Chapter 9…so confused

A/N: wow a massive thank you to you guys for reviewing, I feel like I should really say thank you to jamesnorthman96 and kleannhouse you guys have kept me writing more and more.

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"Sookie, alcide you can go, I know you wanted to go to Mississippi, I will deal with danalynne" eric said and I growled as I heard that name.

"eric I can help…I can go through her memories to see what happened" sookie said and that made me angry but eric only tightened his hold on me.

"very well, alcide please untie pam" eric said and I watched as sookie bent down and laid her hands on my head. "get the hell away from me!" I hissed at her but she just shook her head and then closed her eyes.

"stop! Stop it!" I yelled out and watched as she gasped and fell back. "eric…she doesn't know who she really is, they lied to her told her that her name is Jessabelle and that you killed her family before glamouring her memories away" sookie said and I looked shocked at her.

Sure I knew she was a mind reader but I did not expect her to see my memories.

"I am Jessabelle, and you killed my family!" I screamed in rage and lunged at eric but he held me down fully.

Before I could blink I was hanging upside down and watched as the floor moved below me. "where are you taking me? Give me one shot and I will kill you!" I yelled out and I was about to yell again but a stinging sensation that surrounded my left butt cheek made me gasp and brought tears to my eyes.

"just shut up it will be better for you" he said and even when I went to yell I was dropped to the floor and a gag was in my mouth.

"you brought this onto yourself" eric said and picked me up and walked into a room. When I saw a huge, king size bed in the middle of the room, I started panicking and thrashed. He threw me on the bed and tied my hands to the bedpost.

I could not escape even if I wanted to…the bonds were too tight.

Eric looked at me with a mix of anger and sorrow. When he came forward to stroke my cheek his phone rang and I sighed with relief. "hello…yes godric. She's here, she kidnapped sookie and used silver on pam to try and kill me, yes godric. Very well, no she is currently tied to my bed. I know but it will have to do. Yes godric" eric said and ended the call from godric.

I lifted my eyebrow at him and he smirked at me before walking out the door and locking it behind him…leaving me in darkness.

I tried to stay awake but it all became too much and soon I was dreaming again.

I was walking down a hill that was overlooking the ocean and I stared in wonderment. I heard some movement behind me so I quickly turned around to see who it was and it was the same man that told me to run before in my dream.

"who are you?" I asked him and he gave me a small smile. "do not worry sweetheart, all will become clear soon. Trust eric and godric they mean well." He said and I frowned while shaking my head.

"no eric killed my family and then erased my memories he is a monster" I growled out at him.

"no my dear sweet daughter, joe lied to you he wanted to hurt you more. Eric and godric care for you, they want to help. Give them a chance, believe me" he said to me and I stared in shock.

"why did you call me your daughter?" I asked him and he smiled softly at me before kissing my forehead. I was going to say something but suddenly I woke up gasping and tried to move my arms but then realised I was tied to the bed.

"it's about time you woke up" I heard a voice to my left say and I tried not to scream out as I looked over to the vampire sitting on the bed. I raked my eyes over eric and then tried to kick him but he easily grabbed my legs.

"what are you going to do to me?" I asked him and he looked sadly at me. "nothing danalynne I am not going to harm you, I want to help you" he said and I sighed with frustration " my name is Jessabelle not danalynne!" I screamed out but eric only looked at me with worry.

"he lied to you! Your name is danalynne and you are mine" eric said with anger and I was just about to insult him when a cool voice stopped me.

"eric leave her alone" he said and I looked at the other vampire standing in the doorway. He was young, I would say about eighteen. He had brown hair that I could see he was growing out and his clothes were the weirdest. It was white pants and a matching shirt he looked like a monk.

Eric greeted the vampire immediately and after a quiet conversation eric left and the boy walked forward. "hello young one" he said to me and I lift my eyebrow at him. "I am glad you are alive, eric told me that you lost your memories so I thought I could help." He said and he knew he had my attention now.

"I can tell you what I know, about what happened to you" he said and I nodded at him trying to remember that I would try and understand. He untied my hands and I was grateful but did not voice it, I only rubbed my sore wrists.

"Your name is danalynne…" and before I could interrupt him he held his hand over my mouth. "Please let me finish. I first met you when your father called me and said that he took something from the authority and he wanted to protect her. He never said it he always said her. He took you from them to save you. However, you're stepbrother as you can put it hated you.

He tried to tell your father that he should return you but he refused and soon trained both off you to fight if they ever came back for you. I visited you as a friend and I even have pictures for you. This went on for years until your father called me and said they knew where you lived. So we arranged that you would be fake kidnapped and then sold to a vampire in my district and from there I would keep you by my side."

I tried to take it all in without saying anything but this was so confusing to me I wanted to tell him he was lying but I just couldn't.

"But things went wrong, the vampire was killed and you were bought by someone else, and as I heard you killed them but that was not the end. After that you were kept there and then sold again…to eric. Now he has a temper, and probably did not know what you were.

I am sure he did some things to you but he regrets it. After I heard you were gone, I tried searching for you but I could not find you. Believing you were dead I wanted the same. Because I felt more than friendship for you and it felt like I let you down in some way.

So I went to an anti-vampire church to die. I was ready to die but then you showed up, ready to save me. I was relieved that you were okay but I still wanted to die, I was tired and regretted most of the things I had done. We saved all of the humans and went back to my home, where Steve the leader of the church sent a suicide bomber. You have a scar on your stomach from that."

He said and I frowned as I lifted my shirt and traced the scar. He was actually telling the truth but then again he could have made it up.

"we went to a vampire hotel then and I went up to the roof to die but you came and bonded our souls. So when I die, you die. Now I will get to that in a moment of how you could do that. I was so angry with you and told you to go, so you went to Eric's room where he also told you to go and that he did not love you. It was a grave mistake on both our parts and we do regret it.

You were in a car crash that morning and I think it was Joe. They took you and tried to do experiments on you. The reason for that was because joe was jealous that you were a Nephalem. In the end he forced witches to remove your powers and put it in this jar" he said and held up a glowing jar…the glowing jar.

"but vampires took that" I said and he smiled at me. "yes they brought it to me because it smelled like you" he said and I looked even more confused.

"how do I know you are not lying?" I asked him and he looked into a bag by his side and brought out an envelope. "you can go thru them, I will come by later" he said and walked to the door.

"wait…please what is your name?" I asked him and he looked at me with hope in his eyes "godric…" he said and then left.

Godric…the guy in my dreams said that I should listen to eric and godric. That could not be a coincidence, could his story be true. And if it was where was my father and step-brother. And what does joe have to do with this.

I was sitting on the bed staring at the envelope godric gave me, I was too scared to go thru it because it could turn my whole world upside down. I was so deep in thought that I didn't see or hear godric come into the room until he sat down in front of me.

"godric…" I whispered out as I looked at him. "hello young one, I hope you won't mind but we are taking you to eric's house. You can shower there and eat while we discuss some things" he said to me and I frowned.

"you're never going to let me go are you? I am your prisoner…" I said and godric smiled at me. "no, never. You are free to go if you please, but I would rather you stay with us until you get your memories back" he said and then I thought about it and realised that it would be the best option.

"fine but I need to get some things from my car" I said thinking about the files and that I needed to go thru danalynne's…my file.

"we can drive together to eric's house" he said and I nodded as I stood up and we walked to my car. "you can drive, since I don't know the way" I said to godric and watched as he climbed into the car and I followed.

I was glad godric was driving because it was difficult getting to eric's house. I looked at the back seat and saw that my files were exactly as I left them. I needed to go thru them as soon as I could.

When we arrived at the house, godric showed me my room and as godric and I were going to discuss some things eric stormed in and demanded to speak to godric. The two of them left quickly and I wondered what it was about so I snuck to the door and listened.

"godric I need to leave, the magister found the blood that the queen told me to sell. He is at fangtasia holding pam until I bring bill Compton back. The magister believes it was bill. I do not know how long I will be gone" eric said and I frowned.

"eric I cannot let you go alone my child, I would be glad to accompany you but danalynne needs both of us now. Joe did unspeakable things to her. You take her with you because joe and his followers are still in Dallas under Isabel's watchful eye. I will bring them here after the magister is gone and then question them in the dungeon" godric replied and my eyes went wide.

Godric took joe and probably seth too, I wondered if he was torturing him. I still needed to ask him why joe would cause my car accident and where my family was.

"are you sure godric? I don't think danalynne is comfortable with me, joe must have told her lies about me. At first she told me that I killed her family so joe must have told her those lies. Not telling her that her father was killed by the church and that he was her step-brother" eric said and I almost fainted.

Was joe my step-brother? I slept with my step-brother…it felt as if I was going to be sick. I was going to kill him for lying to me, for deceiving me.

"yes I will talk to her, just keep her safe eric" godric said and when godric entered the room he knew she was listening and caught her before she could fall down.

"you weren't supposed to hear that. I will explain everything to you when you and eric return. Listen to him and trust him, somewhere deep down he does love you like I do." He said and I looked down and then felt godric cup my cheek with his hand and met his eyes with my own.

His eyes were a beautiful shade of grey and I looked deep into them and listened to what he had to say.

"we both lost you…we thought we lost you completely. You made a sacrifice to save me and it cost you your memories. While I am gone, I am going to speak to a witch to see if there is not another way to get them back. I do not want to do the first option." He said and it made me realise that he really did care for me.

"why? What is the first option?" I asked him but he shook his head and kissed my forehead.

"pack a bag I will quickly talk to eric" he said and in a blink of an eye he was gone. I threw some clothes into a bag and then snuck out of the room to the kitchen where I heard godric and eric talk.

"I heard what you told her, what is option one?" eric asked and I could hear godric sigh out loud. "Maggie the witch, I called her to help when I got the jar and she told me that it was danalynne's powers. Her Nephalem powers are in the jar, it seems like joe wanted to insert it into himself. I asked her how we could get it back into her and she gave me a file.

When she takes her powers back into herself she gets her memories back"

Godric said and that caused hope to rise in me. If only I could get my powers back I could remember what happened and what happened with joe.

"well that is good then is it not?" eric asked and godric sighed again. "yes it is good that she will get her memories back but the thing is when she absorbs it back into her body one side will win. She was made from demon and angel so when she does one will win and surface" he said and I frowned.

I had demon and angel inside of me…no wonder joe thought I was a freak.

"so if the demon side wins she would become evil?" he asked and I didn't hear a response so I assumed godric nodded yes.

"is there no possibility that we can make the angel win?" eric asked and I listened even more. "that is why I want to go to Dallas again, to speak to Maggie about this." He said and after that, I quickly moved back to the room with a lot of things on my mind.

If I chose to take my powers back I could become evil…was it worth the risks?
godric came into the room and informed me that eric I would fly to Mississippi and that I would stay at the hotel while eric spoke to some vampires in that area.

I said goodbye to godric as he drove away and then looked at eric. He had my bag in his hand and stepped towards me. His arms encircled me and he told me to hold on.

As I was going to ask him why I felt both of us shoot off into the sky. I didn't scream because I was not breathing. I tried to pull myself closer to eric as I watched the city light fly by.