14xx/7/24
178 Days since arrival…
Big problem, real fucking huge problem. I can't get home.
Strange, the idea of home barely crossed my mind throughout my adventure. I have been too focused on finding Hito first and find the exit second. Now that Hito is probably with me now, I just realised that I'm trapped here for real.
I didn't walk through a portal or something, I fell in a ditch and fell through the sky like a fucking nuke. I found a door in Tartarus rift before, but it was locked shut and I'm not ready to fall into the void yet. Doesn't sound like I have much option left. The books from the library helps little, but not enough. Many talks about the possibilities of another world and the creatures capable of crossing said world, but none really tells me how it worked without the help of an external godly creature.
I'm not gonna go and build a fucking plane to reach heaven and ask Ilias what to do.
The scholars told me of the Tartarus Rift and how it attracts other objects and sometimes beings from another realm. Promestein, a renowned scientist in this castle stated that I can not only travel through dimensions but also time. The problem is in making sure that we get the right dimension or timeline without leaving too big of a ripple to create a paradox in said timeline.
However, the possibility of travelling to a whole new world separate from this own is just astronomically low bordering impossible. Hell, she only manages to access certain timelines that is just a remix of this current universe we're inhabiting now! The fact that I, a traveller from an entirely new world that isn't based upon this world's logic alone is already a miracle.
Now that I realised that I can't return home the homesickness comes back and hit me worse than two nukes. I missed the cold interior of my home's mansion. I missed the sweet laughter of the frolicking maids as I slowly walked through the hallway. I missed my boss, whom I was closer than my own family. I miss them, and it hurts realising that I could grow old and end up dying here a few dimensions away from home.
This is not my home. I don't want to grow old here, I don't want to die here.
Hito didn't want that either, but none of us have a choice. The way home seems to be blocked and I haven't even found him yet. The only clue of his existence is from the entry White Rabbit bitch gave me a month or so, even then it was pretty vague of what happens next. It says that my friend will travel with Luka on Chapter Two, and I will be helping him out on his quest.
What is Chapter Two? What is it really? Is it some kind of a codename for a certain event that timelord used? What really is Luka's quest to begin with? He said he wanted to save humanity and monsterkind and shit, but what for? I saw many hostile MGs around but I also found many friendly MGs as well. Why is he so damn important? Why the hell that Rabbit bitch wanted me to go and help him out? Did she know something I don't? Wouldn't it be much easier to just tell me what to do instead of just letting me flail around with half-quotes and incomplete messages?
Not only that, there's also the chance of my Hito just flailing all over the place. The White Rabbit said that I will meet Hito on Chapter Two, the problem is that she never stated if this is really my friend. From what Promestein told me before, every dimension has 1 version of the original character from the original world residing in each dimension. For example, if current universe Hito here exist, then every other dimension derivative of this dimension will have their own version of Hito and vice versa. So basically, this Hito that is following Luka now is the Hito of this world, not mine from my own dimension. So the question still remains. Where in the red devil's name is he now?
I need to talk to Hito soon. Or rather, this world's version of my Hito. There's probably similarities or traits that I can glean to find out about my friend's fate. The white bitch told me he'll be with me soon, but she never specified when or if it was the right one. But then, this is the only closes lead I could get.
Hold the line Hito, reinforcement is coming eventually…
