Chapter 3…who am I?

A/N… I know it will be a bit confusing but it will become clearer and if you have any questions just ask. Thank you all for the reviews and follows, I appreciate them a lot.

I woke up and flinched instantly, my eyes were burning and my whole body was aching. I did not know where I was or more importantly, who I was.

I sat up and groaned all the way, as my eyes tried to adjust to the brightness of the room. I looked down at my body and saw bruises covering my arms and legs, I assumed my face was the same because it hurt like hell.

I stood on shaky legs and moved towards the mirror on my left. What I saw sickened me instantly. My face was badly swollen and the worst of it I didn't remember my face. This girl…this brown haired, blue eyed girl that looked back at me…I didn't know her.

"finally you are awake…I was so worried" a voice behind me said and I snapped my head in his direction and then turned my body fully towards him.

I looked at this boy…no a man. He had black hair that was up in a quiff and deep dark green eyes. "who are you?" I asked him and looked at his face for a reaction. His eyes instantly filled with tears and he fell to his knees.

Sobbing…he was sobbing for an unknown reason.

"He took it…no, no, no he couldn't have." The guy mumbled and then stood up to face me. He looked furious and I knew this was bad. He growled loudly and pushed the table that I was once laying on onto its side.

I flinched and he looked at me with more tears in his eyes. "I am so sorry jess…I should have stopped you from going." He said and I frowned at him.

"Jess? Is that my name?" I asked him and he looked down sadly. "What do you remember?" he asked me back and I searched my brain…nothing…I remember nothing.

"He took it all away didn't he?" the guy said and before I could respond another guy came running in. He looked at me and then tackled me to the floor in a bone-crushing hug.

"Get off…" I groaned out because I couldn't breathe. "Seth get off…she doesn't remember" the guy said again and the one on top of me looked into my eyes with sadness. He got up and walked back looking at me with regret.

"so she really doesn't remember us" the guy asked as if I weren't even there. "no he took everything, she doesn't remember me or even you" this first guy said.

"Hello? I am standing right here! Tell me what the hell is going on!" I screamed at them and they looked shocked at me. "okay just relax jess" the second guy said and walked towards me.

He slid his arms around me and led me to the door. "Let's sit down and I will explain everything" he said and walked me into what looked like a lounge.

"I really don't know how to say this…but you went after a vampire and he glamoured you. He took away all your memories" he said and I frowned.

"vampires…" I whispered and then laughed out loud. Waiting for him to laugh as well but he was completely serious. I stopped laughing and sprang up. "Your nuts! Are you crazy vampires don't exist!" I yelled out and then the first guy came in.

"he is telling the truth" he said and I looked at them with disbelieve.

"fine I will play along…if and I say IF vampires exist why on earth would I go near one?" I asked them and both of them sighed and looked down.

"you were…you are an vampire hunter. A vampire killing assassin. And you went after one but this one was special. You wanted to go on your own because of revenge" he said and I was taking this all in.

'was I really going to believe this?' I asked myself and looked down to the floor. "revenge…why" I asked them and the black haired guy teared up and the other one shook his head.

"the one you were hunting…he killed your family" he whispered and it felt as if my world was spinning. I had to sit down…I had to sit down now!

I fell onto the couch and just stared ahead of me, I couldn't believe it.

"who are you?" I asked and again the black haired boy teared up. "dude seriously what is with the fucking tears!" I screamed at him and I saw his face turn to shock before he stood up and walked out of the door.

I looked back at the other guy and he was fuming at me. "what?" I asked him and he stood up…towering over me. "what? Are you seriously asking what? I know you don't understand but it isn't necessary to be a bitch…at least not to him!" he yelled at me and I stumbled back.

"why not? He is the one crying like a baby" I yelled back and he slammed me against the wall. "because he stood by you every step of the way…because he is joe…your fiancé" he said and then left me there…gasping and trying not to scream out in frustration.

Eric's pov:

I walked into the bar and spotted pam right away. She looked at me and from the expression on her face I could tell she was shocked to see me here. I motioned for her to come to my office and walked to the back.

Pam came in shortly and closed the door behind her. "you didn't tell me you were coming back so soon" she said and I sighed as I sat down. "there were some complications…danalynne died" I said and pam just stared at me in shock.

"eric…I am so sorry" she said to me but I motioned for her to go out and as soon as she closed the door I ruined my office out of rage. After I felt a bit calmer, I walked out and flew to bill's home.

As soon as I arrived I smelled sookie and I was glad because I could tell them both now. I was still angry and did not know if I could contain myself with bill's attitude.

I didn't even knock I just walked in and found bill and sookie on the floor about to have sex. "well this isn't what I expected" I said and sookie screamed out as she tried to cover herself. "eric would you mind turning around?" bill hissed at me and I growled back at him.

"I hope you are here to give me my money" sookie said and I rolled my eyes at her.

"I could care less about your money" I said and bill sprang up and bared his fangs at me "you made a deal. Money for her help eric" bill said to me and in a flash I had him pinned to the wall with my own fangs out.

"if you want the money so bad I will fucking give it to her…I came by to let you know danalynne died" I said and let bill go. Sookie gasped and I could smell the tears that were starting to fall down her cheeks.

"w-what…how?" sookie stuttered out and I turned my back towards them so neither of them could see the sadness in my eyes.

"she was kidnapped and we were too late to save her" I said and heard a sob leave sookie's mouth. I turned around to see bill holding her as she cried and then I left. The sun was going to rise soon and although I wanted to see the morning light but I knew I could not.

I went to my home and up to the room where danalynne snuggled into the bed. I wanted…no I needed to smell her. I needed her scent to engulf me…to swallow me.

I laid down and then I smelled her. Her perfume which was a deep apple musky smell but under that, I could smell her.

The her that smelled like a fresh sweet peach with a little bit of cinnamon. I held the pillow against my face and then I realised what I was doing, but I could not care less. If pam saw me now she would ask me when I became soft but I didn't care because I needed to smell her.

I needed my brain to think she was here next to me and not lying dead in her own blood. I closed my eyes as I felt the sun come up and dreamed of her.

I walked into the bar to see her sitting there…danalynne was waiting for me. "where have you been?" she asked me and I stood as still as a statue staring at her.

"eric…what's wrong?" she asked as she walked towards me and held my face between her two hands. "you're here…" I whispered and she smiled that beautiful smile of hers. "Where else would I be?" she asked and leaned up onto her toes to kiss my lips softly.

I growled out and slammed her against the bar before lifting her up and laying her down on it with me on top of her in an instant. I kissed her lips until they were swollen from the roughness and then I moved down to her neck.

She arched her neck backwards to give me more access and I used it well. "please…" the begging tone of her voice made my fangs snap out and scrape against her flesh.

"eric please…I need you" she whimpered out and I let my fangs slide into her neck like a warm knife into butter. I moaned aloud at the taste of her. She was my favourite choice of food. If I could I would feed only on her.

"eric…" she whimpered out again and I growled as I sunk my fangs in deeper. "eric…stop. Please stop" she begged me and I pulled away confused.

"did I hurt you?" I asked her and she climbed of the bar and walked backwards. "yes you did. Why eric…how could you fuck her right in front of me and then tell me you no longer need me. Eric I gave up everything for you…I loved you" she said and then I knew what she was talking about.

"I needed to do it. Because I knew you deserved much better than me and if you stayed by my side you would only get hurt" I told her and watched as she clutched her stomach.

"no eric…you protected me but when I left your side look what happened!" she screamed at me and I saw the blood pouring from her stomach. "I thought you would be safe…please danalynne I am sorry." I told her but she shook her head and fell to the ground.

"it's your fault…you are the reason I am dead" she whispered and then disappeared before I could reach her.

I woke up from the dream breathing heavily and felt the pillow was wet and when I looked I saw it had blood on it…my blood from my tears.

The dream made me think…she was better with me, she needed to stay by my side. But it was too late. And the dream made me realise that I was a monster because anyone who came close to me I pushed away. I hurt the ones I love for my benefit.

Danalynne's pov:

I stood there trying to remember…trying to remember anything. But nothing came to my mind. It was all blank and tears started to well up in my eyes. If I didn't remember anything how was I supposed to know who I was…

I walked out of the living room and followed the hallway until I found a door slightly ajar and peaked in. there was…sam? No it was stan…no I couldn't remember. "hi can I come in?" I asked him and he scowled at me but nodded anyway.

"I'm sorry but what is your name?" I asked him and he sighed and looked down. "seth" he whispered and I nodded and tried to search my mind for a seth but I found nothing.

I sat down on his bed and looked at him warily. "I don't know anything…I don't remember you or him or even myself. I am very sorry if I offended you but I am going to need help" I told him and he looked at me and then nodded.

"go down the hall, turn right and then the third door on the right, that is your room that you share with joe." He said and I sighed and then got up.

I closed his door behind me. I wasn't ready to face joe yet but I knew I had to…he was my fiancé.

I walked the way seth told me to and I stopped in front of the door…trying to compose myself. I knocked softly but heard no reply and when I went to knock a second time the door flew open and I gasped.

There he was standing in front of me…in only a towel. His black hair was dripping with water and I watched as one drop of water fell down onto his chest and I followed it until it disappeared against the towel.

I gulped and looked back at him but he was just staring at me "hi I uh- I wanted to talk to you. But I can come back later" I said and turned around to walk back to the living room but a hand grabbed my arm and pulled me back fastly and I stumbled back and slammed into his chest.

I looked up and he looked down at me and smiled slightly. He closed the door and then let me go. "this is your room also" he said and then turned back to the bathroom that was attached to the bedroom.

I sat on the bed and looked around it was a nice room but I was hoping to see some pictures to help me remember but there were none.

I waited until he was done and then he came back with only a towel again and turned my gaze away quickly. He walked to another door where he opened the walk in closet. I pretended I found something interesting on the roof as he got dressed and then he joined me on the bed.

"so you wanted to talk…" he said to me and I nodded. "I have so many questions, but I don't know if you are willing to answer them since I don't remember anything about you" I said and he shook his head and laid back down.

"I will answer anything you want to know" he said and I smiled and turned towards him. "okay so firstly what is my name?" I asked him and he looked at me with a look I couldn't decipher.

"jess for short but it's actually Jessabelle alice Levine." He said and I thought about it 'Jessabelle alice Levine' it sounded so nice, but I didn't remember it. I nodded and thought of my next question.

"my family?" I asked and he looked sadly at me. "no uncles or aunts just your mom, dad and older brother but they were killed by the vampire you were hunting" he said and I nodded and was surprised that I felt this deep ache in my heart.

"did it kill them because I was hunting it?" I asked him and his head shot up straight away. "no, no, no do not think it was your fault. He captured them to lure you in and he then killed them right in front of you. He let you go after he erased all of your memories." He told me and I frowned.

I wished that I could remember them. And I wish I could kill that motherfucker. "you can" he said to me and I realised I said the last part out loud.

"how? I don't remember anything" I told him and he smiled at me "we can train you again, you are a fast learner" he said to me and I smiled back at him and nodded.

"so…how long have we uh…" I said and hoped he caught the hint because I didn't know what to say "how long have we been together? Well we have known each other for about five years, dated two and are engaged for one year so far." He said and I could tell he was trying not to sound too happy but I was in shock and couldn't say anything.

"wow… okay and how long have I been hunting?" I asked him and he looked thoughtful for a moment and that was slightly weird. "about seven years...you have been hunting since you were seventeen years old" he said and I gasped.

If I was hunting for seven years and started when I was seventeen that means I was twenty-four years old. I wanted to ask some more questions but I think this was enough for today. I looked at joe and saw he was looking at me with a thoughtful expression.

"do you-uh want me to go to the guest bedroom?" he asked me and I thought about it for a moment. "no…I mean we can share right?" I asked more than told him and he chuckled at me. He nodded and climbed under the covers.

I walked to the closet and searched for my clothes. It seemed like I only wore short night dresses to bed so I took one of them with one of my yoga pants and got dressed quickly. I walked back to see that joe was asleep already so I turned off the lights and climbed in next to him but on the far side.

Within seconds that my head hit the fluffy pillow I was asleep.