Chapter 11…new adjustments

A/N:I am so so sorry for not updating sooner but writers block has been killing me, I just can't get over it so I had to force this one out. sorry if it's not good.

I woke up when I heard a sound that I realised was Pam's coffin opening and I wondered if Eric even slept at all.

"Did you sleep at all?" I heard Pam ask and I silently waited for Eric to answer her. "I am fine" he answered and I knew he didn't sleep. I wanted to turn around and talk with them but something told me to keep on lying just like that.

"Is the guards still out there?" she asked and I heard Eric grunt so I assumed they were still there.

"Whatever the authority decides, I will not let you take the fall for this" Pam said and I agreed with her. He shouldn't get a punishment for what he didn't do. "You didn't kill the magister" Pam said and Eric replied right after. "No but I am easy to pin it on" he said back and I knew he was right.

"What did Talbot do to you?" she asked and I was confused. Who was Talbot?

"Nothing but he was the nearest thing to Russell's heart. He had to die" Eric stated and then I knew that Talbot was the vampire he killed and not because he was threatened but out of revenge. I was afraid for Eric and I wondered if godric knew what was happening.

"A hundred years I have been by your side. Why didn't you say anything about Russell or your family" Pam asked and I was shocked that he didn't tell her at all about his past. And she was with him for more than a hundred years.

"You didn't need to know. What good would it do to share my pain with you" Eric replied back and I know he was heavily guarded about his feelings. "You didn't need to carry it by yourself" Pam said.

"I am not weak" Eric growled out and I knew now that his Viking nature is still with him.

"I was a sole survivor, the burden is mined alone" he said and I heard Pam's voice crack. "We've been through so much for so long, it can't end this quickly" Pam said and I knew she was starting to cry.

"Everything ends, even the immortals…if I can't go on, you should make a new vampire. It is your time to be a maker. You can even turn danalynne, she would make a good vampire." I heard Eric say and then I heard Pam sob. When I turned around on the couch I saw Pam kneeling and sobbing into Eric's shoulder.

I sat up and then Eric looked at me just as I wiped a tear away and I could see he knew he was going to die. I quickly stood up and briskly walked to the bathroom where I stared at myself in the mirror.

A few tears leaked out and I scolded myself. Just over a week ago I wanted to kill Eric and now I didn't want him to die. I wonder if it is maybe my past memories or feelings coming back.

I took out my phone and dialled godric's number but it went to voicemail. "Godric, please I know you are busy but Eric needs your help. Please he could die." I said and then hung up as I noticed voices back in the bar. I walked out just as Nan ordered Eric.

"Bring me his fangs or I will have yours" Nan strictly told Eric and that was it. All my emotions were too much and I snapped.

"Hey! Do not talk to him like that. You are more superior to him, but no you are too lazy to deal with this shit. Yes Eric wants to kill him but you should have kept Russell under a close eye. You should be helping eric not looking pretty for a fucking camera" I yelled at her.

It was completely silent and everyone was staring at me including the vampires pointing their guns at me. Maybe that wasn't such a good idea.

"Excuse me? Who do you think you are talking to" she said and I rolled my eyes. "YOU, Nan Flanagan. Trust me I have read your file and I know everything that you are not." I said and she raised her eyebrow at me.

"File… what file?" she asked and I was about to answer but godric came in and all the men turned towards him with their guns raised.

"I'm sorry MS. Flanagan but she went snooping in my office back in Dallas and she wanted to know more about you. She means nothing by it and I will deal with her snooping" godric said as he came to stand next to me.

"Very well godric, but next time keep a leash on her. Eric remember your order" Nan said and then they all left out of the door.

"Eric what have you done!" godric growled out and eric answered him that he killed Russell's lover.

"Have you gone mad my son, that was suicide" godric said and stepped towards eric as he looked up at eric. "Godric he was the one who killed my family" eric said but godric shushed him and told him that they would discuss it later.

"But I do have a favour to ask eric" godric said and I frowned. "Of course godric, anything" Eric replied and godric nodded as he walked back out of the door.

Before I could ask Eric what was going on godric walked back in followed by two men and then other three men that held Joe and Seth. I was shocked to see joe and when he looked at me I felt remorse but it faded quickly.

I didn't know what I was doing but I grabbed a silver stake and walked towards Joe, I was going to stab him but before I could stop myself he pulled Seth in front of him and instead the stake went into Seth's heart.

I gasped as I looked at Seth but he only smiled at me and then his head dropped.

I killed him…I killed Seth.

I looked at Joe and he was also shocked.

"You monster, what did you do! Eric has you under his glamouring spell again, jess please you need to help me" Joe said and I smiled at him. "Of course joe, why wouldn't I help my brother?" I asked him and saw his eyes go wide.

He knew I read his file and my own. The men were moving him to the basement but I growled out for them to stop, I stood in front of Joe and then kneed him in his manhood. After that I walked back to the bedroom and collapsed on the bed as I cried.

It was probably twenty minutes later that I felt a hand on my shoulder, rubbing my back as I continued to sob.

"I killed him, I killed Seth. He had nothing to do with this. Joe forced him to help he was black mailed, I read his file." I said as I turned over to come face to face with Pam.

"Oh I thought it was godric, sorry" I said as I wiped my tears away and then scooted further up the bed. "You can always cry on my shoulder if you look that good crying" Pam said and I frowned at her.

"Are you seriously hitting on me?" I asked her and watched as her lips stretched over her teeth as she smiled at me. "Oh defiantly, I would love to eat you, and not just your blood" she said and I scoot further back and breathed a sigh of relief when eric came in.

"Not now Pam, I need to talk to danalynne" eric said and ushered Pam out of the room.

"Pam likes the female gender but I am sure you know that already" Eric said and I simply nodded at him.

"I am sorry for dragging you into this mess with Russell but I have waited so long to kill him, I hope you understand" eric said and when I looked away I felt the bed lift and heard him walk away.

"of course I understand, I would also want to kill the person who killed my father" I said and watched as eric turned back towards me. "I will help you where I can" I told him but he shook his head.

"no I can't let you get hurt more than you already have" he said and I shook my head again.

"eric accept my help, let me help you with this and then you can help me someday" I said and saw that he nodded at me.

Eric took my hand and looked at me with an emotion I could not decipher. "even if you don't remember I want to say thank you for what you did to save godric, it meant a lot to me. And I promise I will do everything in my power to get your memories back" eric said and then kissed my lips softly and then he left in a blink of an eye.

I touched my lips with my fingertips and frowned, was eric and I an item? I thought godric and I were together before everything.

Next godric came in and I smiled at him. "when did you get time to read the files?" godric asked me and I explained to him that I packed them with me to Mississippi and when I was alone I read them.

"I was reading my file and I found something that might be useful, a guy named Russell edgington made me. I guess he had too much time on his hands" I said and looked back at godric to see him thinking.

"I know who that is" he said and my eyes went wide. "really? How…never mind do you think I can meet him?" I asked.

"no I don't want you ever to meet him, if he knows you are alive he will want you back as a plaything. That's why me and your father planned for you to disappear with the kidnapping" godric said to me and I nodded at him but I still wanted to push the subject but knew not to.

"the kidnapping? What kidnapping?" I asked him but he shook his head at me. "don't worry about that now. Let's get you home and settled in" godric said as he gathered all my papers and then helped me off the bed.

"home? Eric's home?" I asked him and he nodded as we walked out of the bar and into a mustang car the drive there wasn't too long but I still somehow felt drained with everything going on.

Later that night after I was showered I sat on the bed and godric came walking in. "what's going to happen to joe?" I asked him and I could see he wanted to tell me a lie but I just looked at him pleadingly and then he nodded.

"I'm not sure, we won't hurt him unless it really is necessary, but after that I think the authority would want him." He said and I felt the worry settle in my mind.

"Get some sleep you're going to need it tomorrow" godric said and kissed my forehead. "Don't you think I am accepting this too easily?" I asked him before he could leave. "No I think you can feel deep down that this is where you belong" he said and I nodded and laid down.