Right here waiting
Pairing: McRoll
Based on Season 9, episode 12.
Chapter twelve
Mary and Catherine held back while Steve took Joan over to her grandfather's grave and sat down with her in his lap, leaning over to brush off some dirt and leaves, the two women standing near the car as they watched the two of them.. "You know.. I keep hoping you will come back Catherine.. You seem to be the only one to make any kind of sense in my brother's life and though I know how much he is hurting, and how tormented he felt when you left, I know all he wants is you back".
There was no doubt in Mary's mind that she was going to have this conversation with Catherine before she left again, she needed Catherine to know whilst she loved and respected her, she also didn't want to see her brother hurt again, and though she never expected this conversation to happen here, at the cemetery, she knew she didn't have a lot more opportunities to say what she needed to say..
She took a breath, looking from where her brother and daughter were to look at Catherine beside her, "I meant what I said in the car after breakfast.. I never met that Lynn and going off what I saw of her this morning, I really hope she doesn't claw her way back into my brothers life, at the same time, I want my brother to be happy, and to not feel like he is going to be hurt all over again".
It had taken Mary a long time to come to the realisation that her brother really suffered as a result of their mother's /fake/ death and that he suffered even more when she came back into his life and then left again.. She also knew he suffered from PTSD from being in the Navy and so all she wanted now was for her brother to be happy and feel like he could settle down with someone, though she knew deep in her heart, it was only going to be Catherine that made him feel settled.
"I have a year to go on the contract with the CIA, but I have assured him that once that is over, I'm done for good with that life and will come back here to Hawaii to be with him", Catherine loved the protective way Mary was with Steve, they may not have been close all their lives, but they were certainly making up for lost time now. "Mary, I love your brother, more then I have ever loved anyone in my life and I want a future with him, and with you and Joanie as well.. I adore you three".
She was aware immensely that Steve had been through so much in his life, and she wanted to be the one to help him through all of that, and love him, and be the kind of woman he wanted, the kind of woman he deserved. "I look at him and I see my husband, the father of our children, and you, my sister in law and Joanie my niece.. I want all of that.. I'm tired of this life, of being involved in the CIA.. One day I'll tell you why I joined, but for now, it has to remain something that nobody knows to keep the ones I love safe".
Nodding her head, Mary smiled softly seeing Joan put some fresh flowers in the little vase they had added to his graveside with the help of her Uncle, "You know, he talks about you to Dad a lot.. I think he would have approved of the two of you as well.. I think he would have loved to have you as a daughter in law". She missed her father and wished she had come to see him as an adult, but she had been too stubborn.. He had come to see her a few times in L.A, but she never came back to Hawaii when he was alive.
It felt nice to bond with Mary more, she really did adore Mary, though she would never live down that first time that Mary had been staying at Steve's when they had a late night of pleasure, Mary had never made her feel overly embarrassed about it, "Despite what happened, you both speak highly of your father and I know Chin does as well, and I am sure I would have loved to have him as a father in law as well.. He sounds like a man I wish I had known much better".
Continuing to watch as Uncle and Niece bonded over John McGarrett's grave, Catherine smiled and looked back over at Mary, "I know you and Steve have had your own differences in the past but I know he is very proud of the woman you have become and how amazing a mother you are to Joan.. I can see it in his eyes every time he talks about you both.. and I promised Deb as well that I would make sure the two of you would remain close.. I'm glad to see even without me intervening, you are both getting closer and bonding more".
Mary always looked up to her brother, she did feel abandoned by him at times though but even though he wasn't always able to be there for her in person, she had learnt he had helped keep her out of a lot of trouble when he was stationed overseas with the help of Joe White, a man she looked at as an uncle, though she wasn't as close to him as Steve had been. "I resented him for a long time, I saw him as abandoning me as well.. when really, he wasn't.. He was just taking after Dad and our grandfather by serving his country.. It took me a long time to understand it wasn't him abandoning me, he was just choosing to do what he felt was right for him".
"I know he always spoke highly of you even before I met you, He used to tell me stories about how his baby sister used to always love following him around, and doing what her brother did.. I could sense you two were close growing up so I can understand how you might have felt abandoned all of a sudden by someone you looked up to, I'm just glad you both are reconnecting now". Catherine smiled, putting her arm around Mary and hugged her, Mary doing the same as they watched Steve and Joan together.
"I'm really happy we are reconnecting now, and so happy that Joan has such an important male figure in her life, Steve was always my hero and I'm so glad Joan seems him the same way too.. He is gonna make an amazing father one day seeing the way he is with Joan, and even with Grace, Charlie, Sammie, Will, Sara, and you are going to make a wonderful mother as well.. I've seen how you are with the kids too, and you are both naturals".
Hugging her future sister in law tighter, she took a step forward, feeling Mary step with her as they walked towards the grave site together to spend time together as a foursome, she finally felt like she could really be apart of this family.. It was a big step, this discussion with Mary, and she hadn't really talked to her quite this in dept before, so she knew it meant something to the both of them, knowing she had Mary's support and love meant a lot to her because it meant Steve's sibling trusted her with his heart and his life, and wanted to be able to include herself and her daughter into her life as well.
Author Notes:
Two chapters out for different stories in one weekend, who would have thought.. Thanks for all your continued support, I am really enjoying keeping these stories alive especially since the show is no longer on anymore. I'm really loving where this one is going, and it's been interesting to see how the Ohana has all come together to be there for Grace, Danny, Rachel and Charlie.. Next chapter, I am intending to do from Steve and Joan's pov at the grave sight.. I feel this talk between Mary and Catherine needed to happen for Mary to fully feel at ease with the knowledge Catherine had to leave again, but is intending to come back, and it helps connect them as well.
SteveMcGarrettLover:
Thank you so much for being such a huge supporter of mine, you are truly one of my biggest fans I believe and I appreciate you so much. I agree, Rachel was always a bit of an outside, as is Renee Grover as well to an extent, seems like if you aren't in five-o, they don't add scenes with many of the other characters, but I'd love to do that, while Catherine is still there, maybe they convince Rachel to go out, not out on the town or anything but maybe just dinner and a couple of drinks, Renee, Catherine, Tani, Mary (I think they would be the main female characters around that time in the series since Kono and Abby were already gone and Quinn is not there yet in this story).
