It had been three whole days since I discovered Louis' secret relationship with Haru and I had spent all that time mostly pissed and depressed while sometimes freezing up whenever I would see Haru or Louis nearby while flashbacks of the Wasteland would happen, causing everyone around me to mutter or voice their concerns about me but I ignored what they were saying until those three days had passed and now it was time to light up the statues.

When the dino statues were turned on, everyone let out amazed gasps and talked to each other while I was washing my hands and then their voices became muffled as I paused when the tap water suddenly turned into blood and time slowed down before my environment changed to a classroom while I was ripping Louis apart with uncontrollable snarling and growling as Haru laid nearby just as dead while I feasted on Louis' dead body, then the corpse unexpectedly grabbed me and sat up with the rest of its internal organs spilling out as the body looked at me with no expression in his eyes that were glazed over.

"You killed us and now you must pay," Louis stated with an empty tone of voice as Haru rose up from the ground and stumbled over like a zombie until they both lunged at me, then I gasped and moaned as they ripped into me and felt my limbs being ripped off one at a time with my abdomen torn open and my internal organs being pulled out while blood soaked the walls.

Haru and I kissed while I was moaning and feeling nothing but pleasure from getting killed in such a horrific manner before I snapped out of it with a gasp as the area snapped back to the park while I held my hands under the tap as they had gotten soaked and I noticed that someone was shaking my shoulder, causing me to look and see that it was Kibi as he stared at me in concern.

"Hey, you were staring off into space for a long time so I wanted to let you know that we're heading back to school since it's getting dark," Kibi told me and I sighed as I turned off the tap and stood up.

"Alright, let me go find someone first and I'll meet you back at school," I said quietly as I gently flung the water off my hands and walked away before Kibi could respond, then I moved through the park until I saw Haru at her booth and walked up until I was right behind her and I started breathing heavily with my wolf instincts demanding that I claim her as my mate as she turned and looked up at me.

"Hello...Haru-san," I breathed out with a dark aura surrounding me and the shadows from our surroundings made me look a bit menacing while I appeared tense and twitchy.

"Um, hello Legosi-chan," Haru greeted hesitantly and I realized what I was doing before having the urge to slap myself for being an idiot and I immediately knelt down in front of her so that I would stop scaring her.

"So, how have you been?" I inquired with an uncertain look and Haru shrugged.

"I'm doing just fine, though I can see that you didn't go back home either," Haru pointed out and I looked down at the ground with a frown.

"No...Haru, why don't we head back together?" I offered uncomfortably as I gripped one of my knees and could see Haru tilting her head with a puzzled expression.

"Sure, but why?" Haru asked in confusion and I slowly looked up at her with my eyes slightly bloodshot.

"Because it's extremely dangerous being out here on your own, you know?" I rasped while one of my eyes twitched, causing Haru to sweatdrop as she agreed and we headed back to the station until we went down the steps and I made slight eye-contact with Haru before quickly looking away as everything became very awkward quickly while we arrived at the station and waited for our train to arrive at the platform.

"Legosi, ever since I first met you, I always felt like I could never read you," Haru admitted and I looked at her.

"Really?" I wondered and recalled her trying to have sex with me before I blushed and evaded, "Uh, it was a hot day today and it's supposed to be cooler tomorrow so it should be nicer."

"Hey, how come we never talk about it, about what happened that day? I tried to have sex with you the very first day we met and now that we're friends, we can just laugh it off," Haru told me and I grimaced.

"Honestly, it's easier said than done since that day was a pretty shocking one and I've been trying to process it, though I eventually decided to ignore it because it was too stressful to deal with...look, all I want is for you to value yourself and you really don't have to give yourself away like that," I confessed solemnly and Haru looked away.

"To be honest, it doesn't sound so convincing coming from you and you'll never understand how it is to feel as if you're always close to dying...I could get killed by a carnivore at any time before experiencing what true love is.

Since you don't have that kind of fear, you'll never understand how I feel at all," Haru stated as a train passed us and I frowned bitterly since I know exactly what it's like to be close to dying and I already died once before winding up in this world, then I saw Haru about to walk away and I sighed.

"Wait, just...listen, everyone goes through problems in their lives but there's no reason to degrade yourself in such a manner because you deserve better," I called out to her and she turned around with a scowl.

"What the hell do you know? You have no idea what it's like feeling so weak all the time and have people treat you like you're something fragile that will break if something were to happen to you, something you will never understand because you've been strong your entire life," Haru snapped irritably and I looked away from her.

"You're wrong, I've been through some pretty bad situations in my life and it made me vulnerable while I'm still struggling to deal with it so I understand more than anyone what it's like to feel what you're feeling," I argued and the air became tense as we started glaring at each other.

"Maybe you have problems, but you haven't been through what I have so don't you dare pity me or think I need to hold your hand because I don't need help, especially from a carnivore who thinks he can judge me!" Haru shouted and I started clenching my fists.

"It's not pity, it's called being a concerned friend and I'm not judging you at all because my problems are a lot worse than yours so what you went through is nothing compared to what I've experienced and you have no right to think so little of yourself when everyone goes through what you're going through or worse!" I spat darkly as I tried to keep my temper under control and prevent myself from saying something I'll regret, then I noticed that we had drawn a crowd with herbivores looking at me nervously and carnivores glared at me suspiciously while calling for help.

"Sir, you need to help her!" a gazelle cried to a male cat wearing a security uniform, who had walked over to see what the commotion was and glared at me.

"Hey, wolf, what the hell are you doing to that rabbit?!" the officer interrogated harshly before I tensed up while putting my hands in my pockets and avoided eye-contact.

"I don't want any trouble so I'm just going to leave," I said quietly and turned around to walk away while keeping my head low.

"Hey, you're not going anywhere now don't walk away!" the officer demanded as his hand grabbed my arm roughly, then the combination of the stress of finding out Haru's secret relationship with Louis, the horrific visions I've been witnessing, and the paranoia of being surrounded and shouted at just boiled over in seconds.

Suddenly, I found myself in the ruined DC subway system before my training kicked in and I spun around before grabbing the raider's arm and twisting it behind his back as he yelled in pain and I threw him into a nearby wall until he slammed his head against it with a loud crack ringing out as his nose was broken by the force, then I dropped him as scared clamoring broke out and I snapped out of it to see the crowd backing away from me with looks of fear in their eyes and another security officer charged at me.

"Haru, run!" I shouted as I grabbed her arm and forced her to run with me as the horse yelled for me to stop while I looked back to see the cat joining him with his hand over his bloody nose.

"Legosi, what were you thinking?! Because of what you did, they're going to call the police and have you arrested for assault if they don't catch you first!" Haru scolded as she ran forward and wound up dragging me along with her.

"I wasn't thinking and I didn't want to hurt him, I just reacted when he grabbed me!" I exclaimed as we kept running and ignored the security officers as they ordered us to stop.

"That doesn't matter, carnivores can be arrested for even showing the slightest aggression to herbivores and you assaulting and nearly killing that security officer will give them all the excuse they need to throw you into juvie or prison if they charge you as an adult!" Haru stated loudly as we pushed our way through people, causing them to let out protests as we kept running.

"Careful, I might kick you by accident!" I yelped frantically as I apologized to anyone we pushed past and Haru looked back at me.

"You know, I can't figure you out since I can't tell if you're kind or just plain rude!" Haru groaned in exasperation.

"Um, actually, I'm just trying to figure things out myself while you and I are different in so many ways that we really need to talk it out!" I shouted as my breathing was getting heavy from running and my lungs started burning.

"Don't worry about me, you just need to run at full speed and get in front or we'll both get arrested so hurry!" Haru encouraged as I looked uncertain at first, but then I narrowed my eyes in determination and picked up an extra burst of speed as I passed Haru and looked back at her.

At that moment, in all that time I was around her and all the time I've been in love with her, I was actually proud to be a wolf for the first time since I arrived in this world and I had no idea where this life will take me, or how people will see me in this broken world, but a path other than killing and surviving is opening up for me and I just have to keep moving forward as I sent a small smile at Haru and focused on running as we managed to avoid the security officers and took cover in one of the bathrooms that were meant for smaller animals before hiding in one of the stalls.


After that, we remained quiet while I was cramped and hunched over behind Haru as we squatted on the toilet and I made sure to plant my hands on both sides of the stall while one of the security officers checked the bathroom and was called back until he left, then Legosi flew through the door until his transparent head was poking in and he informed me that it was clear before I let out a quiet sigh of relief.

"Hey, I don't hear anything so we should go," Haru said but that wasn't on my mind right now since I wanted to ask her something.

"Haru-chan, even at this moment, do you feel like you're close to dying? Are you afraid of me after what you saw me do to that security officer?" I questioned quietly and Haru remained quiet for a short time, which wasn't a good sign until she huffed.

"We already talked about that and I can't tell if you're being rude or if you really are kind because you scare people when you talk like that, not to mention that you can be violent sometimes," Haru stated as she elbowed me in the stomach and we got out of the stall.

After we managed to sneak onto a train and headed back to the school district without being found by security, Haru and I headed to a convenience store to buy a water bottle for me and a carrot juice for her until we found ourselves in a park near the school and sat down on a bench to take a short break.

"You know, I read in a magazine once that carnivores are more popular if they act more cheerful, but it kind of makes sense in a way so don't you agree?" Haru asked and I nodded.

"Yeah, I guess so," I muttered as I became lost in thought and remembered nearly killing her in the school's courtyard a month ago.

'She sounds like she's having a good time, which is good but I just can't hide it anymore since it's eating me alive...that settles it, I don't care if it causes serious consequences, I need to tell her about that night so that I can get it off my chest and not have any regrets anymore,' I thought as I tensed up and was about to confess when I was interrupted.

"Actually, I was almost killed by a carnivore a while ago myself and I didn't see who it was since it was really dark out and it was at school...see this? The first day we met, my arm was covered in bandages, remember?

I said I didn't remember how it happened, but that was a lie and I'm so relieved that I didn't die or I wouldn't have met a friendly wolf like you. So, to answer your previous question, I didn't feel like my life was in danger at all, even if I saw you attack that security officer unexpectedly so why don't you cheer up and give me a smile," Haru stated as she patted my back while I froze and kept looking at her until I felt like shouting my head off in frustration.

'Dammit, I can't tell her because now isn't the right time and if I do tell her, then she won't ever want to be friends anymore and until the time is right, I'll just live with it until then,' I thought as we finished our drinks and dumped our trash in a nearby bin before we walked back to school and stopped at the front gate.

"Haru-chan, thanks for everything today," I told her and she smiled at me.

"Don't thank me, just enjoy yourself so smile," Haru told me and I was at loss for words before showing her an awkward smile and she chuckled.

"Seriously, is it really that hard? Come on, you can do better than that," Haru encouraged and I hoped that things will stay like this between us as we headed back to our dorms and said our goodnights before I went to bed.


Once time had passed by until it was nearly two weeks later, I had continued my regular routine with going to class and drama club before I checked the lights today to see that they were operating 100% until I spotted Louis walking in with his left hand bandaged up, something I heard about Bill being responsible but that didn't matter since I started glaring at him darkly and went down the ladder before approaching him from behind without making any noise.

"I heard about what Bill did to you, so I hope it doesn't leave a scar," I told him coldly and Louis turned around to glare right back at me as the air became cold from tension.

"It's certainly nothing compared to your back and you've been looking at me like you want to rip my throat out, so I'm getting sick of it and what is your problem? If you have something to say, then say it," Louis snapped irritably, though I could tell that he was becoming unsettled by the look of murder that was on my face judging by his body language and micro-expressions.

"Nope, nothing to say at all," I responded with my voice eerily calm as the other club members started muttering to each other about us.

"Look, don't bring your personal issues into the club and this goes for the rest of you because the festival's just around the corner and we're not even close to being ready, so you all better be giving a flawless performance right now," Louis told us and the other members groaned slightly while I was struggling to hold myself back from ripping his head off right there and then until the doors opened.

"Sorry I'm late, there was a sloth who needed to use the restroom so I had to carry her there," Juno announced and everyone looked at her before the other members of the actor's team walked over to her and they met up while chatting to each other until I walked away from Louis while sending him one last glare before I stood with the other members of the stage crew until Juno spotted me.

"Oh, Legosi, I saw the dinosaur sculpture in the plaza, and thanks to the art department's hard work, the actor's team can do their best and dance their hearts out!" Juno cheered and I hummed in acknowledgment.

"Well, I'm glad to hear that," I stated and noticed that the other stage crew members were eyeballing me for some reason but I didn't want to ask since it would probably be another headache I would have to deal with.

"Hey, don't you dare try and take our Juno-chan all for yourself," Kibi warned quietly and I sent him a puzzled look for his strange behavior.

"Kibi, the fuck are you talking about?" I questioned in sheer confusion and he didn't respond, causing me to ignore him so that I wouldn't have to deal with whatever the hell was going on.

As I watched Juno inspiring everyone on the actor's team to come together and work hard for the festival, I was impressed that she had become so popular with them so quickly and it made me think about how Haru might've been right about how carnivores are more likely to be well-liked if they were cheerful, but I had dealt with too many horrors and tragedies to the point that I couldn't feel happy or cheerful anymore and I hated being this angry and tormented man who's mentally broken.

While the day continued until we headed to the park and it became dark, I wondered if there was ever any hope for me since I knew that the person I used to be in the Vault is long gone and I have no idea if I'll ever recover from what I've been through for 13 years, not after the amount of blood I have on my hands and what had been done to me while my soul was tainted in darkness but I couldn't keep thinking about what I could've done differently or I would lose what's left of my remaining sanity.

"Legosi, you have a split-end on your tail," Kibi notified me and I looked at him while we were sitting next to the other drama club members.

"Well, don't yank it out and I'll deal with it once I head back to my dorm room," I said as I moved his hands away from my tail and Dom approached us.

"Alright, let's head back to school since it's already late and Louis-senpai is already gone," Dom told us and Fudge sighed.

"Dom-san, how the hell do you have so much energy?" Fudge wondered with a sweatdrop as Juno showed up.

"Excuse me, I just wanted to say thank you for your patience and the actor's team is ready to go as well," Juno informed us and Kibi smiled warmly.

"Hey, nice to see you again and thanks for letting us know," Kibi said and Juno nodded before she turned her attention on me.

"Legosi, the rehearsal went really well today and it was all thanks to you so I'm very grateful," Juno complimented and everyone looked at me while I shrank a little from all the attention that was on me before I cleared my throat.

"No, um, you're the one we should thank so we should head back," I changed the subject and the others agreed before I stood up and put on my backpack until Juno let out an uncertain noise.

"So, I see that the meteor is already finished," Juno pointed out nervously and I arched a brow at her odd reaction before I looked at the object in question and nodded in agreement.

"Yeah, it sure looks that way," I commented as Juno came closer and stood next to me.

"Well, the festival is in two days and it looks so pretty...you know, the legend says that the couple who lights a candle and place it in the meteor together, their love would prosper for all eternity so do you believe in that?" Juno asked and I frowned thoughtfully since I wasn't sure I believed in something like that, but spirits and aliens exist so anything was possible.

"Hmm, the jury's still out on that one so I don't really know, but it would be interesting if it was true...huh, their love would prosper for all eternity," I muttered and thought about Haru as I wondered how she was doing right now since I talked to her earlier and she didn't need help at the moment.

"U-Um, Legosi...if it's okay with you, will you be able to-" Juno started to ask and was promptly cut off when all the lights around us shut off and people started screaming in alarm while running around in a panic.

"W-What's going on?" Juno wondered anxiously as my night vision kicked in and I looked around feeling fully alert while my senses became heightened.

"Remain calm, it's a blackout and we need to find the others," I stated as I saw the others standing nearby and gestured for Juno to follow me before we jogged over to them.

"Hey, is everyone okay?!" I called out in concern and the others looked in my direction.

"Legosi, where are you?" Dom asked uneasily as Juno and I stopped in front of the others.

"Don't worry, Juno-san and I are here so I'm going to put my hand out," I reassured as I reached out my hand and Dom took it.

"Thank god, now what the hell is going on?" Dom inquired.

"I think it's a blackout but remain calm and do not panic so let's gather everyone together for now with the herbivores in the middle while the carnivores form a protective circle around them," I instructed calmly and everyone did what I said as I kept my eyes open for any potential ambushes.

"Hey, how many of us came here today?" Aoba asked and I racked my brain until I gasped with my eyes wide in horror as I remembered that Haru was here and is most likely scared out of her mind, then the fear of her getting kidnapped or killed by carnivores prompted me into action as I separated from the group and looked back at Aoba.

"Aoba, there's someplace I need to be, so keep the others safe while I'm gone," I told him before I sprinted away while he called for me in disbelief, but I ignored it and rushed over to Haru's booth until I made it.

"Haru-chan!? Haru-chan, it's Legosi!" I called out as I looked through the booth and didn't find her anywhere while frustration and desperation rose in me while I gritted my teeth.

"Dammit, where the fuck is she?!" I shouted and Legosi quickly flew over.

"Connor, calm down because panicking won't help so use my sense of smell to find her," Legosi suggested helpfully and I took a few deep breaths to calm down before I closed my eyes and focused on the scents all around me.

'He's right, I need to stay calm and focus...got it,' I thought as I just picked up a faint trail of Haru's scent through the flowers and started tracking it.

I followed the scent around the park while people were running aimlessly in a panic and soon knelt down on all fours to sniff the ground like a feral dog as the scent started getting fresher, then I looked up to discover that the scent led to one of the trees nearby before I stood up and squinted my eyes to get a better look until I saw a small figure hiding behind the tree and I smiled while letting out a sigh of pure relief until I rushed over to where Haru was hiding.

"Thank god-" I started to say and was cut off.

"Louis-kun, I knew you'd come for me!" Haru cried out as she got up and rushed over to hug me, just as something in me cracked from hearing that and I just stood there while pure unbridled hurt filled me and my heart clenched tightly as the lights turned back on and Haru noticed that she wasn't hugging who she thought it was as she looked up at me.

"Legosi, I'm terribly sorry about that and talk about embarrassing," Haru admitted as she let go and backed away a few steps, then I knelt down in front of her and showed an empty smile.

"It's fine, I'm just relieved that you're safe," I reassured and Haru looked at me.

"But, I really couldn't see anything since it was so dark," Haru said awkwardly and I waved a hand to let her know that I wasn't offended.

"I know and are you hurt? I can see that your uniform is dirty so take this," I offered as I took out a handkerchief from my back pocket and held it out for her to take.

"Oh, I couldn't and I'm sorry," Haru told me and I shook my head.

"Don't worry, just use this," I encouraged and Haru hesitantly took the handkerchief.

"Thank you," Haru told me and I nodded.

As I continued to talk to Haru, there was no denying that I felt completely heartbroken at the knowledge of never getting into a relationship with her and I suppose that it was fitting for me since I had committed many sins in my past life and was now destined to always be alone in a broken world that feared and hated me for being a wolf, something that hurt in a way that I almost couldn't bear it and I resigned myself at the fact that I'll always be a lonely outsider in a world that didn't want me.


A/N Ouch, poor Connor and now he is close to his breaking point where just one more bad day will push him over the edge and he'll lose it completely, something that I don't think the world of Beastars will ever be prepared for since Connor is practically unstoppable with his skills and a wolf's body so everyone around him has no idea that he has become a ticking time bomb that will explode at the slightest thing.

Anyway, as for Connor attacking the security officer, the lesson for the day is never to grab a hardened survivor with 13 years of hellish experiences while his back is turned and he's in a fragile state since that's one good way of getting seriously injured or killed, so that's another change in canon since Haru witnesses Connor's violent side and how frightening it can be but she hasn't seen what he's really capable of so she got lucky there.

So, let me know what you think about this chapter and stay tuned.