I was walking down the hall that led to Tem's memorial and sighed as I was feeling completely depressed and didn't know what to do anymore, just as I tapped the back of my head with the soda can that was in my hand and made a face.
'Shit, it's been three months since Tem was murdered so what the fuck are the police doing? There's been no report of them arresting anyone and they had canine detectives at the scene at the time so it's like they're sitting around with their thumbs up their asses,' I thought in frustration since it would normally take a few days to a couple of weeks to solve a murder and it was pissing me off that they appeared to be doing nothing.
At that moment, I remembered the conversation Tem and I had in the locker room before thinking about a person's true feelings and how it was apparent that Haru loved Louis, something that hurt greatly since I love her, and finding out about her feelings for him made me felt like I was all alone in a world that didn't want me but it also made me think that they might've loved each other before I met her so that made me feel even worse.
"Connor, you look even gloomier than usual so are you okay?" Legosi asked in concern and hearing how worried he was made me feel better slightly since it was nice to have someone be there for me, even if I pretty much stole his life from him.
"No, but thanks for the concern and it's just...christ, I just don't know what to do anymore since it turns out that the girl I love is already with someone so that certainly stings like hell," I admitted with a grimace and Legosi sent me a sympathetic expression.
"Hey, I'm really sorry about that but I'm sure you'll find the right girl one day," Legosi reassured and I groaned at that.
"That's just it, there is no other right girl and I certainly don't feel anything for Juno since she appears to be more clingy with me for some odd reason but it's fine, I'm used to being alone for 13 years so it doesn't bother me," I muttered as I was about to turn at the next corner that led to Tem's memorial and spotted Louis kneeling in front of the memorial, causing me to duck into a nearby classroom and I quietly shut the door before scowling in displeasure.
'Dammit, of all the people I really don't want to see right now, it just had to be him though I wonder...' I thought as Legosi hummed thoughtfully.
"Connor, since everyone tends to stay away from that area, I bet nobody knows that Louis-senpai continues to bring flowers for Tem," Legosi pointed out and I nodded in agreement until I let out a quiet sigh.
"Damn, I wasn't expecting him to keep coming here since the only time I saw him at the memorial was just after Tem's murder," I muttered in surprise before I noticed something just outside the door and peered outside to see a jaguar kneeling before he stood up with a quiet growl as Louis passed us.
Seeing the murderous intent in his body language, I knew that I had to do something fast before this guy kills Louis so I opened the door and tackled the guy into another hallway as he was about to pounce on Louis, then we hit the floor before I restrained him with my arm around his neck and my legs wrapped around his torso so that he couldn't break free while he was biting my arm and I listened very carefully as Louis seemed to stop for a minute until he continued walking away and I waited until he was gone so that I could get some answers.
'This guy just tried to kill Louis and even though I have mixed feelings about him right now, I don't want him dead so time to get this guy to talk,' I thought as I moved my arm away from his mouth and glared down at him while he struggled.
"Fuck, I'm sorry so let me go! Shit, when did Louis get a bodyguard?!" the jaguar exclaimed while I kept him restrained and used my free hand to grab his tail so that I could yank it before he let out a pained yelp.
"I'm not his bodyguard, just a concerned student now tell me why you were going to kill him," I demanded as I unwrapped my legs and pinned him onto the ground with my hand on his head as I also gripped his tail and the jaguar just laughed.
"Well, if you're just a student, then I don't need to tell you shit, so just go and do some tricks for Louis," the jaguar insulted before he started yelling in pain as I pulled his tail.
"You know, I'm in a pretty foul fucking mood so if I were you, I wouldn't piss off the one guy who could rip out your tail so talk or you'll find yourself missing an appendage," I threatened with my voice eerily calm and the jaguar seemed to understand that I wasn't making an idle threat before he froze.
"Alright, you crazy bastard, I'll talk! Come on, you're a carnivore so you should know there are a lot of us out there who want to lynch Louis right now...after the festival, it's pretty much confirmed that Louis is going to be the next Beastar so if that happens, then that'll cause the carnivores' social standing to suffer horribly so that's why I thought to make a name for myself by getting him first before that happens.
Hey, you're a wolf so you get it, right?" the jaguar questioned smugly and I frowned as I thought about my previous life before I died.
'That kid breaks up a brawl between a wolf and a tiger, has the best girl a guy could have, and pay his respects to a fellow student in secret but as for me...everything I touch withers and dies while I just kill people and make things worse.
I'm nothing more than a monster that should've gone to hell for what I've done when I died that day and I have no right to destroy Louis and Haru's relationship, and I'm just realizing what I should be doing right now...nobody else is worthy of becoming the Beastar so if carnivores are his enemy, then I'll ensure that Louis isn't killed by a lynch mob.
I have to give up on love and I'm used to being alone so it doesn't bother me as much as it should and I should let this guy know why killing Louis is a bad idea,' I thought as I sent the struggling jaguar a deadpanned expression.
"You are a fucking idiot and did you ever stop to think that maybe killing Louis-senpai would make things worse for us? Maybe you should've thought this through before you decided to kill the Beastar candidate and cause the entire school to be segregated," I pointed out dryly and the jaguar paused at that before I helped him up and let him go.
Suddenly, the jaguar turned around and tried to punch me but I quickly reacted by grabbing his fist and twisting his arm behind his back as I kneed him in the stomach as pinned him against the wall with my arm against his neck as he thrashed around and promptly yelped when I put pressure on his arm.
"Listen to me very carefully, I will break your arm if you try to deck me so don't do that again," I warned sternly as I let him go and backed away while the jaguar sent me a vicious glare as he clutched his stomach.
"There's no fucking way you can protect Louis all by yourself, dumbass!" the jaguar snarled before he took off running and I sighed as I scowled.
'Damn it, so much for vowing not to get into any conflict in this world but there's nothing I can do about that now and just have to bear with it,' I thought as I looked at Tem's memorial before walking over to it and kneeling down as I stared solemnly at his picture.
"Hey Tem, sorry it's been a while but I've been busy so I hope that you're happy, wherever you are and I just wanted to let you know that I haven't found your killer yet despite searching for any leads these past few months.
I don't understand why the police are doing nothing about this even though they should've solved this in just a couple of weeks...it's like they don't care or are just covering this up, but I'm not a cop so I don't know how they do these kinds of things so I hope that the killer is found soon.
Well, cheers buddy," I said as I took out my soda and opened it before holding it up and making a slight gesture like I was tapping it against something until I drank from the can and was finished soon after.
I stood up and sent a respectful nod to the memorial before I walked away, wondering if the killer will ever be found as I thought about Haru and decided to tell her how I really feel about her so that I could get it off my chest finally.
After that, I headed to where the festival was and walked over to Haru's booth until I saw her taking care of her flowers and I cleared my throat to get her attention.
"Haru-chan," I greeted as Haru turned around and she smiled at me as I kneeled in front of her.
"Hey Legosi, how are you today?" Haru asked and I shrugged as I sent her a small smile.
"Eh, can't complain since it's a nice day today," I stated and Haru nodded as I tried to get the courage to tell her how I feel.
"Well, it doesn't seem very safe outside since everyone's talking about how a carnivore caused the blackout last night so I'm glad nothing bad happened and what do you think, Legosi-kun?" Haru inquired and I started looking uncomfortable since it was time to tell her and I took in a deep breath.
"Um, the truth is that I think I'm in-" I started to confess and was cut off.
"Oh my, these mosquitoes are really vicious today!" Haru shouted suddenly as she frantically scratched herself self and my eyes became tiny dots while I blinked at her odd behavior.
"Uh, it's actually not that bad," I pointed out in confusion and Haru huffed.
"You can't see them," Haru told me and I sent her a puzzled look.
"Well, I can smell them and I would know if it's bad because they would be swarming me as well," I stated and Haru flinched at that before crossing her arms and puffing up her cheeks irritably.
"Good point, but they are bad today," Haru evaded and I frowned before clearing my throat.
"Anyway, as I was saying before, I really love-" I tried to confess again and was cut off again.
"Argh, my ears itch!" Haru interrupted and that's when I knew something was going on since it looks like she doesn't want to hear what I have to say, then she quickly walked away and I stood up to follow her.
"Okay, now I know you're doing that on purpose since you cut me off twice and you call me rude, now what's going on?" I questioned suspiciously and Haru looked back.
"Look, it's none of your business and why would you talk about this suddenly without any warning? You're so unbelievable sometimes that I just want to strangle you," Haru retorted as she tried to get away from me and I grabbed her arm to stop her.
"Haru-chan, I don't want my feeling for you to hurt our friendship in any way because I cherish you and I respect Louis-senpai...I don't want to cause any harm, especially with how society is right now so I want you to know how I feel and I'll tell you only once.
Listen, since the festival is tomorrow, let's meet right here at sunset because I want to tell you exactly how I feel...I get it if it's too sudden, but do you think by tomorrow that you would be ready for the two of us to talk it over?" I asked and Haru looked uncertain for a few seconds.
"O-Oh, okay," Haru answered hesitantly and I nodded.
"Alright, then I'll see you tomorrow," I stated as I smiled at her slightly and walked away.
As I walked around and took in the sights of how full of life the world is, I recalled my dad and felt remorseful that he was gone since he would've loved seeing all of this while I sighed solemnly and headed down a path until I spotted a few people crowded around something before hearing Haru's description get my attention and my ears perked up. Acting quickly, I climbed up a tree and knelt on a large branch so that no one could see me, then my blood ran cold when I heard that Haru had been kidnapped and saw one of the animals holding a black card with an insignia on it while one of them said the name Shishigumi.
Suddenly, almost all of them froze when they heard the name and muttered to each other quietly as I could see the Mayor approaching the group and asking about what was going on until he was given the calling card and his eyes hardened before reassuring them that he would take care of it before the group left, then the Mayor stared down at the card grimly until he ripped it in half and tore it up into many pieces before throwing them away and I felt fury and hot rage since I understood what he just did and was more than pissed that the Mayor was going to do nothing about this.
At that moment, I remembered Louis and realized that he knew nothing about what happened so I needed to notify him about the situation so that we could save Haru from potentially being killed, then I jumped down from the branch and landed onto the ground before taking off to where the festival was at and I searched everywhere for Louis, then I eventually found him standing near a tent looking very frustrated about something until I rushed over and grabbed his arm before he looked back in surprise.
"Louis-senpai, thank god I finally found you because something terrible had happened! Listen, Haru-chan was kidnapped by a gang called the Shishigumi and we need to save her before she's killed by them!" I explained frantically and was shocked when he shrugged my hand off his arm.
"Listen, it happens all the time so there's no saving her," Louis muttered as he walked away and I was stunned by how cold he was being about this.
"A-Are you fucking serious? That's your girlfriend you're talking about and we need to save her!" I cried in disbelief as I went after him and Louis scoffed.
"You want to go save her, be my guest," Louis stated dismissively and that was when I started feeling livid as I chuckled bitterly.
"Oh, I see, she was nothing but stress relief to you and the second you no longer need her, you just toss her away like she's garbage so you never loved her in the first place-" I spat harshly and was cut off from saying anything else when Louis backhanded me across the face and I stumbled back a couple of steps while I clutched my cheek.
"Don't you dare act like you know anything about me because you are a wolf pretending to be a nobody, nothing more than that and you'll never understand anything! There's nothing we can do about it because we can't cause a citywide panic just to save one girl.
You hide your true self from everyone and lie to fit in with society so we need to maintain peace, even if it's fake so just accept that Haru is gone and never coming back," Louis scolded as I lowered my hand, then something in me just snapped and I lost it completely as my eyes became dead and hollow while I walked up to Louis and placed my hands on his shoulders.
"I see...in that case, I'll show you my anger at how people think they can do whatever they want and get away with it, my rage at this broken world that lets people die just to preserve some bullshit peace, and just how fucking livid I am at you!" I snarled before decking Louis across the face and he was flung a few feet away from me until he bounced off the ground a few times and came rolling to a stop before I walked up to him with a deranged look.
"Did that get through your thick fucking skull yet?" I hissed darkly before Louis kicked me with both feet and I stumbled back with my hands on my stomach.
Louis got up and came at me with a right hook and I blocked it with my left arm before twisting his arm behind his back and struck him in the abdomen a few times with nasty hits before kneeing him in the chest until I sent him to the ground and started beating him viciously in the face with my eyes wild and my face holding a crazed expression as I kept striking him in the face and someone grabbed me from behind before prying me off of Louis.
I reacted by elbowing the person in the solar plexus and he let out a choking sound before his grip loosened and I flipped him over my shoulder until I gripped the dog's arm and sent a nasty kick into it, then a loud snap rang out as the dog howled in pure agony before I let him go and he clutched his arm that was suffering from a compound fracture while he sobbed from the intense pain as a few more carnivores tried to stop me.
Pretty soon, I used my skills to incapacitate most of them by breaking a few limbs before I sent a vicious stomp into the face of a husky and he was knocked out as his nose was broken from the force, then I breathed heavily as I looked around and saw everyone who didn't try to stop me looking completely terrified of me and I turned my attention on Louis, who had gotten up and was staring at me with fear in his eyes while his face was bloody and swelling up bad as the carnivores I had brutally beaten was groaning and sobbing in pure agony while clutching either shattered ribs or broken limbs.
"Louis, you want to be a fucking coward and abandon people during your path of making to the top, then that's your damn choice but understand this...Haru will be mine," I declared menacingly with one of my eyes twitching and I took off running from the scene as I went into the city to gather information of where the Shishigumi might be hiding.
'I'm going to kill them all and they better start running before a real monster finds them,' I thought coldly as I headed to the black market since it would be the best place to start.
A/N Well, it looks like Connor has completely lost it and now he's going to be on a bloody rampage until Haru is safe so the Shishigumi members better start running since Connor won't stop until every single one of them is dead, which is why I have to warn you all that things are going to get seriously disturbing since Connor's dark and sadistic side has now been unleashed while the way he crippled those carnivores proves it.
So, let me know what you all think about this chapter and stay tuned.
