wall.
I hold the envelope in my hand. Taking in a deep breath, I use my finger to open the top. Squirming in my place, I unfold the paper. I read note, hearing him speak every word.
My dear Abigail,
I am so sorry I had to leave you like this. Know that I do love you. The engagement ring, the tattoo, every day we kissed, even the dress, they were allways I could show you that I love you. And, please wear the dress at least once. I would love it if you wore it soon.
It's strange; I knew you would somehow manage to make it to my room. You're not predictable, I just know you really well. And don't roll your eyes. No matter how cute you are when you do it.
I can practically hear him laughing as he says this in my mind. I roll my eyes at how predictable he makes me seem. He knows me a little too well. I continue reading.
I know you must hate me or have mixed feelings or whatever. But Abby, you must know I love you very much. To prove this, if you aren't already on my bed, go to it and go to my pillow. If you reach under it, you will find a little gift for you. This is stupid and it is really corny but I want you to have it. I was going to give to you after initiation. I guess that's not happening. Please, wear it proudly.
I roll my eyes again. I don't hate him. I miss him. I reach under his pillow to find a small box and another letter. I open the small box, setting aside the other letter. Inside the small box is a necklace. The necklace has an A painted blue with a black outline. He was right. This is stupid and corny but I love it anyway. I put it around my neck and continue reading the other letter.
I want you to have this room after initiation. I know its crazy… But I was hoping you would move it anyway. In my book, you are my wife. I know this is your biggest fear. For what I am putting you through, I am so so so sorry. I promise, one day we will see each other again.
If you do stay here, be sure to talk to Max. He's a good guy. He watched your simulation video and he know you and I were close. As much as you may not want to, be nice to him. Me and Eric aren't the only ones who love you. Be nice to the guy.
The other note basically says that I was going to give you the necklace when you became a full Dauntless. I love you, Abby. Remember that and never forget it.
Again, I love you and I am so sorry I am putting you through this.
Love,
Amar.
I hold the paper in my hands. Max loves me? Eric loves me? Well, that I knew, but Max? Max is way older than Amar. He's the oldest Dauntless leader. He doesn't love me? Does he? I guess I should be nice to him. After all, I'm sure that I have to be if I want to move into this room before initiation ends.
Well? How is the reaction? Is it good? Do I need to change it? Please let me know!
