The next day a new reporter came an interviewed me, but I could barley focus. The next few day's everything seemed like such a blur. I had so many questions, Why was Clare even in Canada? Lenore had been noticing I was acting strange, and I couldn't keep It from her.

"I saw Clare at work, she was there to interview me."

Lenore whipped around from washing the dishes to face me, "Clare Edward's?" I nodded. "So that's the reason you've been acting so distant."

"Yes, it is. I just was a little taken back by it. I'm sorry If I have been acting strange, I'm fine now."

"You can't see her again Eli, she's only going to further hurt you, you know that."

"You don't have to worry Lenore." Lenore hugged me, and I kissed her quickly on the cheek.

"Are you ready for bed?"

"No, I think I'm going to go for a walk. It's nice out tonight, would you like to come?"

"No, I'm ok. That's a little too adventures for me, I'm going to stay here safe in bed. You be careful though honey." I kissed her goodbye, and threw my coat on. It had been chilly lately. I was truthfully glad Lenore declined my offer, I needed to be alone. I couldn't get Clare out of my mind, it was driving me crazy, all the questions I had. The stars were out tonight, and few people were out. I walked around for an hour, and without even realizing it I ended up at "our" bench. I sat down, thinking of all the moment's Clare and I had shared sitting in this spot. I'd give everything up just to go back, to relive those memories one more time. I wasn't sure any amount of time was ever going to make me fall out of love with her.

"Is that seat taken? I looked up, and there she was. It was like some joke God was playing on me.

I barley choked out a, "No."

"The stars are pretty tonight. What are you doing out here so late?"

"I could ask you them same."

"I just went for a walk, and I ended up here."

I looked at her, so beautiful, my heart was melting. "Clare."

"Yes?"

I was going to rationally talk to her, and ask her why the hell she was popping up everywhere all of a sudden, but I couldn't. I stood up and started to walk away, I could hear her steps behind me.

"Eli! Eli wait!" She grabbed my arm, and turned me around

"Why! God dammit, why Clare! What the hell is going on! Why are you even in Canada, I thought you lived In New York? None of this makes sense! You bailed on me, and it took years to just function normal! Finally I'm somewhat ok, and then you just pop up out of no where!"

"Eli, I'm sorry! I can explain!"

"Then explain right now, because I cant keep seeing you like this! Do you think that it didn't affect me to see you like that, Clare I love you! You know that I do, that no passing of time is ever going to change that. You are the one, always have been. I cant even tell the girl I'm marrying I love her because I am so hopelessly and completely yours Clare Edwards. Don't you understand that? Don't you get it, you may have never loved me, but I loved you. I loved you with everything Clare, how could you do that to me." I was screaming, and I had tears falling from my eyes,

"That's why I came back Eli, that's why I left New York. That's why I'm here now, I love you. I never stopped, not for a second. How could you not know that? I pushed you away because I thought that was what was best for you, I wanted you to be happy. Now I know that that was wrong, and every day that I've been without you has been like a knife twisting inside my heart. I work for TIME, and I jumped at the opportunity to see you, to tell you that I'm sorry. That if I could go back I never would have sent you away!"

"No, this isn't true. I spent years thinking you never even loved me, this isn't real." I couldn't wrap my brain around any of this, Clare still loved me?

Clare grabbed my face between her hands, and crushed her lips to mine. The moment our lips touched all my self control was gone. I wrapped my arms around her, and pulled her body to mine. I forced my tongue in her mouth, exploring the familiar territory. Clare's hand ran threw my hair, and I had to pull away, I was engaged.

"Eli, this is real. I have always loved you, look at me. You know me, you know everything we've been through. How could I not love you? You're the father of my son, you're my first love, my first everything."

"Our son..." Thinking about him and what she did just made me angry all over again. "Clare why? Why did you throw that all away, why did you give him away? I loved him, I still do. Do you know how hard it's been on me, you hurt me so much when you took him from me." My voice was cracking, and my throat closing.

"Eli that's another reason-"

"Bitch. Back the hell off." It was Lenore.

I immediately stood between them. "Lenore, Clare didn't do anything. I just ran into her, it's fine. Calm down."

"The hell it is. Eli, how could you do this? Secret meetings? After everything she did to you, after all I've done for you. We were supposed to get married, and now you're just going to leave me all alone. How could you? She gave away your son!" Lenore was hysterically crying, and It hurt me to see her that way. I wrapped my arms around her, and I smoother her hair. She was right, Clare gave away our son. That's something I couldn't get passed. "Don't worry Lenore, I'm not going anywhere." I owed her my life, I was on the brink of drinking myself to death, and Lenore saved me. No matter how much I wanted to be with Clare, I couldn't be. I turned my head around, and Clare was gone.