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He had read that letter three times only that morning since he had gotten it, two days ago, he had gone through her words countless times. If anyone asked him what it says, he could tell them every line without missing a word. Looking over her handwriting brought some memories when they used to be a couple living in their apartment together. She would leave those notes on the fridge when she was in a hurry, or both were busy or leaving their home earlier:
Babe, it's your turn to do the laundry, I love you; You were amazing yesterday, love you, my Captain; Sorry, I forgot it was my turn to take out the trash : ( ; Don't stay up, I'll help Herrmann close Molly's tonight : ) love you; Thank you for making breakfast today, stay up tonight I have something for you : )
He missed it, he missed their time together, their life together. He never would have imagined they would reach the point where he wasn't welcome in her life, that he only would be the father of their baby, not her husband, her lover, her friend.
He wasn't happy how things had turned out that day, what Brett had done, though he wouldn't accept Gabby's decision to toss him in the corner, watching from afar what was happening with her and his son. What he had done after reading her note was giving space, he couldn't risk causing more damage to her and Ben, because of her state of mind and her well-being she wasn't giving him any other options as well. When the time has come he would make her understanding she couldn't decide alone how their relationship was gonna work. They were having a baby together, they had huge decisions to make together.
He was looking at Gabby's letter for the past fifty minutes, elbows resting on the table, his hands were placed together supporting his chin. Ben... short and sweet, he thought. He had made a quick research and found out Ben meant blessed; Matt was feeling blessed for having a baby boy if he was a girl he would be happy also, in fact, he always had envisioned having a girl with Gabby, he had a sister, a niece, he's loved the women of his life. A little girl with Gabby's features would be incredible, taking after her mother, going all Gabby Dawson on handling things would be interesting to watch, thinking about it made him smile... he shook his head while daydreaming about it.
His head whipped around as he heard the door latch click.
"Hey, I called your name a few times, you weren't listening," she stayed at the door frame, her eyes glanced down to his table and remained there, Matt caught her pry eyes, turning his head, he grabbed the letter and put it in the drawer.
"You need something?" his expression blank, not giving away what he was thinking about.
He sounded slightly annoyed at least, she thought.
"Can I come in?" Brett had to ask because she realized he would be that way all day, isolated from everyone, he didn't seem interested in anything outside of his office.
After the brief reunion with Chief Boden in the first minutes of shift, he went straight to his office, while the others went to the kitchen for breakfast. She wanted to follow him, but Foster told her to wait if he hasn't picked up her calls for the last two days was any indication of where his head was at, she should wait for him to take the first step.
Although she was tired of waiting for him, if he depends on him, he wouldn't come out of his office anytime soon this morning, ambo had three calls and every single time she came back she wasn't able to see him out of his office. He wasn't going to address the elephant in the room, so she would then.
"Yeah... you can", he signaled her to enter. He adjusted himself on his seat to look at her directly as she leaned back, pressing her back against the door.
"How have you been? I called you a few times, I must've called you a thousand times", she was clearly upset and Matt felt bad for putting her in that position. He was still resentful for her attitude, but he should be honest about his feelings towards her.
"I'm sorry, I have a lot in my place right now. I should return your call-" she cut him off.
"Okay, yet you are avoiding all morning, I don't know what's happening, I-I mean, I made a huge mistake not listening to you. So, forgive me, really Matt, forgive me", she pleaded with him as she stepped up kneeling down in front of him.
Matt felt awful seeing her like that, mainly because he had made a decision and she wouldn't like it.
"I forgive you, it's all good now, Gabby's is fine, my son is fine", he grabbed her hand and pulled her to a stand position with him.
"I am really relieved", she put her hand on his arm as she smiled at him, he pressed his lips together.
"We need to talk, Brett", he said stepping aside from her holding.
"We are talking", she laughed weakly at him. He stayed quiet as she crossed her arms over her chest.
"What is it, Matt?" His expression serious, he looked around thinking about his next words.
"I want us to take a break-" she cut in.
"What?" she exclaimed as uncrossing her arms.
"I need time, Brett, time to figure out how to resolve my relationship with Gabby-"
"Stop, please. I don't hear anything of it", she turned around.
"My son comes in the first place, he needs his parents in good terms for his sake. My mind and heart being in different places are not ideal, so I am asking you to give me time", he stepped closer to her.
"How you can't see, Matt", she turned back. "She's using the baby to get to you, you're being naive, I have to tell you", she held his hands.
"Sylvie, don't do that, Gabby doesn't want anything with me, we are having a baby not getting back together", he tried to reason with her.
"I don't believe she wasn't expecting anything from it, you have a good heart and she knows it. Sorry, Matt, but I don't agree we take a break, I don't", she said angrily.
"You can do whatever you want then, I've made my mind, we're not dating anymore", he narrowed down his eyes at her.
"When you are gonna stopping to run after her, Matt? She left you, you don't remember? You were devastated for weeks, so do I, we were friends... Then months later, get you on her bed-" he cut in as pointed a finger at her.
"You said that I should see her again since we both knew she wasn't staying for more than a weekend, you pushed me to her", he voice louder than he intended.
"Alright, now is my fault that you two slept together and you are having a baby?" she replied.
"I'll never give you that because we slept together because we loved each other, nothing we had done that night was a mistake", Brett's eyes widened, his answer caught her off guard.
"I, I don't know what to say", she closed her eyes for a few seconds. "She never considered your feeling, your needs..."
"Stop right there, you and Gabby were partners and friends for a long time, she welcomed you in our house... I am surprised how your feelings have changed towards her...", she downed her head feeling embarrassed. " I have more reasons than anyone to be angry at Gabby, but you..." he looked at her from toe to her head.
"Sorry, I just feel that if we take time now, we're not gonna have other chance", she said softly, then she looked up at him.
"I have no worries about it, sorry... In a couple of months, I'll be holding my son and hopefully Gabby will be the one taking care of him, being the mother that she always has dreamt... she lost Shay, Louie, for one moment we thought she was having our baby, then we lost it, she can't lose her son", he had tears on his eyes. "I don't allow anyone to take it from her".
Brett's eyes roamed his face for a few seconds, he seemed determined. She nodded softly at him. Without saying anything she left his office as he wiped the tears from the corner of his eyes.
Matt was leaving Firehouse 51, going to parking lot, when his phone rang in his pocket. He picked up, he didn't recognize the number, yet he answered it.
"Hello".
"Good morning, Matt", he took a few seconds to register the voice.
"Good morning, Camila", Gabby's mother was calling him, he was afraid to ask the reason. "How's Gabby and baby? They are okay?"
"They are fine, don't worry. I'm calling because I need to talk to you, you can make time for me?"
"Of course", he answered as he looked around seeing his co-workers passing by him.
"I'm not in Chicago right now, but next week I'll be there. Let's meet, we have a lot to discuss".
"Okay, you set the place and I'll be there", he didn't guess what exactly she wanted from him, but he was eager to discover.
"Perfect!".
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