Chapter 23: This feels so good
A/N: Thank you all who followed and favorited the story. This chapter is a big roller coaster so beware…I can't wait to hear your thoughts because this chapter is HUGE!
I walked back to the car and as I drove home I couldn't help but smile because it felt like me and Eric was going to work through things and make it after all.
The following morning I woke up just when the sun started coming up so I got dressed in shorts and a tank top with my running shoes.
I ran out of the gate and down the road for a few miles and then turned back to go back to the house. I was breathing harshly when I stopped by the door and had to take a few minutes to calm down.
I walked to the kitchen and got a bottle of ice cold water and downed it quickly. I went up the stairs and showered quickly and then got dressed again but this time in jeans and a shirt.
I drove to fangtasia and went inside with the key that I had. I saw that the place was clean so I walked to Eric's office and sat down as I got all of the papers out. I checked income and outcome and then checked orders and placed new ones on the stuff that we needed.
I was finished with all the paperwork so I grabbed a bottle of water and sat down on my throne chair and thought of Eric. I missed him but I wanted to give him time to go through the file and just think.
I sat for a few hours and then locked up and made my way back home. I parked the car in the garage and went into the kitchen to make myself some food. I decided on pizza so I grabbed all the ingredients I would need to make the pizza and then started cutting up everything.
As I waited for the pizza to grill in the oven I drank a glass of red wine and watched a bit of TV. The oven dinged and I took the pizza out. Once it was cut into pieces I curled onto the couch with two slices of pizza and a full glass of wine.
I dozed off by the second movie and only woke up hours later. I rubbed my eyes tiredly and then got up and walked up the stairs.
I had showered and changed into a shirt of Eric's and walked into the kitchen to get something to drink. Just as I mixed milk into the cup of coffee the doorbell rang and thinking it was pam I walked over to the door and opened it.
On the door step stood a confused looking Eric. I gasped as I saw him and then composed myself.
"Eric…come on in" I said to him and moved as he stepped inside looking around the place. I walked to the kitchen to get my coffee and then gestured for Eric to follow me up to the stairs.
I walked into our room and sat down on the bed but Eric kept standing. "I'm glad you decided to come, did you want to know some more things?" I asked him but he shook his head.
"Do you want to stay over?" I asked him with a hopeful tone but again he shook his head and stepped forward and then kneeled down in front of me. "Eric…what are you doing?" I asked him bewildered but Eric didn't answer me he only shuffled forward and laid his head in my lap.
"Eric…" I said unsurely and pulled back to look at his face to only see he was crying. "Eric what happened?" I asked him and grabbed his face in my hands.
"Tell me what happened, who hurt you?" I demanded but he shook his head. "I can't…" he said and I frowned. "Of course you can, tell me what happened and who it was?" I said in a softer tone hoping that he would open up.
"No…I can't do this anymore. I don't want to lie to you or myself" Eric said and I frowned. "What did you lie about?" I asked him and he started sobbing. This wasn't the Eric I knew at all.
"Eric please talk to me" I begged him and went down to also kneel on the floor.
"I read the file, I saw the pictures of you, of us and I had to come here. I had to tell you…I'm not the Eric you knew. I'm not like that anymore" he said and I frowned at him.
"You don't have to worry about that, soon you will have your memories back" I said and smiled at him but he looked at the floor.
"You don't understand…I don't want them back" he snapped at me and I moved back a bit but then reached out for his hand but he moved it away. I sat back on my thighs and frowned as I looked at him.
"What do you mean you don't want them back?" I asked him and he sighed as he looked up at me.
"I don't want to be the old Eric again. He was a ruthless vampire that didn't care about anyone besides himself. I like me and I love sookie" he said and I stared blankly at him for a while.
"What…." I asked him but he kept silent for a few seconds. "I want sookie, I love her. I like how I am now and don't want to go back to my old life. I don't want you to bring back my memories" Eric said and I felt the lump in my throat grow.
"You don't love her" I said to him but Eric shook his head at me. "I do love sookie, you can keep the house and everything, I don't care about my old life" Eric said and the dagger went right through my heart. He doesn't care about his old life, he doesn't care about me.
"I don't want the house… I want you" I pleaded to him "but I don't want you" he said and Eric then blurred in front of me as my eyes welled up with tears.
"Please don't do this…I know you and this isn't you" I said to him. "I'm sorry…" Eric said and I put my hands over my face as I sobbed. "I love you Eric" I said to him as I wiped my tears away.
"Keep the house, I will ask pam to do everything and get everything settled. I do love her and I am sorry" Eric said and I stood up and watched as he left. As soon as I heard the door close I fell to my knees again and cried my heart out. I sobbed for hours until finally I fell asleep.
The next morning I woke up at ten and went straight to the kitchen. I grabbed the big bottle of wine and walked back up the stairs. I sat in the bed and drank the wine until I passed out again. Later that night I woke up with a pounding headache, but managed to take two pain pills and take a shower.
I wanted…no I needed to see Eric. We needed to talk and I had to try and convince him he was making a mistake. I grabbed my bike and climbed onto it without a helmet and rode hard and fast to sookie's house.
I stopped by the graveyard and ran the rest of the way. I stopped on the porch because the door was wide open. I stepped into the house and saw Eric on top of sookie kissing her naked flesh.
I stared wide eyed at them with tears in my eyes until a force bumped me out of the way, sookie and Eric noticed our presence and looked up at us with wide eyes. I didn't care who stood next to me and even if I did I couldn't see who it was with the tears filling my eyes. I didn't stay to see who it was, I ran back to the bike and started the bike and drove back to the house.
I knew I was going at a speed that wasn't safe but it didn't bother me and I made my way quickly to the house and skidded to a stop on the gravel. I threw the bike down and ran into the house.
I slammed the door and sank down to the floor and cried. It felt like a life time has gone by since I saw Eric kiss down sookie's body.
I was sobbing so hard that I was struggling to breathe until arms picked me up and I didn't care who it was, I just wrapped my arms around the person and sobbed.
The person sat me down on the bed and when I looked it was in Eric and mine's room. I sprang up and looked at the person harshly. "I don't want to be in this room" I snapped and walked out.
I felt a bit bad that I snapped at godric but I couldn't help it. I walked to godric's room as I continued to cry. I sat down on the floor and just cried.
"Pam told me what happened to Eric, but what happened to you?" godric asked me as he sat next to me playing with my hair.
"He…Eric doesn't want me anymore, he loves sookie now and he proved it tonight by fucking her" I said but the last part I yelled out and stood up to pace.
I needed to do something and I probably did the wrong thing but I kissed godric hard and he pushed me away instantly. "You don't need that right now" godric said and I stepped back as if he slapped me.
"you're both the same…you want someone when they are special but as soon as it's gone you throw them away like trash" I yelled at godric and I knew I was only saying things because I was angry and godric knew it too.
"You know that's not true, I just don't want to take advantage of you in this state" godric said and cupped my cheek. "She's a fairy, fairies draw vampires to them. All vampires like to have something different than them" godric said and I nodded as he gave me a hug and I cried softly into his shoulder.
Then it hit me…Eric wanted something different. I pulled back and looked at godric and then ran from the room. I made my way down the hallways and then down the stairs. I switched on the light and made my way to the glowing jar.
"I know what you are thinking and don't do it" godric said behind me and I turned to look at him.
"I have to godric…I need Eric back and this will help" I said and turned back to the jar but godric quickly stepped in front of me. "You do not understand. You can't take it now. Not with the state you are in. You're dark side will win and no one knows what would happen" godric said and I shook my head at him.
"Godric you know me, I wouldn't hurt a fly. I won't go dark" I said to him but godric moved me back a few steps. "You have changed Danalynne. Since you lost your memories everything has changed. You have changed even if you can't see it, I can" godric said and it was my turn to cup his cheek.
"I know you are worrying, but it won't happen. I'm doing this for the greater good" I said and felt a few tears run down my face. "I have to do this, trust me" I said to him and gave him a hug and then stepped to the jar.
I picked it up and turned back to godric with a sad smile on my face. I opened the jar and looked at the glowing light. Once more I looked up at godric and then inhaled the light.
As soon as it made its way down my throat it burned and I sank to my knees with a scream tearing its self out of my throat. I clawed at my chest because it felt like the light was suffocating me. But I knew it was just connecting back with me.
Godric's pov:
I knew this was a mistake the moment I saw Danalynne take her powers back.
She was screaming in pain and there was nothing I could do but watched her struggle to breathe. I walked towards her and knelt down in front of her and wrapped my arms around her, trying to help her through this.
"Godric, it hurts" she whimpered into my shoulder and I pulled back to look at her face and noticed her nose was bleeding. "I told you this was a mistake, but I am not going to leave your side. I will always be here for you" I said to her and saw her nod in understanding and she clutched my shirt tightly.
"Godric…" she whispered and then her eyes rolled back and she passed out.
Three hours… it's been three hours since Danalynne passed out and I have been sitting against the wall watching her. The sun has come up about an hour ago and the bleeds have started but I didn't care.
I only cared about her, every now and again her body would seize up but then relax again and I couldn't imagine what she was going through.
I pulled my phone out of my pocket and dialed the number I knew by now. "Maggie I need your help, is there any way to make the angel side win if Danalynne takes her powers back?" I asked quickly but I knew that the witch would understand.
"Godric I don't know, I need to be there when she takes it, I can help her" Maggie said and I sighed because there was no way Maggie could get here quick enough.
"It's too late, she already took it" I said to Maggie and I could hear her mutter to herself.
"Godric, why did she take it so suddenly?" Maggie asked me and I dreaded it to answer the question.
"Eric, Eric lost his memories and since then he has fallen in love with sookie. Danalynne believes if she has powers like sookie, Eric would want her back. Maggie for the first time in years I am afraid of what my child has done" I said to her and I heard her move things around.
"Godric you know what the possibilities are. I am packing now I can be there in two or three days." I heard her say and I agreed. "Very well Maggie see you then" I said and was about to hang up but she stopped me.
"Oh and godric…you know what you will have to do if she turns dark" I hear Maggie say and I shut my eyes and hanged up because I knew that if Danalynne turned dark, I would have to kill her.
I sat for another hour or so just thinking what would happen if she did turn dark? What would she do if I let her live. Would she allow Maggie to try and get the angel side back?
I was pulled from my thought when I saw Danalynne sit up. I was by her side in an instant, looking into her eyes, trying to see who was in her but I couldn't see anything.
"Danalynne…" I said softly and she looked up at me with tears in her eyes.
"Godric…I…I remember everything. Godric…he left me there, he left me at the alter" she said to me and wrapped her arms around me as she cried. I breathed a sigh of relief because the angel won.
"I'm sorry for what I said up there, I know you would never throw me away" she said and hugged me closer to herself.
"It must be horrible to remember everything" I said to her and she frowned and then shook her head. "Oddly no, it's comforting. Like I just got my belongings back that was missing for so long" she said and I nodded and helped her up.
"Do you feel okay?" I asked her and she nodded again and took my hand into her own.
"I'm feeling much better and now that I have it back, I know what I want" she said and I frowned at her. What did she mean by she knows what she wants, but my question was answered when she stepped forward and kissed me. As she kissed me she walked us backwards a few steps and then stopped.
I tried pushing her back but she pulled her arms around my neck and kissed me harder.
"I thought you loved Eric" I said when she pulled back and she smiled at me "I do, but I know what I want" she said again and kissed me softly.
I pulled back abruptly when I felt a pain in my chest, and when I looked down I saw Danalynne's hand in my chest and I knew she was grabbing my heart.
"And what I want is to do everything I want… without you interfering" she said to me with a smirk on her face. Danalynne pulled my heart out of my chest and I looked at it, it kept dripping blood.
"What are you wondering why you aren't a puddle of blood on the floor?" she asked me mockingly and she was right. I was supposed to be nothing but blood on the floor right now but I was still standing.
"I'm keeping you alive for later my dear godric. I would love to know what that fucking stupid angel side of me feels when I tell her I killed her mate, but you already knew you were her mate didn't you. Oh well…" she said and pushed me backwards, I fell into an open coffin and I looked up at her.
Danalynne was licking the blood off of my heart. She looked down at me with blood surrounding her mouth, I felt myself become weaker and weaker and then last thing I saw was Danalynne place my heart into the same jar that held her powers.
Danalynne's pov:
I couldn't explain how great it felt to be back with no annoying presence of the angel and being able to kill Godric was fascinating. I didn't actually think it was going to work but it did and I was grinning so hard.
I laughed out loud…this feels good, so, so good.
"pussy…" I said to the now dead Godric as I slammed the coffin lid closed.
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