Chapter 2 Shooting Star
Blaine got back into life the best he could. He still hurt but everyday he tried to move on. He was almost there, he had gotten to where when he woke up, and he didn't automatically wish he could die, because in the beginning that is all he had felt. How could he continue to live when there was nothing left to live for?
The first week he texted Kurt several times just to apologize, tell him over and over just how sorry he was, but never got a response of any kind, so Friday morning he sent his last text. "I love you Kurt; I love you more and more every day. I won't bother you anymore. If you ever feel like talking you have my number. I will always be here because I will never say goodbye to you. Yours always, today, tomorrow forever Blaine"
When he hit send he cried, that was it. It was done, he almost expected some kind of response because Kurt had first been his friend, but apparently he couldn't even be that for him anymore.
Tina and Sam really helped him out, they stepped in and gave him a shoulder to cry on, someone to talk to
"Blaine, we have all been there, we have all gone through break ups before, I know it sucks, I am not even going to pretend it doesn't hurt, but everyday it will get a little better, every day the pain will lessen a little more, and one day you will be able to smile again." Sam said wrapping his arm across Blaine's shoulders
"Sam is right, it does get easier. I am not saying that it will just go away, but the pain does lessen. Me and Mike were together longer than you and Kurt. No, I am not saying our love was better, or stronger, but I know how you feel."
"When Mike decided we needed to take a break, needed see if we really belonged together. I am not going to lie, I screamed, I cried, I threw things, and honestly thought I wasn't going to make it. But every day I forced myself to get out of bed. Forced myself to take a shower and get dressed, basically forced myself to live. I kept doing this until one day I realized I didn't have to force myself anymore" Tina said, placing her arm across Blaine's shoulders from the other side.
That day was the first day he made it all the way through all his classes without once breaking down. He went home, sat down to dinner with his parents and did his homework. That was also the first day he pulled out his keyboard since the breakup. He had lost all interest in a lot of things, music being one of those things. It had played such a big part of his and Kurt's relationship. They were always singing together, either in choir or in the car going on a date.
He had lived for Saturday nights. That was the night he always had Kurt to himself that was their date night. They would go out to eat, sometimes a movie, but his happiest times were spent with just him and Kurt snuggled up on the couch at either his house or the Hummel's, watching musicals, singing or just talking about their future, what they would do when they both graduated NYADA.
Blaine sat on his bed with the keyboard in front of him, and just started playing random tunes, whatever went through his mind. Before he even realized it, he had a melody, and then words starting running through his head. He quickly grabbed his notebook and a pen and started writing the words down. Before he realized what he had done, he had written his first song. He named it "Forever and Always" knowing that it had been written for Kurt.
He knew no matter what happened if they ever got back together, or stayed broken up he would love Kurt Forever and Always. No one else would ever be able to fill that hole in his heart, only his Kurt.
That song became his happy place. He recorded it and downloaded it to his phone, that way whenever he needed it he could play it, and while it was playing, he could almost forget that he was sad, he could almost forget that he was no longer part of an US.
"Blaine, I have something I need to tell you" Tina said when he had walked up and saw her and Sam whispering Monday morning. He had instantly known something was wrong, by the look on both of their faces
"What is going on Tina" Blaine asked almost afraid to ask, he didn't know if he wanted to hear what she was about to say
"I talked to Santana Saturday. I'm sorry Blaine; she told me that Kurt is seeing someone, a British guy named Adam. She said he was twenty and that they really seemed to be getting close. She wanted me to tell you, because Kurt is apparently planning on coming home next Saturday and will be bringing Adam home with him. She didn't want you to run into them and be shocked. She thought it would be better to warn you." Tina said looking at him, knowing how this would hit him
And just like that there went Blaine's happy place. They had been broken up just over a month, and Kurt was already seeing someone else, and Blaine was just now learning to breathe again.
"Thanks Tina" Blaine said, he actually managed to say that without his voice breaking. "Umm I have a really bad headache, could you tell Mr. Shue I will see him tomorrow" Blaine said before turning around, running down the hall, out the door and managed to get to his car right before he fell apart.
In the back of his mind he has to wonders how long Adam has been in the picture, how long have they been seeing each other, it must be getting really serious if he was already bringing him home to meet Burt. His heart broke a little bit more that day.
Instead of heading straight home, he stopped at Hummel Tire and Lube. He wanted to talk to Burt one more time. He had gotten really close to him during the time he had dated Kurt. He had been like a father to him, but he knew that if Kurt was bringing someone home, he needed to back off.
"What are you up to kiddo, I didn't think you would be out of school yet" Burt said looking at him. He had spent enough time around Blaine to know he wasn't ok, he looked like at any second he would break apart.
"I just wanted to come by and talk to you for a minute" Blaine said not able to look at him, it finally hit Blaine today, that when he lost Kurt he lost Burt and Carol as well. How could he keep them in his life when he had lost Kurt, and the hits just keep coming.
"I meant to call you a few weeks ago, Kurt told me your grandfather died" Burt said waiting for Blaine to say what he came here to say, ask what he had come here to ask. Hating that he was going to have to confirm for him something that he knew Blaine already knew and knowing how bad it was going to hurt him.
Kurt had told him about Blaine kissing another guy. Burt had been really upset about it, until Kurt went on to tell him, that to be honest he had been seeing someone else already, they had been going out for a while, almost since he had moved to New York. Kurt had planned on waiting for Blaine to come for a visit and he was going to tell him about it and then break up with him.
Burt loved his son and always would, but he was ashamed of him. Kurt had thought it was ok to let Blaine walk away hurt, thinking that he was the one that caused the break up, when in actuality Kurt had done far worse. Blaine had kissed a guy once and had felt so guilty he had flown to New York to tell him about it, Kurt had been dating this other guy for almost 2 months before that and hadn't said a word.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have come here, I won't bother you anymore" Blaine whispered turning around and started walking back out to his car.
"I know why you are here Blaine, I honestly wish I could tell you what you apparently heard wasn't true, but it is. He is seeing someone else. Im sorry son, I really am. I honestly figured you guys would be broken up for a few weeks and then be back together, I never expected this." Burt said in a sad voice wishing he could be saying something different, knowing Blaine deserved the truth, but couldn't be the one to tell him.
"Thank you for being honest with me sir, and still being willing to talk to me after what I did" Blaine said tears filling his eyes, his shoulders shaking from trying to hold it together, and not cry in front of Burt. He held it together until Burt pulled him into his strong arms, and then he completely lost it, Burt stood there holding him until his tears finally stopped.
"How many times do I have to tell you not to call me sir its Burt. Blaine you are like a son to me, I will always be here to talk to you, please don't ever think otherwise. If you need anything call me." Burt said pulling him back into a hug smacking him on his back, before watching him turn around and walk out the door.
He had looked forward to Blaine being his son one day. He had known in his heart that him and Kurt would one day marry, that they were two people that would make it for the long haul. He never figured on Kurt doing what he did. Pulling away, pushing Blaine to do something Burt knows he never would have any other way.
oOoOo
"Ok, everyone let me have your attention; I want to go over our set list for Regionals, since Blaine was voted the new Rachel at the beginning of the year we know he gets one of the solo's, but I am wanting to have one more. I want your opinion on….."
All of a sudden there were gunshots ringing in the air, footsteps running down the halls, doors slamming and people screaming. Mr. Shue and Coach Beast ran to the doors and quickly shut and locked them making sure everyone got to the middle wall were they would be safer. They stayed there huddled together for 2 hours, crying holding each other not knowing what was going on, if they were all going to die.
The world as they knew it ended with the sound of that gunshot. Their lives would never be the same, yes they all lived, they all survived but at what cost.
One by one they pulled out their cell phones to call their families. Blaine got his mom's voice mail "Mom, I don't know if you have heard yet, but there was a school shooting today. We are hiding in the choir room. We are ok. I just wanted to call you and let you know that I love you, Dad and Cooper very much. I want to thank you for everything you have done for me, for loving me unconditionally. I love you mom so, so much. Please tell dad and Cooper I love them."
When the police finally walked them outside, the first person he saw was Burt. He ran straight to him and into his waiting arms, he held him tight making Blaine feel almost safe again. He stepped slightly away from him to thank him and saw his mom running from her car, his dad right behind her. They ran up to him and pulled him into their arms and just held him crying.
"Blaine baby, are you ok. I was so worried, I heard the news, and then saw you had called. Blaine sweetheart I am so sorry I missed your call. If that had been the last time….."
That was the last thing she was able to say before she was pulling him back into a tight hug and breaking down, kissing his cheek, rubbing his back and the back of his hair. His dad right there, holding on to both of them, crying with relief that his son was ok. If he had lost him, he couldn't have survived it. He knew they hadn't really been that close, but lately they had been building that bridge, finding common ground again.
He told Burt goodbye and then was being led toward his dad's car and was heading home. They spent most of Saturday just holding each other crying, and then a big part of Sunday arguing.
"Blaine this isn't up for debate. You're transferring back to Dalton on Tuesday. Monday we will drive you to McKinley, let you clean out your locker and tell your friends goodbye. I'm sorry son I really am, but we can't let you stay there anymore, that just proved to us you aren't safe." His dad finally said getting aggravated. They had been "discussing" this for over an hour and they weren't backing down.
"But I am senior class president, what about my friends, what about Tina and Sam" Blaine asks already knowing he was fighting a losing battle. Until he was eighteen, his parents were in charge. He knows they are only trying to protect him, but he had already lost so much this year, he didn't know if he could handle losing more.
"They can come here, or you can go to them on the weekend, but you are leaving that school Blaine, you are going back where you belong" His mom said before turning around and walking away, ending the discussion.
He was transferred that next Monday away from Tina and Sam, the two people who had kept him sane after the breakup. They had become two of his best friends. They still talked on the phone and hung out, but it wasn't like it used to be, their innocence had been taken away that day all with the firing of a gun.
That had disturbed him, but what had hurt him the most was that he had really thought that after the shooting, Kurt would have called, that he would have called to check on him. He had to have heard about the shooting at McKinley, Burt had been there and it had been on national news for days, and yet he didn't call, it was almost like he didn't care if Blaine was hurt, or even dead. He died a little inside that day.
Yes he had messed up, he had cheated, but he had apologized for it. He had begged Kurt to forgive him, to give him, them a second chance, but he had ended it. He thinks back to when Kurt had been texting Chandler his senior year, Blaine could have refused to forgive him, but he had loved Kurt so much, he could have done nothing different, he could never have walked away.
But if he had broken up with him over it, because to be honest he had been mad enough and hurt enough to; If he had heard anything about the possibility of Kurt being hurt, he would have been there whether he was angry or not, he would have been there.
In that moment he realizes it was truly over, they were over. Up until that moment he had almost deluded himself into believing that they could be fixed, their relationship could be put back together, they could somehow get back together, make it work; now he knew just how wrong he had been.
Kurt no longer cared. He had Adam, what did he need with a high school senior, what could Blaine possibly offer Kurt that Adam couldn't. Adam was older, Adam was more mature, and the worst of all Adam was there...
That day he broke a promise he had made to himself. He had promised himself he would never text Kurt again, right after they broke up, Blaine had texted Kurt several times apologizing to him, begging him to give him a second chance, but he didn't get any type of acknowledgement or response so he promised himself never again, he wasn't going to keep putting himself out there only to be disappointed again.
This would be the last time. "Kurt, I know you are upset with me, I know how badly I hurt you, but I honestly thought you would have cared enough to at least call to check on the person you once said was your "best friend". Don't worry, you will never hear from me again after this; but after hearing about the school shooting how could you not have called or texted or emailed me just to see if I was ok.
"How could you not have called to check on how I was handling the nightmares that had me waking up screaming every night? I guess you really are done. Did you ever really care, or was I just a distraction to get you through school, so you could move on to bigger better things. Like I said you will never hear from me again."
"I love you Kurt, now as much as I ever did, but I can't keep doing this, caring for someone who apparently doesn't care about me. I was supposed to have been at least your friend, you once called me your best friend, or was that all a lie?"
"Looking back, I sometimes wish I could redo us. Go back to the day we met, the day I was walking down the stairs, the day you reached out and touched my hand, because that is what started the beginning of us. I don't regret us, I just regret the pain. I regret the hurt caused by both of us. I don't regret us per se, just where we ended up, how we ended. I honestly think if I could go back I would, but instead of turning around, talking to you, I would just keep walking, who knows….
"I really hope you enjoy your life Kurt, that everything works out the way you have always wanted it too. Enjoy your life Kurt..." he then hit send and deleted Kurt's contact information from his phone. yes, he would always still remember the number, but he would never have to look at it in his phone again.
oOoOo
Blaine had been accepted at NYADA, he had applied right before him and Kurt had broken up, he figured he would wait until he either got in or was denied before he made his decision to go. He almost sent the letter back saying thank you for the opportunity, but he was going to decline. The more he thought about it the more he decided he wanted to go. They had one of the best musical theory departments in the U.S., he would be stupid to pass it up because of Kurt.
No, he was going to go and he was going to kick ass in that school. In that moment something changed in Blaine. When he had first transferred to Dalton from Carson, after things had gone so violently wrong, he had learned to take care of himself, he learned how to survive, be strong, he found himself. In dating Kurt he had lost some of that. He had let the love he felt for Kurt guide him, change him. It was time to find HIM again
Blaine got his letter and ran to his mom's office, "Mom, I got in, I got NYADA" Blaine said with a big smile on his face
"Blaine, I am so proud of you, I know how much you wanted that" Pam said standing up and giving him a hug
"Thanks Mom" Blaine said with a smile hugging her back "I thank it's time for a change" he said kissing her on the cheek.
"What do you have in mind" she said laughing looking at her youngest son
"Well, I think it is time to change things up. I am going to be going to New York, I am thinking new wardrobe, new hairstyle the works" Blaine said laughing. He hadn't felt this free in a long time, he wanted something completely different than the way he dressed around Kurt, he wanted to shake off the identity of Kurt Hummel's boyfriend and find Blaine Anderson again.
He remembers back before they met, he had felt secure in himself, he had found his place at Dalton, he had learned so much. After he had met Kurt and transferred to McKinley, it was like he had lost himself, he became Kurt's boyfriend, he had almost lost his own identity.
Yes he still loved Kurt, would do anything to be part of his life, but it was time to stop putting his life on hold waiting for something that was never going to happen. He felt that he needed to reinvent himself in a way.
"We can do that," Pam says looking at him with a smile. She had been really worried about him since the breakup, if changing his wardrobe, would bring her son back she was all for it.
They went shopping Saturday and Blaine had a ball, he bought blue and black skinny jeans that were actually long enough for him, thinking about some of the clothes he had worn, looking back on it, in a way trying to fit in with Kurt. He stayed away from polo's and bow ties and got t-shirts and button downs.
Next he went and got a haircut talking to the stylist he found a new way to control his hair without all the gel, it looked so much more natural and felt so much lighter. He loved that he no longer smelled like the raspberry hair gel and could actually run his fingers through his hair without getting them stuck.
That night at dinner his dad really surprised him, they wanted to take him to New York the next weekend and look around for an apartment. They figured if he had his own place, instead of living in the dorm that he would be able to study more.
"Blaine me and your mom are really proud of you; getting early admittance to that school is something special. You should really be able to do something with yourself graduating from there. We want to buy you an apartment, to let you know how very proud of you we are." Michael said standing up and hugging him. Things had changed between them after the shooting, they had gotten closer, realizing how quickly they could have lost each other.
When Blaine got home from school Friday, him and his parents head to New York, his dad had been working with a real-estate agent all week, letting her know what area they were interested in. They wanted one in a good location and as close to the school as possible. They looked at four different apartments before they found the one. It was a two bedroom, two baths and about five blocks away from NYADA.
Blaine loved how from the living room windows you could look down and see central park. He could already tell he was going to love it here. He was given the keys that day and could start moving in at any time. Blaine had a little over a month before graduation, so that would give him plenty of time to get it set up the way he wanted it.
He walked up to his parents and hugged them. "Thank you so much for this, I really appreciate it. I promise I am going to work hard" Blaine said looking at them
"You always do son, we had no doubts" his dad Michael said hugging him
"Also me and your mom have been talking" Michael said pulling a credit card out of his pocket and handing it to him. "I know you have an emergency one, but this one is for setting this place up. We don't want you to have to use your money. We want you to leave that alone for your future. Get what you want".
"We know you will be coming back and forth over the next month setting this place up, all we ask is that you keep us informed when you will be leaving and coming back, and even though I know you know this, you need to keep up with your school work, it is almost time for graduation, and you have put too much into it to mess up now." His dad said looking at him
"I promise dad" Blaine said looking around his new apartment, still not believing they had bought it for him. They got the floor plan from the agent so Blaine would know the sizes of the rooms so he could start getting furniture set up. He loved having a second room, that way if Sam or Tina decide to come visit, he would have a place for them to stay. He knows that Sam has been having a hard time lately, him and Mercedes had spit up. She had decided to concentrate more on her musical career and less on her high school boyfriend.
One by one all the glee club relationships had ended, none had survived. He had heard from Tina that Brittany and Santana had even broken up. They had always said their glee club was jinxed, they just didn't realize how badly.
oOoOo
Blaine spends the next couple of weekends in New York, getting his apartment set up, buying furniture, setting up his kitchen the way he wanted it. He met a few people while walking around, he stopped by NYADA and was able to get his class schedule and familiarize himself with the school, a few of the people he talked too would actually been in a few of his classes. It was nice that he would be starting classes already knowing a few people that was a plus.
Blaine was glad that Dalton and McKinley's graduations were set on different days, he wanted to be at McKinley cheering Sam and Tina as they walk across the stage next week, and they in turn wanted to be there to see him graduate from Dalton.
He had always had big dreams of his high school graduation, his parents and boyfriend setting there together, looking on with pride as he walked across the stage to get his diploma, well at least he will have his parents and two best friends.
Graduation day for Blaine came and he had to admit, if only to himself, he felt disappointed. He had almost convinced himself that Kurt would be there, he would come to his graduation if nothing more than to see his friend walk across the stage, see him achieve something he had been working his life for. But once again he was disappointed.
That day, Blaine decided this would be the last time. He knows he had promised himself that before, but no more. He was better off without Kurt, everyone else knew that, it was time he did as well. One Hummel was there that day though to see his big day, Burt was sitting in the audience sitting by his parents cheering him on.
He went to see Sam and Tina walk across the stage standing up and cheering loud as they walked across the stage, proud of his friends. He had really missed them since transferring back to Dalton, laughingly thinking about the Super Hero's Club, wishing that Night Bird, Blonde Chameleon, and Asian Persuasion, could have had one more run, but childhood was over, it was time to face the rest of his life, and he was finally ready.
He had everything that he would be taking with him to New York packed and it was going to be delivered in two days, his suitcases were packed, he was ready. Time to get his new life started.
oOoOo
Blaine started NYADA the next Monday. So far he liked his classes, and the teachers. He spent some time before class, meeting some of the other students. Blaine noticed there were quite a few cute guys in his class and he caught of few of them checking him out. That really helped his confidence that had taken a big hit with everything that happened with Kurt.
He was on his way to his second class of the day when he felt a hand on his shoulder, turning around he saw a really cute guy smiling at him.
"Hi, my name is Adam. I have been watching you since you walked in the door before class, and that wasn't meant to sound stalkerish at all" he said laughing
"Hi, my name is Blaine, nice to meet you" he said and meant it
"Would you be interested in going with me to get a cup of coffee, and maybe get to know each other" he said looking at Blaine
"Yea that would be nice" Blaine answered, this guy was super cute, and Blaine loved the accent
They spent an hour talking over coffee. They found out that they really had a lot in common, especially their taste in music that had Blaine laughing. When Adam asked him if he would be interested in going out with him that night, Blaine said yes. He wasn't used to this, having someone ask him out. He had always been the one to do the asking. It was nice that someone had asked him.
Blaine was smiling when he walked into his next class, he had a date tonight and he was really looking forward to it. He pulled out his notebook and books and got ready for class to begin. He had chosen one of the back row seats, wanting to get the feel of the class before sitting up front.
This was one of his elective classes. Theater readiness wasn't one of the ones he needed for his core major, but it seemed like it would be fun. He was sitting there looking around at everyone, when he got the biggest shock of his life, there, walking in the door was Kurt, and he looked different. Gone was the smile that could light up the room and the over the top clothes. He had changed so much, he didn't really look like the same person.
He couldn't take his eyes off of him, even after being broken up for seven months Kurt still had the ability to make his heart flutter, and realize just how very much he was still in love with him. He knew right away that Kurt didn't see him, he just walked in, sat in a seat, and didn't look at anyone around him, just sat with his head down.
When the teacher started talking, Blaine took his attention away from Kurt and watched her, but in the back of his mind he was thinking that he was glad he had taken time with his looks today. He looked nothing like he did when he was still going to McKinley, gone were the wild color choices and bow ties, today he was wearing a pair of black skinny jeans, a tan button down and his favorite pair of Jimmy Choo's. From the way he was being stared at by several guys in the room, he felt like he was looking his best.
"Ok everyone, this is going to be a get to know you kind of class." She said looking around at everyone. She started calling off different students names and asking them what their favorite song types were, and then giving them almost the opposite.
"Kurt Hummel" she called.
"I lean more towards show tunes" He answered her
"Ok then for you" she said looking at the list in front of her "how about some Katie Perry or Pink"
Blaine almost laughed that was his favorite types of songs, and he knew that Kurt wasn't really a fan.
"Blaine Anderson" she said looking around the room, and she wasn't the only one. Blaine noticed Kurt's head whip around and just stare at him
"Katy Perry, or Pink" Blaine answered her, now staring at the back of Kurt head
"Ok for you Mr. Anderson I want you to pick a song from Little Big Town. It can be any song you choose.
She went through the rest of the room, calling out students names and assigning them a song or group to pick from that they would sing for the class. She was giving them four days before the assignment was due, and he had no clue. He had never even heard of the group before. He was putting his books and things back in his bag getting ready for his next class, when he saw Kurt make a b-line for the door.
Damn, was he that afraid that he was going to talk to him. Blaine had not planned on it anyway, but for him to have acted like that makes Blaine mad. So much for friends and all that, but he isn't going to let that ruin his day. He ended up having three more classes with Kurt. Two of them he got there before Kurt, but the last one Kurt beat him.
Blaine walked in talking to Alan, a man he had met in his last class, they really hit it off, and he had even asked Blaine out for that night, he unfortunately told him he already had a date for tonight, but could he get a rain check. Blaine didn't really know how to act, he had never been hit on so much in one day. That was two different men asking him out. He had no idea where it was coming from.
Blaine went to his apartment after school and did some research on Little Big Town before Adam was due to pick him up for their date. Country, why would she have picked country for him he asked himself as he walked to his bedroom to get ready.
He had a really good time. Adam took him to a really nice Italian restaurant, and then a walk through central park. On the walk back to Blaine's apartment, Adam reached out and grabbed his hand.
"Thanks for going out with me tonight Blaine, I really had a good time and I hope we can do it again," Adam said looking into Blaine's eyes
"Thank you for dinner. I really had a good time as well, and I would like to go out again" Blaine said with a smile on his face, Adam slowly pulls him closer and then Blaine watches as Adam slowly lowers his head and gives him one of the softest kisses he had ever had. He walks Blaine the rest of the way to his door, places another light kiss on his lips, and then smiles and tells him good night.
Blaine decides he could get used to that. It was nice having someone taking him out for a change, and Adam was really nice and sweet. He smiles as he walks into his apartment, shuts and locks the door
They met for coffee the next day, and went out for dinner again the night after that, he was really starting to like Adam. The next morning they met for coffee again.
"Ok, let's play question and answer" Adam said laughing looking at Blaine, holding his hand as they walked from the coffee shop to the one class they had together
"Ok, that doesn't sound scary at all" Blaine laughed.
"Ok, skeletons in your closet, or exes in your pantry" Adam said looking at him
"I don't understand the question" Blaine said even though he thinks he does
" Tell me about your last boyfriend and I will tell you about mine. No names of course to protect the innocent" He said laughing again
"Ooookkkk, well my last boyfriend was my high school sweetheart. We met during my sophomore year in high school, he was a Junior. We started off as friends but were boyfriends by the end of the year. I went to a school called Dalton Academy, I was the lead soloist for our glee club and he had come to spy on us" Blaine said laughing, remembering how Kurt had tried and failed to match their uniforms
"He ended up transferring schools because of an issue he was having so he came to Dalton for a few months before transferring back to McKinley. By then we were a couple so the next year I followed him. It was really good, we managed to have more classes together plus we both got to be in the New Directions together, that was the name of our old glee club."
"We knew he was coming to New York and I would be following the next year, we had it worked out that we would skype at night or on nights we couldn't that we would talk on the phone, but things didn't work out as planned. He stopped calling me about two weeks after getting here and stopped returning my calls or texts."
"I was stupid and I kissed someone else, I cheated on him and when I told him he broke up with me. We had been together for almost two years, and then he is in New York just under two months and we were broken up." Blaine said looking at him
"Wow, sounds like a jerk, sorry" Adam says squeezing Blaine's hand.
"Ok, my turn. My last boyfriend and I met his first week at NYADA, and we started dating the next week. He was really funny, even though he had a strange obsession with clothes. It used to bother me, because he would get a lot of texts and phone calls that he would ignore, it made me think he might be seeing someone else."
"He was also very high maintenance, who ever his last boyfriend was apparently spoiled him. He wanted to spend every day together, talk hours on the phone and I usually didn't have that kind of time. But, I have to admit he was really good in bed" Adam said laughing
"Wait, did you say McKinley and the New Directions" He asked Blaine not noticing just how quiet he had gotten "You might have known him, he was from Lima, and was in the New Directions. Did you know a Kurt Hummel" Adam said looking at Blaine
"Yes, I knew him" Blaine said quietly. Adam, this was Kurt's Adam and he was calling Kurt his ex. "We were in the glee club together" Was all Blaine said, feeling sick to his stomach.
"Aaahh then you would understand why I had to break up with him. He wanted to always be together, and he used to say things like "He" didn't have a problem with it and "He" always liked spending time with him. He never told me who "He" was but let me tell you I could happily kick his ass" Adam said laughing
Blaine stood there in shock. He had felt so upset when he cheated on Kurt with that kiss, he had gotten on a plane so he could face Kurt and confess. Kurt had broken up with him, had left Blaine in Central Park broken and crying because he had just ruined everything, when all along he had already been seeing Adam, had started seeing him within two weeks of meeting him, and never said a word. His were the texts and phone calls Adam talked about Kurt ignoring.
Blaine slowly pulled his hand out of Adams, he needed to get away from him, feeling like the seven months since him and Kurt had broken up had only been seven days, feeling the pain of betrayal. Kurt had cheated on him and hadn't had the decency to tell him. Before Blaine could walk away he saw Kurt walking towards him and the look on his face was priceless.
"You two know each other?" he whispered
"Well... hi there Kurt, me and Adam here were having a really nice conversation I had just told him about my ex breaking up with me because I kissed someone else, about a month and a half after he moved to New York, and then Adam told me how he had met his ex. How they had started dating 2 weeks after he moved here from Lima. It's a really interesting story Kurt you should listen to it sometime" Blaine said looking at him, realizing he didn't really know Kurt, and wondered if he ever had.
"Blaine, I can explain" Kurt whispered looking at Blaine
"Keep telling yourself that Kurt, have a wonderful day" he says turning around and walking away.
"Kurt was your ex wasn't he" Adam asked running to catch up with him looking at Blaine, realizing what he had just told him
"Yup" is all Blaine said before turning around and walking away.
Blaine was quiet the rest of the day, he attended his classes, but couldn't tell you anything that was discussed. After everything Adam had said, it felt like the break up happened all over again. All the time he had beaten himself up for hurting Kurt, for cheating on him, Kurt had been seeing someone else.
He knew in that moment that that was the last time he would ever worry about Kurt. He was going to live his life for himself beginning now. He had just walked past an empty class room when Kurt grabbed his hand and pulled him into it.
"Did you come to NYADA to mess with me because I broke up with you?" Kurt asked in his accusing voice that he had perfected years ago
"No Kurt I had my application filled out and sent in before we broke up, you should know that, you were with me when I did it, it was the last weekend we were together remember you were at my house." Blaine said as he pulled Kurt close to him, leaned over and whispered in his ear
"Remember that day, it was the last time we made love. Were you already sleeping with him sweetheart, was he good in bed?" Blaine asked in a soft voice, blowing warm air into his ear, the way he knew always turned Kurt on.
"He must not have been judging by how you begged me for it. Not that I hadn't already planned on making love to you anyway, but you just begged so prettily remember sweetheart", Blaine said reaching his hands down to Kurt's ass pulling him close, feeling how hard Kurt was.
Kurt leaned in like he was going to kiss him and then realized what he was doing and pulled out of Blaine's arms and ran away.
Blaine watched him leave, only then realizing his mistake, because yes he might have purposely turned Kurt on, but in doing so he turned himself on as well.
"I miss you" Blaine whispered shaking his head watching as Kurt walked away, turning he walked into his next class.
By the time he was in his Theater Readiness class next, he was ready; he found the perfect song to sing.
I know I'm probably better off on my own
Than loving a man who didn't know what he had when he had it
And I see the permanent damage you did to me
Never again, I just wish I could forget when it was magic.
Blaine continued to play, letting his feelings come out with every word he sang
I know I'm probably better off all alone
Than needing a man who could change his mind at any given minute
And it's always on your terms; I'm hanging on every careless word
Hoping it might turn sweet again like it was in the beginning
It took everything in him to keep singing that song, because even though he acted like he didn't care, like finding out the truth didn't kill him inside it did. Kurt, his Kurt had cheated and thought it was ok to walk away, leaving Blaine feeling broken, thinking he was the one who had destroyed them, instead of just admitting what he had done, and that he wanted to end it.
You push my love away like it's some kind of loaded gun
Boy, you never thought I'd run
Sometimes in the middle of the night I can feel you again
And I just miss you and I just wish you were a better man
And I know why we had to say goodbye like the back of my hand
I just miss you and I just wish you were a better man
A Better Man
"Who was that song for Blaine" Alan asked him when he was done. Every person in the room hearing the emotions in Blaine's voice
"Oh, just somebody that I used to know" He said standing up and walking back to his seat, sitting down, and then he watches as Kurt gets up and runs out the door.
A/N: The song in this chapter is Little Big Town's - Better Man. In every book I have written except What Kind Of Fool, Blaine has been the one who cheats. This time I decided it should be Kurt, yes Blaine did cheat by kissing Eli, but Kurt already had as well. I remember in one of the episodes Sue had called Will, Weepy The Vest Clown, for some reason in season 4 I started thinking of Blaine that way. He changed from the strong person he was while he was at Dalton into Weepy The Vest Clown. That is how my first chapter started, but Blaine will get his fire back, he becomes the Dalton Blaine again. And as always, this will be a Klaine fic. I just always seem to have to make them go through things to get there. Thanks for reading and the reviews, they help more than you know
