I was pressing myself against the wall as the girl unbuckled my belt and I started sweating profusely at this unexpected turn of events.
"Are you nervous? Just relax, it's my first time with a carnivore too, you know," the girl reassured while one of my eyes was twitching.
'What the fuck...is this girl doing what I think she's doing?!' I thought incredulously as the girl unbuttoned my shirt and opened it.
"Oh, the color of your fur on your stomach is the same as your face," the girl observed as she ran her hands across my abs and I blushed furiously at the pleasurable sensation of her hands running through my fur.
'Oh God, I can't believe this is happening to me right now,' I thought in disbelief as the girl unbuttoned my pants and pulled down the zipper.
"It's a beautiful cream color...I want to see just how far down it goes so is that okay?," the girl asked as she went to pull down my pants and I snapped myself out of it.
"Whoa, hold on a damn second!" I exclaimed in alarm as I grabbed my pants and forced them up frantically, causing the girl to jump at the sudden action and she looked unhappy.
"What's wrong, I'm doing all the work trying to set the mood. This is why you're here, aren't you?" the girl questioned with a frown and crossed arms as I was busy buckling my pants and buttoning up my shirt, then I shot her a look of disbelief.
"No, I didn't come here for that so what the fuck gave you that impression?!" I cried in shock as I stared at her completely mortified and the girl appeared to be confused as she looked away with an expression of confusion.
As she was deep in thought, I quickly moved to the bed and grabbed the sheet before I went back and rested it on her shoulders.
"Here, you're going to get cold and you should put on your uniform. Anyway, I'm going to be going now so have a good day," I declared nervously as I quickly opened the sliding door and walked out before shutting it fast.
"Gah, fuck!" I yelped in pain as I forgot about my tail and the door nearly crushed it, causing me to yank it out and I broke out into a sprint as I rushed to the exit and headed into the stairwell.
I headed down the stairs and made it to the hallway, then I rested my arms on a wall as I gasped for breath and tried to comprehend what the hell just happened.
'Holy shit, I can't believe that girl wanted to have sex with me! Damn, I know girls like Nova back in the Wasteland have flirted at me before but I've never experienced that in my life...I've never been in a relationship either so that was completely unexpected,' I thought while Legosi floated down next to me with a grimace.
"Um, Connor, what the hell was she doing? Was that some kind of greeting between small animals?" Legosi asked and I gaped at him while my right eye started twitching.
'You're shitting me, this guy is seriously that fucking clueless in that department?!' I thought in disbelief while Legosi looked uncomfortable at my reaction.
"Legosi, are you telling me that you have no idea what the hell she was doing?! Didn't you take any Sex-Ed classes or anything like that?!" I hissed and Legosi flinched at my tone.
"Well, I heard about those classes but I didn't take them because I wasn't interested at the time...is that bad?" Legosi inquired hesitantly and I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
"Yes, it's bad because it's important to learn those classes so that you know what the hell you're doing once you get into a relationship with someone! Wait, please tell me you know what a romantic relationship is," I begged quietly and Legosi looked at me strangely.
"What's a romantic relationship? I've heard something about it so what is it?" Legosi asked and my jaw dropped open until I hung my head and depression lines appeared.
'You gotta be fucking kidding me, he's that dense? Of all the animals I had to possess in this world, it just had to be the one that doesn't know shit about girls or romance,' I thought helplessly just as I spotted Kibi approaching me.
"Legosi, I'm sorry about earlier so I waited for you to come back," Kibi said with a look of guilt and I started glaring at him.
"That reminds me...why the hell did you throw me under the bus like that? Not cool at all, Kibi," I snapped irritably and Kibi looked taken aback by my anger.
"Nevermind about that, did anything happen?" Kibi asked and I tried not to blush while shaking my head.
"No, not really," I lied as we started walking down the hall and passing other students.
"I see...well, that's a relief because seeing you jump down four steps at a time made me think that something bad had happened," Kibi stated and I looked at him in confusion.
"Well, nothing bad happened so what had you so scared in the first place?" I inquired and Kibi looked nervous before he suddenly pushed me against the wall with an uncomfortable expression.
"Apparently, there's this pretty well-known rumor among the herbivores...the talk around the school is that she's really promiscuous and has been with a lot of the guys. Basically, she's a slut and nothing but trouble so it's hard to believe since she looked like a nice girl.
Hey, she wouldn't try to sleep with a wolf, right? Did you get those roses?" Kibi questioned and I looked away as I thought about choosing my words carefully.
"The flowers...they're so precious to her and she treats them like they're her children. I'm going to talk to the others and figure out somewhere else to get the roses and to be honest, there may be a lot of rumors out there, but I think she's a good person," I said as we kept walking back to the Drama Club.
As time passed by, I thought about the girl and how animals called her nasty names but I wasn't going to let one bad impression or rumors dictate on how I'll make my judgment since it couldn't be that black and white and there must be more to the story on who she is, not to mention that everyone has issues they're trying to deal with in their lives and she might be struggling to handle on how society sees her.
Now, the Drama Club had been called to the auditorium and we were going to receive an award for all the hard work we did so an announcement had happened and we were standing on stage while the Headmaster was speaking to us while the audience was watching us.
"All of you on this stage overcame the differences and challenges among species so, therefore, you have earned a prestigious prize. Your contributions have led Cherryton to thrive and prosper, which is why we have gathered here today so I can present the Cherryton Honor Award to you all," Headmaster Gon praised as he handed Louis the award and every student in the audience cheered while I was just standing with the other Drama Club members and holding a stoic expression.
"I expect another successful year ahead for the Drama Club," Headmaster Gon told Louis, who nodded with a calm smile.
"Of course, senpai, you can count on it," Louis agreed and he turned around while everyone in their seats stopped clapping and he announced, "Co-existence and co-prosperity, our Drama Club will continue to demonstrate its glory on this stage."
The students clapped and cheered again while I was eyeing Louis, not knowing what to think about him since he displays the charismatics of a leader but was also an asshole so I didn't know whether to respect or dislike him as Legosi gently flew down next to me and appeared thoughtful.
"The audience is moved by his words...amazing," Legosi commented in astonishment and I looked at him out of the corner of my eye to acknowledge what he said.
After that, we headed back to the club and I was busy working on the lights with Kai while he was currently complaining about what Louis said on stage.
"Coexistence? What a fucking joke!" Kai spat harshly and I shot him a look while we were sitting in the rafters and taking a break.
"Keep your damn voice down, okay?" I suggested calmly and Kai glared at me.
"He kicked me off the actor team so what do I care who hears!" Kai snapped as I saw the actors practicing below us and we stood up before heading to the railing and rested our arms on it as we watched the actors practice.
"I'm not as bitter as I was before, though," Kai admitted with a sigh.
"I'm glad to hear it," I said as I kept eye contact with the actors.
"I was wondering, have you ever thought about joining the actor team?" Kai asked and I was taken aback slightly by the unexpected question.
"What, me? Not really...anyway, the lights need a little adjusting," I changed the subject as I backed away from the railing and headed to the spotlights.
"Then, you must've been surprised when you were scouted by the Adviser," Kai pressed and I frowned.
"I'm sorry?" I questioned in confusion.
"You can only join this club if they scout you and it's exclusive to those who are worthy to represent the Drama Club," Kai clarified and I started adjusting one of the spotlights.
"Okay, but what do they judge you on?" I inquired curiously and Kai chuckled.
"Come on, don't tell me you joined the Drama Club without knowing any of this...for example, let's take Sheila from the dance team where at age fourteen, that cheetah was scouted while she worked part-time as a dominatrix at a BDSM club to make ends meet.
Mina the giraffe can't look at her own body because she's got trypophobia, Moro the rhino believe he sees his spirit animal when it's really his own horns in his line of sight, and in case you're wondering about me, I'm a mongoose who was abandoned at birth and raised by a family of hyenas so the list goes on and on.
The Drama Club is a mixture of unusual characters, so only those with unique circumstances can join. Basically, it operates with the general theme of exposing life for what it really is...so, Legosi, what's your secret?" Kai wondered and I froze up slightly as I looked at him with an unreadable expression.
"What's my secret?" I muttered as I recalled about my previous life and became lost in thought while I stared at Louis as he practiced.
'If everyone here has some kind of secret, then what is Louis keeping to himself? A deer with a spotless reputation holding a dark secret from everyone...I wonder, is there a reason that I wound up in this world? Is it some kind of bullshit like God's plan?
God? God abandoned my world a long time ago after we killed ninety-nine percent of the human population in a blaze of nuclear fire so I doubt God gives a shit about me if that's the case,' I thought cynically while I went back to work.
After I was done with the spotlights, I continued the day as usual until the sun started setting and now I had arrived at Louis' office before knocking on the door, just as there was no response and I let myself in to see Louis kneeling on the floor and he turned his head to see me entering the office.
"Excuse me," I announced and caught a glimpse of Louis quickly grabbing something next to him and hiding it as he stood up and shot me a look that I couldn't figure out, then he headed to his chair until he sat down and stared at me with a pointed expression.
"Don't you knock?" Louis questioned irritably and I rubbed the back of my head with a pensive expression.
"I tried knocking but you didn't respond so I was a little concerned that something happened to you," I replied honestly as I gazed at Louis.
"What do you want?" Louis inquired and I cleared my throat.
"Um, I wanted to finalize tomorrow's lighting," I answered thoughtfully.
"Oh, you're in charge of that," Louis muttered and I didn't know if he was being condescended or not.
"Well, at yesterday's rehearsal, I focused on adjusting the spotlights even tighter on the last scene for a dramatic event," I explained and Louis arched a nonexistent brow.
"Yeah, I noticed," Louis stated.
"Was that better for you? Personally, I think that since it's the final scene, I'd think that I'd want some sort of lingering air to it but I wanted to know your opinion first before I make a decision about it," I explained and Louis adjusted in his seat before resting his head in his hand.
"Your body becomes aggressive every chance it gets...it's unpleasant," Louis pointed out and I quickly clasped my hands behind my back.
"Sorry about that, I clip my nails every day but they keep growing back sharp the next day," I apologized sheepishly as I avoided eye contact with an embarrassed look, then Louis suddenly stood up and started approaching me with a glare.
"You're saying that you can't resist it? Those feral instincts? You're struggling to keep them inside, is that it?" Louis questioned as I was forced to back up with an uncomfortable expression until Louis pushed me against the wall with a single hand and pinned me there while Legosi was appearing just as uneasy.
"H-Hey, what the hell are you doing?" I asked while looking tense but Louis ignored the question.
"There's something I've been meaning to ask you for a while...why don't you take responsibility for who you are? If you can't hide it completely, I'd rather you show me your true self," Louis stated as he put his other hand around my neck and I decided that it was time to leave.
"Okay, I think I'm gonna leave now so let me go," I demanded with narrowed eyes and Louis smirked.
"There it is again, the look of a killer in your eyes so how about you show me the monster within you," Louis suggested and I glared at him for trying to push me into doing something stupid.
"You don't wanna do this, now let me go," I warned coldly and Louis scoffed in disgust.
"You're still holding yourself back...how pathetic, now show me your fangs," Louis ordered and I gritted my teeth while keeping my mouth closed.
"Carnivores exposing their fangs to herbivores is illegal so quit it-" I started to say and was rudely interrupted.
"I'm not just another fucking herbivore! Don't hold back now, large carnivores like you piss me off the most," Louis hissed as his hand rose up from my neck and started forcing my mouth open.
"Quit pretending and come at me with everything you got...go ahead, Legosi, bite me!" Louis shouted as he forced my mouth open and I trembled with my stress rising until I gently bit down without breaking his skin and Louis' eyes softened before I pushed him away.
"Get off!" I spat viciously as I staggered away from him and rested my hands on my knees as I breathed heavily, then I looked at him with a nasty glare.
"I'm not hiding my true self just so I can pretend, I'm hiding it because no one can ever see what I'm capable of...don't push me again because that's a road that you don't want to go down on. Listen, wolves are strong, but something about you is different and I admit that I respect you for being strong, even if you can be an asshole at times.
Tomorrow, everyone's coming to see that, to see that pure strength so be sure that fractured ankle is taken care of before it gets worse than it already is," I told him as I headed to the door and placed a hand on the knob before pausing.
"One more thing, you're right when you said that there's something different about me but you really don't want to go down that road, trust me," I warned until left the office and exited the building.
I was in the Library at a lone table in the back area for privacy and teaching Legosi what romance and sex were by looking it up on Zoozle on his laptop but he was having difficulties trying to grasp the concept and I took it slow so that he would have a better understanding of it.
"So, romance is something where you feel an attachment to somebody that's completely different from how you see someone as a friend?" Legosi asked curiously and I looked around to make sure no one was nearby before looking at him.
"It's a bit more complicated than that but I suppose you might look at it that way...basically, some of the biology classes I took when I was a kid explained that love is a chemical reaction in the brain but there are many different theories as to what love is," I whispered as I shut off the laptop and closed it while Legosi appeared to be pondering what I told him.
"Let me get this straight, the reason why that rabbit wanted to have sex with you is that she loves you?" Legosi questioned with an expression of pure confusion and embarrassment as I shook my head.
"That wasn't love...listen, some girls have sex with boys because they either become addicted to the rush of endorphins, or they do it because they feel some kind of self-loathing and sex is the only way to experience a sense of control in their lives," I clarified just as the PA system came on.
"Attention all students, today is Territory Day. All students who still haven't used up their territory time, please move to the basement as soon as possible," the Headmaster announced as I looked up with an expression of surprise.
'That's right, I nearly forgot that was today,' I thought in realization as I stood up and put the laptop in my backpack.
When I first heard about Territory Day on the PA system a couple of weeks after I arrived in this world, Legosi explained that it was a custom where the animals in this world spend one hour in a room that matches their individual environment every two days so that it helps to ease the stress of everyday life. I was curious about it and decided to see what it was about to keep my cover, then I spent one hour in the wolf room and was fascinated by how the device on the ceiling can simulate moonlight and how it brings a sense of relaxation.
The mechanical engineer in me wanted to see how the machine worked but I didn't go through with taking it apart because of how much trouble I would get into with the faculty for messing with school property so I let it go and decided to enjoy the room whenever Territory Day is announced, not to mention that it was a great place to think whenever I needed time to myself.
"Hey, Legosi, just starting, huh?" a male lion inquired after he left the lion room with his friends and I looked at him while I was approaching the wolf room.
"Yeah, so how did it go?" I asked and the lion smiled.
"Oh, we just slept under the shade of a tree," the lion replied and I nodded with a wave as I entered the wolf room with other members of Legosi's species.
After that, I was staring up at the artificial moon and feeling peaceful while Legosi was hovering near me and staring at the artificial moon with a sense of longing and I felt sympathy for him since he was unable to enjoy everything life had to offer anymore and I knew that there had to be a way for him to get his body back but I genuinely didn't know where to start and it wasn't like I could ask anyone for help because no one would believe me and there wasn't a way to prove it either.
"Nothing beats bathing in the moonlight, right Legosi?" a wolf told me and I nodded with a thoughtful frown as I recalled the scent of medicated compress on Louis' foot and his aggressive attitude, which made me wonder what was bothering him to cause his hatred against me.
"So, do you guys think that rabbits really live on the moon?" a female wolf inquired and I stared at her strangely from the bizarre question.
"How the hell are they suppose to breathe up there?" the male wolf questioned as I went back to looking up at the artificial moon and thought about the rabbit girl.
That was the first time I had ever been treated like that and it wasn't a bad thing, it made me feel different in a good way and what I told Louis made me think about how broken I was after 13 years of pure hell and how I just wanted peace but now I had reincarnated in a new world and was going through whole new problems so I didn't know if it was a string of bad luck or if I was fated to have tragedy and despair follow me wherever I go.
I stood up from my seat and as I looked at my reflection in the mirror on my right, I knew the answer now...I was a hardened survivor that suffered from years of torment, faced so many tragic events, and nearly lost my sanity, but some part of me wondered if I was here for a reason and if there was a second chance for me in this new life.
"What's up, Legosi?" the male wolf asked and I looked at him.
"Hmm? Well, I'm leaving," I replied and he blinked at that.
"Seriously? But it hasn't been an hour yet," the male wolf pointed out in confusion and I shrugged.
"I just feel like taking a walk to clear my head so I'm leaving," I stated as I headed to the exit and left the wolf room.
I headed out of the basement and hummed softly as I walked up a flight of stairs and approached a balcony before peering out with my arms resting on the stone and staring at the sunset calmly as Legosi was looking at me in confusion.
"Connor, are you okay?" Legosi asked and I made eye contact with an unreadable expression.
"Yeah...I'm fine," I replied quietly and went back to gazing outside while something rose up in me.
'What is this feeling I'm experiencing? I feel like I saw a glimpse of a part of myself that I thought was long gone and that I'm at a brighter place, feeling like there's a drive that's giving me a purpose again,' I thought while my lips formed into a ghost of a smile.
"Connor...my tail," Legosi gasped and I looked behind me to see my tail wagging gently and I felt realization as I looked back outside.
'I get it now, I'm truly happy...for the first time in 13 years, I'm genuinely happy like I've found a reason to keep going in this world so I'm going to accept this other feeling. I want to see that girl again,' I thought as my eyes softened and took a soulful expression and I knew Legosi could see just how tired and broken I was after years of survival.
A couple of hours later, the performance was being prepped and I was in the rafters with a headset as I waited for the go-ahead while Louis was giving a big speech to the actors and then they all got ready while I was watching.
"Connor, what Louis-senpai said earlier, it sounded like he was telling it to himself," Legosi pointed out and I nodded as I looked at him.
"Yeah...but why is the question," I muttered just as I was contacted by Kai.
"Louis' makeup is almost done so how's the lighting?" Kai inquired.
"Spotlight A is set," I reported and just as I said that, the curtain rose and I turned on the spotlight before Louis sprinted out in his Adler outfit and he slid down onto one knee, just as I caught him stumbling slightly and I frowned in concern since it looked like he could barely stand straight.
As the play started, I watched the performance and it never ceases to surprise me that Louis had a talent for it and as the final scene was going to end, my spotlight was pinpointed at Louis and Ellen while he took her hands.
"You followed me here, Ellen!" Louis gasped in fake horror as he pulled her into a hug and continued, "What have you done?! Being with you is my true desire...I'm the Grim Reaper and I'll prove my love through death!"
Just as he declared that, Ellen slid out of his arms and fell to his lap as he finished mournfully, "Ellen, you have bid farewell to this world."
The audience cheered as they gave a big round of applause and the curtain started closing, then the stage was almost covered when Louis suddenly collapsed unexpectedly and my eyes widened in shock as I stood up and took off my headset. I headed to the ladder and slid down it while everyone quickly headed over to Louis to check on him, just as I rushed over and moved Bill out of the way as I kneeled to see if Louis was okay.
I remembered his injury and moved his pant leg aside to check on it before I could see an ugly purple mark under his fur that wasn't covered by the bandages and I looked at Bill.
"Bill, notify the nurse and tell her that I'm bringing Louis to the infirmary," I instructed as I put one arm under Louis' legs and his arm around my shoulders, then Bill nodded and rushed into the back area as I gently picked up Louis and did a fast jog to the infirmary while making sure not to jostle his ankle against anything and hoped that he didn't have an infection.
A/N I have returned everybody. Sorry, I know you all were waiting for what happened next but I was waiting until the Netflix English dub came out and I binged the anime so that I could get my groove back again.
I've looked at the reviews and saw that a few of you had concerns that I was following canon, but let me put your fears at rest and say that I will be making changes and the only reason why there weren't any big changes to the story is that there weren't any huge events that would be changed but that doesn't mean that events won't go differently than what was seen in canon.
Anyway, I have a question and what do you think Connor's voice actors in Japanese dub and English dub would be like if he was added to the manga and anime. It would have to be people that are good at performing as a quiet and broken man so let me know your answer, tell me what you think about this chapter, and stay tuned.
